Instance game: I signed a pact with the gods, and the gods accused me of cheating

The strong feeling of suffocation was like a tide that was about to envelope me. I felt my nose was blocked, my throat was hoarse, I was suffocating to breathe, and my heart felt like a piece was missing, empty. No, it was not empty, but this piece of emptiness seemed to have been cut open and chopped off with a knife, and a part was missing. The bloody, mirror-smooth incision was constantly flowing with an emotion called sadness. My chest was trembling, not my heart but my blood, and my blood vessels were shaking uncontrollably.

"He didn't mention danger in any of his sentences, but every sentence he said was actually dangerous..."

He talked about the positive side, but what he didn't mention is the truly terrifying unknown, that is the real danger. For example, in the copy called [Origin of the Mother Goddess], the so-called god who can control the operation of the God Road server, how terrifying that must be. I can't think of it, I can't even imagine it.

I'm not hypocritical, so I don't deny it.

Qin Shang is right!

Although I haven't made returning to that world my obsession over the years as he said, I have indeed behaved in that way.

I really don't feel safe here, because even now I still wonder from time to time if I've entered a comic book world, like those stories about traveling through time and space, a world created by another author where everything can be changed at the drop of a hat. If I had a child here, would my child also be a character in someone else's pen, manipulated and controlled at will? His life and death wouldn't be decided by him, but by the author's preferences...

"It's not that I simply want to go back or not, I just want to know what the reason for all this is, what kind of magic this supernatural phenomenon called the Divine Road has, does this world really exist, or is it a world in a comic, is it a world that can be controlled at will by other people's pens? Although these anxieties are not often mentioned because of my big heart, I am really afraid. There was a time when I was also afraid after falling in love with Qin Shang. Will I be suddenly teleported back one day when I wake up, and all this is like a dream... I dare not think about it, I am just hypnotizing myself."

It’s like traveling through a book. When I read those quick-travel novels oriented towards women in the past, I would have this question: why are many protagonists able to adapt quickly after realizing that they have traveled into a novel, and then begin to adjust their own status, whether they choose to lie down or go crazy and roll up their sleeves, or try their best to find a handsome guy to fall in love with, but shouldn’t all these be based on the premise that everything is the same as before when they wake up?

What if I go back?

Aren’t they worried?

Suppose, you are pregnant with a child in this world, and one day you wake up and suddenly go back to this world, will you give birth to the child?

This is the flesh and blood of you and your lover in the world after you traveled through the book. If you can't come back in your lifetime, then this is your only wish. From this perspective, it seems that you must give birth to the child, but after giving birth, how will you live in the real world before you traveled through the book?

Being an unmarried mother with a baby?

Then, in the world I return to, my life will be completely ruined. This isn't a simple "I love you, you love me, we're sweet, so I have to give birth to your child." The child needs to eat, and raising a child requires dedication and emotion. Children from single parents lack a lot of affection from a young age, at least without fatherly love. To put it another way, if I give birth to a child in this world, and then one day return to my real world, what will happen to my child?

This is not something that can be summed up in one sentence: want to go back or not.

It's not something that can be explained by whether I want to go back or not. There are responsibilities behind many things in this world. Moreover, if my destiny is filled with powerlessness and cannot be controlled by myself, I don't even have the ability and qualifications to live my own life or choose where to live. Then what qualifications do I have to influence the life of a new little life?

"This feeling and hesitation have weakened a lot after I started dating Qin Shang, but it doesn't mean that he doesn't exist... So, deep down, maybe I also want to go back."

"It's not because of my obsession with that world, but because I once felt that I belonged to that world. At least I felt safe there."

In fact, I once thought that I was a very strong person. I didn't cry when I studied hard for more than ten years and was close to the university of my dreams. I didn't cry when I helped Director Qin at the research institute for the first time, and I didn't cry when I was amused and scared by the mentally ill. I didn't cry when I was teleported to this world because of two mysterious silver-white cards that inexplicably appeared in my bag. I didn't cry when I saw someone die in front of me for the first time.

Speaking of which, I'm pretty brave. I'm not particularly afraid of the dark, but I'm wary of eerie atmospheres, especially now that I'm getting older. Maybe more than a decade ago, when I first became a Shenlu player, I would get scared and cry when I encountered some dark corridors and narrow spaces that required a lot of courage. But over the years, my courage has steadily improved with age. I really don't like to cry, and I don't cry easily...

But today, after reading the little card Qin Shang wrote, I cried.

It was like a rhinitis patient having an attack. My nasal cavity was blocked and breathing became a difficult thing. But what was even more desperate was that I didn't know how to enter the so-called final copy that Qin Shang mentioned, the copy called [Origin of the Mother Goddess].

Bitch!

Qin Shang, you bitch!

I want to touch his face one last time, be face to face with him one more time, look him over carefully from head to toe, kiss him one last time, and cuddle with him to sleep one last time...

"So, he can't succeed!"

"If he succeeds, I will completely lose my memory. I will lose my memory of the Divine Road, my memory of this place, and all my memories related to Qin Shang. I will never see Qin Shang again!"

I love him, I love him too.

I would give up the whole world for him.

"But there seems to be a way to enter the Divine Road..."

"Force your way into the Divine Road!"

Just then, it hit me.

My heart is beating very fast now. I don’t know what to do. I am starting to panic, but I, I, I, I can’t leave Qin Shang. At least I can’t live without Qin Shang. He was wrong about one thing. I don’t feel a sense of belonging to that world, but I feel a sense of belonging to him. I am not afraid or dreading being suddenly teleported back, or returning to the real world where I used to be one day, but I am worried that one day I will wake up and not see Qin Shang.

My entire sense of belonging to this place is because of him.

If it weren't for Qin Shang, I wouldn't feel a sense of belonging here either.

To me, this is a strange world...

He alone is my whole world.

"If I crush the character card, I will definitely be able to enter the world of the Divine Road..."

It's actually quite funny. Sometimes I feel like this world is so real, and sometimes I feel like this world called Blue Star is so fake. For example, many times I make stupid mistakes in dungeons, and Qin Shang always appears at the critical moment. So if this really is a comic book world, could it be that there is some invisible existence, an author who weaves all of this, resulting in the ups and downs and unpredictable experiences that Qin Shang and I have experienced in dungeons...

Is this the common routine in novels, movies and TV dramas, "when the heroine is in danger, the hero must rescue her"?

If such a mechanism really exists, then I don’t seem to need to worry about my own safety.

Even if I don't have the identity of a Divine Road player, when I go to the Divine Road, I think he will still appear in time and appear by my side. As long as I encounter danger, he will save me immediately!

"call!"

"I don't think I've ever tried to use this method to verify whether we are the so-called male and female protagonists of a comic book in another world..."

I grinned and pulled my character card from the pocket of my tracksuit.

I've been carrying this thing with me since the day I got it.

"The protagonist cannot die. Since I'm the heroine, I shouldn't die, right?"

Regardless, whether it's losing the memories related to Qin Shang or losing Qin Shang, neither is something I can accept. Therefore, I have no attachment to this world. Even if I die on the Divine Road, it seems much better to me than waiting anxiously for the final outcome at this moment. Whether Qin Shang has finally completed the [Origin of the Mother Goddess]...

"I want to die with him."

"Rather than being unsure when my memories of him will be suddenly deleted, I'd rather take the initiative..."

"I don't want to, don't forget him!"

I actually saw through life and death a long time ago, but I just didn't admit it. If I can't be with the person I love most in life, and can't be with the person I love most in death, then what's the point of living? At this moment, I completely understood my own heart. No matter what the reason is, if I can't be with the person I love most, what's the point of living?

Yes, actually I saw through life and death a long time ago, and saw through those superficial things, vanity, wealth, hedonism, and material desires. The villa that Qin Shang and I live in now probably cost us more than 7 million to buy, right?

In this comic book world, as our internal beta test ended that year, the group of Shenlu players began to grow gradually, and a trading mechanism was formed. Regarding the trading mechanism of points, there are always some people who are very rich but afraid of death, and there are always some people who are not afraid of death for money.

Points are real-life experience cards, the key to determining a player's life or death. They can only be obtained by clearing dungeons, and are extremely rare and precious.

But there are people in this world who are willing to sell points, and similarly, there are people who are willing to buy back points. Gradually, all of this has become an industry.

Today, the exchange rate between points and cash has soared to 1:1000000.

Yes, you read that right, one to one million.

One point can be exchanged for one million RMB in this world.

"It's not that I feel a sense of belonging to this world, but because you are here, I like this place and am willing to stay here instead of racking my brains to find a way to leave here!"

Actually, when I was young, I really wanted to buy a villa. When I was very young, before I came into this world, maybe when I was still a college student. But now, Qin Shang and I live in a villa. Later, I found that this thing is nothing more than that...

In the past, I would fantasize about having my own big house, a big villa, building my own small swimming pool, and living a comfortable life every day. When I was a student, I really thought so, but later when I really bought such a luxury house in this world, I actually felt that way.

When I really got used to the fragility of life, I found that nothing in this world can surpass these seven points: birth, old age, sickness, death, departure, separation, and health. Any desire will be worn down when these problems come one after another, especially the so-called love!

...Haha, I like it!

When I was eighteen years old, if someone asked me whether Jiang Qiqi liked big villas and whether she wanted to live in a big villa in the future, my answer would definitely be yes!

But I bought a big villa in another world, but I didn’t feel the same pleasure as getting something I loved very much when I was young. In fact, this joy was not as happy as the flowers Qin Shang bought for me when he remembered me on the way home. I actually had an epiphany that day.

Imagine this: it's a bit like those online articles about people returning home in glory in a Maybach: successful career, driving a luxury car back home, friends and family looking at me with admiration, a bunch of people saying, "Oh, oh, oh, oh," or "I hope one day I can drive a Maybach and show off my skills."

There are actually Mercedes-Benz and Maybach in this world!

But I can't return home in glory to show off, and even if I really buy them, I can't experience the joy. If you were me, would you buy these things?

Ha ha!

So in this world, not just this world, in fact even in the world I came from, eighty to ninety percent of people really need to reflect, including myself. Do I really like big villas, or do I just like others to envy me? Do some people really like the performance, functions, and practicality of luxury cars, or do they really like the vanity that a luxury car can bring to themselves?

If you have something, something you have always dreamed of, in another world, a world without your relatives and friends, without your brothers and sisters, will you really be happy? If you are still happy, then you really like it. If you suddenly feel that it is less fun, then you don’t really like such a thing, but are simply enjoying the added value that this thing brings to you.

My sense of belonging to this world has never been about a villa or a luxury car. I never miss these things. Maybe I did miss the world I came from before, but after I truly felt a sense of belonging to this world, I found that my true sense of belonging was not about some objects, and I have never been reluctant to part with these things. What I really can't bear to part with is...

It’s Qin Shang!

It's my feelings!

My eyes were red as I took out the character card from my bag.

"I do not want……"

"I don't want to forget you!"

The next moment, I exerted force with my palm and broke the silver-white character card.