After a breakup, a song heals the world

Just as an audience member who claimed to be a doctor said in the live broadcast room barrage, there are actually quite a lot of people suffering from depression!

According to estimates, there are nearly 100 million depression patients in China, and among those diagnosed with depressive disorders within a year, only about 10% have received treatment from health institutions. This means that more depression patients have not received further treatment at all.

So, although people with depression may seem to be a small group to outsiders, they are actually a very large group.

Su Yan knew about this number, and his parents had also learned about it from the doctor. Because of their former lover, You Zhiqing also knew it.

But more people don’t understand…

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On the stage, under the dim lights, Su Yan, dressed in white, held the microphone like an isolated figure.

A burst of intensive drum beats suddenly sounded, but the sound of the drum beats was not very loud, just like waking people up.

The drum beats ended, and accompanied by the sound of wind, the melody played by the piano finally sounded.

The piano prelude was distant and silent, like a magic sound awakening the human soul, or like a call from a distant place. It seemed to carry some kind of magic that made everyone's heart suddenly tighten. The moment it was heard, it seemed that even breathing became a little difficult.

Under the stage, You Zhiqing held her breath. Although her eyes were fixed on Su Yan on the stage, her memory stretched back thousands of days and nights and returned to the person who once suffered from depression like the boy on the stage.

Of course, this was not the first time she had listened to Su Yan's song "Under the Sea".

To be precise, it was because of this song that she first got to know Su Yan, or really started to pay attention to this young man on the stage.

About half a year ago, during the school entrance exam, she heard about Su Yan’s experience and the song he composed for the first time. The memory was like a scar that was uncovered, causing her heart to ache.

Later, it was precisely because of her unique feelings for this song that You Zhiqing chose to help the boy who applied to her school, and helped him step by step, allowing him to achieve his current success.

Compared to the little queen's niece Cheng Xiaoer, in You Zhiqing's eyes, Su Yan is actually less of a worry for her.

He is clearly just a boy in his twenties who has just been admitted to university, but he has a maturity that is completely absent from his peers. However, this maturity is also accompanied by vicissitudes and maturity that should not appear in him.

It is precisely because of these qualities that this boy can remain calm even after becoming an overnight sensation and continuing to face doubts from the entire Internet.

Sometimes, You Zhiqing also wondered whether it was because Su Yan had a maturity that was not suitable for his age, or because of his depression, he chose to be indifferent to certain things.

Of course You Zhiqing didn't want to be the latter.

Later, as she got to know Su Yan more and more, and as Su Yan began to compose more and more new songs, You Zhiqing finally felt relieved.

At least in You Zhiqing's opinion, if a person is really that cold and indifferent, he or she would not be able to write so many songs that could move her and so many people.

But even so, the "test" for Su Yan has never stopped.

From the earliest "ghostwriting" scandal to the current "ex-girlfriend" and "depression" incidents, it seems that the whole world cannot really be kind to this young man.

Therefore, You Zhiqing hopes more than anyone else that Su Yan can use his own strength, or his own music, to break these doubts.

And the best opportunity may be the song "Under the Sea" sung by Su Yan now!

Didn’t those people question Su Yan’s previous songs, saying they had nothing to do with his personal experiences?

"Days on Beijing East Road" does not have the school and memories mentioned in the song!

In "Farewell", there are no people and stories that Su Yan told in that variety show!

For Su Yan, a senior high school student who is just preparing for the college entrance examination, the word "innocent" in "Chasing Dreams" is too far-fetched!

It would have been fine if they had just questioned him, but they also had to bring up the bad memories that this boy had experienced in the past!

Be it “ex-girlfriend” or “depression”!

In You Zhiqing's eyes, the person who first broke the news was like a hateful executioner.

Pointing at Su Yan's scars, he scolded him loudly - since you want to prove that these songs were written by you, why don't you uncover these scars and write a song using your wounds?

So, Su Yan chose to do this.

But some people probably don’t care whether it will hurt when the scar is revealed.

You Zhiqing, who understood better than ordinary people how painful these wounds would be, had tears in her eyes at this moment.

She not only understood how painful such a wound was, but also knew what this song meant to Su Yan.

However, the first time I heard Su Yan sing "Under the Sea" was a cappella, and during this period, because freshmen had just started school, Cheng Xiaoer and Su Yan didn't pay much attention to anything other than this evening party, so You Zhiqing had never heard the complete version of "Under the Sea".

Of course, You Zhiqing actually had another idea in her mind. She wanted the melody or background music of this song to give herself a little surprise.

After all, seeing that Su Yan has written so many works, You Zhiqing can now be said to be completely confident in Su Yan's creative ability.

Obviously, the current prelude still did not disappoint You Zhiqing.

If Su Yan's "Under the Sea" during the school exam was like a brocade spread out in the endless wilderness, then the current prelude is the flower that is added to the brocade and makes people feel even more amazing!

The piano prelude was not too long. After the ending note, Su Yan on the stage took a deep breath.

Then he raised his head, and although his eyes were directed at the audience, they seemed to have traveled through endless space and time. The focus of his pupils was in the distance where no one could see, carrying with it endless depth and desolation.

At the same time, he picked up the microphone and spoke.

"The scattered moonlight passed through the clouds."

"Hiding from the crowd, spreading like the scales of the sea~~~"

"The waves wet my white clothes."

"Trying to push you back~~"

The ethereal voice passed through the microphone and dozens of expensive speakers at the scene, and instantly penetrated the eardrums of everyone in the audience, piercing into their cochleas, their hearts, and even buzzing in their souls.

Xie Ming, who had just pursed his lips before, suddenly raised his head and looked towards the stage.

The dark LED screen on the stage lit up at the same time, revealing a beautiful picture.

It was the seaside under the moon. A thin shadow dressed in white was standing alone on the beach.

And in front of him was the endless sea.

Although there was a moon above our heads, the sea was pitch black and we couldn't see the bottom of the sea, let alone the end.

It was like white light scattered from the moon, suddenly scattered in the middle of the picture.

Soon it condensed into a few lines of dazzling words.

【seabed】

【Lyrics: Su Yan】

【Composer: Su Yan】

【Arranger: Su Yan】

【Original singer: Su Yan】

However, unlike others, Xie Ming did not focus too much on these few lines of words.

It was just that the song just now, like the salty taste of sea water, poured into her heart and awakened the memories that had been dormant for a long time and that she was reluctant to recall.

This picture is so similar to the picture she received before Su Yan committed suicide!

At that time, Su Yan chose to commit suicide on the beach. In addition to sending Xie Ming a long message, he also sent her a video.

That video was also taken at the seaside on a moonlit night.

However, in that video, the moonlight was not as bright as it was on the big screen at this moment, and the scenery at the seaside was not as beautiful as what Xie Ming saw now.

At that time, Xie Ming just thought that it was a means for Su Yan to scare him, so he didn't take it seriously. He even knew that Su Yan was going to commit suicide, but he didn't tell anyone else such news.

Perhaps, this cannot be blamed on Xie Ming.

There is nothing wrong in liking someone, and there is nothing wrong in not liking someone anymore.

There's nothing wrong with being together or being apart, that's all.

What about farewell forever?

Only after learning that Su Yan had really chosen to commit suicide and was rescued did Xie Ming become a little scared.

She was not worried that she would never see Su Yan again, but she was worried that this matter would involve herself. It was because of this idea that she told her new love Jiang Zipeng about this matter.

That's why after being discharged from the hospital, Su Yan broke up with me and became depressed, and chose to commit suicide.

I have to say that the power of music is still great.

At least, that's what Su Yan is singing now.

Xie Ming, who was so great that he didn't care about Su Yan's life or death at that time, seemed to begin to empathize with Su Yan's emotions at that time after hearing these words. He suddenly felt the helplessness, loneliness and despair in Su Yan's heart.

The scattered moonlight passed through the clouds, dodged the crowd, and spread out like the scales of the sea. The waves wet your white clothes, trying to push you back.

When he walks towards the bottom of the sea, will the waves push him back?

Even if it was pushed, it was probably just the instinct of the waves, or in other words, when the tide was high, the waves pushed him back, but when the tide was low, the waves pulled him to the bottom of the sea.

Therefore, the so-called waves pushing him back were just his illusion and his instinct for survival, which made him give the waves an emotion.

Without any warning, Xie Ming suddenly thought of a sentence he had read in a book - there are no two leaves in the world that are exactly the same.

If this is the case with leaves, what about a specific person?

Not to mention that everyone has their own completely different appearance, figure, characteristics, and voice, what about each person's soul?

Until today, Xie Ming suddenly realized that he seemed to...really didn't understand Su Yan, really didn't understand the boy who seemed simple and introverted to him at the beginning.

They don’t even understand what kind of disease depression is, and what kind of troubles and emotions this disease brings to the person affected.

This is the case for Xie Ming, who was considered an acquaintance at the time, not to mention the netizens in the audience and the live broadcast room who only knew Su Yan from a few words on the Internet or even some hearsay of Su Yan's negative information.

Some people say that Su Yan had a relationship before, but was dumped. They will mock Su Yan, saying that no matter how outstanding he is now, he is just a dog who was dumped by a girl.

Others said that Su Yan suffered from depression because of this, and was not so cowardly as to choose to commit suicide by drowning in the sea, so some people began to mock Su Yan for being pretentious and stupid.

Some people even said that Su Yan's works were ghostwritten by others, and that he could get to where he is today only by relying on the packaging of the company and You Zhiqing. Then more people began to clamor for a ban on Su Yan.

Some people never understand you at all, but they choose to point fingers at you.

Of course, Su Yan, the person involved, didn’t really care too much about it. At least in his opinion, he was already a public figure, so he didn’t care if some people chose to talk about or even slander him without knowing him.

but!

No matter how these people slander or talk about him, the truth is the truth, and he is who he is...

This is the case for Su Yan now.

The same was true for Su Yan before.

Perhaps, Su Yan now does not realize that when he sang "Under the Sea" again, his state of mind was completely different from when he sang it in the school exam.

When he sang this song at the beginning, Su Yan felt that he was the boy who once sank to the bottom of the sea.

He was slowly falling towards the deep sea, feeling the light and temperature getting darker and colder.

And now, the boy who is drowning in the sea is still that boy.

But the person singing "Under the Sea" has become another Su Yan.

Although this Su Yan, like the former boy, is also suffering from depression, he has been able to try to separate himself from that body, floating closer to the sea surface, looking down at the former boy.

Even though... I could almost empathize with him, I finally pulled away...

This is exactly the reason.

You Zhiqing, who had heard this song before, felt that Su Yan was speaking again.

There is less determination and loneliness, but more relief and heartache...