Emotionally stable, but continuing to go crazy

He began to unconsciously rely on Xu Wenbin, longing for his attention and recognition.

Whenever Xu Wenbin looked at him with attention or showed his possessiveness towards him, Tong Yang felt happy and excited.

He sorted out his thoughts quietly, and when he realized that his feelings for Xu Wenbin had gone beyond the boundaries of friendship, he did not feel excited or nervous.

This change made him feel confused and unsure whether he really wanted to elevate this friendship into a deeper relationship.

Perhaps he wasn't the only one who noticed that the relationship had soured.

As time went by, the way he and Xu Wenbin got along became more and more like an old couple.

They take care of each other, care about each other's lives, and even have a tacit understanding on some small things.

This way of getting along sometimes gives Tong Yang the illusion that Xu Wenbin is already his partner.

Their relationship gradually slipped from friends to ambiguity, and this change seemed natural to them.

They did not deliberately avoid or resist this change, but accepted the intimacy and dependence on each other naturally.

This tacit understanding makes them cherish each other more and more certain of each other's position in their hearts.

However, facing this emotional transformation and escalation of the relationship, Tong Yang still feels confused and uncertain.

He didn't know if he was really ready to turn this friendship into love, nor did he know if Xu Wenbin had the same idea.

In this complex and subtle emotional entanglement, the relationship between Tong Yang and Xu Wenbin seems to be shrouded in a layer of mist, which is both natural and full of confusion and hesitation.

They tested each other's feelings with their eyes, and every tiny movement seemed to be throwing a thread of emotion to each other, trying to capture the other's mind.

Each other's emotions fluctuate in the other's actions, and they struggle together in the whirlpool of ambiguity.

This tangled emotional state makes them feel exhausted, yet unable to extricate themselves.

In order to seek relief, Tong Yang made a bold decision while drunk one night.

However, this decision did not help him find a way out of the fog, but instead made him sink deeper.

He realized that what they needed was not just physical intimacy, but spiritual connection.

They must be honest with each other and share their inner thoughts and feelings in order to find the right path for them.

However, when he stood at this crossroads, he found himself unable to take that step.

He was afraid that once they made their relationship clear, the future would not be what they wanted.

He worried that they would become what is known as a "crew couple," briefly clinging to each other in the spotlight but drifting apart off camera.

What he feared even more was that if their feelings were real, they would have to face a more complicated and difficult reality.

This uncertainty and fear about the future caused Tong Yang to fall into deep struggle.

He was like a traveler trapped in the fog, not knowing which path would lead him to the light.

So, he chose to escape. He avoided Xu Wenbin's gaze, avoided in-depth conversations, and evaded his emotional responsibilities like an irresponsible scumbag.

He knew that doing so was unfair to Xu Wenbin, and he also knew that escaping would not solve the problem.

Tong Yang sighed softly and slowly withdrew his gaze from the jasmine flowers in the garden. He closed his eyes, as if looking for a trace of inner peace.

In addition to the deep-seated fear in his heart, there was also an indescribable sense of "unworthiness" that was bothering him.

Although Xu Wenbin never mentioned his family background, Tong Yang was keenly aware that Xu Wenbin's aesthetics and upbringing in life were extraordinary.

This detail made Tong Yang intuitively believe that Xu Wenbin's family conditions must be very good.

In comparison, he himself came from an ordinary family and had a simple background. From these aspects, he was not worthy of Xu Wenbin at all.

Xu Wenbin is smart, capable, popular, and has a good family background. He is simply the perfect match in everyone's eyes.

Tong Yang couldn't help feeling embarrassed when comparing his own conditions.

He felt that he could not compare with Xu Wenbin in these aspects. He had taken a great advantage that night, so how could he expect him to be sincere to him?

What makes him feel even more helpless is that as a public figure, he has to work hard to make money and focus on his career.

Idols are not allowed to date publicly.

This made Tong Yang's future with Xu Wenbin even more uncertain. Perhaps they had no future from the beginning.

This thought lingered in his mind, making him feel even more sad.

Tong Yang's mind was filled with all kinds of complicated thoughts. He tried to sort out his thoughts, but found himself getting deeper and deeper into trouble.

He began to wonder what he was avoiding. Was he afraid of facing Xu Wenbin's true feelings?

Or are you worried that you can't match Xu Wenbin's excellence?

Or are they afraid that making their relationship public will affect their career?

These problems were entangled like a tangled mess, making it difficult for him to extricate himself.

Tong Yang was confused. He had no clear answer and no solution.

He felt as if he was trapped in a vortex from which he could not escape, feeling painful and helpless.

In this predicament, he had an idea of ​​giving up everything, maybe just being a complete scumbag and throwing all the problems to Xu Wenbin, asking him to find a way to solve them.

However, when he thought of this solution, he couldn't help but sigh.

He realized that even though he was so conflicted inside, he subconsciously still believed that these problems could be handed over to Xu Wenbin to deal with.

This dependence made him feel guilty and uneasy because he knew that Xu Wenbin should not bear his troubles and uncertainties.

Tong Yang lowered his head slightly and glanced at the watch on his wrist.

The lunch break was coming to an end, and he realized that he could no longer indulge in these complicated thoughts.

He stood up and gently adjusted his clothes to restore his appearance to its best condition.

Tong Yang silently told himself in his heart to give himself some more time.

During this time, he will think about his feelings, sort out his thoughts, and find a way to solve the problem.

Then go find Xu Wenbin and be honest with him.

Tong Yang walked out of the pavilion, with the pensive expression on his face still not yet fully resolved, and returned to the training building with slightly heavy steps.

He was so absorbed in his own thoughts that he didn't notice a pair of eyes upstairs silently watching him.

Ever since Wei Zhe'an left, Xu Wenbin has been in a corner upstairs, his eyes closely following Tong Yang's figure, never leaving.