Flowers in full bloom [Through the book, I became the favorite of the dark group]

At the beginning I never imagined it would end. During this period I thought of things I wanted to tell you, and recorded them in bits and pieces. Now I’m telling you all at once.

1. Origin

Regarding the origin of this story, I have thought about writing it down many times - why I wrote this work.

However, what I think each time is not exactly the same or perfect, so I have not started writing (of course, it’s also because I’m lazy and have a bad memory, so I forget everything in a moment). I have thought about a lot, but the most fundamental things are actually not many, so I will just write whatever comes to mind.

First of all, at the very beginning, it was just an idea, a tragic view.

When I read those sweet stories about traveling through books, rebirth, time travel, changing souls, starting over, and wiping out the past, I was so excited, but I couldn't help but think pessimistically -

【how can that be possible? 】

How could it be possible that by changing a soul, the original owner's heartache, loss, and brokenness could be forgiven? This is not petty, but the past cannot be erased and scars cannot heal on their own.

【how can that be possible? 】

Those who "forced" others to become vicious female supporting roles, when they treat another soul (or a reborn person), their worldviews change, they regret, and when they are in the crematorium, they are completely changed for the better? No, it is hard to change one's nature, and it is hard to change one's worldview!

We all love to see the ugly duckling in the mud turn into a princess, we all love to see the beautiful flower on the altar fall into the mundane world, and we all love to see the chosen ones of heaven also have ordinary flesh and blood.

These desires are beautified and written as spring flowers blooming.

However, there are always some roses that cannot be redeemed, and we are all small people.

I started writing with such a pessimistic thought in mind.

This was never a redemption story.

Countless roses bloom, but some will rot in the soil.

This idea has been thought of many times, but has always been shelved because there is no good carrier to carry it and no good setting to show it.

Until I saw the stage performance of "Countless" by Xue Zhiqian in Pi3, with four teachers and four roles.

“Still carrying childish truth, flaunting bare-handed justice.

In countless failures, you accompanied me in wandering;

In the parallel stories, there is always a me who has not let you down;

In the next story, let me give you the world..."

Suddenly, the core carrier of the above problems appears

——DID

I remembered a drama called "Seven Me", so I dug it out and watched the original version again.

At this time, I want to write,

The new personality regards himself as a visitor from another world, writes off the past, and becomes the group's favorite. Later it is revealed that he is actually a demon, and his flower withers after a short period of blooming - this is a story that is destined to be sad.

However, after I started writing, I didn’t understand.

How can a girl be bad for no reason? If the environment itself is problematic, how can the new character become the perfect group favorite?

The main personality cannot be purely bad, and the new personality cannot firmly believe that the other self is a bad person.

So, based on the comments in that video, I bought a book called "24 Billy".

In fact, this book is very similar to what I thought. It is not a professional book, so I am glad that I can understand it and it can provide me with a lot of useful knowledge.

It is a record, recording the self-narration of a wandering soul.

I searched for some videos on the small TV and saw some descriptions of personal experiences.

I was originally planning to delve into the details of this DID setting, but I stopped at this point.

There is no need to set it up like a template, which will only reduce the space available for writing (of course, it is also because I am too lazy to edit the information).

So, more private settings were added later——

1. The so-called "original owner's" personality, the evil personality, must be abnormal (from a conventional perspective) - including its own character, upbringing environment, and generation reasons, all are unconventional. Thus, this personality was born - the shadow/madman.

2. What is Lele’s deepest fear? Being abandoned and unable to survive.

"Survival" and "abandonment" are not two words that necessarily go together, but for Lele, who has been abandoned more than once since he could remember, they are.

Lele's nature is soft, tough and positive, which is why after so much corruption, this flower can still bloom into the most beautiful fairy tale, which is a beautiful sea of ​​flowers, not an abyss.

She needed protection, but no one was there to protect her. Sadly and fortunately, she protected herself. Thus, the first personality was born - "Manager" Ye Buqi.

3. At the beginning, System 422 was supposed to exist independently of the protagonist, and perhaps it could give Lele a glimmer of redemption and companionship. But this is irrational, without someone who appears to accompany her without any reason, she is a rose that has not been redeemed.

So, the gentle rabbit also turned into a knife, a knife that broke the fairy tale.

It is Lele's distorted dream. This is the dreamer personality of "Fairy Tale" - 422 Tutu.

4. The remaining personalities were created to improve the plot and characters. The "reaper" is not safe, and the sharp blade that Ye Buqi uses to protect but can also hurt Lele is the last line of defense.

The eldest daughter, a perfect puppet born in the Hua family. She and the shadow are actually not complete, and they depend on the main personality and are highly similar to the main personality.

Fu Jiu, a... "gravekeeper".

This is a setting about the different sides of Lele.

Having written this far, if Lele’s world were only filled with the flickering lights caused by the Hua family, it would be too bland.

I said at the beginning that this was a work that started with pessimism, and Lele was one of the characters who was not successfully redeemed.

【despair】

How to write it? Then write about the sun's flickering.

The dazzling sun melted the glaciers. I finally had the strength to embrace it, but it soon left. My world fell into endless darkness and coldness again. I was not redeemed. The new flesh and blood rotted in despair.

Thus, the official match of "tool man" was born - Fuguang, Shen Fuguang. It is the sun.

The setting of Xiao Shen was very simple at first, a caring and gentle father-like boss, who performed the standard of redemption. But I rejected this later.

He can be a domineering boss, a daddy, caring, and gentle, but he cannot be limited to just that.

If he was really just a tool, it would be hard for him to have such a complex, lingering, unforgettable relationship with Lele, which is enough to destroy a person's bond. So, I tried to enrich this character.

He couldn't be a conventional man, nor could he imprint his mark on Lele's life in a conventional way - when they met, Lele had already been abandoned twice, fallen into the mud, covered in thorns, full of hatred, and with a lost soul.

This is a soul that is about to break and is struggling to hold on.

To get in, he'd better understand first, understand this kind of broken feeling - the settings such as the uncrowned king of the land of disorder, the illegitimate son of aristocratic family, and the one born in a laboratory follow.

At this time, I saw a word - "this Samadhi", so he got his real name - Shen Samadhi.

In a situation like Lele who is on the verge of breaking up, a long-term relationship cannot keep up with the speed at which her life is consumed. It is better to use a more cruel way to catalyze the years in her heart and release her most desired obsession - survival and value.

The value of survival, the value of being used and not abandoned.

Thus, Shen Samadhi was born.

But he was originally set to be the Black Sun - behind their meeting and getting along, Shen Sanmei became everything in Lele's life in a tough, bad but bullseye way.

For a long time, Lele lived for Shen Sanmei.

But when writing, I modified this part. The past of more than 300 years ago allowed them to build a deeper bond with pure warmth.

The black sun may be more exciting, but not as good as the real sun. When it dies, it is more unforgettable.

But after the pessimistic start mentioned above, I have to say that this is not a work with positive energy, but it is by no means one that leads people to the abyss.

Because Lele has been trying hard to survive.

Roses blooming again and again on rotting flesh and blood are both sad and respectable.

I don’t simply want Lele to be a tool that is abused and makes people cry (although she is definitely a tear point, a sad point and a tragedy), but what makes her live towards death is not just her tenacious nature, but also light.

In addition to the sunshine, there is the moonlight that leaves no tears, and other bits and pieces of starlight.

Including Jiufang Guiqiqi, Goubuli, Yintong, Hua Anning, Hua Xiange, etc., they let Lele understand

——[This world is not without light, it just fails to favor me]

——【I was once favored and happy】

Lele is kind, and her brokenness has not allowed her to be dominated by hatred and desire for destruction.

She is undergoing self-destruction and rebirth, she is lonely, blooming and withering, a golden rose.

I don't want to write Lele to death.

She is different from Ayu. If Ayu can die with lofty ideals without regrets and be admired by thousands of people in later generations, Lele cannot. Her death is like a butterfly hit by fireworks, short-lived and nothing more.

Not enough, shouldn’t.

But I don’t want an angel to suddenly appear, an angel who is well versed in human nature, has 36 skills, can defeat all opponents in the world, and redeem the heroine... That would completely go against the original intention of this work.

So, why not let Lele walk more...

Walk, walk on...

Maybe?

Maybe...

(I suddenly lost the urge to continue, so I'll stop here.)

2. Role

I remember some people said that the author is the biological mother, but in Xiaoyu's case, at least in this book, I feel that she is definitely not the biological mother.

I want to say:

“I pour the utmost emotion and color into creating the souls of the characters, but then I must push them into your world in a sensible and restrained way.

When they are created and come to you, they will be given richer meaning.

From this moment on, I am no longer the biological mother, no longer the person in control, I have become an ordinary spectator. "

That's all I want to say~ Anyway, there's still the next book~

Goodbye~