Ancient women awaken: loving yourself is the way to go

"Cough cough cough..." Shen Xingxi had just taken a sip of tea when she was choked by Xinghuo's words.

Starfire patted the eldest's back gently, his voice somewhat teasing, "Didn't expect that, did you?"

"I want to know more about what you think." Shen Xingxi's eyes flashed with curiosity.

"I didn't think too much about it. I just realized that people's hearts can actually be very big. They can hold their country, the world, and many people. Maybe I'm lustful? Whenever I see someone who looks good to me, I will be moved, but I don't trust them."

She paused and continued, "I did think before that it would be nice to live alone for the rest of my life. But as time went by, I began to be curious about love affairs, and when the night was quiet, I also wanted to have someone to rely on. Perhaps this is the meaning of the existence of men and women."

At this point, Xinghuo smiled bitterly and recalled his past: “Boss, you should know that my father once swore to my grandmother that he would never take a concubine in this life.

However, my mother's body was injured because of me and she would never be able to get pregnant again in this life. She blamed herself for this and thought about taking a concubine for my father.

Dad was reluctant at first, but when I was three, he brought home a pregnant woman.

My mother died of depression because of this. For the sake of his son, my father promoted the concubine to his wife and beat and scolded me at every turn, saying that if it weren't for me, my mother would have given him a son, he wouldn't have broken his oath, and my mother wouldn't have died."

The corners of her lips curled up in self-mockery, "It's really hard for me to believe in men's vows anymore. In the future, I will only marry and never marry off. Moreover, I want to marry two at once to prevent them from thinking of taking concubines. Besides, why can men take concubines but women can't? I want to be the first person of this era!"

Shen Xingxi held Xinghuo in her arms and said gently, "As long as you have made up your mind, it's fine. No matter what path you choose, I will support you."

Xinghuo rested her head on the eldest brother's shoulder, "I've thought it through. I chose them only because their personalities and conduct appeal to me. If they don't work out, I can just look for someone else. As for what people say, nothing can be as harsh as inflicting my mother's death on me."

"Starfire, I understand how you feel. Just do whatever you want to do. I will support you."

Shen Xingxi patted Xinghuo's back gently, giving silent comfort.

The system couldn't help crying out loud, [Wuwuwu... Xinghuo is so pitiful. It turns out that some people need a lifetime to heal their childhood. But why do you support her, host? Don't you think she is a little extreme? ]

[System, what you said is wrong. Marrying two people is not extreme. At most, it is considered different.

To be fair, who doesn't want to live a life surrounded by handsome men? It's just that in the era we live in, it is immoral and bigamy is against the law, but there is no corresponding law here.

And I can especially understand her feelings.

Do you remember I once said that after leaving the village, I absorbed knowledge from the outside world like crazy?

I used my phone to look up how to resist domestic violence, and after looking at it for a long time, big data pushed news about this to me every day.

At that time, I had not yet truly experienced the beauty and breadth of the outside world, but I saw countless dark corners.

I thought what I saw was all there was to it, and it was inevitable that I would resist getting married. What's more, my father would beat my mother, but my mother would always stand in front of me.

Later, my teacher discovered my abnormality and told me that there was no need to be afraid of marriage. It is not that divorce is impossible. The key lies in self-selection, not marriage itself.

The teacher said that she was also afraid of marriage, but because she was afraid of loneliness, she chose someone of higher quality and broke up with him after she became pregnant.

But it seems to be an instinct for children to look for their parents. In the end, the teacher agreed to give it a try for the sake of the child. My master's grandfather was okay and fully supported the teacher's career. At least I lived a happy life before I died.

I think Xinghuo was willing to try it because she saw that I was doing well, but we still had psychological trauma. She wanted polyandry, while I, who accepted monogamy, wanted control. 】

The system was silent for a moment, and felt that it was not appropriate to comment on the host's words, so it simply changed the subject, [Host, do you mean to control King Yun? ]

Shen Xingxi frowned slightly and considered her words: [Yes, this is why I haven't consummated my marriage with him. I want someone who is completely under my control in sex.]

[So it's about control over sex. I was wondering how the host could possibly want to completely control King Yun. Under the current circumstances, it's really not possible. Let me tell you something the host doesn't want to hear: King Yun will eventually ascend the throne, and you will live happily together.]

Shen Xingxi chuckled, "Why wouldn't you want to listen? Often the end of one story is the beginning of another."

The system raised its lips quietly, thinking that the host must have noticed something unusual with this answer.

How could the host feel at ease to rely on Prince Yun in the future? Even as a queen who can be regent, she still has to look at the emperor's eyes. The host has never been a person who bets on others!

It’s just that the power of the plot is too strong, the host is still moved, and King Yun’s ascension to the throne is inevitable, but so what?

Adversity is sometimes not a bad thing, it can push people to become stronger.

After knowing that her host could detect his thoughts, he spent more than ten years looking for system bugs, developed quick thinking skills, and successfully retained his privacy.

She never told the host that this system bug was intentionally left by the original designer. The purpose of detecting the host's mind was to better control the host, but the real strong ones were more powerful than them, and being restrained would only backfire.

Prince Yun had been eavesdropping on the conversation between the princess and the system, and his focus inevitably fell on the reason why the marriage was not consummated.

The doubts in my heart seemed to be resolved. It turned out that the princess felt that he was not obedient enough.

No wonder she would coax him into moaning, ask him to call her sister, like to tie his hands and feet, and leave marks on his body.

He called Wu Ti in and asked in a low voice: "Go to Nanfeng Pavilion and ask the guests who like to have their hands tied what else they like?"

Yueluo's face changed. Is it because the prince can't get what he wants that he wants to tie them up?

With a heavy heart, he went to Nanfeng Pavilion. When he came back, his steps seemed to be out of control, and he went around the main courtyard before returning to the front yard.

He reported absentmindedly, "Your Majesty, there are bird cages and candles..."

He explained all the ways to play and politely refused, "Your Majesty, I don't know why you suddenly want to learn about Nanfeng Pavilion, but I don't approve of the atmosphere there. Please think twice."

King Yun looked at Wu Ti's tense appearance, with a look of helplessness between his eyebrows, "Don't be nervous, you will always be my subordinate. I have another purpose for asking this."

Wu Ti smiled uncontrollably. Does this mean that the prince has given up on him?