I just want to live a happy life

She was his mother at the time. Shouldn't she have said something encouraging? But she made him realize the difference between the superior and the inferior so early and looked down on him like that.

After Empress Xian said those words, when he went to the Shangshufang to study, he didn't know how to face the Second Prince many times, and even felt inferior.

It was only after he arrived at Zhongcui Palace, away from Empress Xian, and had someone as caring as Wei Yanwan by his side, and after he read many books, that he slowly realized that what Empress Xian said was wrong.

It is important for a person to respect himself. Others may look down on him, but he should not look down on himself. Only when he stops looking down on himself, he will not be looked down upon by others.

Although he cannot decide his origins, he should not belittle himself.

Only after understanding this truth did he come out of his inferiority complex and dare to face his younger brothers.

During the time he was with Empress Xian, in fact, Empress Xian was sometimes nice to him. Perhaps he was just nitpicking.

No matter what, now he can no longer get along with Empress Xian as he did before.

Ruyi had no idea what Yonghuang was thinking. She was confident that even though she had failed this time, as long as she persisted, Yonghuang would always call her mother again and let her raise him.

So for the next period of time, Ruyi always found different excuses to talk to Yonghuang. At first, Yonghuang could still patiently say a few words to her, but after it happened too many times, no one could stand it.

So, Yonghuang began to avoid Ruyi.

Wei Yanwan had been serving Yonghuang. She was a careful and observant person, so she could easily tell that Yonghuang was very distressed. After asking clearly, she told Su Lujun about it.

Su Lujun was naturally very angry when she knew about this. Yonghuang used to be Ruyi's adopted son, but now she is Yonghuang's mother. What Ruyi did was a slap in her face.

So during a greeting, Su Lujun, who was usually gentle in nature, rarely spoke harshly to Ruyi.

"I heard that Concubine Xian was punished by the Emperor to copy the palace rules, but she still refused to obey and even visited Yonghuang many times, so that Yonghuang avoided Concubine Xian whenever he saw her. I don't know if this is true."

Hearing Su Lujun say this, the other concubines all looked as if they were laughing at the joke. They knew it the first time Ruyi went to see Prince Yonghuang.

At that time, they thought that Ruyi came to see her because she had raised Prince Yonghuang in the past, but they also felt something was wrong when she visited Yonghuang so frequently.

They all knew that Ruyi had fallen out of favor, and she was trying to use Yonghuang to regain favor.

Facing their mocking and sarcastic gazes, Ruyi looked unhappy, but she remained calm and said lightly: "Yonghuang was my adopted son before. It is only right for me to go and see him after I leave the cold palace."

As for what Su Lujun said about Yonghuang avoiding her, she pretended not to hear it.

Su Lujun snorted coldly: "I know you have been in the cold palace for so long, and it is natural for you to miss Yonghuang. I have no intention of stopping you."

"But you should also know that Yonghuang has to go to the Shangshufang to study every day. He is already very tired after studying all day and doesn't have much time to deal with you. You should not say anything inexplicable in his ear to disturb him."

"Besides, Yonghuang is already a big boy. In a few years, he will leave the palace and start his own household. The emperor has no intention of finding another foster mother for Yonghuang, Concubine Xian, do you understand?"

"I understand your thoughts, but you should just forget about it. It's all in vain."

Su Lujun's words were blunt and without any mercy. In Su Lujun's expectation, after she said this, Ruyi should be blushing and ashamed.

However, Ruyi was not like this. Instead, she stared at her with wide eyes, aggrieved and unbelievable look on her face.

Seeing Ruyi like this, Su Lujun shifted her gaze away from her and was unwilling to look at her again. This Ruyi was really annoying.

Why didn't she think Ruyi was such an annoying person before? She actually thought Ruyi was good, a nice person, and got along with her.

Could it be that Ruyi had drugged her with some kind of drug that made her mind so unclear? Fortunately, she woke up in time.

When Ruyi was punished in the past, she felt sorry for her, but now she realizes that Ruyi deserved it all.

No wonder the emperor is tired of her now. Hai Lan, who used to regard Ruyi as her own sister, has stayed away from her, and the other concubines don’t like her either. It turns out that it’s all her own fault.

Ruyi looked at the annoyance in Su Lujun's eyes. She wanted to explain a few words. She had no intention of snatching Yonghuang away from her. She just simply missed Yonghuang, so she looked at her a few more times. She told her not to think of her as so viciously.

But she couldn't say anything when the words came to her lips. She could only say aggrievedly: "I have no way to defend myself, and I don't know what to say."

Su Lujun: “........”

Hailan: “….”

Other concubines: “………”

Originally, they thought that after Su Lujun said that, Ruyi would be able to refute her a few words, but obviously, they overestimated Ruyi, which really left them speechless.

She was like this before. When asked to explain, she would say that she had no way to defend herself. I didn't expect that even now, she hasn't made any progress. She can only keep repeating that she has no way to defend herself. Apart from that, she won't say anything else.

Even though Ruyi is not annoying, they still find her annoying.

After returning from Changchun Palace, she still listened to what Su Lujun said in front of everyone. If she dared to get close to Yonghuang again, others would laugh at her. In order to save face, she didn't dare to have any ideas about Yonghuang again.

Ruyi still felt somewhat unwilling in her heart. Why was it so difficult for her to have a child of her own?

Suddenly, she thought of Hailan again. Wasn't there a child in Hailan's belly? Before, she only thought about Yonghuang and forgot about Hailan.

As long as she and Hailan reconciled, she believed that as long as she expressed to Hailan her envy of her pregnancy and her distress at not having a child, Hailan would definitely let her get close to the baby in her belly.

Even when her child is born, she will definitely let her follow her to take care of the child.

Of course, this was just the idea that Ruyi told Hailan on the surface. In fact, she already had another idea. In her opinion, since Hailan had unilaterally quarreled with her this time, she would stay away from her and not see her.

If the two reconcile in the future, what should she do if Hai Lan has a conflict with her again? Maybe she will let her child alienate her, and then her idea of ​​using her child to continue to gain the emperor's favor will not be realized.

Therefore, Hailan must not be allowed to stay.