Mysterious level up! Shen Ye cries and begs for reconciliation again

"Then, I discovered that you have two faces. You appear silly and honest in front of others, but you appear cold and isolated behind others. I think you may not be just an idiot."

"Besides, I'm curious about you. I want to see what new things you can do, when you can take the cat away from the back street, and when you can smile at me again..."

Shen Rao raised his lips as if he had thought of something interesting.

"Your smile is actually fake. I don't know if you've noticed. I always wonder, aren't you tired of pretending?"

"But I don't know when I started to think your fake smile is really cute."

"After these realizations, I became the fool."

"I'm like a demon. The more I look at you, the more I like you. I want to stick my eyes on you. If someone looks at you for even a second, I want to dig out his eyeballs."

Shen Rao looked up at the dazed Qi Yan and said in a daze, "I've never liked anything or anyone so much."

"Qi Yan, I love you to death."

"I really want to lock you up. I don't want anyone to see you. I don't want you to smile at anyone, even if it's fake. I hope you only have eyes for me."

He continued, "These dark thoughts grew wildly in my mind. I couldn't stand it anymore. I started to pursue you madly. I wanted to get you."

"After my persistence and pestering, you finally gave in. Actually..."

He paused, "As for me, I've always known that you don't like me that much. I've looked in the mirror and I know what a lover's eyes look like."

"You don't love me, I know it better than anyone else."

Shen Rao held her hand tightly and revealed his inner thoughts to her for the first time.

"I'm so scared that you don't want me anymore. I don't want to see you picking up cats anymore. I think you only have eyes for me."

"I know that I just relied on my family background and status to force you to be with me. In order to get you, I was despicable and shameless. I even thought of asking Gu Qing to threaten you by firing you."

"I feel so insecure being with you like this. I've decided to lock you up so that you can only have contact with me for the rest of your life. The house and chains are ready."

Shen Rao looked at her deeply: "Do you know why I didn't do it?"

"……Why?"

Qi Yan slowly lowered her eyes and asked following his words.

Shen Rao smiled, his eyes full of tenderness: "Because, I love you too much, Qi Yan."

He hugged her waist tightly, as if he wanted to merge her into his bones and blood. The last bit of space between them was squeezed out. When he spoke, Qi Yan could clearly feel the vibration of his abdomen.

"I love you so much, I love you so much, I can't bear to see you locked up at home, I can't bear to see you lose your own value, I can't bear to see you depressed."

"I don't want to see your eyes hate me before I see you love me. I love you so much, if you hate me, how can I live?"

"I don't want just your body. I'm so greedy. I want your heart too."

This love was so heavy and deep that it overcame his morbid possessiveness.

"But I don't want to let you go either," Shen Rao rubbed her neck and said sullenly, "So I'm going to propose to you. I think, even if I have to use my power to force you to agree to marry me and stay with me for the rest of your life."

"and then?"

Qi Yan asked him, her voice so soft, as if she was afraid of disturbing him.

"Then?"

Shen Rao opened his mouth and bit her neck, his angular fangs rubbing against her so hard that it hurt.

Qi Yan frowned, but did not push him away immediately. Instead, she let him bully her.

Just thinking: Is this person born in the year of the dog?

Shen Rao bit her neck without restraint and complained incoherently.

"And then, what you feared came true. You really left me and left me. You are such a heartless bad woman. You are such a coward that you dare not even tell me we are breaking up in person!"

"I've been throwing you away for three years! I'm like a widower whose wife has died! I look for you every day, every day!"

"Sometimes I think it would be best if you died, so I wouldn't have to suffer this torture... But I'm also afraid that you're really dead, what should I do?"

"I'm also worried. What if you really have no family? Who will take care of you? What if you die quietly in a deserted corner? If even I don't care about you and don't look for you, who in this world will remember you?"

"Qi Yan," he kept saying, "I live in this panic every day. I'm worried that you won't have enough to eat or wear warm clothes. I'm worried that you, this idiot, will go hold an umbrella for stray cats somewhere and get wet in the rain. I'm like an old woman..."

"I even prayed, it's okay if you don't want me, just tell me if you are doing well."

Qi Yan felt his neck was wet and hot, as if this person was crying again.

Her hand stopped at his trembling back, and in the end, her reason could not overcome her instinct.

I don’t know if it’s because what Shen Rao said was too moving, or if people tend to be sentimental at night.

Qi Yan patted his back, feeling his man's stunned look, and spoke softly, one pat at a time.

"sorry."

Although she didn't know whether these were true or not, she only knew that she really wanted to apologize.

"Who wants your apology..."

Shen Rao bit his lip, craving for her breath, her comfort, and muttered to himself.

"Actually, I really thought about letting you go, Qi Yan."

When I knew for sure that she was not an ordinary person, when I knew that she was leaving the capital and would never come back.

Shen Rao was somewhat thankful for the former.

He thought: She won’t be bullied, she won’t go hungry, she won’t have to eat only bread.

Maybe she will be fine without me?

He thought: Let it go.

She doesn't love me anyway, so as long as I know she is living a good life, there is no need to torture each other.

but……

Shen Rao clutched her pajamas on the back, veins bulging on the back of his hands, and his head buried deep in her arms, as if he was trying his best to endure it.

"You are the one who provoked me again. You will be responsible for me for the rest of your life."

Letting go once cost him half his life, and letting go again would cost him the remaining half.

"..."

After hearing this, Qi Yan was silent for a long, long time, so long that Shen Rao thought she was asleep.

"Did you hear what I said?" Shen Rao asked.

"I heard it." Qi Yan replied.

"Then won't you say something?" Shen Rao looked at her hopefully.

Qi Yan's throat was boiling and his mouth was a little dry: "I, I'm sorry."

She didn't know what to say.

Qi Yan felt very strange, yet inexplicably familiar.

But she was faced with a series of practical problems, and she couldn't possibly tell this to someone she had only met a few times.

Okay, I will be responsible for you, let’s get married.

If she could follow her heart, she would not be Qi Yan. She had too many concerns.

She is a person who is about to lose her life or become a disabled person, so how can she be responsible?

Isn't this a waste of time?

to be honest.

Qi Yan is a weird and nagging person. She can never be as indifferent as Shen Rao.

"What are you apologizing for?" Shen Rao was furious. "Can't you say something else?!"

"...Are you still willing to let go now?" Qi Yan caught the point and asked in a low voice, "Can I compensate you and let you go?"

"Qi Yan!!"

Shen Rao shouted at her angrily, and was so angry that he forgot he was under the bed. He stood up suddenly and hit his head on the bed with a bang.

This solid blow was so painful that it made people see stars.

Qi Yan: “…”

Qi Yan quickly pulled Shen Rao, who was curled up in pain, out from under the bed.

She frowned and reached out to check the back of his head, her tone filled with worry that she herself wasn't aware of.

"Are you okay? I'll call a doctor for you."

"Don't touch me!" Shen Rao dodged her touch with a grin, his eyes full of resentment, "I'm in pain and you don't care!"