Naruto: If I ask you to kill Sasuke, you will become a succubus?

Sasuke turned and went into the snow cave, leaving Shikamaru and I outside to continue hugging each other.

I hugged him tightly, but it still felt like it wasn't enough, so I couldn't help but hold him and rock him.

Just like a bottle of water, after you pour it out, you have to shake it again to get rid of the remaining water drops inside.

I felt like I was pushing him like a penguin, and Shikamaru had no choice but to back away. Finally, his legs bent and he fell into the snow, and I fell on him.

"Shikamaru..."

He was both angry and amused and asked, "What?"

His tone was already very close to his old self, but I could still tell that if I wanted to really go back to my old self, I still had to work harder.

"Let's make peace!"

"You said we'd make peace, so what?"

"Then how can we reconcile?"

"..."

"Shikamaru, are you angry because you think I don't think Shikamaru is important enough or special enough?"

"You and Naruto are the best friends in the world," Shikamaru said, "You and Shino are romantic partners, and I am just an ordinary acquaintance."

A long time ago, I said that Shikamaru was an "ordinary acquaintance", which made him angry once. I quickly denied it and said, "No, no, of course not!"

"Have you ever thought that the longer you and Shino's contract lasts, the harder it will be to end? Maybe by then you'll have gotten used to him as a lover, or he'll have gotten used to you as a lover, so what?"

I said with a bitter face, "It seems that Shikamaru has a lot of dissatisfaction with me."

He snorted, "There are so many! Forget about Naruto... What do you think of Sasuke?"

I buried my face in his neck in frustration, knowing that even if I softened Shikamaru's attitude temporarily, it would only buy me a chance to explain, but the problems between us still existed and still needed to be solved.

But that's exactly what I can't solve -

Hmm? Is there really no solution?

I hesitated for a moment: "If I tell Shikamaru the reason, Shikamaru can't tell anyone."

"tell me the story?"

"Actually, I seem to vaguely remember something about my father..."

Shikamaru's face was filled with doubt: "Do you think Sasuke is like your father?"

"No! I think...my father might be from the Uchiha clan!"

Shikamaru:"……"

"Because you see, I have black hair and black eyes, Sasuke also has black hair and black eyes, and so does Kakashi-sensei's Uchiha companion, Uchiha Obito. Most Uchiha have black hair and black eyes, don't they?"

Shikamaru: "...Then have you noticed that I also have black hair and black eyes? The Nara family and the Sarutobi family basically all have black hair and black eyes? Iruka-sensei also has black hair and black eyes. Are we all from the Uchiha clan?"

"Anyway, I remember seeing the Sharingan in my memory! It was either my father's, or...the enemy who hurt my family!"

Shikamaru concluded, "So, the Uchiha are either your family's enemies, or they are your family?"

"Ok!"

"Both possibilities are ridiculously low!" Shikamaru sighed, "I know some people admire the Uchiha clan's Sharingan and think they are powerful and handsome, a clan that produces many elites. They really hope that they can also be a member of the Uchiha clan... Sometimes they even have hysterics and really think that they are the bloodline of the Uchiha clan left behind. Is it possible... Chaolu, you just have the 'Uchiha complex' as well?"

Yes, that's it.

I once used the same method to mislead Kakashi, making him think that my complicated feelings towards Sasuke were actually my feelings towards Naruto.

And without the solid evidence of the Sharingan, anyone would think that my so-called "premonition" was just a child's illusion. Even Shikamaru would not completely believe me just by hearing what I said.

But, I know I didn't lie, so Shikamaru would just feel that I really thought so.

I said, "I really don't have any evidence, but I have a vague hunch..."

Shikamaru didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "Don't have a premonition. The most important thing for the Uchiha clan is the Sharingan. If Chaolu is a member of the Uchiha clan, then she should also have the Sharingan. Does Chaolu have it?"

"How do you know I haven't? Maybe I can't open it yet - hasn't Sasuke ever opened it either?"

Shikamaru smiled, "That's true. After all, no one has ever seen Sasuke open his Sharingan. Maybe you guys are not old enough yet."

I said unhappily, "Don't you believe me? Do you know how much courage I mustered to tell you the truth?"

Shikamaru suppressed his laughter and said, "Okay, okay, I believe you."

I emphasized: "You can't tell anyone."

Even if no one can guess my true purpose, I shouldn't reveal too much information about my "background".

The reason why Orochimaru and Shikamaru made me amnesiac was to blur my past. If someone came to investigate, there would be no evidence.

If I remember a little now and a little now, I will no longer be safe.

But if I don't say it, Shikamaru will get angry again.

No wonder the teacher said that since ancient times, undercover agents and spies have had the hardest time. They always have to silently swallow countless grievances and bear the misunderstandings and even curses of their relatives and friends...

I felt a little worried for a moment, not knowing if it was right to tell him this in order to reconcile with Shikamaru.

...Can't I bear being wronged?

Even if Shikamaru misunderstood me, I should have kept the secret.

Because Naruto is the most important, then Sasuke, and then me.

My own safety.

Because I can complete the mission only if I stay alive.

All the others can be abandoned, can be sacrificed, and are not important.

Even if... even if he always gives me the cold shoulder, doesn't talk to me, and never smiles at me again, I can... I can hold on.

During that period of time, Shino and Naruto were the only ones around me, but I managed to get through it, didn’t I?

But I've already said it.

Am I the kind of person who can't stand any grievance or misunderstanding, and can't keep any secrets?

The person that Orochimaru and Shikamaru-sama have high hopes for should definitely not be like this, right?

Can this still be considered a ninja?

Not to mention excellent, it’s not even qualified!

I was feeling a little regretful here, but Shikamaru was still trying to hold back his laughter: "Yeah."

I immediately said angrily: "You don't understand anything!"

"Um...like what?"

"You have no idea how important you are to me! And you got mad at me!"

I thought of what Naruto said before, that Shikamaru was unhappy because he felt that he was not important to me, and if I could prove that he was important to me, maybe he would calm down. However, I had clearly proved this point, but he didn't understand it at all.

"There are many things that I have only told you. No one else knows. Shino's bug, and this matter... You don't even understand what this means!"

Shikamaru: "...Is it possible that you don't understand what this means?"

I was furious and immediately grabbed his collar: "What did you say?! You still want to blame me??"

Although this guy is Shikamaru-sama when he was a child, according to his own theory, he is not Shikamaru-sama—

Then I am angry at him, and I am definitely not angry at Shikamaru-sama.

He quickly grabbed my wrist and said, "Calm down. I don't blame you, and I will never tell anyone else."

"If you tell anyone..." I racked my brains and thought of the most terrible thing in a hurry, and threatened him: "I will cut off all the antlers of your deer and throw them into the river!"

Shikamaru: "Pfft... No, I mean, it's so scary! For the sake of our family's antlers, I will absolutely keep this secret."

"you swear?"

"I swear." He smiled and said, "This is a secret between Zhaolu and I, just the two of us."