I will swear to protect the beauty with my life

Shihua regretted what she said as soon as she opened her mouth, but she didn't dare to say anything more. Since the question had been asked, there was no way out and she could only wait for his reply.

After a long silence, Fang Wuwei finally broke the dead silence.

"In my own way? Do you know how I got out of this in the first place?"

Fang Wuwei spoke suddenly, and there was no emotion in his voice at this time.

"At the beginning, after my family members passed away, I couldn't accept the reality. I was also like Rikka, indulging in fantasy, but I was more serious than she is now. At that time, I even tried to commit suicide several times. I just felt that if the sky fell, there was no need for me to live."

Fang Wuwei, who found it difficult to extract his emotions from his original memories, finally decided to recall the despair he felt after his sister died in his previous life.

"At that time, I was almost sinking, unable to break away from my fantasy... I even dreamed that she was still by my side. Every time I opened my eyes, I hoped it was just a nightmare. I lay stupidly on the bed, hoping to hear her calling me to get up. Even if it was just a complaint, I still hoped to eat the food she cooked for me again, even if it tasted terrible.

But no, even when I lay in bed and could barely hold my urine, it still didn’t happen.”

Even though Fang Wuwei said these words with a blank expression, his gradually clenched hands showed that his heart at the moment was far from as calm as his face showed.

"I didn't even dare to leave the room. I was afraid that when I saw the familiar table outside had no food, the familiar figure was no longer on the chair, the homework was no longer on the desk, and even the laughter that made me happy was no longer in the air..."

There was something very wrong with the words Fang Wuwei used. He had completely pushed his mind back to his previous life. Shihua was very smart and she had heard something wrong, but she did not dare to interrupt Fang Wuwei who was in this strange state and could only let him continue.

"...For a long time after that, I didn't even dare to go home. I just wandered around outside and didn't go to work. I felt confused and alone in this world.

In the end, I had almost no money left, and I hadn't eaten for several days... I also thought about just leaving, and even after I was rescued, this idea did not change.

But, that person just told me that life must go on... Then I realized that my body didn't want to die...

So I forced myself to go back home and clean up the smelly house. Even though I had to take out a loan and was in debt, I insisted on replacing all the furniture because I was afraid it would remind me of the past.

I walked out, and what made me walk out was the hopeless life and the need to continue...survival."

Or rather...I didn't even come out...

Fang Wuwei sighed deeply and stopped talking. The watermelon in his hand had been squeezed into watermelon juice, which flowed all over the floor. At that time, the only motivation that allowed him to persevere was revenge, but even after reincarnation, he could not achieve this goal.

To him, that world was filled with nothing but despair, but even so, he was still unwilling to...

Shihua was silent, and her grandmother did not speak either. Looking at Fang Wuwei, who was obviously not right, she realized that she had cruelly torn open his scabbed scar.

Pain and guilt filled Shihua's heart, making her feel a little suffocated.

"I'm sorry... I shouldn't have..."

"No..." Fang Wuwei interrupted Shihua. His mood was indeed complicated, but the reason for his complicated mood was...

"Thank you, Juuka... I thought I had let it go, but... maybe not. Deep down, I still don't want to accept this reality. I still don't want to accept the death of my sister... and the disappearance of that beast... You made me see my heart clearly now, thank you..."

Fang Wuwei looked at his empty palm. Even the watermelon rind was crushed into powder by him. His inhuman strength was manifested at this moment, and his mood was not calm at all. If his mental strength had not been greatly improved and his emotions had not become stable, perhaps he would have lost his temper the first time Shihua brought up this topic, and then escaped, just like... before.

He understood that even after reincarnation, he still couldn't get over it, just like even though he once had nothing, after reincarnation, he was still unwilling to completely accept the identity of "Dongfang Konghong". In a place that did not belong to this world, he still called himself "Fang Wuwei".

He is still living in the past.

The past was like a huge birdcage that trapped him. He was just a bird in the cage, unable to fly out. It was also like a fog that enveloped him tightly, without any light at all...

"In short... Shihua, I can only tell you that the death of a loved one is not just a temporary rainstorm, but a lifetime of dampness. If she wants to get over it, she can only rely on herself...

Believe in Yuta, Juuka-sister, and Rikka, and give them some time... You are giving her too much mental burden. "

Fang Wuwei turned around and left. Shihua still sat there, looking at the sky, biting the sweet and delicious watermelon from time to time, feeling a sense of blockage in her heart.

This time, Shihua didn't get anything from Fang Wuwei. She only knew about his past, but didn't know how he got out of it.

His answer was completely worthless. He was the only one who could use despair as motivation and live such a wonderful life. If it happened to Rikka, she would be destroyed instantly.

In other words, this time it was a waste of time to ask, and I felt guilty for no reason.

But Shihua didn't dare to ask for her to stay, as it was already too much to open someone's scar.

At the same time, after carefully savoring what Fang Wuwei said, she discovered something that could perhaps be called a loophole.

"Sister...I remember Yuta said that Dongfang was an only child?"

Fang Wuwei returned to the living room and happened to run into Dan Shengtani who had led the dog away. At this moment, she was a little curious about what the two had done, but she keenly discovered that there was something wrong with Fang Wuwei, so she didn't ask.

But Isshiki Makoto behind him was not as careful as Tanbutani. When he saw Fang Wuwei coming back, he immediately asked anxiously:

"Hey, Dongfang, we're going to the beach! Do you want to come?"

Isshiki Makoto was very excited at this moment, because... he could see the swimsuit of senior Anise !!!

This is fucking awesome!

Tuo Shou, who was standing by, was sticking something on his belly, and senior sister Fennel also had a look of anticipation on her face.

Facing a group of funny people, Fang Wuwei took a deep breath. Well, compared to his previous life, in this world... he had gained friendships that he had never had in his previous life.

A smile appeared on his face and he nodded heavily.

"Are you OK?"

But, his smile was too fake, so fake that Danbutani could tell at a glance that something was wrong with him. Fang Wuwei just shook his head, signaling her not to worry. And then, seeing Touka walking slowly towards him not far away, she didn't ask too many questions, thinking about the two of them just chatting aside. She just told him not to be stubborn and went to change clothes with the other girls, including Tushou.

"I'll go call Rikka and the others... Go relax, and, sorry..."

Shihua passed by Fang Wuwei, whispered something, and went upstairs to find Liuhua.

Now, she didn't dare to face Fang Wuwei. The guilt of opening someone else's scars was too heavy for her. Moreover, she had to ask Yongtai about Dongfang's inexplicable "sister"...

Fang Wuwei just stood there, doing nothing and saying nothing...