Lord God, do you want a wife?

Extra: The Duyun of Yewshan (Part 2)

Everything is moving in the right direction.

This is how I did it, day after day, attending classes like a machine during the day, and working part-time like a shadow in various corners of the city at night.

Whenever I hear about a competition, I always sign up without hesitation, trying to find a glimmer of value in my existence in that brief moment, and also for the meager prize money that others look down upon.

Days like this seem like an endless tunnel. I don’t know how long I have been walking in it, and I don’t know where the exit ahead is.

There is clearly a road under my feet, but I feel like every step is walking in a quagmire, heavy and difficult.

No matter how hard I struggled, it seemed that I would never reach the end of the road. Sometimes, I even doubted whether I was still moving forward, or just standing still, swallowed by endless darkness and exhaustion.

Lying on the hard bed in the dormitory, I was thinking...

Is this how my life will end...

But when I thought of my father lying in bed and my mother who supported the whole family with her hands, I knew I couldn't give up.

I want to use my own hands to create a slightly better future for myself and my family.

My savings figure is increasing little by little.

Whenever I talk to my mother on the phone, I can feel more and more smiles in her words.

But why can’t we have more quality time?

Fate played a cruel joke on me again.

Fang Haoyu, a rich kid, appeared in my life.

He is out of place with me, like a stone thrown into the calm water.

My peaceful life was disrupted.

Originally, he and I had nothing in common, but one day, he started pursuing me madly.

I don't think there is anything good about me that could attract him.

I have no money, I don’t know how to dress up, and I’m not good-looking.

Maybe this was just a stupid joke, a nasty game between them.

You see, as long as one has money and power, anyone can become a toy for fun.

I tried to ignore him, but it was disgusting that he could find me no matter where I was.

What I find even more outrageous is that a boy like him who dresses in a non-mainstream style actually has so many girls surrounding him. The craziest one among them is Zhao Xiaxuan, who is one year older than me.

She is very beautiful, and in front of her, I am like a gray ugly duckling.

So not only was I isolated, I was also bullied.

Those who use more childish means would write some obscene words on my desk and throw small animals and garbage into the hole in the desk.

I never saw Zhao Xiaxuan do anything, but her good friends would block me in the bathroom, press me into the sink, and make it difficult for me to breathe.

He looked at my embarrassed look and finally burst out laughing.

Later I called the police and they compensated me. The money flew into the air and I picked it up one by one.

I'm not angry at all. This much money can be my living expenses for several months.

I even hope this happens more often.

Unfortunately, they later thought I was a tough guy and would only scold me from a distance.

Fang Haoyu didn't care how much trouble his nagging brought me. He even went a step further and asked me to quit my job and help him with my homework.

What a joke. Everyone knows that his shitty grades cannot be saved.

In other words, even if you sprinkle some rice on the roll, the chicken will be better cooked than him.

Although I am short of money, I really don't want to see his face.

I started to treat him as invisible, but he was really patient and didn't give up even after several months.

Sometimes, I wonder if those rich young men think that in this world, no matter if it is something or someone, they can get it at will as long as they want it?

They are used to everything going according to their wishes, no one has ever disobeyed them, and they have never experienced real frustration and loss.

So, when he encountered unprecedented frustration with me, he tried every possible way to make me become his girlfriend, as if only in this way could he regain his lost dignity and sense of control.

I found it a little funny and forced myself not to think too much about it.

But later, my father's health condition deteriorated. Years of bedriddenness and loss of willpower finally broke him down.

Complications after amputation come unexpectedly.

My last bit of savings was like a drop in the ocean, failing to stir up any ripples.

Looking at my father's increasingly thin face, I felt powerless.

I have no choice but to work harder.

But in the end, I'm afraid I'll be fired for no apparent reason.

I had been doing these jobs since I was in college, and I didn't understand what I had done wrong.

When I lost my last job, a boss felt sorry for me and quietly told me the truth - the Fang family had said that they would not hire me wherever I went.

He was afraid of offending the Fang family, so he had no choice but to fire me.

Before leaving, he secretly gave me a thousand dollars.

I cried.

The kindness of strangers is the easiest thing to break people's hearts.

At this moment, I was shaken...

Am I too selfish?

If I am willing to sacrifice myself, can Dad survive?

Once this idea came into my mind, it grew wildly like weeds, and I couldn't get rid of it.

It's okay...

Fortunately, I didn’t agree in the end.

I met the noble person in my life.

He's also the most beautiful person I've ever seen.

She listened to my story and didn't say much, but just lent me a large sum of money and told me that I could pay it back by working after graduation.

And she had only one request, to expose Fang Haoyu.

I've been used to a lot of hardships, and I actually find it hard to believe that such a great thing would happen to me.

This isn't even an equal exchange.

Either of these two would be of great benefit to me.

I can't think of any reason to refuse.

I accepted it, the money was very important to me.

When I received the text message that the money had arrived, I breathed a sigh of relief, as if a heavy burden that I had been carrying for more than ten years was finally lifted off my shoulders.

When I left, I looked at the person next to her, the person I had secretly kept in my heart since I entered school.

He is like a bright star, radiant and outstanding enough to be admired by everyone.

But I am like a tiny speck of dust in the universe, unknown and dim, and there seems to be an unbridgeable gap between me and him.

At this moment, he seems to have found the other half who can walk side by side with him and spend the rest of his life with him.

They sat together, like a perfect match made in heaven, so harmonious and so well-matched.

I know this is the best arrangement.

I turned around silently and set out on my own path.

My path is no longer dark, someone has lit a lamp for me.

My father's condition was under control thanks to sufficient funds for treatment.

The Fang family asked me to sign a letter of apology, but how could I agree? In the end, Fang Haoyu was convicted and imprisoned.

I did not let down those who helped me along the way. As an outstanding graduate, I entered Xiao's internship and felt closer to them.

Sometimes I can even see them from a distance.

Later they got married and disappeared.

In the business world, I showed my unique side. When it comes to ruthlessness, almost no one can match me.

My keen insight into business and decisive decision-making ability make me stand out among many employees of Xiao.

I also joined the management of Xiao Corporation.

Later, I went back to the store where I worked part-time in college.

The store where the boss secretly gave me a thousand dollars.

The boss has retired and his son is running the business now.

I handed him the paper bag containing ten thousand yuan and turned away.

He was obviously confused by my behavior and hurriedly chased after me to return the money.

I looked through the rearview mirror at him standing on the street, his face filled with confusion and helplessness, and I found it very interesting.

At this moment, I felt an unprecedented sense of relief.

It was as if a heavy burden had been lifted.

I took a deep breath, and the air seemed to carry a hint of sweetness that went straight into my heart.

By this time, I finally had my own life.

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