Original God's Dark Priest

There is no concept of time in the world of the mind. Here, it is the eternal night that belongs only to Silkok.

The sky, which should have been pitch black, had a hint of deep blue because of the bright moon hanging high in the sky. The owner of the place was standing by the lake, bathing in the moonlight, looking otherworldly and like a banished immortal.

She stood there motionless, staring at the lake in front of her in a daze.

The sound of several people's footsteps attracted Sicock's attention. She came back to her senses, turned around, and saw the person walking towards her.

She looked at the fairy, "So, you asked me to wait here just to bring them over?"

"I want to talk to you... no, I want to talk to myself." The fairy said, "I hope someone can witness our quarrel and reconciliation, and they are the best candidates at this moment."

Its words did not surprise those present. Ying and Saphir had known it from the beginning.

Saphir looked at Silkock and the little fairy: "Although I already knew it, but...are you the Silkock of the past? Or are you the remnant of your childhood dream?"

"I am the emotion suppressed by reason, the self that she has locked in the prison of her heart." The fairy used a more euphemistic approach.

After that, she faced the real body of Silkock: “Those impulses that you rejected, those pasts that you pushed aside, eventually became a part of me.

So, I am also the original you. Because you have never been willing to look me in the face, I took the initiative to come and see you. "

In response, Silk denied it, saying, "You are wrong. I have always faced you squarely, so I sealed you here. Your existence will only weaken my power. Those moments when you showed your longing and joy were precisely when this body was most vulnerable.

Don’t forget, it is precisely because of our belief in kindness and beauty that our hometown has become a ruin. The universe is too vast for personal emotions to matter. ”

"That's true, but correcting mistakes does not mean denying everything in the past. Strip away your so-called weak emotions, what is the difference between us and those soldiers who brought destruction?" The little fairy argued.

Silk was about to say something, but was interrupted by Saphir: "Please wait a moment, I have felt that one of your opinions is very strange since just now.

What do you mean your hometown has become a ruin because you believe in kindness and beauty? "

"Because they all trusted those people too much, this led to the destruction of their hometown, isn't it?" Si Ke Ke was still very patient in the face of Saphir, so he explained.

But after hearing this, Safire showed a strange expression: "I have heard passers-by express the theory that the victim is guilty, and I have also heard perpetrators say such things, but this is the first time I have heard such words coming from the victim's mouth.

Is it wrong to be kind? Aren't those who destroyed your hometown the ones who are wrong? You shoulder all the responsibilities on your own and then let the heavy pressure crush you. Is this the path you have thought of for hundreds of years?"

"But what if we had been more vigilant at the beginning?" Silkock tried to make a hypothesis and convince Safire.

Saphir chuckled and shook his head: "It's useless to be vigilant. When those people realize your potential, destruction is already inevitable.

It is not your kindness that leads to your destruction, but your weakness. Destruction has nothing to do with you. When they make a decision, your reaction is meaningless. You cannot refuse, but can only passively accept. You cannot resist, but can only go to death.

Being weak is the greatest sin."

"That's why I have to become stronger at all costs. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes, right?" Silkok grasped this point and emphasized it.

But Saphir shook his head, his face full of disapproval: "But being strong has nothing to do with emotions. I have seen many strong people as numerous as the stars. They walked on the stars towards the path they pursued. No matter what their purpose was, they never abandoned their feelings.

In fact, emotions are the driving force behind their strength. Pure rationality cannot allow a person to break through his or her own limits. What breaks through that barrier is often hysterical emotions. "

"But emotions have long become a burden. I have shouldered everything that emotions cannot do, even beyond numbness and nothingness. Reason has supported me all the way here. It is an important reason why I am who I am and why I am a strong man." Sicock could not refute Safire's words and could only change the subject.

The fairy wanted to say something when she heard it, but Saphir shook her head at her. Seeing this, the fairy held back her words and looked at Saphir, wanting to know what she was going to do.

Saphir said nothing, but walked slowly to Silk's front and stretched out his hand.

"What?" Silkock frowned, not understanding what Safire meant.

Saphir spread out his palm, and in the palm of his hand was an ice crystal that had just condensed: "This ice crystal is less than half a meter away from you. Now I tell you, if you can take it from my hand, Ying and I will leave immediately and will not interfere. Will you agree?"

Silkock stared at the slender white palm of Safire, without moving or speaking.

“Look, you know very well that you can’t do it.” Saphir retracted his hand and threw the ice crystal out casually. The ice crystal shattered before it hit the ground and disappeared. “At first, I thought your point was that you were willing to do anything to become stronger, even if it meant abandoning your emotions.

But now I realize that this is not the case. You just think that letting go of emotions can make you stronger, but the fact is, even if you do this, you are still not as strong as me. You have let go of emotions, but I have not.

I know thousands of people who are stronger than me, and none of them have it. Do you still think this is the right path?"

Silkcock remained silent.

Saphir sighed softly: "There are three thousand worries in people's hearts, and we must keep a trace of obsession. Life is a wasteland. Emotion is the compass given to us by the soul. It will always guide us to the right direction.

Throw away your emotions, deny the past, and your path will no longer be clear. I have seen people like you before, but they all failed to go very far and were all lost in the wasteland called life. "

Hearing these words, a crack finally appeared on Silk's expression. Seeing this, the fairy immediately struck while the iron was hot: "Even if personal emotions seem insignificant compared to the vast universe, I think they must have value. They make the cold sea of stars warm and give meaning to the world we see."

It approached Silk and said, "I want you to remember the nights when you admired the stars, and the afternoons when you explored the unknown. I want you to find comfort in those peaceful times, and to take a break from the endless pressure."

Ying's eyes were bright. She looked at Silkock and the little fairy, then looked at Sapphire who had returned to her side. "It feels very smooth."

"It depends on what she thinks." Safire waved her hand. She had said everything she needed to say. There was no need to say more, and it would only annoy people.

Safir felt that she had said too much today. She had to go out for a fight later, and after the fight, she must drink a few bowls of sour plum soup!

Seeing Ying still staring at him, Saphir was a little confused: "Why are you looking at me like that? Is there something written on my face?"

"I'm just curious, this lost thing you mentioned... is it true?" Ying was indeed curious. She was a person with rich emotions and couldn't imagine what would happen if a person lost his emotions.

Saphir stroked his chin and thought for a while, then said: "Do you still remember Ying's Pure Land?"

"Of course, I've been there!" Ying was very proud. "It's quite beautiful inside. When I went there, she dragged me to play the Seven Summonings with Zhen! That guy didn't want to teach her, so he asked me to be his laborer!"

Saphir raised his lips slightly: "Before, it was in a state of decay, even the ground was full of cracks."

"How could it be!" Ying found it a little unbelievable.

Saphir shrugged: "That is the truest portrayal of Ying's inner world, a hopeless and devastated world.

Look, it's very similar to this place."

Ying subconsciously looked around, unknown floating islands, broken rivers, purple river water... Isn't this also a kind of doomsday?

Only where the source is, there is still some beauty. Ying suddenly feels that maybe Si Ke Ke has not really abandoned her feelings, but just hidden them. She herself is unwilling to completely destroy the scenery that symbolizes her hometown in her heart.

Isn’t this little fairy her past self that she has hidden away?

"I suddenly feel that the possibility of success is quite high." Hope ignited in Ying's heart.

Saphir nodded. She never thought she would fail. "Of course it is. However, this guy is a stubborn person. Even if he agrees in his heart, he will still be stubborn."

As she said this, something really happened over there.

The fairy was immediately frozen by Silkock, who spoke coldly, "This is not what we should do right now."

However, the next second, the ice that blocked the fairy broke directly. The fairy was also very stubborn and refused to give in. "This is what we should do now! In fact, you have also discovered, right? Your strength recovery is getting slower and slower, and it is becoming more and more difficult to grow."

"Finally, we're getting to the point. I've been waiting for you here. You just want the answer to this question." Si Ke Ke finally looked at the fairy straight in the eye.

The fairy floated in the air, and after a rotation, it landed in front of Silk. "Look at this world, and look at your heart. Without dreams and curiosity, you lose the original driving force; if you judge and deny your past self, you will not be able to gain strength from the past years.

The only things that keep you going are fear and survivor’s guilt, but these things can’t help you get to the end, so the river becomes more and more muddy.”

"..." Si Ke Ke narrowed her eyes slightly. In fact, she had already agreed with the fairy's words. After all, Saphir had said enough before. Even if she was slow, she should realize that she was walking on the wrong path.

It's just hundreds of years of sunk costs. Is Silk really willing to accept such a long period of mispayment?

"I don't really want to argue with you about right or wrong. It doesn't matter. There is no right or wrong between us. You are right. If we don't use reason to isolate our emotions, we won't be able to get through the most difficult times.

But people can't stay on the same path forever, right? I know you've never forgotten that disaster, and as the only survivor, you often feel pain.

Their voices echo in your ears, including mine, because deep down, you know you are not what you thought you were going to be.

Unfulfilled expectations will become a thorn that pierces one's heart. Even if you don't want to accept me, I hope you can... at least let go of some things. "The fairy moved closer to Silkock with every word she spoke.

Saphir watched the scene in silence.

She knew that she was witnessing the entire process of a person reconciling with himself.

Reconciling with oneself sounds simple, but the smarter you are, the harder it is, and internal friction is always inevitable.

"I always feel that maybe I shouldn't have survived... so I wouldn't have to think about the fire all the time, and I wouldn't have to be like this now..."

This was the helpless whisper of Silkock when he was young.

But what Saphir recalled in his heart was another voice: "Lord Saphir... Spring is here, will you accompany me to see the cherry blossoms?"

"It is said that the spring cherry blossom forest in Izumo is like a blaze. Let's go together on your birthday."

"Great!"

"Huh..." She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. The girl who risked her own life to create a glimmer of hope, eventually fell in the deep sea where dusk lasted forever, and that glimmer of hope was destroyed by her own hands.

Saphir chose this world over this one and her past life, and betrayed Xuan Ji's feelings. Even though she never mentioned it and had no one to tell, she silently endured this internal friction and pain.

Xuanji was not wrong, nor were the people of Teyvat, nor were Odin and Tartan. None of them deserved to die, but someone had to die.

The only thing she could do was to suppress her feelings silently, pretend nothing had happened, and continue her life.

There is still a long way to go, and everything is possible.

Saphir warned himself silently in his mind and focused his attention on the matter at hand.

"Crack..." The sound of ice breaking came from the void. This was the change that had taken place in Sikik's heart. A crack finally appeared in his frozen heart.

"We have the courage to die, but we want you to live."

This was the advice that Si Ke Ke heard from her relatives on the day she escaped. The words were simple, but they contained infinite love and reluctance.

There was another snapping sound, and the crack gradually widened.

"I really want to grow up quickly... The world outside is so interesting, I really want to go see it sooner."

This was the sigh that Silkock uttered when he was a child, lying on the grass.

Her childhood dream came true after she gave it up. Now that you have grown up, do you still think growing up is a good thing?

The frozen heart finally shattered completely. Si Ke Ke realized that the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time could no longer be suppressed.

She freed herself from her memories and walked to the lake in front of her: “I still remember that once when we were fetching water, my parents sang a ballad.

Dancing flowing water, the mud and sand along the way are asking for your singing and flowing. Are you willing to carry the lame mud and sand on the journey with you?

I am not the brisk flowing water, and you are not the silent sand, but if this is your wish, I will take you with me to the end. "

These words were spoken to the fairy, no, to her past self. She was finally willing to face herself and regain her past.

The little fairy didn't know what to say for a moment, and finally just uttered three words: "Thank you."

"I should thank you." Sicock lowered his eyes slightly but didn't say much.

Ying and Saphir knew what she wanted to be thankful for. She was thanking her past self who represented her innocence and who did not give up and waited until the day when she was willing to change her mind.

She regained the compass that belonged to her soul and did not get lost in the wasteland of life.