Life is more than just living

Chen Xu knelt in front of a tombstone and spoke softly: "Teacher, how are you doing in heaven? I'm going to the provincial capital to go to college. People say 'a big favor cannot be thanked', but I still want to say: Thank you for pulling me out of the garbage pit 12 years ago; thank you for imparting knowledge to me, thank you for teaching me the principles of life; thank you for encouraging me and guiding me. It has been six years since you left me, but in my heart, you have always been They are all here, always with me. I got into a good university, and no family is happy for me, but I know you would be happy for me if you knew. My high school teachers are not only happy for me, but more because of them I have proved myself. I am happy because I verified what you said and I did what I promised you. Teacher, I remember every word you said. You said: Life is not just about living. You made me believe that knowledge can change destiny. , I will live a good life from today on."

Chen Xu got on the green train heading to the provincial capital. She looked at the fleeting scenery outside the window, ignoring the stunned eyes of the passengers opposite, and blocking out the hawking of "Peanuts, melon seeds and ham sausage; beer, drinks, mineral water..." Voice. Chen Xu is already 22 this year and will turn 21 soon. Today is his first time taking a train. But she was not excited about getting on the train for the first time, but about rushing to her new life.

Chen Xu also had a happy family. She remembered that at that time, her parents loved her very much and would take her to the park to ride the merry-go-round on weekends. Her grandmother dressed her up beautifully every day and took her outside to the neighbors to listen to praises. She looks good, praise her for being smart. My aunt comes back every week with her cousin, bringing a lot of delicious food. My cousin also likes her very much, dotes on her, and rushes to call her little sister. Those distant memories are becoming more and more blurry, as if they really existed or were just imagined. Since her parents divorced, no one wanted her, her grandma disliked her, her aunt hated her, and her little brother bullied her. Everything changed overnight. Chen Xu suspected that that night, he seemed to be no longer smart, no longer beautiful, no longer lovable, as if everything was his fault.

Looking back through the years, Chen Xu suddenly hated herself at that time. At a young age, with big ignorant eyes, she began a difficult journey of survival. She always tried to please others, with humility and fear of being betrayed. A look like an abandoned puppy. No one sympathized with her, they just found her annoying. For several years after his parents divorced, Chen Xu kept thinking: If he had jumped up to hug his mother's thigh and cried without letting go, as his grandma taught him before the trial, would the outcome have been different? After the court ruled that my parents were divorced, my grandma gave me a hard slap in the face because I didn't cry and try my best to keep my mother. If I had not held back my tears at that time, but cried loudly, would the outcome have been different? There are no ifs in life, you cannot press the pause button, and you cannot go back and start over. But when people are in difficult situations, they always think about whether it would have been different if they had done something at that time, and whether there would be no answer. The next five years were filled with unpleasant memories of rummaging through smelly garbage dumps.

It’s Teacher Lin! It’s Teacher Lin! That morning, it was Teacher Lin who was wearing sunshine and stretched out his hand to her. Regardless of how dirty she was, he pulled her out of the garbage pit and said to her: "Child, follow me!"