Team villains except me

When Persilla found out that Musa did not become a Beast Warrior, she locked herself in the room and remained silent for a long time.

She did many things wrong.

But where did she start to go wrong?

Maybe she was wrong when she faced the first choice.

She was a famous female eagle in her hometown. She was very skilled in her beast form. Her beast form was large, with powerful wings, and she could bring down even the most powerful eagles. She was much more powerful than those eagles.

She flew very high and far, ranking first among her brothers and sisters and even in the entire village.

But she didn't get praise.

The mother touched her wings in panic.

"You'll never get married like this. Who would like a female eagle like you who's even bigger than an eagle? Don't participate in flying competitions anymore. Do you want to embarrass me?"

She didn't understand. She wanted to fight for herself, she wanted to live like an eagle. But faced with her mother's panic, she felt that she was flawed and her thinking was wrong.

She didn't want her mother to worry like this. So when faced with the first option, she retreated. She waited like a commodity to be taken home by an eagle.

This is a very normal thing, even more legitimate than the will of the Beast God.

Her grandmother was like this, her mother was like this, her sister was like this, her friends were like this, and in the future her sister and her daughter would also face the same fate.

But her wings are really strong, and she can fly against the wind and snow for a long time, longer than the eagles she is supposed to obey.

So she was confused.

But no one told her the answer. She had never flown over Mount Patriati in Lanier, she had never seen her future life, and she had no one to express her confusion.

She got married naturally.

Her mother felt sorry for her because she was young and always had some strange ideas. Her mother selected many female eagles of appropriate age for her. When she found no suitable marriage partner, her mother tolerantly let her stay at home.

The mother was under a lot of pressure. Persila felt that she was not a good daughter, but she would ask her mother.

"Can I stay home forever?"

The mother felt that these words sounded like those spoken by a child.

"Of course not, Percilla. You will get married eventually, and your mother will choose the husband who is most suitable for you."

Persila had a lot to say, but when she saw her mother's expression, she swallowed all her words. Her mother's expectations of her were evident in her name: "Persila," which in Rainier English meant "the second child in the family, an ordinary child."

Persilla loved the sky, but she loved her mother more.

She thought about escaping from Rainier. She had a great talent, she could fly over the vast ocean, to the end of the world.

But she hesitated.

Once again, she made the wrong choice.

She got married. Her husband was a minor noble, his parents orphaned, with few relatives. Her mother thought she would be safe from bullying if she married the eagle. But marriage itself was a form of oppression for her.

Her husband was very weak, and before they could fall in love, the eagle died of illness.

She was already pregnant at the time and didn't know what to do with this life. She asked her mother what to do. Her mother asked her in confusion, "Besides giving birth to the child and raising it, is there any other way?"

Yes, Percilla thought. She could abandon this life and fly away from Rainier. Her wings were still strong, and she was in top form right now. But she felt lonely.

Because no eagle understood her. Even her mother, who loved her very much, could not understand her thoughts. She was trapped.

Persilla left her descendants because she wanted a family that was completely hers and that approved of her.

She gave birth to a daughter.

She looked at her tiny daughter and didn't know how to be a good mother, but she wanted to give everything to her daughter, and she named her "Musa".

A strong and beautiful female eagle that can fly freely across hills.

She really loves her Musa.

She loves her daughter so much that whenever she looks at her daughter, she feels that there is nothing in this world that she cannot overcome - as a mother, she will develop the courage that she does not have as herself.

She rocked her daughter gently, thinking of her daughter's future with happiness.

Then she discovered to her horror that at Rainier, her daughter would simply repeat her life.

She doesn't think her life is happy enough.

In this unequal country, female eagles don't have a bright future. Even flying is a privilege. If her musa asks her, "Mom, why can't I fly? Why can't I live like those eagles?", how should she answer?

Is she going to say that because you are a female eagle, this is your destined and inescapable fate?

This is ridiculous.

She couldn't stand it.

Her daughter deserves the best in the world.

If her daughter had to compromise just because of her gender, then she would have to make her daughter leave this not-so-good place.

She wants her daughter to fly very high.

Her daughter was very much like her, with large wings and strong feathers.

She would not let her daughter repeat her tragedy.

She could have flown into the blue sky, but her wings were a little heavy now. She had a daughter now, and she couldn't break the law. She didn't know how high she could fly, and she had almost forgotten what it felt like to fly.

Does she have any regrets?

Yes. But she didn't regret it much, because Musa was so cute. She kissed her daughter every day, and she felt that she would be willing to sacrifice her life for Musa.

But she was too young, she had never been a mother, and she didn't want to teach her daughter like her mother did.

She often did things that made people laugh and cry, and raised her daughter with many difficulties. She told her daughter not to be afraid of flying, she let her daughter go to various colleges, and she protected her daughter well. Her daughter never felt inferior, and would not give up being herself because of Lanier's decree and various restrictions on female eagles. She was proud of her Musa.

But the sarcastic remarks towards her never stopped.

"Persilla? Her daughter can't get married."

"You are such an unfit mother."

"You're hurting her!"

"So what if a female eagle is powerful? Can she be more powerful than a male eagle? It's useless to send her to school. She should get married!"

She said firmly with a stern face,

No.

"My daughter is the most outstanding female eagle, of course she is more powerful than a male eagle! If she doesn't want to get married, she doesn't have to get married. If she wants to fly, she can fly. My Musa is the best!"

Her head was held high.

Those words hurt her, and it wasn't that she didn't care, but she knew she had to get her daughter out.

They had no way out. If they gave up halfway, they would lose everything. It was too late to follow the path that most female eagles were taking.

Her Musa was used to flying, and it was unacceptable for her to walk step by step behind the eagle and look up at the eagle's movements in the sky.

She had raised her Musa in Lanier and turned her into a strong and independent female who was well adapted to the outside world. Musa had to leave Lanier, otherwise she would be very miserable in Lanier.

Fortunately, her daughter was outstanding enough, so outstanding that she was targeted and suppressed by countless eagles. She gritted her teeth and made the right choice.

She sent Musa out of Lanier. Her Musa was excellent, she never doubted it. Musa became famous outside, and Musa said she would take her out of Lanier.

Musa said that outside, the sky is blue, the grassland is vast, and the female eagle can fly freely.

She looked forward to it.

But her daughter is so famous that she has become a kind of role model - a role model for women who have left Rainier.

Her departure gave hope to the struggling female eagles at Lanier. They felt that since her daughter could do it, they could also have a future of their own.

She would like to see this scene.

But the king of Lanier could not sit still, he could not bear to see a female eagle become a beast warrior. The king used threats and inducements to coerce her, but she never gave in.

She would never betray her daughter. Musa carried their shared aspirations. If she had made the right choice, she wouldn't be in Lanier right now. But she had no regrets; her Musa would fulfill their shared aspirations.

But Musa no longer contacted her.

She gritted her teeth and endured the torture. Her self-esteem was eroded, her past was investigated in detail, and her parents were found by the king and beaten to death in front of her.

She couldn't change anything. Musa, who hadn't appeared during these times, couldn't support her anymore. She was too ordinary, an ordinary mother. Even though she had great talent, even though she had many ideas that Lanier wouldn't tolerate, she was stuck in the mud and saw no hope.

Musa did not come to save her, and the Beast God did not bestow any blessings. She coughed up blood and realized that she needed to save herself.

She hesitated...she compromised.

She pretended to compromise, thinking she would not waver. But the moment she compromised, there was no turning back.

What was she thinking when she wrote that letter?

She doesn't remember much.

Everything was twisted and absurd like a nightmare.

After waking up from the dream, she learned that Musa did not become a Beast Warrior because of the letter she wrote.

She suddenly realized that she had betrayed Musa a long time ago. When she wanted to compromise, she had already betrayed Musa. She had resentment and regret towards Musa.

Of course she would think that if she had been able to spread her wings and fly high, she might be the beast warrior now. She had given so much to Musa, but when she needed Musa, Musa did not show up.

She held on too long. She chose the wrong time to take a breather. She messed it up.

She is a female eagle with independent thoughts. She really loves Musa, but she cannot love Musa completely. She also loves herself. Being a mother and being herself cannot coexist.

Why are the standards for being a mother so high? She had given everything she had, she wasn't indestructible, and her momentary weakness made her a terrible mother, known to the entire Lanier community.

She hated the king, hated the ignorant country of Lanier, hated herself, and hated Musa's stubbornness.

Musa is her daughter, and she is as stubborn as she is.

Musa abandoned everything and stayed with Lanier, looking forward to talking to her like a puppy. Musa apologized to her and Musa called her mother with bright eyes.

She won't look back.

She never wanted to leave Lanier again in her life. She was the king's tool, and the king would use her to hurt Musa. Her life was actually over here.

The weakness I showed then cannot be undone no matter what I do now.

She refused to talk to Musa, made various demands on the king, and began to use the king's rewards to fund many resistance organizations - she wanted to make amends.

She was even more stubborn than Musa. If raising a child like Musa was her ability, then her stubborn refusal to turn back was her destiny.

She and Musa couldn't both rot in Lanier.

She did things very thoroughly.

She burned all the records of her relationship with Musa, including the diary she had been writing in for a long time.

She remembered the last words she wrote before burning her notebook.

“Wimpy, bad mother.

A brave and good boy."

After burning the diary, she wouldn't look back. She had her own plans. In these plans, she had already foreseen her own death.

Musa is the same as her.

But Musa is stronger than her. Musa can leave Lanier again and regain her future.

See, the children she taught are capable of starting over again.

Then her persistence makes sense.

Her death would also be meaningful.

She knew the plans of all the resistance groups in Futsu, she was an anonymous funder, and she proposed a plan that began with her own death.

In order to keep the plan going on time, she swallowed the pills.

After that, De Ling came to tell her the truth of that year. The truth always comes late.

It was too late. It was meaningless. Her betrayal wasn't the letter, but the ill will she felt towards Musa.

Let Musa hate her.

Don't know anything, just hate her painfully, hate her so much that it hurts every time you step on Rainier's land or fly into Rainier's airspace.

——That’s clearly what she thought.

But at the end of her life, she softened her heart when she saw Musa.

She answered Musa's question and admitted that she loved Musa.

Death felt cold. She looked at Musa unconsciously. Behind Musa was the window, and in the distance was Patriati Hill.

That was the hill she most wanted to cross.

Had she done anything meaningful in her life? She couldn't remember.

She made many wrong choices. She didn't seem to be a perfect mother, nor a good person herself. She always acted weak when she shouldn't have compromised, and would rather die than give in when she should have reconciled.

Because her name is Percilla?

If this is the case, then her Musa will definitely have a very, very bright future.

Her consciousness was fading. She vaguely felt her body floating in the air. The cold air blowing against her brought her back to consciousness a little.

She felt the breath of Musa. She lowered her head and saw the Patriati Mountain which she wanted to fly over.

On her deathbed, she remembered the diary she had burned. On the day Musa left Lanier, she wrote in the diary...

[Hesitating and hesitating, feeling melancholy and sad.]

My little Musa,

Fly and fly...

Fly away. 】

Persilla closed her eyes.

She thought that her Musa could finally fly away.