Team villains except me

When she saw that there were only two notebooks left, Irene stared at the notebooks in her hands and was reluctant to close them.

The image of the mother gradually became clear, and the answers she wanted had already surfaced.

Her mother is a politician who uses emotions as a tool. Love is a very precious emotion for Isana Kerong, and she must maximize the value of every bit of it.

Every entry in the diary in Irene's hand is like a work record. Isana calmly and objectively analyzes every life around her, calculating what they can bring to her. She never complains, vents, or even gets confused.

But does she love the people of Ruyou? Does she have sympathy for the common people?

No.

She was like a messenger of the Beast God. She regarded it as her mission to eliminate the evil spirits. She used the same methods on the common people as she did on the nobles.

Irene felt that Isana was different from everyone she knew. She was not like Fiana, who wanted to change Philippine and allow the people of Philippine who had been in a disadvantaged position for a long time to live a normal life. She was not like Naden's mother, who liked politics, gambling, and controlling power. She was not like Hugh's uncle Wools, who took on the responsibility of developing the country because of his parents.

Her mother was a gray wolf, a species she had never encountered before. Naturally, she admired Isana. But soon, she felt her heart aching.

Isana would not sacrifice her life for any specific person, except for her country, her unfinished business, and her long-term plans.

Ishana would not love her. To imagine Ishana as a perfect mother is a selfish idea that has no logic and does not conform to reality.

Irene took a deep breath. Before she even opened the two diaries about herself, she already had the answer.

She now felt that Isana shouldn't love her. Just as she told Teacher Musa, her mother would not love a strange life, even if she had been in her mother's body.

If Isana could love her just by being violated by the emotions that gave birth to life, then she would only feel disgusted. She was like a monster, using physical influence to force Isana to submit.

It wasn't supposed to be like this, that wasn't Isana.

Irene closed the diary in her hand, reached out and took the notebook with the earlier date.

What eased her mood a little was that the beginning of the diary was still a record of Isana's political achievements, and she turned the pages faster.

Then, as she was turning the pages as usual, Irene paused. She slowly turned back to the original page.

[Duke Kratu, you can use him. He has a bad temper and is not a good candidate for long-term cooperation. You don't need to keep in touch with him after you're done using him.

Stilaert, a member of the Ivanko royal family. He committed many crimes in Yuyou. He was sentenced to death but was rescued and returned to Ivanko. Killed. (Dealing with spies who colluded with foreign royal families)

I'm pregnant.

Si Ruoke, escaped, killed after being found. 】

Among many names, Isana simply recorded her condition, and then she went on to record other things as if nothing had happened.

Irene pursed her lips. She knew her mother wasn't expecting her.

She continued to flip through the pages in silence.

[Banten and Brahim quarrel in the palace. Brahim avoids the confrontation and finally apologizes.

Wandan has the intention to split Ruyou. He will be dealt with at the right time.

It came at an inopportune time. Brahin had done something, and his cowardice and inferiority were both controllable advantages and disadvantages. He should reflect on himself in the next month. The poison would make him miserable and reduce his expectations for offspring. He could not have offspring, and his defective genes were not worth inheriting.

I officiated at a christening today. A newborn's head is soft and very fragile. I don't like children.

The responsibilities of a mother are very strict for humans, and the same is true for the gray wolf tribe. Becoming a mother will be classified into another value system, and this system's judgment of the value of the subject is very repetitive and illogical.

I will not love something that comes out of my body. I will adopt a child in five years. This is my plan. Brahim ruined this plan with his childishness and selfishness. I will correct this mistake.

This is the first time that the words "I don't like it" appear in Isana's diary. Isana rarely expresses her emotions in her diary. She seems to write a diary only to review her political decisions and sort out her thoughts.

Irene felt that she was calmer than she thought. She looked at the diary and felt that this was Isana. Isana would not be happy, Isana would not look forward to her coming, Isana never liked children.

She was out of time. She turned out to be out of time. And that turned out to be very true.

Irene looked up. The lights in Rose Mansion were shining, but not glaring. But her eyes still felt uncomfortable. She had read too many words today, and the sharp pen strokes often cut through the paper. The sharpness of the diary seemed to be judging her.

She was now more afraid of her mother. When she realized that her mother did not love her, she began to distance herself from her mother. When she was far enough away, she could see her mother's light, and she began to look up to Isana.

She found that Isana was an insurmountable mountain. She learned a lot of ways to govern the country from those diaries, and also knew many secrets of the previous generation. These diaries were like a guide to governing the country.

Did Isana leave these for her? Did Isana want her to be king?

Erin then looked down.

【The birth of life is an irrational process. But I need it. It is available, it proves my value. It allows me to access more power.

The palace of the lord is a stinking ditch, and I will keep it until I turn it into a clear river. But it cannot really appear.

Neither Brahin nor Vandan should be alive today. Their stupidity and low intelligence come from their parents. If I conceived a creature like this, I would end it with my own hands. 】

If it was a male, it would have had the same face as Brahim. That disgusts me.

【Today Qinao provided a new perspective. She said that if my child is a female gray wolf, she will look a lot like me and may inherit my talents and abilities.

I have to wait two months before I can test its gender. I allow it to exist for another two months. Gender was a hurdle I had to overcome before, but now it is its life or death. I still don't like it, and although it makes me more focused, it has damaged my prestige.

Now anyone dares to waste my time and ask some extremely stupid questions with self-confidence and authority. After executing a few people, they finally learned to shut up.

I can't kill Braxin. To become a princess, you must sign a contract, and the oath you made to Lord Beast God cannot be taken back. Braxin should kneel down devoutly to Lord Beast God, otherwise Lord Beast God would have died thousands of times.

Qinao said she would never sell love for power. She still has a paranoid naivety in some aspects, and I hate this about her. I never regretted becoming a princess. But I really can't become a queen in a legitimate way. I do everything a king should do. Brahin knows his own shallowness, and he is very confident to leave these things to me. He will always be the king.

If it is female, my daughter, the daughter of the king, then she will also be the king. I will turn her into a qualified crown prince. Many books say that a daughter will be the most similar replica of her mother. Then she will be my strong opponent and she will understand me better than Qinao.

Cultivating an opponent for yourself sounds interesting. Two months later, it will have its end, or its beginning.

Irene's fingers twisted the page, she couldn't connect herself with the "it" in the diary. Of course, she already knew the result two months later.

There was no record of her for another two months. Even after getting the results, Isana had no special reaction.

[It is female.]

Just this one sentence.

After this sentence, she was never mentioned again.

But more and more of the stories were about Banten, who had begun to win over the powerful and prepare to seize power. Countless conspiracies and decisions were interspersed in the diary, and in the end, Isana began to use abbreviations to replace specific names and events. This made Irene realize that there was a traitor around Isana.

This diary ends.

Irene closed the diary in her hand and breathed heavily. She didn't dare to look at the last diary, because after that diary ended, her mother died.

Isana, who is tough, calm, restrained, absolutely rational, and uses emotions for her own benefit, becomes her mother who is forced into a desperate situation and ultimately chooses to sacrifice her life to the Beast God.

How it became like that, she didn't understand.

Irene sat on her knees with her eyes closed, her hands reaching forward.

She touched the notebook. The style of this notebook was different from the previous ones, and it was not as thick. Tears seeped out of her eyes.

She was willing to be used by Isana, she was willing to be the crown prince, she was willing to be the king, and she is now...soon to be the king.

Although she didn't know, but after all the twists and turns, had she fulfilled Isana's expectations?

Irene slowly opened her eyes. The cruelty of reality was that some things were already history, and she could only accept it. There was no other way for her to do so.

She looked at every word carefully. But this diary is special. Isana is recording her daily mood. She no longer records her political thoughts, but ordinary daily life.

In these daily moments, she saw changes in Isana.

【She has always been very obedient and has not caused me any trouble. This shows that she will be a well-behaved child. But I don't need her to be well-behaved.

I need her to be excellent, cunning, eloquent, naughty, and never give up. If she is my daughter, she must become a part of my glory. If she can't, I will send her to an ordinary family. I don't need a worthless daughter. 】

[I will sacrifice her for Ruyou. She has no thoughts now, she is just a piece of meat in my body, I have the right to execute her. ]

[Brahim will not be a good father. Just as I will not be the good mother they expect. She should not have her father's weaknesses, she is mine. ]

[Power will change. There are too few options in the royal family of Ruyou. She is not Brasim's, and Brasim cannot pass on his weakness to her. She should inherit everything from me. ]

What Isana wrote was fragmentary and vague. There was too little information about her. She only knew that Banten was approaching step by step, and her father was a puppet who could only tolerate it except for panic.

Isana realized that she was most vulnerable when Banten took action. When would she be most vulnerable? During childbirth.

[She probably can't see this world. She came at the wrong time. Of course, it's not her fault. But my troubles have become more serious.]

Isana thought about ending her life directly, but too much time has passed. If she does it now, Isana's body will suffer irreparable injuries, and her life may even be in danger.

So Isana prepared a trap.

【She must be worthy. Her death is equivalent to the death of Banten. She will bring me victory, and I will pray to the Beast God for her.

I will not feel guilty. She is mine, she will bring me glory, this is the meaning of her existence, this is the value she should realize. 】

The back of the diary became very messy.

The blank title page made Irene a little confused. If Isana had already realized that Banten would take action, if Isana had already made up her mind to use her death to put Banten on trial, then why did Isana sacrifice herself for her in the end? What went wrong?

Erin flipped through the diary and found the pieced-together, sticky-note text in the back.

The creases were smoothed out and the fragments were carefully glued together. It was not difficult to guess that Qin Ao had restored it after finding it. At that time, Isana was forced into a desperate situation, and she could not pass on this information.

[Lord Beast God, is your will correct? 】

[Without me, she would not be able to be better than me, and she would have to suffer a lot. That would be more painful than death.]

【Pity. I pity her.】

I am not her glory. She is mine. She can do better than I can.

【destiny.】

[If that is the future, then I can choose her. ]

That would be cruel to her.

[What will she do? I wonder. She is weak now. Survival is her job, but she doesn't need to worry about it.]

How do you compare us? She'll do better than me? Princess, lord, king. It's not the same.

[She will create the Luyou I want. She will replace my career and become my glory.]

[Master Beast God, I see it. I will make a choice... I have already made it. I have made the choice a long time ago.]

【Erin. Qin Ao, I know you will find my last words. Qin Ao, you have always been my enemy, but at the same time, you are also my only trusted friend.

Please, at all costs, let my daughter be called Irene. She can only be called Irene, that is the name I gave her.

She must be the king. She must do better than I do. If she doesn't, then my sacrifice is meaningless. She will be my glory. One day, when you see her, you will see me.