Team villains except me

Memories are a soft and tough cocoon.

Even though the body has broken free from the memories, the spirit still remains there and cannot escape.

Nolvia looked at Garcia, who was squatting on the ground with his head in his hands and trembling, and finally noticed something unusual that she had not noticed before.

Garcia had been following Huett in the first half of the week, and Norvia heard from Huett about the broken gold cup. Norvia was not surprised by Garcia's evasion and retreat, as she knew that Garcia was an exceptionally cowardly person.

Such cowardice is acquired. Norvia understands the powerlessness of being isolated and helpless for a long time. She can persist because she is already an adult and has the experience of growing up.

This is why she sometimes seems so contradictory. Her memories of her past life conflict with her mother's teachings in this life. That world without magic shaped her basic three views, but the two worlds operate in different ways.

The most different point is that the cornerstone of this world is the gods. Before the gods fell, they were equivalent to the monarchs of various countries. They were omniscient and omnipotent and could directly intervene in the future development of mankind. They did not rely on believers to exist. If the gods disappeared, the world would collapse directly.

The gods constructed this world, and the life forms under the gods support this world. In other words, the gods and believers complement and depend on each other.

From the present world we can trace back to the past world.

People are the same.

Norvia could see from Menillo's current state how her mother had protected Menillo. Menillo sometimes seemed strong and willful, which was part of her character, and this part came from Carol.

Because Meniluo only showed this state when she was around. Meniluo didn't know what attitude to take towards her, so she just imitated Carol.

but……

The mother that Norvia knew was not like Carol Leliel, whom Menillo had imitated. But Norvia did not reject it, because she could also feel a strange sense of intimacy.

This feeling made her certain that her mother was once the rogue, willful, and powerful blue-tailed mermaid Carol Larielle that Menillo and Gonia described.

But she couldn't believe that the almost perfect grandfather Garcia talked about was real.

Garcia is very inconsistent. He has no stable personality. Sometimes he acts really innocent and kind, but sometimes he acts particularly... bad.

Considering Garcia's wood magic, Nolvia even suspected that the "grandfather" Garcia mentioned was also some kind of illusion.

Because a drunk man suddenly appeared at the place where she and Garcia worked, Garcia squatted on the ground, hugged her head, and trembled all over as a conditioned reflex.

This obvious post-traumatic stress reaction was not something Garcia could fake now. Garcia hid under the table skillfully, and then he glanced at Norvia with his trembling, confused dark green eyes.

Almost instinctively, Garcia quickly pulled Norvia under the table, pushed Norvia against the wall, and firmly guarded himself in a position where he might be pulled out.

This chain reaction was enough to make Norvia doubt Garcia's "grandfather". After coming out from under the table, when Norvia asked Garcia why he did this, Garcia looked back at Norvia in confusion, not understanding what she was talking about.

Garcia completely forgot what he had just remembered.

This change leads to two possibilities.

First, Garcia's grandfather was an alcoholic lunatic, and the grandfather Garcia mentioned was a figment of his imagination.

Second, Garcia is not a descendant of the spider. The story he tells is not his own.

Norvia thought about these two possibilities for a long time. She was still a little absent-minded when she went to meet Irene in Ruyou.

Irene was eating the ice cream Norvia brought, and she knew that Norvia was working with Garcia just now. She easily saw that Norvia was abnormal, and she thought that Norvia already knew Garcia's past.

"Did he tell you?"

Irene asked this, but she saw Norvia's confused expression. Irene paused, and Norvia's reaction didn't seem to indicate that she knew anything.

Irene held the spoon in her hand, not knowing how to start. She had investigated Garcia in the beginning, and although it was put on hold for a long time because of Fiana's words, it didn't take much time to restart.

Now that Garcia has become their instructor, she wants to make sure Garcia is harmless.

Because Garcia looked weak. She knew how many people she had deceived with her weak appearance, so she didn't trust Garcia.

"...Erin, is there something wrong with Garcia?"

Norvia turned serious.

Erin stirred her ice cream with a spoon, unsure of what to say.

"... Mr. Garcia, there's nothing wrong with him. No, there's something very wrong with him... How should I put it..."

Irene put down the spoon and covered her head in distress. She thought for a long time and finally decided to speak out. Her voice was muffled.

"… Mr. Garcia's grandfather died when he was eight years old. Mr. Garcia's grandfather originally asked a friend to take care of Mr. Garcia, but that friend… started drinking a lot because of the heavy blow, and he treated Mr. Garcia very badly after drinking.

Then, originally, Mr. Garcia's grandfather left him a sum of money for him to go to school, but Mr. Garcia chose to drop out of school and used the money to maintain "Angel Wings".

So, Mr. Garcia has not been to school since he was eight years old. "

This explains why Garcia cannot integrate into society. He has no normal social life, no friends or family. He does not know how this society works. He can only pray and use his suffering as a means of socializing. His personality is not sound.

Irene's voice was a little unsteady.

"That friend would beat up Teacher Garcia. Because he didn't have a job, and Teacher Garcia had invested all his money in Angel Wings, so that guy would take Teacher Garcia to steal. Once they were caught, that guy would say it was all Teacher Garcia's fault. He would beat Teacher Garcia very hard, so that the owner of the store who was stolen from would think it was bad luck. ... That guy was really bad.

But that person disappeared in the end. No one knows why he disappeared, and then Teacher Garcia began to live alone. According to Teacher Garcia’s neighbors, since the alcoholic disappeared, Teacher Garcia no longer went out with bruises on his face.

Irene quickly put the slightly melted ice cream into her mouth.

"…I don't know where that person went. I suspect he stole the money from our house and ran away! After that person disappeared, Mr. Garcia didn't go out for a long time. When Mr. Garcia went out again, he looked as pale as a ghost and was so thin that he was dying. He must have been starving to death."

Norvia's blue eyes trembled.

So, Garcia’s grandfather really existed, but after his grandfather, another person broke into Garcia’s life. Some of the characteristics that Garcia shows now may belong to this person who appeared and disappeared later.

Everything is explained.

Garcia was afraid of drunkards, afraid to make mistakes, ignorant of the ways of the world, expecting someone to save him, selling his own pain...all of these had their sources.

Garcia is a calamus that grew up in a deformed education. He was isolated from society, and the only adults he could come into contact with were drunkards who would beat him up. The gentleness and beauty that his grandfather taught him by example could not cover up the fierce reality. Garcia must have compromised, so even if he later wanted to overturn everything that the drunkard had brought him, his habits still exposed part of his past.

Garcia never said that he had such a past, as if it had never happened. In Garcia's narration, he felt from the bottom of his heart that he had started his own life after his grandfather left.

Garcia had erased the drunk's existence from his memory.

In a way, Garcia is strong, because if you live with pain, you will get used to it, accept it, and finally regard it as a kind of happiness. But Garcia chose to forget.

But what happened was still deeply engraved in Garcia's body. He didn't dare to make a mistake, he didn't dare to admit "I made a mistake", he didn't want to be misunderstood, and when he saw the drunkard's reaction, he still hid, hiding in the corner between the table and the wall.

Because these actions are associated with pain, making mistakes is equivalent to being misunderstood and being punched and kicked, and in Garcia's subconscious reactions, these actions already have consequences when they occur.

So Garcia resisted, feared, and escaped.

Perhaps Garcia himself did not understand why this happened. He had forgotten all of his worst memories, but his body instincts still troubled him, and he could only attribute it all to his own cowardice.

His past memories were inflamed and cracked. But he had thrown this memory away where he couldn't find it, so he couldn't clean the wound, and there was no way to heal it.

But does this mean that Garcia needs to retrieve the memories that are so painful that he has to forget them?

This is not for them to decide.

Norvia lowered her eyes, not knowing how to describe her current dilemma. Moreover, what made her feel particularly difficult was the drunkard who suddenly disappeared.

If the alcoholic showed up at this time, Garcia, who was now actively trying to make changes, would destroy himself.

God pushed Garcia in front of her, and she still has no intention of saving Garcia, but she cannot watch Garcia go to death, she will definitely pull Garcia with her - is this what God wants?

It would be better if God did not use such despicable means to use Garcia's collapse and despair to make her have a deeper connection with the world.

Nolvia looked worried and asked Irene.

"Erin, did that person never appear again after he disappeared?"

Irene had finished her ice cream. She put the spoon away contentedly and lay back happily in her chair.

"Hmm! I think he's dead! He'd spend all his money on drinks, and if he'd gotten away with a lot of money, he'd be drunk in the tavern!

Even if he is not dead now, he will not live well~"

Irene spoke sweetly of her ill will towards the drunkard. She did not think alcohol would make a person violent, unless the person was violent. Under the influence of alcohol, the constraints of reality and morality were reduced, and the violent factor that had been stirring for a long time was released at this moment.

So, being drunk is just an excuse. Thugs are thugs, and alcohol itself is innocent. Alcohol does not scream "Go and beat someone up." Teacher Garcia is also innocent.

Irene stood up and rushed towards Nolvia.

"It's okay~ If that drunkard shows up, I'll make him faint! He can't hurt Mr. Garcia, and Mr. Garcia won't hurt us either. Don't worry! We're going to see Menillo's opera tonight! I've never seen it before~

"Nolvaya, your mother is really amazing. She seems to know a lot of people, and those who know her care about her very much... So is Meniluo the same as Gonia?"

Nolvia caught Irene and touched her furry ears, speaking gently.

"Yes. Menelo and Gonia are both people my mother cares about very much. My mother lived with them for a long time."

"Will Menelo like us as much as Gonia?"

"She will...she will, Irene. She will like us."

Norvia sensed the same expectation from what she said as Menillo. Menillo expected her to be like Carol, and she expected Menillo to represent her mother.

If Menillo was anything like her mother, she would have loved her teammates.

……

“I love your reactions.”

Menillot's opera was over. When Norvia came on stage to give Menillot flowers, Menillot tilted her head and whispered this in Norviat's ear.

The light on the stage was soft. Meniluo was wearing a blue dress, her long white hair sparkled like crystal, and her sharp eyes - the shape of Meniluo's eyes was beautiful, but it didn't make people feel strong or uncooperative.

What makes Meniluo look particularly domineering is her eyes. She rarely looks at people directly, and even if she does, her eyes are always filled with a hint of dissatisfaction and contempt.

But at this moment, under the flickering lights, in the center of the stage, Menillot smiled at her with soft eyes.

Menillo looks like Carol. Gonia said that Menillo and Carol look alike. But Norvia didn't think so, because her mother was very gentle. But now, Norvia knew why Gonia said so.

Norvia stared at Menilo, and the flowers in her hand fell to the ground without her noticing.

Norvia stepped forward and hugged Meniluo tightly.

"……I miss you so much."

I really miss you, Mom.

Meniluo was stunned for a moment, then she hugged Norvia back. She hesitated for a long time, then spoke softly.

"...I miss her too, Nolvia."