Soft temptation

63.

Zhou Yuetian continued to walk around.

He didn't know how long he had been walking around there, as if unconsciously.

He really didn't know where to go.

I really don't know where she will appear.

He seemed to know very little about her.

64.

Zhou Yuetian finally saw Lou Ruan again.

At the door of Xu's house.

She got out of the car and stood with Xie Yanli, still smiling at him with her head up.

Those eyes that have been looking at him will also look at others.

Whoever smiles at him all the time smiles at others too.

Zhou Yuetian went forward without thinking, and he grabbed her, his voice almost pleading, "Ruan Ruan, do you still want me."

Subconsciously, he knew she wouldn't want him anymore.

But when he grabbed her, it was still like a drowning man grabbing driftwood.

He has tried very hard not to look at the person next to her, but the presence of the other person is too strong to be ignored.

Zhou Yuetian heard her calmly say that she was married, and almost blurted out, "So what if you are married, you can still get divorced if you are married."

In the past, Zhou's father had many people outside, and what he hated the most were people like Zhou's father who disrespected marriage and destroyed other people's families.

But he seems to have become that kind of person.

He couldn't control his emotions, said a lot of things he shouldn't say, and heard her say a lot.

She says she doesn't like him now.

She said that it was true that she liked him very much before, but she doesn't like him now.

She said she doesn't like him at all now.

She said, don't be reluctant, get out of the car, Zhou Yuetian.

……

65.

Zhou Yuetian walked quietly on the road, like a ghost of an accidental death, walking the path of his life step by step repeatedly.

He quietly walked through the crowd, through the streets and alleys, and walked to the door of Yizhong.

Standing here again, not with them, without her, just him.

Zhou Yuetian stood there watching for a long time, then turned around in a daze, until the car passing by made a sharp whistle.

He raised his head in a daze, as if he had suddenly woken up.

The phone in his pocket vibrated violently.

Zhou Yuetian lowered his head in a daze, it was a call from the hospital.

66.

Mother Zhou died.

suicide.

When he was standing at the door of No. [-] Middle School.

The nurse said that she was sober and calm all day long, she didn't cry, and she didn't ask for boiled eggs.

Zhou Yuetian took one last look at her, she was lying there, looking very quiet, the corners of her mouth were even slightly upturned:

"Mom, why?"

His voice was rough and hoarse, "Why?"

Why was he sober all day today, yet he left without even calling him.

Zhou Yuetian finally couldn't bear it, and sat on the ground against the cold iron bed and began to cry. His lips trembled slightly, and his crying was subdued.

67.

After Zhou Yuetian walked out, the nurse handed Zhou's mother's mobile phone to him:

"Madam seems to have written something in the memo."

Zhou Yuetian took the phone, sat in the hospital corridor and opened it. There were three memos in it.

【Xiao Tian, ​​mom is so tired】

[They all said that Lou Ruan couldn't leave you, but in fact, mother knew that it was you who couldn't leave her even more,

Mom, I'm sorry...]

Both of these are from yesterday.

Today there is only one.

【Xiao Tian, ​​mom is tired, don't be sad】

Zhou Yuetian's tears fell drop by drop on the phone screen. He lowered his head and covered his face, crying from his fingers little by little until he couldn't control it anymore.

68.

Zhou's mother's funeral was very simple and there was no large-scale announcement.

Father Zhou didn't come, and Zhou Yuetian didn't call either.

He stood in the cemetery and turned his head. Looking at the people who came to see Zhou's mother, several girls were crying.

They are all students sponsored by Zhou's mother during her lifetime.

Zhou Yuetian asked the person who took care of Zhou's mother to ask for a list of Zhou's mother's funding, and found that she not only sponsored several female students, but also had been doing girls' lunches and donating sanitary napkins.

He thought of his mother who said forcefully to let him get married at the beginning, and then she could do whatever she wanted like Zhou's father after marriage, and thought of her crying and eating boiled eggs in the hospital ward, her eyes became sore again, and she turned around with those lists. find a pen.

The pen that Lou Ruan gave was placed in a conspicuous place. He opened the cap to sign, and the ink was intermittent.

He wrote his name stroke by stroke, his knuckles sore.

He seemed to have never understood her.

He loves her, but he also thinks that she has no self-esteem, as others have said, she will only work hard to please her husband with her face and figure, even if she knows that there are people outside, she will turn a blind eye and refuse to divorce.

He hated her for being a mess in her own marriage. She obviously should have spurned a person like her husband, but she also wanted to turn her son into that kind of person.

Zhou Yuetian lowered his eyes and wrote the last stroke.

This pen seems to be completely unusable.

Mom, you are right, in fact, I can't do without Lou Ruan even more, but I seem to have lost her...

69.

September.

Zhou Yuetian received a WeChat message from Cheng Lei.

It's a video from Lou Ruan's wedding.

The guests playfully told their stories.

He looked at them quietly and said how good Xie Yanli was to her, and watched them say that Xie Yanli was seasick because he was afraid that she would worry and insisted on buying her a gift.

Watching them say he lined up to get Strawberry Bobo.

Watching them say he always goes to the florist to buy flowers.

Finally, watching them say she painted him.

The video has finished playing.

Zhou Yuetian thought in a daze, it's a pity that she didn't get a picture of her wearing a wedding dress.

70.

September tenth.

Zhou Yuetian went to the Beijing North Art Museum alone.

He looked pale at the paintings on the wall.

There are people coming and going around, and the sound is very clear in the quiet space.

Zhou Yuetian's gaze slowly moved down from the meandering face in the painting, and landed on the painting information in the corner.

【The name of the painting: loveoflife

Chinese name: love of my life

Painter: Lou Ruan

Year of Work: 2023

Original material: Watercolor on paper

Painting size: 781x1086mm

Collection: China Jingbei Art Museum]

Zhou Yuetian's eyes fell on the two characters after the painter, and he must have looked at them for a long time.

He turned around and looked back at the past, not knowing where the details started to go wrong.

Maybe it was the moment when he was complacent, proud that she would like him even if he didn't like her.

Perhaps it was the first time when he was hesitant about who would send the message first, and he hesitated not to take the initiative.

Maybe it was the moment when she said she only liked Zhou Yuetian and was unmoved, maybe it was the moment of every temptation, pull, hesitation, choice, and reluctance to speak...

One step wrong, step by step wrong.

Until she leaves him completely, draws another person's face, and names it "The Love of My Life"

He used to think that she would never leave him no matter what, he thought he was the most important person to her.

He is so self righteous.

The moment they met, the moment she stood at the entrance of the alley and threw the umbrella, he was the one who messed up his fate.

As if the gods were merciful, they stretched out a hand towards him, but he didn't grab it.

(Zhou Yuetian's episode ends.)