The boss always wants to smack me

Cai Xiaotang was nervous and didn't speak, only the sound of her heartbeat remained in her ears.

And the more you want to control, the more rigid your body becomes.

Really... this time I really want to be with Li Xiao...

can she...

Is it really okay...

The hot body is close to each other. Although he is wearing a swimsuit, it seems to be not much worse than not wearing it.

"Relax……"

Li Xiao gently kissed Cai Xiaotang's neck, coaxing her in a low voice.

But then he found that Cai Xiaotang's eyelashes were trembling slightly, and the center of his brows was also tightened, as if... as if he was enduring something.

"Little sugar?"

Li Xiao tentatively called her softly.

Cai Xiaotang didn't seem to hear it, but was panting nervously and hurriedly, and fragmentary images kept flashing in his mind.

The corridor where the sun does not shine, the closed door, and the intermittent crying of a woman coming from inside.

Cai Xiaotang saw his young self standing outside the door, staring at the room blankly, without moving for a long time.

The crying in my ears seemed to be getting louder, mixed with messy sounds.

But at this moment, an untimely voice broke in.

"Cai Xiaotang!"

Li Xiao's nervous voice suddenly broke the scene in front of him.

Cai Xiaotang opened his eyes abruptly, and at some point a mist had gathered in his eyes.

Li Xiao felt a pain in his heart, he bent down hurriedly and carried her down from the hot spring pool, hugged her into his arms, and patted her on the shoulder to comfort her, feeling a little worried in his heart.

He was right.

Just now... her eyes were full of fear.

But... why?

Today is obviously Xiaotang's initiative to think...

Cai Xiaotang was lying in Li Xiao's arms, her heart was still pounding, and she hadn't recovered from the emotion just now.

Unexpectedly, it was interrupted under such circumstances again, and her expression couldn't help becoming a little helpless and tangled.

Sure enough... it's still the same.

There was no way she could make it to the last step.

But Li Xiao...

Cai Xiaotang's ears burned, and she felt the scorching heat on her thigh, feeling a little sorry.

"Li Xiao..."

She distanced herself slightly, and looked at the person in front of her apologetically.

"Ok?"

Li Xiao snorted softly, seeing that her expression had calmed down a bit, he stretched out his hand to stroke her hair, and asked gently: "Do you feel better?"

"Um……"

Cai Xiaotang pursed her lips, her eyes were full of apology, but also a little hesitant.

Do you want to tell him about the past?

That was the thing she wanted to forget the most, even her brother didn't know...

Cai Xiaotang was thinking about it when he suddenly heard Li Xiao hesitantly say: "Xiaotang, are you... afraid of me?"

He considered his words and asked a little cautiously.

Cai Xiaotang was taken aback when he heard the words, and suddenly felt even more sorry.

It's the second time for both of them...

If this continues, Li Xiao's self-esteem will probably be destroyed by her!

Don't men really care about such things...

Cai Xiaotang took a deep breath, and suddenly took his hand resignedly.

"Don't think too much, it's not your fault, it's my fault..."

She spoke in a low voice, and in the middle of speaking, she paused for a moment, and then continued: "I... have some psychological shadows about this kind of thing..."

"shadow?"

Li Xiao's brows furrowed even tighter in an instant, and he instantly thought of ten thousand possibilities.

There's a shade to this kind of thing...

Could it be that she was hurt in the past?

A dark light flashed across Li Xiao's eyes, and he clenched his fists tightly.

"Sit down and talk..."

Cai Xiaotang pulled Li Xiao to sit down in the hot spring.

Feeling that the whole body was surrounded by hot water, I felt a sense of security, and continued to speak slowly: "Didn't I tell you before, my mother was forced by my father and used some means to be raped by him." Did you bring it back to Mu's house?"

"Ah."

Li Xiao nodded, and was a little puzzled to hear her mentioning this matter.

"Hey……"

Cai Xiaotang sighed, and suddenly closed his eyes.

Li Xiao didn't urge her either, and quietly waited for her to adjust her mood.

half an hour-

Only then did Cai Xiaotang speak again.

"That kind of coercion... It happened from time to time when my mother entered Mu's house until she passed away... When I was very young, once, I heard crying from my mother's room..."

Li Xiao's expression changed, his eyes widened slightly, and he already had a premonition of something.

Cai Xiaotang's face was calm, only her eyes showed some fragility and helplessness that she rarely exposed to the eyes of outsiders.

As if thinking of something, she lowered her eyes slightly and stopped again.

After a few seconds, he continued: "I didn't know what happened, so I wanted to go and have a look, but the door was locked, and no one answered when I knocked on the door. I was worried, so I stayed at the door, and she cried. For a long time, I stood outside for a long time. Later, I saw an old man coming out of the room. I wanted to go in to see my mother, but he called the nanny and forced me back to his room..."

"Little Tang, stop talking..."

Li Xiao held her hand.

Only then did she realize that her fingertips were icy cold despite being in warm water all the time.

Cai Xiaotang shook his head.

She forced a smile on her face, casually took the wine glass she had put aside just now, and took a sip.

"I've never told anyone these words, even my brother and baby don't know."

Li Xiao was taken aback when he heard the words, and couldn't help being a little happy, but more, he felt distressed.

Cai Xiaotang adjusted his mood, and then pretended to be relaxed again.

"I was not very obedient since I was a child, so from then on, whenever I saw the old man looking for my mother alone, I hid outside and eavesdropped. Every time, I heard my mother crying, and several times, after the old man left I sneaked in to find my mother, she knew I was outside the door, and warned me in horror not to come again next time, and forbade me to quarrel with that old man, making me pretend I didn’t hear anything, and then..."

"Later, as I got older, I accidentally found out why my mother was at Mu's house. I also understood what happened in that room, why she was crying, and why I was not allowed to go to the old man to argue. I felt very disgusted... My biological father turned out to be such a person, and even for a while, I felt that my heart was twisted..."

"I started to be hostile to all the opposite sex. I felt that having an intimate relationship was the scariest thing in the world. At the worst time, even if someone of the opposite sex accidentally touched me, my skin would be allergic in patches. Later, I felt that this was not right Okay, so I forced myself to see a psychiatrist, squeezed the subway to commute on purpose, it can be regarded as... forcibly desensitized, and then I really recovered. I thought I was all right, there was nothing wrong with me, and no one could see that I had any problems, but..."