I really don't want to be a teacher

"...I stood by the yard and looked at the child standing in the yard. It was a boy, a few years younger than me at that time. After the old lady walked into the house, the boy stood in the yard In the middle, he didn’t move any more, turned his body sideways, as if he was listening to the movement on my side, his eyes were always squinted and closed, the boy was blind.”

"... I stood by the yard and looked at the boy standing in the middle of the yard. Not long after, the old lady came out of the house again, holding a thick suit in her hand. She smiled and took the old suit The clothes were handed over to me, and I was asked to wear them so as not to catch a cold."

"... I looked at her, just stood by the edge of the yard, didn't move... She said a few words to me again, holding the old lady by the skirt, and the boy who followed the old lady walked up to me. Said something in a low voice, let me hold it... I took the suit, looked at the old lady, and didn't move... She looked at me, followed closely, and looked at me again, Then she smiled and said to me, let me go into the house and change my clothes, there is some hot water in her house, let me take a shower and change my clothes..."

"...she greeted me, and the boy also imitated his grandma, and said aloud..."

The middle-aged woman was talking, a smile gradually appeared on her face, her eyes were a little dazed, she looked into the distance,

"... At that moment, I felt a strange feeling in my heart, as if it was very comfortable... I just followed the old lady and the boy into the house... She poured some hot water for me, and gave me water in the backyard. I found a place to take a bath, I took a bath there, and put on the suit she gave me... It was so warm, it seemed never so warm, it seemed never so comfortable..."

"...I changed my clothes and walked out of the house... The old lady and the boy were in the backyard. The old lady was washing the dishes, and the boy wanted to help, but because he couldn't see, he intervened. Not getting started, the old lady smiled, and after washing the bowls, she handed them to the boy one by one. She was patient, and every time she handed over a bowl, she would tell the boy where to put the bowl. place……

When she saw me coming out after taking a shower and changing clothes, the old lady took the boy, smiled, greeted me, and walked towards me again.

I couldn't help but buried my head down, I didn't want her to see my face, I couldn't help being afraid in my heart, afraid that she would see my face and show disgust..."

The middle-aged woman was talking, her eyes became more and more dazed, absent-minded, she couldn't help showing a smile on her face,

"... She came up to me, saw that I didn't respond, and looked at me. She should have seen the look on my face, but she didn't say a word. She just asked me with a smile, would you like something to eat? Said, before she and the boy cooked some food left in the pot, if I want to eat, she will warm it up for me..."

"...I raised my head and looked at her. She looked at my face with a smile on her face. I hesitated and agreed... She turned around and went to the kitchen to heat up the meal. The boy took her clothes, I also followed in, I hesitated, and followed into the kitchen.

The boy sat in front of the stove, groping for the firewood behind him, and when the old lady lit the fire, he added some firewood to the stove from time to time.The old lady is busy, cooking.I stood by, not knowing what to do..."

As she spoke, the eyes of the middle-aged woman softened a lot, and there was a smile on her face.

"...The boy turned to the side curiously while burning the fire. He asked me, 'Where did my sister come from?'" Did you see snow on the mountain when I came here? looks good'

He heard my voice earlier, he called my sister... I answered him, I said it was snowing on the mountain... He asked me again, what does the snow look like, is it very beautiful... I He said it was white, it was white, it was white everywhere...it was beautiful...he asked me again, what is white...then before I could answer, he focused his head again and said, it must be beautiful, Because both my grandma and I said it looks good...

I was standing by the stove door, talking to him, he always seemed to have a lot of problems, but he was not afraid of me like other kids, probably because he couldn't see my face...

The old lady was right next to her, smiling and looking at me, her grandson, and us talking..."

While talking, the middle-aged woman fell silent for a while, looking out of the house, her eyes became more and more dazed,

"...When the rice and dishes were ready, the old lady helped me and brought them to the table in the backyard, handed me the bowl of rice and chopsticks, and moved a stool over for me to sit down and eat... I just stood by that table, didn't reach out to pick it up, didn't sit down...the boy reached out, groped, grabbed my clothes, and pulled me to sit down."

"...When I sat down and started to eat with my rice bowl, the old lady and the boy also sat down at the table with me...

That meal was so delicious, it seemed like I had never eaten such a delicious thing, it was even better than the food I cooked in that house before... I couldn't help but take every bite, big mouthful... That old man The wife smiled and said to me, let me eat slowly, and she will cook if there is not enough... The boy heard the movement from my side and said to me, my sister is hungry, and he is also hungry..."

"... While eating, the old lady was talking to me. She asked me where I was from, and why I was like this... I said, I am an orphan, abandoned by my parents...then adopted me My adoptive father passed away, so I came out... I lied... The old lady listened to me and looked at me, her eyes gradually became a little pitiful...

On weekdays, when someone looks at me like this, I feel uncomfortable and want to run away... At that time, the old lady pitied me, but I couldn't stop it, feeling a little comfortable in my heart... It seemed that I wanted to make her feel sorry I……"

"...At the beginning, I ate very quickly, but as I got to the end, I ate more and more slowly...I didn't want to finish the meal...I thought I could just sit there like that, talking to the old lady all the time, talking to that boy..."

"...However, that meal is still finished...but just after the meal, it started to rain again outside the house. The old lady looked outside the house and asked me to stay and wait until the rain Stopped and walked... I couldn't stop being happy... In that room, I talked to that old lady and that boy all afternoon... The most important thing was that the boy kept talking, and the boy seemed to be I am very curious about the outside world, and I am always asked a lot of questions, and I keep answering them. But I seem to like this very much, and I like people asking me questions like this..."

Chapter 651

"...In the evening, the rain began to gradually decrease. I followed the old lady into the kitchen, and together with the boy, I squatted by the stove door, helping to light the fire. The old lady was busy cutting vegetables. , washed the rice, cooked the vegetables in the pot, and put the rice on it to steam..."

The middle-aged woman was talking, with a smile on her face, and her eyes were a little dazed, as if she had seen that scene again.

At the table, the old man couldn't help being a little silent, and also looked out of the house.

Turning his gaze away, Lian Ge glanced at the middle-aged woman again, seeing the smile on the middle-aged woman's face and the softened gaze, without saying anything, turned his gaze again, and looked outside the main room far away.

"...the boy was very attentive to the fire, and kept adding firewood to the stove door. The fire in the stove was burning very vigorously, and the fire light reflected from the stove door seemed to make people very warm...in the kitchen room , me and the old lady, the boy, continued talking... most of the time it was the boy talking to his grandma, I squatted next to the boy, listening...but I couldn't stop feeling very happy..."

The middle-aged woman paused, then continued,

"...That's it, after dinner was ready, the old lady greeted me to eat, and the boy volunteered to take me to the edge of the backyard to wash my hands... That dinner was still eaten in the backyard, and the roof of the backyard was also covered with tiles. The tiles, the rain outside was hitting the tiles... The old lady, the boy and I were sitting around the table, the lights were on on the roof, the old lady, the boy and I were having dinner and talking... …The boy was talking to the old lady, and asked me some questions out of curiosity. When he was talking to his grandma, I listened, and when he asked me, I responded...Before that, I seemed to never I have never sat at a table like this before eating..."

"...I don't know how long I ate that meal, I only know that at the end of the meal, the food in the bowl was already cold, after I finished the meal. The rain on the tiles in the backyard stopped..."

"...I don't want to leave, I want to hear the boy call me sister, ask me something out of curiosity, I want to sit around with a few people, talk and eat dinner..."

As the middle-aged woman spoke, she paused again, looking out of the main room, her gaze became more and more dazed,

"...But, the rain has stopped... That's someone else's house..."

"...I stood up, moved step by step, walked from the backyard to the main room, the old lady packed the dishes and chopsticks into the kitchen, and sent me off, and the boy also pulled his grandmother's clothes, and followed...then The old lady was talking with me, and the boy was talking to me curiously as before, and I responded... I wanted to slow down my pace, but I felt that it shouldn't be like that... so I stepped out of the main room and walked to the Under the eaves, I still couldn't help stopping... At this time, the boy who was next to the old lady spoke first... He said, "Sister, stay a little longer, I still have a lot of things to say." I want to ask you a question'"

"...I couldn't stop thinking about it, so I stopped and turned around."

The middle-aged woman said, looking at the distance outside the house, her eyes became more and more dazed, she seemed to be absent-minded for a while, she seemed to be remembering, and then continued to speak aloud,

"...The old lady listened to her grandson, first looked at her grandson, then at me, as if she was looking at me, she didn't know what to look at, but in the end, she looked into my eyes, Smiling and telling me, if I'm not in a hurry to go somewhere, I can stay and stay for another night..."

As the middle-aged woman spoke, a smile first appeared on her face, followed by the smile gradually fading away, and she fell silent again.

"...I heard what the old lady said, and I happily agreed. When I heard my promise, the boy seemed very happy. He stretched out his hand and raised it towards me. I also stretched out my hand and held him. next to her, the old lady watched and smiled..."

……

"...I stayed in that house for one night. The next morning, I got up very early. When it was light, I got up and walked out of the house. I took the The long broom in the yard, cleaned the front yard... I just finished cleaning the front yard, the old lady woke up, looked at me holding the broom, walked out quickly, and greeted me, saying that I don’t need to do this ...I said nothing...

... The old lady woke up the boy, dressed the boy, took the boy into the kitchen, and prepared to make breakfast. I quickly followed, and I told the old lady that I can cook and help... She He smiled and told me that I am a guest and I don't need to help.I still insisted on helping, and she agreed to come down... After breakfast, the three of us ate together in the backyard.While eating, the boy told me that I was really good. He had studied for a long time and wanted to learn how to cook, but he hadn't learned it yet.I smiled and told him that he is still young, and he will learn slowly in the future..."

"...I helped the old lady do everything throughout the morning. At first she refused, and then, slowly, when I was cooking at noon, I asked for help. She looked at me and smiled. Nodded, didn't say anything..."

"...At night, it was getting darker and darker outside the house, and I gradually began to feel a little scared, afraid that the day would be over like this...After dinner, I helped the old lady pack the dishes into the kitchen. She washed the dishes , I also followed and said to help wash. She looked at me, then smiled, and stepped aside.

While washing the dishes, talking... There are only so many dishes that need to be washed, and they will be finished soon... I stood in the kitchen, looked into the kitchen, the stove had been wiped, the pot had been washed , the chopping board has been wiped... everything that needs to be cleaned up has already been cleaned up, I can't stop, I want to find some more things that need to be worked on, but I can't find them... At this time, the old lady looked again Put me down, and then smiled and said to me, the dishes have been washed, it's getting late, let me go to bed early... I was stunned for a while when I heard this sentence, and then I couldn't stop being happy..."

There were some smiles on her face again, but the previous horror was gone. The middle-aged woman looked in front of her and said,

"...That's it, time passed day by day, and I stayed there."

The eyes became more and more dazed, the middle-aged woman said,

"...the old lady's family, there are only her and her grandson, that boy. Her son and daughter-in-law have long since passed away, and only their mother-in-law and grandson depend on each other."

"...Every morning, I would help the boy get up and help the boy get dressed. Sometimes the boy is always a bit stubborn, and stubbornly wants to dress himself, groping on the bed to find clothes... Then, I will help the old lady make breakfast, sometimes I cook some porridge with some leftover dishes from last night, or some kimchi and pickles, sometimes a bowl of noodles, and the boy will follow me at this time to help light the fire …When the breakfast is ready, the three of them are sitting together, eating and talking, the old lady will talk about the trivial things in the neighborhood, and the boy is always curious about many things… After breakfast, the old lady I will go to the fields and do some farm work in the field. Sometimes I will follow, and sometimes the old lady will let me stay at home and take care of the boy. When I follow, I will inevitably meet some villagers. The old lady introduced , I am the boy's older sister. It's just that the way people in the village look at me sometimes have strange eyes.

In the evening, the three of them have prepared dinner, and they will gather around to eat dinner, talking about some things during the day..."

Chapter 652 Pain

"...Maybe it's because the boy can't see my face, so he won't be afraid of me, and there are few other people talking to him on weekdays. Slowly, he is getting closer and closer to me."

"...will also pull my clothes, follow me around, and ask me curiously, what sound he heard, what happened... I am very happy when he asks me, and I always try to answer him ..."

In the main room, the incandescent lamp on the top swayed down the light, reflecting the shadows of the people at the table.

The middle-aged woman looked at the outside of the half-open main room, her eyes were a little dazed, and she paused.

"...that's it, I stayed there for a few months..."

While talking, the middle-aged woman's voice stopped again, she looked outside the house, and fell silent again,

"girl……"

Beside him, the old man turned around, looked at the middle-aged woman again, and couldn't help calling out.

Turning his gaze, Lian Ge glanced at the middle-aged woman, didn't say much, then looked away, and looked into the distance.

What the middle-aged woman said happened when she was a teenager, and her current appearance has already explained many things.

"...boom, boom..."

The chilly breeze blew the half-covered door of the main room, and the door of the main room lightly hit the stool blocking the door,

The cold wind blew into the room, shaking it slightly, the middle-aged woman was placed on the table, the rising heat from the cup of tea,

The heat is getting less and less, and the tea is getting colder.

……

"... That day, when I got up, the old lady seemed to get up very early and was already busy making breakfast in the kitchen. I wanted to go to the boy's bedroom and wake him up as before.

When the boy woke up, I found clothes, helped the boy put them on, and helped him get off the bed.He pulled the corner of my clothes, and I took him to the backyard. "

The middle-aged woman was silent for a while, before continuing, the smile on her face before had faded away,

"...The old lady has already made breakfast. That morning, I ate noodles. The old lady has already filled the bowls with noodles. There are three bowls of noodles. My bowl is the largest, and there is a fried egg on each bowl. I like to eat fried eggs very much. It’s just that the chickens raised by the old lady’s family can’t lay many eggs every day. The old lady will sell some of them. .and did it that morning...

Seeing me walking into the backyard with the boy, the old lady greeted me to sit down and brought my bowl of noodles to me to follow.I sat around the table with the old lady and the boy, and started to eat breakfast as usual... I picked up the noodles and began to mix the seasonings on the noodles, and found that there was some bacon under the noodles, the old lady There are also bowl bottoms for boys... In the old lady's house, the usual breakfast is like this, which is already very good... The old lady smiled and said that the bacon was dried last year. Seeing that the weather is getting warmer, go and eat it. Cook it and eat it, so as not to spoil it.He also told me that if he didn’t eat enough, he would put a piece on the chopping board and cut some after it cooled down...

I enjoyed that meal, and the boy was also happy when he was eating...As usual, talking, me and the old lady, the boy finished his breakfast..."

"...In those few days, the weather changed quickly. The old lady seemed to have a cold and coughed badly. After breakfast, I packed up the dishes and took them to the kitchen to wash. I didn't let the old lady busy, let the old lady go to rest. Old Madam stood by the kitchen, looked at me, then went back to the backyard and sat down at the table."

"...I took the bowls and chopsticks, and started to wash the dishes with some hot water from the remaining fire in the stove earlier..."

"... After washing a bowl, I rinsed it again with clean water, turned around, and was about to put the bowl in the cupboard, but suddenly staggered and almost fell to the ground... I thought it was the bottom of my foot. When it slipped, I turned around again and continued to wash the other bowls I put in the pot, but just as soon as I picked up a bowl, my hand couldn't help letting go, and the bowl fell to the ground and broke...

Looking at the broken bowl, I couldn't help being a little scared, afraid that the old lady would be angry, so I hurriedly squatted down, trying to pick up the bowl... When I squatted down, I started to feel a stomachache, and then, It hurts more and more, it hurts more and more... It hurts more than when my father hit me, it really hurts, it hurts..."

The middle-aged woman said, with a look of pain in her eyes,

"...It really hurts, it hurts... I couldn't help it, curled up on the ground, and made a sound... The old lady quickly entered the kitchen from the backyard, saw curled up on the ground, and asked What's wrong with me... I said, I'm fine, I'll be fine later... The old lady said she would take me to the hospital, but I didn't want to go, I was afraid, I was afraid that the old lady would spend money on me, I was afraid... ...But, it really hurts, it really hurts...I clenched my teeth, trying to hold back, desperately, trying to hold back, but it hurt more and more...In the end, my consciousness seemed to be blurred from the pain Yes, I just remember that the old lady seemed to ask a neighbor to send me to the hospital..."

The middle-aged woman's face became more and more painful. I don't know if it was because of recalling the pain at the beginning, or something else.

"...It seems that I went to the hospital in the town, and I seemed to have some tests...Then, the old lady sat next to me and told me the results of the tests..."

"... She sat next to me, looked at me, hesitated to speak, and then after I asked a few times, she told me that I had cancer... During the time I came out, I stayed at the old lady's house for so long After a long period of time, I have roughly understood the meaning, I am going to die..."

With pain on her face, the middle-aged woman said.

I don’t know if it’s because of the pain at that time, or because she’s 50 or [-] years old now,

"... I listened and stared at her blankly. After a long time, I told her, let's go home... She looked at me, opened her mouth, and nodded."

"...After returning home, she asked me to lie down on the bed and rest. I didn't agree. I sat at the table in the backyard. She looked at me and opened her mouth, as if she wanted to say something... From going back to the house , she seemed to want to say something to me, but she didn't say anything... She went to the kitchen, cut up the piece of bacon she cooked earlier, and brought it out to me...

...I looked at the plate of bacon, but didn't eat it... That day, the old lady didn't go out, she sat next to me, as if she wanted to say something to me...

The next day, I still had some pain in my stomach. I didn’t fall asleep all night. When it was dawn, I got up and sat at the table in the backyard. She seemed to wake up earlier than me. The cough didn’t improve, and it was still coughing badly. , I have already sat down at the table... There is a plate next to the table in front of me, and there are many fried eggs spread out on the plate. Seeing me getting up, I greeted me to eat... I took the chopsticks and looked at She didn't speak, didn't move...

... She looked at me and finally said what she wanted to say.

She told me and asked if I could give the boy my cornea.Probably because I was going to die. "

The middle-aged woman was talking, and laughed, laughing a little crazy, laughing so hard that tears came out,

"...You said why she was so anxious, you said why she was so anxious, why..."

With doubts in her eyes again, the middle-aged woman turned her head, looked at Lian Ge and the old man, and asked aloud, saying over and over again,

Turning his gaze to the middle-aged woman, Lian Ge didn't speak.

"...Why, why are you so anxious, so anxious...Why, why did I find out..."

The middle-aged woman was talking and laughing, a little crazy.

Immediately afterwards, the smile faltered on his face,

"...I pinched her eyes out."

There was no ups and downs in tone, the middle-aged woman said.

Chapter 653 How Can You Drive Me Away?

"girl……"

In the main room, hearing the middle-aged woman's words, the old man couldn't help calling out again, followed closely, seeing the middle-aged woman's appearance, stopped his voice,

Shaking his head, the old man stood up, took the cup on the table in front of the middle-aged woman, poured some cold tea, added some hot water, and put it back in front of the middle-aged woman.

"...Didn't she want her grandson to see it? Isn't she anxious? Isn't she so anxious? Then use her own eyes."

The middle-aged woman was unaware of the old man's words, she just smiled, a little crazy, then looked in front of her and said,

"...I just don't know that it was picked out, and I haven't had time to use it yet."

Tears were about to flow out of laughter, the middle-aged woman continued, saying over and over again,

"...It's really miserable, it looks really painful, it sounds worse than when my stomach hurts...it sounds really painful..."

Under the incandescent lamp, the steam overflowing from the cup filled with hot water quickly dissipated with the cold wind blowing into the room, and the water in the cup quickly cooled down again.