I really don't want to be a teacher

I was sitting by the bed, talking with my mother... She told me that during the operation, she seemed to have another dream, dreaming that my father was still there, and our family was sitting in the main room of our hometown, eating Serving cold pork head... After she finished speaking, she turned her head and looked at me again. She told me that if I had something on my mind, I would tell her. Although she has never seen the world, she doesn’t know anything , but can still share with me... I said no.

She just looked at me, was silent for a while, and told me... When she was admitted to the hospital, there was still 30 yuan in the pocket of that dress. If something happened to me and I was not happy, I would go buy some pig heads Meat to eat, she said, I loved to eat this when I was a child, every time I was in a bad mood, I would be happy after buying some of this..."

The man said, then fell silent again,

A gust of wind blows, rolling the skirts,

"...I came out of my mother's ward, and they seemed to have got the news. They called me and told me that they helped me before, and now it's time for me to help them."

Chapter 361 Son

"...They asked me to go back to the place before."

The man is talking, looking at the river,

Under the night, the river water looks dark and thick, swaying along the river, going downstream, only the street lamps by the river, swaying some dim lights towards the river.

The sound of the river flowing, mixed with the sound of vehicles passing by on the distant bridge from time to time, and the voice of a man, rang in Lian Ge's ears.

Lian Ge looked into the distance and listened quietly.

The old monk clasped his hands together, looked at the man, and remained silent.

……

"...I hung up the phone, turned around, and looked at the mother lying on the bed in the ward through the glass on the door of the intensive care unit. She was still very weak after the operation. After I left the ward, she fell asleep. catch...

I went.According to the previous address, I went to the previous place.

He was still waiting for me at the door of the abandoned factory building, and when he saw me coming, he smiled and led me into the factory building.

He smiled and asked me, is that heart still working, but I didn't answer..."

The man spoke with a calm tone, paused, and continued,

"...It's still the operating room in the factory building. On the operating table, there is also a living person who is anesthetized.

It was the assistant who handed a knife to me. I held the knife and stood by the operating table, looking at the people on the operating table.

Seeing that I hadn't done anything, he came over, smiled and patted my shoulder, looked at the man on the operating table and told me, don't let me have too much psychological burden, this man is raised by themselves.They have been raised for a long time, but they have not been matched, and they were almost taken away for disposal. This time, they were finally matched, and two kidneys were also matched together.

Then she told me with a smile that she heard that my mother had woken up, and asked me how she was recovering, and she would be discharged from the hospital in a while.

He smiled and said, but after all, the old man has undergone surgery, and his heart is not very good, so he still has to be careful...

It is not easy for my mother to bring me up so much by herself, but she must be very proud to see that I have become a great doctor...

After he finished speaking, he just looked at me with a smile. "

The man was talking, then paused,

"...I held the knife, looked at the person on the operating table, moved my hands, and took off the two kidneys of the person on the operating table, and my hands were covered with blood.

He smiled happily, put the two kidneys into the container, and told me with a smile, that I am worthy of being a doctor, and that if he had such a son, it would be a blessing...

…They were dealing with the operating room, I was washing my hands in the bathroom, the sound from outside the door kept coming in, and the water on the faucet was constantly flowing down, but my hands seemed to be unable to be washed clean…

He came in, handed me a few wads of money, more than before, and asked me to accept it, and then left with the container containing two kidneys... When I came out of the bathroom again, in the operating room, It has been tidied up, the people on the operating table, and the splashed blood are all gone... I changed back into my clothes and left there, but I still feel the smell of blood on my body..."

While speaking, the man raised his hand, looked at it, and paused.

Putting down his hands, looking at the dark river, the man continued,

"...Back to the hospital, I got the 30 yuan from my mother's clothes when she was admitted to the hospital. At the entrance of the hospital, I bought some pork heads at a stewed meat stall...

At that time, it was already dark, and I was sitting at the door of my mother's ward, eating bit by bit..."

As he spoke, the man's voice gradually subsided, and he fell silent again.

On the side, Lian Ge looked into the distance and didn't say much.

In front of the booth, it became more and more quiet.

……

"...That's it, my mother is in the hospital, her body is getting better and better, she is no longer as weak as before, she has some energy, and she can gradually leave the bed,

From time to time, I received calls from them, and I went to the abandoned factory building, or other places... The bloody smell on my body seemed to be getting heavier and heavier. "

"Every time, they will give me a sum of money, and every time I will donate it to a charity. The staff of the charity say, I am a good person, a good person... a good person..."

The man looked at the river, murmured and repeated,

After a moment of silence, the man continued,

"...it was the third week after the operation and my mother was doing well and was getting ready to be discharged from the hospital.

I was talking with my mother in the ward. My mother was sitting on the head of the hospital bed with a smile on her face, and told me that after being in the hospital for so long, I don’t know if the prices of vegetables in the vegetable market near our home have increased. At that time, I have to go around again, buy some food at home, and I will only have food when I go home at night.

I didn't want her to be as tired as before, so I told her, in the future, I will buy vegetables and I will cook them, and she just waits to eat.

She listened to my words and told me that it's not that she can't move, she doesn't need others to serve her, she said that it's just buying a vegetable and cooking a meal, it's not heavy work, she insisted on showing me an apple peel... ..."

The man said, then paused,

"...At this moment, they called me and asked me to hurry to the old factory building I went to for the first time...I hung up the phone, looked at my mother, and said nothing.

My mother looked at me, smiled and asked me if there was something wrong.Let me go to work when I have something to do, and don't have to accompany her..."

……

"...I left my mother's ward, took off my white coat, and left the hospital. I went to the abandoned factory building."

The man looked at the dark river and said,

"... At the gate of the factory building, he was already waiting there.

Following him, I entered the factory building and the washroom.

While washing his hands, he smiled and told me that I don't need to 'get the goods' today, let me go back to my old job and save people.

I listened to his words and didn't respond.After washing my hands, I entered the operating room. "

The man's eyes were a little dazed, absent-minded, and he paused,

"... That day, in the operating room, there were two operating tables. On each of the two operating tables, lay a person. One was a middle-aged woman in her 50s and 20s, and the other was a young man in her [-]s.

The young man has been anesthetized, but the middle-aged woman is still awake and sedated. She just opened her eyes and tilted her head, looking at the young man beside her with a smile on her face. She noticed that I walked in. And turned to look at me.She looked at me, not sure if it was the sedative, calm, and said to me, 'Excuse me, doctor...thank you'"

The man was silent for a while before continuing.

"...after she was also anesthetized, the assistant next to me handed a scalpel to me, and put a case in front of my eyes.

It was lying on the operating table, the case of the young man, at the end of heart failure, in urgent need of a heart transplant... I just stood between the two operating tables, holding a scalpel, looking at the case, looking at the young man , looking at the middle-aged woman.

The man who brought me in smiled and told me that today is the time for me to do my job as a doctor.Said that this woman came to him and wanted to exchange her heart for her son.Originally, the money given by this woman was not enough, but this woman kept begging there, so he returned his kindness and agreed, agreeing to help this woman transplant her own heart to her son. Now it's up to me.

Then he smiled and told me that this time I was asked to save people, so I don’t have any psychological burden...

I listened to his words, held the knife, didn't respond, just looked at the middle-aged woman on the operating table, and that woman..."

Looking at the dark river, the man was talking, then fell silent again,

The sound of the river flowing is mixed with the sound of vehicles passing by in the distance from time to time, and the breeze blows from time to time.

Chapter 362

"...Although the operating room is quite standardized, it is far from meeting the requirements for heart transplantation. It is also very difficult to complete the operation with only me and the other people they provided.

Even if the operation can be completed, it is very difficult for the recipients to survive due to the lack of post-care and treatment... They know it very well. "

The man said, fell silent,

Looking around, it became more and more quiet.

The dark river surface is contrasted with the dim lights, and the breeze blows from time to time, swaying the shadows of the branches and leaves under the shade of the trees.

……

"...I took a knife and had a heart transplant."

The man looked at the river and continued talking.

"I took the heart of the young man's mother and transplanted it to the middle-aged woman's son..."

"...After finishing the young man's operation, I was going to re-sew up the mother's wound... The man who took me into the operating room stood beside me and told me with a smile,

Let me wait, the cornea hasn't been removed yet...they matched this middle-aged woman before.When I operate on young people, their people are removing the livers and kidneys of middle-aged women who have successfully matched..."

"...After their people left with the liver and kidneys, I stood next to the mother and sewed up her chest and abdomen... At that time, they also gave me a sum of money."

While talking, the man fell silent for a while, his eyes moved up slightly, and looked into the distance,

……

"...Leaving from that abandoned factory building, I received a call from the hospital."

the man said,

Under the dim street lights, the shaded branches and leaves by the river cast shadows on the man's body, swaying gently with the breeze,

"The hospital notified me that my mother had acute rejection after the transplantation. She had already taken medication, but the effect was not obvious, and asked me to go back to the hospital immediately..."

"...I went back to the hospital and went to see my mother in the intensive care unit. In just half a day, my mother had become weak again, and her face seemed to be much paler than before the transplant...Look at me, my mother's face She smiled, and felt a little embarrassed... She told me that she had troubled me for so long, and made me worry about it for so long, but...as if it was her fault. "

"...When I left the intensive care unit, my mother took my hand and told me with a smile. She said she didn't understand the truth, but she also knew that it was someone else's heart that allowed her to live so long. He said that if she died, she would donate her usable organs to others.

I listened to what she said, but didn't respond...I don't want her to die..."

"...but it didn't work. Although medication was used to suppress the rejection, the effect was negligible. Under the continuous rejection, her body deteriorated rapidly... This time, even the chance of a heart transplant is gone.

Even if I can find another heart donor, my mother can't afford a second heart transplant..."

The man looked at the river, said, and fell silent again.

As the night darkened, the river became more and more quiet.

……

"... That night, I stayed by my mother's bedside, and it was a rare time for her to wake up in the past few days.

She was very sad, but she seldom showed it in front of me. She smiled, looked at me, and said to me, why don't you stay in the hospital and let me take her home and go back to the hospital? Take a look in the village before.

I said yes, when she recovers, I will go back with her.She looked at me with a smile on her face... As she was talking, she told me again, telling me not to worry about her, saying that her life is over, just let me live my life well.

I was silent and didn't respond... My mother just kept talking, telling me to remember to eat in the morning, to add clothes when it's cold, and to pay attention to safety on the road when I go home late at night, saying I have been dishonest at night since I was a child, and I slept soundly at night, but the next morning, I fell asleep..."

"...I just listened like that, and my mother kept talking like that. I don't know how long it took. Slowly, my mother got tired and fell asleep, and I fell asleep lying on my stomach beside the hospital bed too... ..."

"...At night, in the early hours of the morning, I suddenly heard my mother calling me, and I woke up. After waking up, I saw my mother, already confused. She smiled on her face, opened her mouth,

Calling my name, waking me up, telling me to wake up to go to school, saying that breakfast has been served on the table for me... I was young, when I was studying, my mother woke me up like this every day.After waking me up, she will go to work in the fields again..."

The man said, fell silent for a while, and looked into the distance,

In the distance, among the tall buildings, the lights of each family are still on. It seems that a family is eating dinner under the lights, and telling interesting stories during the day.

……

"...That night, my mother died."

After just saying a word, the man fell silent again.

On the side, Lian Ge turned his gaze, glanced at the man, and didn't say much.

The old monk clasped his hands together and recited the Buddha's name again.

"Amitabha Buddha... the benefactor,"

"...Condolences."

After a pause, the old monk just said something, then fell silent.

Hearing this, the man was silent and did not respond.

……

"...After my mother passed away, I donated her liver and cornea according to her words. Then I took her back to my hometown village,

I buried her behind my house, on that mountain, with my father, so that when I go home, she can see me from a long distance..."