I really don't want to be a teacher

Hearing this, the middle-aged man was silent for a while, raised his head slightly, and looked at the darkened backyard,

"...at the beginning, no."

"After returning from that 'Shan Daxian', I gradually calmed down...Although I really want to save my daughter so that she can come back to life, but...I don't want to hurt innocent people.

After reading that secret technique book, I didn't sleep that night.

The next morning, I wrapped the secret book in a plastic bag a few times, wrapped it in thick paper, and buried it behind the house.And then, I took an apple, sat in front of Ruirui, and apologized to her... There is a way to bring her back to life, but I don't want to do it..."

As the middle-aged man spoke, he paused again,

Looking away from the backyard, lowered his head, raised his hand, and glanced at the apple in his hand,

"...Until almost a month ago, I dug out the secret book buried behind the house again."

"... That day, the apples at home were a bit dry, and I thought about going to the street to buy some apples. When I arrived in the town at noon, just as I was picking apples, a man walked past me.

I just took one look at him and recognized him. I can recognize his appearance even if it turns to ashes.

It's the beast, the beast that killed Ruirui and smiled at me, the beast that punched Ruirui to death..."

The middle-aged man was talking, then raised his head and looked at the backyard,

In the quiet backyard, it was dark, as if the sunlight through the gaps in the courtyard wall, and the incandescent lights in the main room had never really swayed into the backyard.

"...he was supposed to be detained in a special school, but he turned up here. I found out later that he had escaped.

...It's fine to run out, it's fine to run out..."

The middle-aged man said, over and over again,

Then, he paused again,

"...I bought three catties of apples, asked the apple stall owner to buy a plastic bag, put it on the outside of the apple bag, and followed...

Along the way, he looked left and right, and then he walked further and further away, and I carried the bag of apples and walked behind.

Until, the sky is getting darker and there are fewer and fewer people around, he seems to be a little lost, and his feet are getting slower and slower..."

The middle-aged man raised his hand, took a bite of the apple, fell silent again, chewing one bite at a time without saying a word,

"...At that time, it was already midnight, and he got into the mountainous area by himself. There were no pedestrians or vehicles on the road. He stopped and started to back up, as if he wanted to go back.

I also stopped, but I stood where I was, without moving. "

Raising his hand again, he took a bite of the apple. The middle-aged man chewed,

"...When he came to me, I lifted the sack containing the apples and hit him on the head... Only one of the two layers of sacks was damaged, and the apples were rotten."

"...When I got home again, it was almost dawn. I didn't go to bed. I dug out the secret technique from the back of the yard... It was sealed tightly. The secret technique seemed to be buried..."

After finishing speaking, the middle-aged man put down the apple in his hand and fell silent again. The apple that was about to squeeze out its juice was almost finished.

In the main room, it fell into silence again.

……

side,

The little white mouse squatted on Lian Ge's shoulder, hugged the apple, turned its head, looked at the dark backyard and the middle-aged man standing by the dining table,

Lian Ge didn't turn his eyes away, but raised his head slightly, looking at the sunlight shining through the courtyard wall, and didn't say much.

"...Since then, I have followed that secret technique, little by little, little by little..."

After a long time, the middle-aged man holding the apple spoke again.

"Do you really think that secret technique can bring your daughter back to life?"

Lian Ge turned his gaze to the middle-aged man, then turned his gaze back to look at the backyard, and asked in a calm tone.

Hearing this, the middle-aged man's movements paused, and he fell silent for a while,

"...I've already killed someone..." After just saying a few words, the middle-aged man fell silent again.

"How many?"

"Four. A total of six will be required, in rounds every 12 years, with a round requiring an age-matched person.

That beast happened to be the second round, and that Shan Daxian happened to be the last round... It was even worse, the fourth round and the first round. "

The middle-aged man said calmly,

"Since it's not enough, why didn't you do it just now?"

Lian Ge didn't turn his head, and said calmly.

Hearing this, the middle-aged man was silent for a while,

"... After that time, after meeting that beast, I still didn't want to hurt innocent people, at least... I didn't want to, Ruirui had a father like that... The third one was a man from a neighboring village, who happened to be The fifth round. And then... never found a suitable person.

... Time, too late. "

The middle-aged man looked at the dim backyard, his eyes were in a trance, and after a moment of silence, he continued,

"...In the village, most people, just like the people you met at the entrance of the village, sir, think that girls are just splashed water, and they are money-losing goods for other people's families. They think that if only one girl is born, they will die. Incense, offspring and grandchildren.

Some old ladies in the village were wronged when they were young. When they were young, they were forced to give birth to a boy. When they were old, they seemed to forget that they were women, just like their own mother-in-law forced themselves to start. Force his daughter-in-law to have a boy.It seemed that if her daughter-in-law didn't give birth to a son, the hardships she had suffered in the first place would be in vain... Or, they thought it was right.

A few years ago, I was able to give some money to the doctor before the child was born. When it looked like it was a boy or a girl, many families in the village would kill the child as soon as they saw it was a girl.

Don't say anything about knocking it out, but still talking coldly to the daughter-in-law, just throwing it there, ignoring it, it seems that she is pregnant with a girl, and she has some shameful disease.

After the natal family married their daughter, they didn't care about it anymore. Instead, they felt that their daughter didn't give birth to a boy for others, which made them ashamed. "

Chapter 322 Sickness

"...a woman who gave birth to a girl is treated with cold eyes in the village. Everyone treats her as if she has done something shameful, not just men, but also women.

Those who have not yet had children, and those who are pregnant, walk around her even more, as if they are afraid of getting bad luck and let her give birth to a girl..."

"...Do you think it's so important to have a boy or a girl? Is it really that important?"

In the main room, the incandescent lamp was shaking slightly, the middle-aged man said, his voice echoed in the main room,

"... That night, the dog barked very badly. Along the village road, all the dogs were barking. After my daughter... passed away, I have been sleeping in the room next to her, by the side of the road,"

After a pause, the middle-aged man turned his head, looked at the closed main room door, and continued to say,

"...At that time, I didn't fall asleep either. I heard the dog barking so loudly, so I went to the window, opened the window and took a look... Just in time, I saw Chen's daughter-in-law, from the yard, holding her head. , and walked up the mountain behind the village.

Looking behind her again, no one was chasing after her. Along the way, there was not even a single person who yelled at her. It seemed that there was only a dog barking. "

"...I just watched her walk from the yard step by step, then along the village road, towards the direction of the mountain, farther and farther away...

The daughter-in-law of the Chen family is not very old, and she married the youngest son of the Chen family for only three or four years... It just happened to be the third round...

I turned back from the window and sat on the edge of the bed for a long time, my mind seemed to be empty...After sitting for an unknown amount of time, I opened the bedroom door and went to the backyard to look at Ruirui...Here Ruirui put an apple there, didn't take anything, just opened the door of the main room and walked out...

I walked very slowly along the village road, and the dogs in the village barked even harder, but none of the villagers along the road yelled, or came out to have a look...

My steps are getting slower and slower,

At that time, I thought, walking so slowly, I might not be able to catch up with Chen's daughter-in-law...

When I walked out of the village, walked along the road on the hillside, and walked to the top of the mountain... I saw the daughter-in-law of the Chen family. She was standing on the edge of the mountain, looking at the bottom of the valley, trembling all over, crying hard, as if she wanted to jump off..."

The middle-aged man said, fell silent again,

In the house, it became more and more quiet,

At the same time, outside the house, on the hills surrounding the village in the distance, there were shouts,

"...The daughter-in-law of the Chen family, the daughter-in-law of the Chen family..."

"Huizhen, Xu Huizhen... If you hear something, please respond, and we will come to you... Chen's daughter-in-law..."

The voices of several people took over, and one of them was the voice of the old woman from before.

Hearing this voice, Lian Ge turned his gaze, glanced at the middle-aged man, and then looked at the dark backyard through the door leading to the backyard,

The middle-aged man, on the other hand, became even more silent. He didn't know if he heard the shouts in the distance, but his eyes were in a daze, looking at the backyard in a daze.

……

For a long time, the cry faded away,

The hall fell silent again.

The middle-aged man turned his gaze back from the backyard, lowered his head, and looked at the apple in his hand.

"...After that, I... gathered all the people from the third round, leaving only the first round and the fourth round."

The middle-aged man's eyes were a little dazed, he didn't know if he was talking to himself, or to Lian Ge,

"... At this time, the family next door, Yunyun's mother was found to be pregnant. Yunyun's father often rode a motorcycle, driving Yunyun's mother to the county for a checkup... But more, I still want to The doctor told them whether they were pregnant with a boy or a girl...

At this time, Yunyun would be left alone at home... Yunyun's father said that he was afraid that Yunyun would rummage at home, so before going out, he would lock the door of the main room and shut Yunyun out.

Her parents would go to the county for several hours, and sometimes they would not come back until noon, so she would either hug her legs and squat at the door, or sometimes when the wind was strong in the mountains, she would get under the mixing bucket ...

She said she likes it very much, it's small and very comfortable, as long as you get under the mixing bucket, no one can see her, and no one can touch her...

Her father was an alcoholic, and when he drank, he would lose his temper, beat Yunyun, and even beat Yunyun's mother.Yunyun's mother would not protect Yunyun, she would beat Yunyun after she was beaten, because she felt that it was all caused by Yunyun, if she was born a boy instead of Yunyun, she would not have to lift her waist, thinking that Yunyun was a scourge , the mourning star...

At the beginning, when I looked at her, I seemed to see Ruirui, both so sensible and so distressing... When her parents locked her out, I would let her into the main room, at least let her Zhe Zhefeng... Then I found out that she also likes eating apples so much, just like Ruirui...

...At that time, looking at her, I felt like I was looking at Ruirui, and being with her was also like being with Ruirui...

Until a few days ago, when her parents were not at home, I led her and asked her to sit in the main room and watch TV for a while...

That day, there were a lot of apples... I really like watching her eat apples, just like looking at Ruirui... I washed one more, peeled it for her, and put it next to her,

After she finished one.I asked her if she still eats?If you still eat it, I will peel the rest...

She told me... she smiled happily, and said to me with her head raised..."

As he spoke, the middle-aged man was silent and paused,

"Tell me, 'Yunyun is only seven years old, I can't eat that many apples, uncle, eat it'...At that time, I felt like I froze...

She was only seven years old, not like Ruirui, she is already 13 years old...she is seven years old, she is seven years old..."

The middle-aged man looked at the apple in his hand, repeated over and over again, and said,

Raised his hand, took a bite of the apple, and chewed it bit by bit,

"...Seven years old, just at the age of the first round, after this round... everything is gathered."

The middle-aged man raised his head and looked into the dark backyard,

"...Today is the last day. After we gather together, Ruirui, Ruirui will be able to live again..."

"The fourth round, are you going to fill it out yourself?"

Lian Ge turned his gaze, glanced at the middle-aged man, and asked calmly.

Hearing this, the middle-aged man paused, and just said,

"I'm right... I'm right, right in the fourth round."

"In that case, why didn't you do it just now?"

"...I, can't do it, can't do it..."

The middle-aged man was speaking, trembling slightly,

"I looked at Yunyun, as if I saw Ruirui. I can't help it. I can't help killing Ruirui twice... I'm sorry, Dad is useless, Ruirui, Dad is sorry for you... It's all my fault, it's all my fault... ..."

The middle-aged man said, and fell silent again,

Raising his hand, he took a last bite of the apple, chewing in his mouth, tears gushing from his eyes.

……

Looking at the middle-aged man, Lian Ge paused,

Turning his gaze back, Lian Ge looked at the backyard,

"Would you mind showing me your 'secret technique'?"

Hearing this, the middle-aged man paused for a moment, then stretched out his hand and groped in his pocket, as if he had always kept the book on his body.

From his pocket, he took out a wrinkled, yellowish, somewhat thin thread-bound book. The middle-aged man held it in his hand, lowered his head, looked at it, and after a pause, stretched out his hand and looked at Lian. The song was handed over.