I just want to copy books quietly

"I heard you mention it once."

Jiang Youxi's eyes were blurred, she didn't seem to be talking to Cheng Mingming, but more like talking to herself.

"My dad, or maybe he's not my real dad. Everyone in the town knows that I was born when my mother had an affair, and I don't look like my dad at all."

"My dad used to be an auxiliary policeman. It is said that he was disabled and lost his job when he was dispatched to the police. Although the unit also compensated him with some money, the money was not even enough to treat his illness."

"However, he was taken care of in the town. Later, he opened a mahjong parlor, which is actually a small casino. The police also turned a blind eye, as long as he provided some information and clues to help solve the case. , to assist in the arrest."

"He had a bad temper and liked to drink. He was beaten a lot for as long as I can remember."

"He was very fierce when he beat people. Maybe he was drunk and didn't know the severity. He beat people to death. After the beating, I always had bruises all over my body. I don't know how I survived. Every time I can still breathe after being beaten, even though my whole body hurts, I feel very lucky that I survived again.”

"At that time, I thought, I probably wasn't his own. If it was my own, how could I hit him so hard?"

"It was only later that I found out that I was not really his own. My mother stole it behind his back."

"But it's not because of this that he beat me so hard. Later, my mother gave birth to him two more, a son and a daughter. He was also very cruel to them, especially my younger brother, who was very naughty since he was a child. He beat my younger brother more than He beat me brutally, once got drunk, broke two bones of my younger brother and sent him to the hospital where he lay there for several months."

"Probably because the medical expenses that time made him feel distressed, or maybe he was afraid that he would almost kill someone, so he restrained himself later."

"My mother is a cowardly woman who just agrees with him."

"Maybe it's because she cheated in the early years and couldn't hold her head up in front of him. So in our house, my mother never dared to speak loudly. My father beat us while drunk, and she just hid and cried, and dared not even persuade him. A word of advice, she is a very low-status woman."

"But, it's her own fault. Who told her to cheat? Everyone in the town looks down on her. Even if she is beaten by my dad, everyone will only applaud her."

"But my dad doesn't beat her, never. He scolds very fiercely, and often scolds her with the most obscene and vicious words, but he just doesn't beat her. Even when he's drunk, he only beats us, not her."

Cheng Mingming looked at him with pity in his eyes.

She knew a little about Jiang Youxi's past.For example, she knew that he had an alcoholic and violent father, and that he had a bad relationship with his parents.

But it was the first time I heard him say some words.

It even shocked her.

"When I was in elementary school, I knew that my mother stole my life. It seems to be in the second grade of elementary school. It was rumored in the class, no one talked to me, and I was not played in any games. It seems that I wear a Bacteria, just pointing at my back."

"They said, look, here's the bastard."

"I heard his mother is a jerk."

"What does scratch mean?"

"Anyway, it means a bad woman."

"He was born by a bad woman, so he is a dirty thing. Don't play with him, everyone!"

"At first I was angry and in pain, so painful that I wanted to die. But after a long time, it didn't matter."

"When I was in class, I sat alone at the end of the classroom. In physical education class, other children went to play football and table tennis, and I ran alone."

"The more uncomfortable thing is the music class. Our music class has to sing in chorus and line up. But no one wants to stand by my side, and they all look at me with disgusted eyes, as if I have shit on me. So every time the music class I'll take a leave of absence from class."

"In fact, I really want to study hard and get good grades in the exam. But I don't have the mind to study. No matter how hard I try, my grades can't be top-notch."

"I don't want to go home, because at home, I don't know when I will get in my father's eyes, and I will be slapped or kicked by him."

"When I was in junior high school, my dad seldom hit me, saying that I would grow up and become a man, and he wanted to show me respect."

"It's true that he doesn't hit me too much, but if I don't do well enough, even if I don't hold the vegetables firmly, even if I make noises when I drink soup, even if I accidentally stain my clothes with ink, he will They yelled at me, scolded me for being worthless, and scolded me for being a worthless waste. They said that I was so stupid that I shouldn’t be born as a shame, and that my life was a waste of the country’s food.”

"My mother doesn't scold me very much, but she doesn't care about me too much. She has ignored me since she was a child. I thought she was indifferent, but she was really kind to my younger brothers and sisters."

"Sometimes I look into her eyes, and I can read her eyes clearly. What she thinks is: If only I hadn't born you."

"Really, if she hadn't given birth to me, her life would definitely be completely different. I heard that my dad actually doted on her before, but it was only after she cheated on her that he treated her badly. And even if he didn't treat her well , and never hit her. If she hadn't cheated, or if she hadn't left me as a scoundrel after cheating, her life would definitely be many times better."

Jiang Youxi looked at the ceiling and smiled, "Why am I talking about this, really."

Cheng Mingming was rare and gentle: "There's no need to suppress yourself, just say what you want, sister, listen."

Jiang Youxi was silent for a long time before speaking again: "So in fact, my position at home is very embarrassing. Since elementary school, I tried every means to protect myself, survive, and then leave home when I have the opportunity."

"When I was in junior high school, my dad stopped beating me, and I didn't have to think about self-protection. But I still wanted to leave home, so I wouldn't have to be scolded by him every day. I wanted to live a life of my own, nourishing and unrestrained."

"It is said that reading can change one's destiny, but I'm really not good at reading. During the senior high school entrance examination, I didn't pass the entrance examination in several better high schools in the city. If I pass the entrance examination, my parents will support me. It’s true that I’m cold, but it won’t let me lack clothes and food, and it won’t get in my way when it comes to reading.”

"Actually, they are all kind people inside. It's just because of the tricks of fate and the weakness of their own characters that they are all unhappy."

"Really, when I think about it now, I don't blame them anymore. It's just that I always have a voice in my heart. I don't want to prove anything. I just hope that one day I can tell him loudly that I am not a worthless piece of trash."

Cheng Mingming sighed softly.

She already knew what happened later. Jiang Youxi didn't go to high school and went to the city to find a job.

Later, I was lucky enough to find a musical instrument store. The owner's family is from the north, and they have played rock and roll before.

Jiang Youxi learned to maintain and maintain musical instruments for more than a year, and gradually came into contact with a little knowledge of music theory, and occasionally sang and played the guitar.

Then it happened that Huayu was casting a net to recruit trainees, and the nephew of the owner of the musical instrument shop went to apply, but was not selected.

Jiang Youxi, who accompanied him to watch the excitement, was spotted by the recruiting staff at the time because of his excellent appearance and good voice, and signed him.

That year was 2000, and Jiang Youxi had just turned 16.

"Hey, sister Mingming, have I ever told you that I used to hate music lessons so much, why did I like music later?"

Cheng Mingming thought for a while, "You never said that."

"Oh." Jiang Youxi narrowed her eyes, and that scene appeared again in front of her eyes.

It was the autumn of 1999, the leaves turned yellow, the sweet-scented osmanthus had just bloomed, and there seemed to be a long-lasting fragrance of sweet-scented osmanthus in the air.

I remember that it was still very hot, stuffy and hot.

Jiang Youxi seemed to have returned to that time, feeling the scorching heat and stickiness of the air.

The 15-year-old boy hurriedly delivered a guitar sent by a customer for maintenance to an address.

After walking for a long time, his body was drenched with sweat and it was too hot.

He raised his sleeves to wipe his sweat, and walked quickly, but carefully.The guitar he was carrying was very expensive. According to the jokes of some older seniors in the store, it was so expensive that he could go to the small country in the south called Annan and buy 10 very beautiful virgins to be his wives.

So he was careful, for fear of falling and breaking this frighteningly expensive guitar.

Small shops on the side of the road played songs to attract business, which was also a characteristic of that era.

There is the latest one-man show, Ask, At Least You, which is sung by a very sweet-looking female singer named Su Manxian, who has become popular all over the country these days.

There are older ones, Xingyu Xingyuan, DI DA DI, Notepad, etc., which are sung by a female singer named Duan Xiaochen. People say that she may be the next queen.

There is also love like tides, lovesickness and wind and rain, and the heat is still unabated at this time.

Naturally, there is also the Great Wall Glory Years of the Walker Band.

Chapter 211 Boy and rock are a perfect match

Because of his life experience, Jiang Youxi didn't like music since he was a child, and he didn't like to take music lessons.

But after working in this musical instrument store, sometimes he listened to the seniors playing some music with very good speakers, especially when they released the classic rock of the Travelers, such as shameless, but he liked it very much. He always felt that the melody and lyrics were both Wrote it in his heart.

Actually this is not surprising.

Rock is often considered to represent rebellion, rebellion, shouting, and dissatisfaction with the status quo.

The spirit of rock and roll is often seen as a complex combination of youth's self-awareness, love and peace, pleasure and indulgence, pessimism and nothingness.

So, teenagers and rock and roll are a perfect match.

It is not surprising that Jiang Youxi, who has never liked music, would like rock and roll.

Accompanied by the rhythm of the music, the young Jiang Youxi gently shook her head, swinging rhythmically with the beat.

He felt that his steps were more brisk, and the anger in his heart also had a channel to vent.

He hummed involuntarily.

"You don't need to say too much, you know exactly what you and I want to do."

"Don't care too much, don't be sad, one day you will understand me"

Infinite power surged out of his body, allowing him to bravely give the world the middle finger and roll his eyes.

Since this world never loved me, then I will sneer back!

He walked faster and faster, and finally broke into a trot.

The address to which the expensive guitar was to be delivered was an abandoned warehouse.

Jiang Youxi had a little impression of that address. Many houses in that area were written with the word "demolition" in white paint, and a circle was drawn on the character "demolition".

"Has your house been demolished?"

"Not yet, soon, soon."

"How much to make up?"

"Not many, not many, about 50 people per person."

The one who asked the question looked envious, and the one who answered the question was full of smiles.

When passing by there, Jiang Youxi often heard similar conversations.

1999 in 50 was still very valuable. In fact, it was also very valuable until 2008.

At this time, the price of houses in some better areas of the magic city is only 4000 yuan per square meter.

If there are 3 people in a family, with 150 million demolition funds, you can buy a new house of 100 square meters, and use the remaining 100 million to do business or buy stocks are good choices.

Speaking of that warehouse, it seems that the word "demolition" was also written. It was dirty and dark in my memory. I don't know why someone lives there.

He was puzzled, why did he live in such a crappy place when he could afford such an expensive guitar?

His brisk steps gradually approached the area to be demolished.

There are almost no living people around, and the residents here have moved out long ago.

It won't be long before the neighborhood is buzzing again, filled with the clicking of machinery, workers' chants, and gleeful obscenities yelling at each other over the walkie-talkie.

When 100 meters away from the abandoned warehouse, Jiang Youxi heard some music.

He could tell the drums from the guitar, maybe the bass, but he couldn't quite tell the difference between the guitar and the bass.

He couldn't help quickening his pace.

Then the singing came: "Among the crowds, there are you and me. We meet and know each other and ponder over each other."

"In the crowd, it's you and me, pretending to be decent and smiling."

"Not much to say"

Jiang Youxi is not stupid, he is not very good at reading, but he still has basic reasoning ability.

And not bad.

Of course, what he is best at is observing words and expressions.

By this time he had understood why the guitar had been sent here.

It turned out that a band was rehearsing here.

In this day and age, underground bands are still very popular.

In this part of Shanghai, there are more than a dozen famous underground bands.

It is said that the most famous one is called "Ghostface Band", which is highly praised by people.

By all accounts, Ghostface has the coolest live performance, the sexiest bass player, the craziest drummer, a talented guitarist who can write music, and finally, a vocalist with the best voice.

People are talking about it, saying that Ghostface is qualified even if it debuts, even if it can't be compared with Walker, but it is not a problem to become a famous rock band in China.

But for some reason, Ghostface has never planned to make a debut.

Since Jiang Youxi came into contact with rock music, she is also very curious and yearning for Ghostface, a legendary underground band.

Amidst the sound of music, Jiang Youxi came to the door of the warehouse.

The gates were a pair of dilapidated wooden doors with moss growing on them, the kind that would probably fall apart if kicked.

The various iron items on it were also corroded and oxidized to the point of being pitted.

The gate was ajar, and Jiang Youxi poked her head to look. There was a small yard inside, and the warehouse was further inside.

Under a dim yellow light, several people are rehearsing.