There is nothing wrong with the training method of the Justice Messenger

This was the kind of book he did hate.

The whole story is just about the painful experiences of the bullied, but there is no redemption or resistance, only despair and numbness.

This is the kind of book that Li Nian would stay away from no matter how popular or famous it is, because Li Nian's purpose of reading is not to seek punishment, and she does not like things that spread distorted values ​​and dark emotions.

Even so, I couldn't clear my mind and let go of the thoughts.

Instead, force yourself to read and think about the content.

Because Li Nian knew that this was not just a story, but also the real experience of that girl.

"Have you brought it? Let me see. The woman has already agreed."

"Yes, that's fine, but are you sure you want to see it?"

"Well, I said, I want to understand her past... I also want to understand how this girl could be so foolishly obsessed with you. I know she's not really a pure-blooded nympho. If she says she feels saved by you, she really does feel saved by you."

"…If this is what Nayuta thought and felt before, and my actions were the key to making that girl smile like she does now, then maybe I did help save her, but now...

What I don’t understand is how she could become what she is now… straightforward and cheerful. This change is too big.”

Nayuta once told Li Nian not to hate her after watching her work.

After reading this book, Li Nian...really hated the girl in the book.

Dislike the kind of submission, self-denial, and inaction.

Li Nian also had to admit that the current Nayuta had changed a lot compared to the Nayuta in the past.

It got to the point where one would suspect that she wasn't just experiencing some natural changes, but was really hit on the head.

"Because I was saved by Prince Charming."

"Don't call me that. My scalp is tingling." Li Nian handed over the sample book she brought with her, knowing that Gogen would want to read Nayuta's work for her own reasons. "Here you go. Don't say I didn't warn you if you finish reading it, san."

"I've seen all kinds of storms and waves. I've also read countless crappy books, and my poison resistance is maxed out." Wu Geng said proudly.

I have read more bad books, are they not equally toxic? The problem is that this book is not a bad work, but a genuine masterpiece. It does not try to feed you poison, but to tie you up, soak you, and let the poison seep into you from every pore.

But Wu Geng had made up her mind, and Li Nian was too lazy to scare her with such words, so she let her watch it herself. After all, she was the one who chose Nayuta. If she wanted to understand Nayuta's past in depth, then she had to go through this process.

"After reading this, if you can explain how a girl like that could become what she is now, please explain it to me. It's true that I understand Nayuta's past, but I feel even more confused."

"Hehe, I know it's hard for a straight man to understand the delicate heart of a girl."

"...I admit that's the case, but I think it's not appropriate to call Nayuta's delicate girlish heart... Well, never mind, Gosuke, you better understand."

I have already delayed last night’s writing task, and I can’t delay my spiritual practice.

But they couldn't wait until lunch break. During the break, Wu Geng tapped Li Nian on the shoulder and she woke up from her meditation. When she opened her eyes, she saw Wu Geng's face next to her, which was so gloomy that it seemed like it was about to drip with water. It was so dark.

Wu Geng handed back the sample book and said with emotion.

"Kaori Nayuta is a really good author... but the things she wrote are also really dark. You're right, I overestimated my resistance to poison."

Li Nian was not angry at being disturbed during his practice, because he knew that Wu Geng had hurried to finish reading the book and was probably flipping through it during class.

In the past, Li Nian would have reminded her that she shouldn't do this, but this time Li Nian understood her.

That book has the magic that makes people want to finish it once they open it, and they feel like they can't get out of it unless they finish it... But in fact, after finishing it, they will feel even more uncomfortable and depressed in their heart, and it is understandable that they want to find someone to talk to.

Knowing that Wu Geng was also eager to take a breath and get out of that muddy mood as much as possible, he woke himself up to talk.

Li Nian felt somewhat gloating.

"Yeah, I warned you a long time ago, you asked for it."

Kato had been observing for a while and asked curiously, "Is that Nayuta-sensei's book? Gogen-san has already read it, right? I remember it won a grand prize... but from what you guys said, it doesn't seem to be that good?"

"It's not a question of whether she's good-looking or not..." Wu Geng hesitated, but still reminded: "It's just a fact that it will only make people uncomfortable, so, Hui, you'd better not be too curious."

"...But now that you said that, I'm even more curious."

"Anyway, just don't even think about reading it...and don't buy it out of curiosity when it's published in the future."

"..." Kato looked conflicted, and it seemed that his interest had been piqued. Even if he couldn't see it now, if he saw it on the bookshelf in a bookstore in the future, he would probably buy it.

Li Nian could already imagine this "ordinary reader" who had no resistance to drugs and was particularly empathetic. He would cry his eyes out and have a terrible stomachache while reading the book, and then be depressed for about a week after that.

"So, did you get the answer to my question, Gogen?"

Wu Geng thought about it, nodded, sorted out his words, and said: "...Because I was in a similar situation with her before, I can understand that feeling."

"…How do you feel?"

"Fear, depression, anger... But unlike her, I chose to resist, while she has been enduring it."

"Something like that."

"She didn't know how to resist, she was always depressed, never felt recognized, and therefore always felt desperate... For such a person, if someone taught her to resist, guided her to vent, gave her recognition, and gave her hope... then that person would indeed be the light shining down in the darkness."

As Wu Geng spoke, he looked at Li Nian who was lost in thought.

Li Nian was silent for a while, then nodded: "I understand... Never mind, let's not talk about this anymore."

Wu Geng didn't want to talk about this. At this moment, he had the urge to take revenge on society more than ever before. He said decisively: "No, I can't be the only one suffering here. I must spread this image of despair to the world. No... spread this book of despair to more people! Share this uncomfortable feeling with everyone!"

Li Nian also felt that she should not be the only one suffering.

"Well, his ambition is commendable. Let's start with Aki and bring him into our "Despair" faction. He also wants to see Nayuta's masterpiece, then the blonde with twin ponytails, and then Kasumigaoka-senpai... Yes, good things should be shared with friends. I'm really looking forward to their expressions after reading this book, hehe."

Chapter 468: Happiness always goes hand in hand with pain

The spread of [despair] is like a virus.

Word spread from one person to ten, from ten to a hundred, and in the blink of an eye it swept the world.

The incident that became the source was later called the biggest, worst and most desperate incident in history... Just kidding.

There is only one book that keeps circulating.

After Wu Geng finished reading it, he gave it to An Yi. Unlike Li Nian and Wu Geng, this guy was not on guard at all. He was just purely looking forward to the highlight works of this issue of Phoenix Library, and he took the book happily and solemnly.

Wu Geng was not that evil, and kindly reminded him that it would be better for him to take the book back and read it in his room. However, as expected, this guy ignored him and took the book and opened it to read during class. As a result, he suffered the same fate as the previous readers, and was captured by the dark vortex and unable to escape.

As a result, he was caught by Teacher Xiaochun during class. Without the privilege of Li Nian, the classmate would naturally not be let off with a blind eye. Teacher Xiaochun was very angry and puffed up her face. She felt that her authority was challenged, and started her lecture with idiotic words such as "Can't the class taught by a mature female teacher in an OL outfit and black stockings capture the heart of the restless student An Yi?"

However, Amai was still immersed in the story, thinking blankly about the experience of the girl in the book, and tears flowed unconsciously, which made Teacher Koharu think that she had scared Amai, so she stopped preaching and aroused the resonance of her classmates, "Teacher Koharu, please don't scare Otaku's little heart, making others think that you are interested in him too." "Yes, yes, that's really too scary, no wonder it scares people to tears." In the end, she reluctantly let her go and did not let her go to Teacher Hiratsuka to receive the Iron Fist Sanction.

Afterwards, Aki came back sick to return the book, and after being instigated by Gogen's words "You should spread despair", her eyes lit up, and she turned around and went to find Sawamura. This guy also took time off to pretend to be sick during physical education class, and finished reading in the infirmary. Then he broke down and complained madly in the group, scolding Aki, as if Aki had pretended to be refreshed to push the book to her, and only picked the point of "it will move people to tears" to introduce Nayuta's work to her, which made her more expectant and less prepared. She kept expecting some twists and turns while reading the book, but she was so sad that she didn't see any hope in the end, and cried even more miserably.

Kasumigaoka has always cared about what Nayuta's works are like, as they are said to be spiritually superior to hers. Yesterday, she learned that the sample books of the two had been delivered, and she kept this in mind. After Sawamura finished reading, she went to her to ask for them and read them quickly. She had already learned from many previous experiences, and before reading, she had guessed what it would feel like just like Li Nian. She should be said to be mentally prepared. But after reading, she came to return the book with a very uncomfortable expression on her face, and sighed to Li Nian.

"Kari Nayuta-sensei's talent is truly terrifying. I understand why she was able to defeat you and win the grand prize. I also understand why Ms. Machida said that this person represents the pinnacle of sentimentality. I am convinced... The dark emotions she writes with such talent are truly terrifying. I will not go to the club meeting today. I need to take my time, sort out my emotions, and then savor this person's techniques more carefully."

Seeing everyone's reactions, Kato finally couldn't help it and asked to borrow a book to read at home. Even though Gogen's face changed drastically and he reminded her seriously, "Curiosity kills the cat!" "Don't try to open Pandora's Door!" "You're courting death!", she also firmly expressed her desire to read. Kasumigaoka then handed over the book, but the look in his eyes when he looked at her was full of pity, as if he was looking at a dead person.

Li Nian was also affected. He was unable to write anything well yesterday, and now there are muddy thoughts in his heart. He knows that due to the circulation of this book, all members of the club have been seriously mentally polluted. In this state, nothing can be discussed when they get together, so he simply canceled today's club meeting.

Nayuta's works have such magic that the emotions between the lines seem to entangle people tightly. Everyone feels extremely uncomfortable after reading her work, but everyone sincerely feels that this is a very spiritual and talented author who has written an excellent work.

It would be nice if I could write something that people in the world of the living can read.

It can make people fall into despair and numbness, just like this writer who is wrapped in darkness.

If we could use this kind of talent to spread the truth, goodness and beauty of the world and record some things that bring joy and happiness, it would surely warm people's hearts and bring them light.

But now Nayuta has walked out of the darkness of the past and seems to be able to write something like this.

Everyone felt so. Although they did not see hope or change in the book, they knew that the girl had been saved.

After school, Li Nian went straight back to Sakurasou.

Today he was in charge of preparing dinner, and as usual he bought as many things as everyone wanted to eat. When he started to busy himself in the kitchen, someone gently opened the door and walked in slowly.

"Senior..."

"Oh, Nayuta-sensei, I was wondering how long you were going to hide from me."

"Hey, he was discovered."

The person who came over was Nayuta, who had not appeared in front of Li Nian all day, which was unusual. She smiled embarrassedly and carefully observed Li Nian's expression.

"Senior, you have seen my past, right?"

"Well, not only me, but all the guys in the club have read the book."

“Hmm.” Nayuta felt a little cringe and fear, and was not happy to see the story she wrote spread: “I feel so ashamed…”

"Do you really understand the meaning of that word... But this time I can understand your thoughts. Do you think that past is hard to talk about? Do you want to cover it up?"

"Because, it's really annoying, right? That kind of past, that kind of girl, that kind of story... Senior, you also really hate me like that, right?"

Li Nian nodded decisively, "Yes, it makes me feel sick and angry. Just looking at it makes me feel depressed, and it's inevitable that I feel disgusted."

Nayuta got the expected answer, but was still shocked by Li Nian's frankness. Her nose wrinkled and she was about to cry.

Not only was she ashamed of being seen in the past, she was also afraid of incurring the dislike of the person she liked, so she avoided Li Nian and didn't dare to see him for a whole day. Only now, when she mustered up the courage, did she come to seek an answer.

With a crying voice, Nayuta said hurriedly: "I know... I am not likable at all, so I don't want you to see me... But you see, I have changed. I am no longer the me in the past. I want you to see the beautiful, lovely, sunny and frank me now. So, you can forget those things and don't regard that kind of girl as me... I will no longer write the kind of tragic stories that you don't like to read. In the future, I will write stories that you will like and smile... So, so... please don't hate me! I——"

Boom!

Li Nian cut off the fish head with a powerful knife, which also scared Nayuta. He raised his eyes and saw Li Nian's frowning gaze, as if he had made him angry, and immediately swallowed the rest of the words.

Li Nian just couldn't bear to hear these words, and felt that Nayuta's idea was very problematic.

"I'm sorry, I can't do that. You're making it difficult for me to pretend I didn't see it... Now I understand your situation and thoughts at that time, Mr. Nayuta... Well, this is something that everyone who has read the book will understand and will be deeply impressed by. It's even harder to forget."

"This... I shouldn't have let Senior see it if I had known... I just wanted Senior to know me better."

"I do understand you better now."

"But! I don't want the senior to hate me!"

"What are you talking about... Well, your thoughts in the past were quite disgusting, but Nayuta-sensei, you also said that you have changed now, haven't you? I still find you quite pleasing to the eye. Oh, do you think your past self was a stain? Will people's favorability decrease if they see it? That's not the case. It's the opposite. I like it more... Ah, bah, I mean I understand your determination to change better. I think you are even more amazing."

Hearing that Li Nian didn't hate her any more, Nayuta felt relieved, but still asked doubtfully: "...Really?"

"Of course it's true... So, why do you care so much about my opinion? Okay, I asked a nonsense question. What I mean is, there's no need to care so much about my opinion. Even if you like me, you shouldn't decide your own direction based on other people's likes and dislikes. It's stupid to act based on my opinion. Whether I hate it or not, your past is yours and is of vital importance to you. Other people's opinions are irrelevant. The key is what you think of it... And you seem to be ashamed of your past and want to forget and deny it?"

"Is such that."

"why?"

"Why... Everyone would want to forget such a painful and shameful past... Besides, I also know that you don't like the me in the past."

"My dislike is not important... and you, even if you don't like it, are shaped by that past."

Li Nian continued to work on the task at hand, chopping the headless fish into pieces, and carefully pulling out the small bones that were in the way with his telekinesis, leaving only the main bones, which would be convenient for marinating, coating with flour, and frying to eat later. He continued.

"It is because of the pain in the past that you have changed and become who you are now. So, only by including that kind of past and connecting the past and the present can you be a complete person. The more you want to forget, the more you will remember it. The more you want to deny it, the more you will be pulled. So it's best not to think like that. That is not the past that needs to be denied and forgotten. Instead, you should face it and remember it. It can make you alert. This alertness is very important and will remind you at all times not to deviate from the right path. This chicken soup is also my experience. You can consider accepting it."

"…Senior, can you share your experience?"

"Well, I'm ashamed to say that I also had a period of depression and self-pity. I was not much better than you before. Now when I think back, I feel that I was ridiculously stupid back then."

"Senior? I can't imagine it at all. I'm so curious. Can you tell me more about it?" Nayuta piqued her interest.

"...A person who was seriously ill and about to die was just in a mess for a while. There's nothing much to say." Li Nian summarized it vaguely and didn't want to elaborate.

"Now that you mention it, I'm even more curious! How can someone like you get sick? What's going on? Tell me!"

"I won't tell you. It's a dark history that I want to forget. Don't ask." Li Nian simply stopped her from asking any further questions.

Nayuta puffed up her cheeks in dissatisfaction. "...We agreed to face the past? Not forget or deny it? Could it be that you are American? You are really playing double standards."

"Ahem, anyway, you don't have to be ashamed."

"It doesn't sound convincing at all now."

"…In fact, you can't forget it even if you want to, so you might as well face it. It's more like a feeling of having to face it than wanting to. The past that made you painful must be faced. Only by learning from the pain can you grow. And writers need to abandon shame to understand and analyze the process. If you really want to write about the concept of happiness in the future, you have to have a deep understanding of pain. Only when you lose something can you know how to cherish it, and only when you have lost it does it become precious. The so-called happiness is something of this nature. Since you are now striving to find happiness, you should understand this principle better than anyone else."

Nayuta was silent for a while, then nodded.

It is precisely because we have never been happy that we desire it so much.

I have decided to make my future life happy, and to that end I am looking for all the pieces of the puzzle that can make that vision come true.

This is the current Kani Nayuta.

"After saying so much...are you trying to comfort me, Senior?"

"That's about right. You seem to be bothered by some boring things. You're a typical nitpicker. It makes my blood pressure rise just by watching you."

"Hehe, senior is indeed very gentle."