There is nothing wrong with the training method of the Justice Messenger

"As you can see."

"…Sorry, the atmosphere has changed so much that I didn't recognize it before."

"Teacher Izumi and Teacher Muzi know each other." Fairy Yamada asked curiously.

"Yeah, I didn't expect to meet a classmate here." It was nice to see someone familiar. Li Nian looked at Zheng Zong curiously, and then came to his senses. Since he saw him here, it meant...

"I didn't expect that Li Nian is actually the winner of this year's Newcomer Award, Mu Zi Jinxin - oh yes, that's her pen name when the Chinese characters are separated! I really didn't recognize her before, otherwise I would have come to say hello to you a long time ago." He Quan was also amazed when he realized that Li Nian was the winner of the Outstanding Award only now.

"It's fate that we can meet now. If we hadn't missed it, it would have been fate... Speaking of which, Izumi, your presence here means that you are also..."

"Oh, yes. Actually, I am also an author under Phoenix Library." Izumi scratched his head a little embarrassedly.

"Oh! As expected." Li Nian suddenly realized: "No wonder Boss Gaosago told me to be careful not to let you put strange books in the recommendation area. It turns out that it was you -"

"Stop! Stop!" Izumi hurriedly stopped Li Nian from revealing his embarrassing story, but his fellow writer next to him had already heard it.

Although Li Nian didn't finish, Yamada Fairy knew what he was talking about Izumi. He laughed out loud and mocked without hesitation: "That's right, as far as I know, the only person who would put his own work in the recommended section of a bookstore is Izumi, an idiot!"

"Oh. Izumi has done such a thing?" It was the first time that Fuwa heard of it.

"I won't do it anymore!" Izumi blushed when his dark history was exposed unexpectedly, and quickly changed the subject: "By the way, Li Nian is writing a book? I didn't expect that she even won the Excellence Award. She's amazing."

“I just wrote it casually and won the prize by luck.”

"Don't try to lie to me. Fairy kept talking to me about how great the works were in the Outstanding Newcomer Award. She also mentioned how she was struggling over who should be awarded the Grand Prize. You must be amazing, Li Nian, to be able to make such comments."

"Wait..." Fuwa suddenly noticed something: "What is the relationship between Izumi and Muzi-sensei?"

"Ah? Yes, he and I..." Izumi smiled and looked over at Kasumigaoka, recognizing this famous senior from Sobu High School. "And that senior over there, we are all students from the same school. Oh, I didn't expect that there are two comrades around me. This is really too surprising. If I hadn't had the opportunity to meet in this kind of occasion, I wouldn't have known. I always thought it was difficult to foresee writers of the same generation, but it turns out that I just didn't notice it?"

Kasumigaoka had not expected that there was a young writer from the same school. She smiled and nodded at him, sighing that the world is really small.

Bu Po's expression was stiff as he looked at Li Nian. He was concerned about another factor at this time: "Uh, is Teacher Muzi a high school student?"

Ms. Machida smiled with a gloating look and said, "You didn't see it, did you?"

Not to mention Bupo was surprised, everyone present looked at him in surprise. They all subconsciously thought that Li Nian was a successful person in society. No one could tell that he was still a student.

"Alas, there is nothing I can do. I look a little older now."

Li Nian sighed, but everyone actually thought that he was quite dignified and did not look like a student at all.

"It seems that there are so many young talents here." Fuwa was a little out of control in the face of the shocking facts, but he quickly reacted and praised the others: "It seems that we don't have to worry about you feeling restrained. Young people always have a lot of common topics, right?"

In short, the second meeting started with a good atmosphere as two acquaintances recognized each other.

After everyone was seated, they ordered various drinks. Although it was an izakaya, they also had non-alcoholic drinks for minors. They also ordered a lot of food. Li Nian didn't hesitate and ordered a lot of barbecue. His bold ordering made Kasumigaoka next to him stunned. She wondered if this guy had really digested what he had eaten at the banquet?

After the waiter brought the drinks, everyone drank their glasses and started chatting.

Although this gathering was very casual in nature, it was held in the name of allowing new and old authors to communicate with each other, so the winners of the Newcomer Award should be given the main position. As one of the judges, Yamada Yaojing could be said to be a sponsor of the Newcomer Award winners. Logically, she had the obligation to talk to the newcomers - but she was too lazy to do it. The only people she was interested in were Li Nian and Ker Nayuta over there. She thought they were the only ones worth paying attention to. In her opinion, the works of the other Newcomer Awards were either not mature enough or extremely boring. She didn't care about the authors who wrote such works, and she didn't even want to talk to them.

It was the tactful Mr. Fupo who took on this responsibility very well. He took the initiative to raise topics with the newcomers and get to know everyone. Afterwards, he asked the authors about the opportunities for writing books.

I got a variety of different and very personal answers.

The beautiful woman had completed her studies at a special light novel writing training school and was trying to write a work that followed a commercial template. The dull office worker wrote a work that was designed to show his hobby simply because he wanted to spank a girl. The second-year junior high school student was writing out of interest and a head full of fantasy. The carefree old man was just killing time after retirement and writing a favorite novel about the Warring States period, and submitted it to a call for submissions that was about to close. The slovenly man was penniless, but he desperately wrote a book and submitted it with a desperate mood...

Although the reasons were varied, it must be said that they were all extraordinary individuals. When talking about the important opportunity that allowed them to debut at this time, they all became very excited and talked a lot of interesting stories, which the listeners also found very interesting.

Li Nian also talked about how he made a bet with Wu Geng, a writer friend of his, to decide the winner on the same subject matter, and how he eventually wrote this debut work.

In this atmosphere, it was naturally the turn of the only remaining newcomer award winner, also the grand prize winner, Ms. Kari Nayuta.

Before, the white-haired girl just sat there without saying a word, making people think that she didn't like to participate in such occasions and was forced to come here.

But during the speeches of the newcomer award winners, Karina Yuta seemed to be listening to everyone very seriously. The girl's expression changed, which directly reflected the girl's mood fluctuations. Sometimes she felt it was interesting, sometimes it was novel, sometimes she felt worried, sometimes she felt weird and abnormal, but more often she showed an expression that seemed to be... yearning?

Now everyone has finished speaking, and she is the only one who has not spoken. The room has become silent. Everyone is waiting for this outstanding grand prize winner to talk about her inspiration and philosophy for writing. They are very curious about what enabled this girl to write such excellent works. Including Yamada Fairy, everyone is looking at her with a very concerned expression, wanting to know what made this genius.

No one spoke at the moment and the girl hadn't reacted yet. After being stared at by everyone for a long time, Karina Yuta realized that it seemed to be her turn to speak.

She hadn't uttered a few polite words in her previous award speech, and this time she didn't seem to know what to say. She was lost in thought, and it seemed that when she changed the topic to the opportunity for her writing, she still couldn't say anything, and repeated her previous mistake of hesitating and being unable to speak.

Everyone thought that this was an extremely introverted girl who could not speak in front of others. They thought it would be better to forget it and not embarrass others. They were prepared to go along with her wishes and not embarrass her and skip this topic. However, the quiet girl still spoke and talked about the opportunity that led to her writing.

"Everyone has such good and interesting reasons for writing. Is it supposed to be such an interesting thing to start writing? I am different. I don't have any reasons worth mentioning... I just simply feel uncomfortable holding back for so long that I can't help wanting to say something. When I came to my senses, I had already written everything. I submitted the manuscript with the intention of having people see it, and then for some reason... I became the so-called grand prize winner."

"…Didn't I tell you that your modesty would bring shame to us? At this point, little girl, you shouldn't say such polite words anymore?" The dashing old man frowned, thinking that those were not what Karina Yuta really meant.

But those who had seen the grand prize-winning works or had some understanding of the grand prize winner knew that those were Karina Yuta's true words.

Karina Yuta looked confused, as if she didn't know why she was here, sitting together with such a group of people with strong personalities and hard work: "Am I serious? To be honest, I feel that what I wrote is just... some boring complaints. Is it a good story worth mentioning? I still wonder, is it okay for me to get first place? It sounds like your lives are obviously more interesting."

The Yamada Fairy trembled all over, and suddenly spoke to the grand prize winner she had selected for the first time, asking: "The whole of that work... is what you want to say? That dark area, is it what you really think?"

"Pitch black?" Karina Yuta muttered and repeated the sentence, then nodded happily, finally showing a smile, because it was rare that she felt recognized: "It's really a very appropriate description, yes, my heart is pitch black, not as colorful as yours."

A chill ran through everyone's heart, and now even those who didn't know the reason could feel that there was something wrong with teacher Karina Yuta.

The Yamada Fairy frowned and finally asked Kani Nayuta about something she had always been concerned about.

"So that's all true. You were in school..."

"Yamada!" Buwa frowned and stopped him coldly. That was the question he also wanted to ask, but it was also a question he felt should not be touched upon casually.

But Karina Yuta had already answered, without hesitation, answering casually.

"Well, I was bullied badly at school."

One really dares to ask, the other really dares to answer.

The originally warm atmosphere in the venue was like being poured with a basin of cold water, which instantly extinguished the temperature. The winner of the grand prize was suddenly touched upon, and such a heavy topic was brought up, leaving everyone at a loss as to what to say.

Xia Zhiqiu tugged at the corner of Li Nian's clothes, and the latter sighed: "Well, I know, there is no doubt about it now."

Chapter 385 You should be angry and fight back

Karina Nayuta noticed that the air in the room had grown colder because of her speech, and thought, this looks so familiar.

It was the same in that class. When she didn't talk, the atmosphere was joyful and peaceful. The classmates would have heated discussions about study, entertainment and the future. But as soon as she started talking, there would be silence, which would make people mind and extinguish the warm atmosphere. It was as if she was a thorn in the class, piercing everyone's heart and making them unhappy.

Over time, she no longer spoke in class.

This was a similar situation. Karina Yuta knew that she should remain silent at this time, but she still had questions she wanted to ask the people in front of her, so she couldn't help but speak.

"Is creation a happy thing for you? Why can you write with a smile? I can't understand. I feel that writing is like opening up a wound in my heart. It hurts so much and it's uncomfortable to write. I don't understand how can I write with a smile like you do? Can you teach me?"

Kanayuta sincerely asked for advice.

Everyone then understood that creation was such a painful thing for this child.

Yamada the Fairy frowned and answered seriously: "Because what we want to convey to our readers is our emotions and happiness. The purpose of our writing is to bring smiles to the world!"

Li Nian thought that the scope of "we" was a bit too large, and certainly not everyone has such a pure purpose and writing philosophy. For example, he feels that it makes him happier to make people laugh or cry rather than to make people laugh... ahem, in short, Yamada Yaojing seems to hold this idea. Her novels are very enjoyable to read, and she always does what she says.

Karina Yuta suddenly realized: "Is that so? That's right, I'm not very happy, so I can't write something that will make myself and others happy."

"…Are the things you write about in your works all your real experiences?"

"Yes." Karina Yuta answered nonchalantly.

“…It would be strange if you could feel happy if you live like that!” The bright and beautiful blonde girl became excited and slammed the table. She stood up suddenly with her eyes wide open. “Ahhh! I can’t stand it anymore! I simply can’t understand your aggrieved way of living! I’ll tell you straight, why didn’t you resist when you were treated like that? You could endure being grabbed by the hair, insulted, splashed with dirty water, and laughed at? It’s because you endured and gave in to everything that you had such a hard time! Why didn’t you speak?! Why didn’t you seek help?! Why didn’t you fight back?!”

The story she told - Karina Yuta's personal experience, made many people present show a look of pity. That was excessive bullying. So this is how Karina Yuta lived in school?

But everyone is smart, and they all think that Yamada Fairy shouldn't say that, and shouldn't put on airs to force a victim like that. They think the girl is pitiful enough, how can you expose other people's wounds and tell other people's experiences like this? They think that as an outsider, telling the victim to resist is just wishful thinking because they can't put themselves in the victim's shoes...

Fuwa felt that he had to stop his colleague's lecturing: "Teacher Yamada, that's enough... You don't understand other people's situations."

Yamada the Fairy gritted her teeth, sat down, and shut up angrily, not knowing what to say next.

"Haha." Li Nian watched the situation develop coldly and couldn't help laughing out loud.

This laughter was particularly abrupt in this situation, and attracted everyone's puzzled gazes. They didn't know what Li Nian was laughing at. Bupo could hear a hint of disdain in the laughter and frowned, "Teacher Muzi?"

Li Nian raised his hand to signal Bupo to stop, meaning that he should wait and see what happens. Then, when everyone in the room was at a loss, he took the initiative to ask Kanayuta, who was staring at the Yamada Fairy in a daze after being yelled at.

"Why are you staying there? Does it feel strange to be told that?"

The girl nodded and looked at the stranger next to her who had talked to her several times and seemed to care about her.

"A little bit." Li Nian was the only one present who could communicate so calmly with Kanayuta. His attitude, which seemed like a normal chat, made the girl feel more relaxed. She thought Li Nian was easy to talk to, and asked in confusion: "Is Mr. Yamada angry with me?"

"That's not called anger... Why, no one has ever said anything like that to you before? Like Mr. Yamada, who was angry for you and told you to resist?"

"No."

"That's a pity, it means you don't have any companions." Li Nian continued to ask: "Don't you have any good friends at school?"

"No."

“When you were bullied, what did your classmates do?”

"...They were very troubled and scared and could only watch from the sidelines."

"What about the teacher?"

"The teacher said it a few times... but then he stopped talking, as if he thought it was troublesome. I think it's good because every time he lectures me, I suffer."

"Where are your parents?"

"They seemed to not know what to do with me. They would comfort me, but it seemed like they were suffering more."

What a frank girl! Her answers were honest and direct. Thanks to this, Li Nian probably grasped the key to the matter and exclaimed.

"No wonder you became like this, it's not surprising."

"…Am I not weird? I thought I was weird."

"It's not surprising that you've become like this."

"But everyone seems to think I'm weird." Ker Nayuta glanced around and felt that except for Li Nian, the way these people looked at her seemed to be no different from the people around her: "They said my white hair is weird, my face is weird, my attitude is weird, and my way of speaking is weird."

Li Nian touched his chin and nodded: "Well, to be honest, people like you are quite rare. White hair is rare, delicate face is rare, and direct attitude and words are also rare."

"Teacher Muzi also thinks I'm weird?"

"Strange and rare are different concepts. I'm saying you are unique, beautiful and precious."

"Beautiful? Precious? Are you talking about me?"

"correct."

"…You lied to me. That's not what they said. They said I was ugly and worthless."

"And you believed it?"

"..."

"I know you don't believe it." Li Nian looked at Kanayuta with the eyes of an observer. "You don't really need to ask me these questions, because you know that you are not weird, not ugly, and not really worthless. I have seen people who really have no common sense, but you are not that kind. I can see that you have common sense and a brain. You just can't be sure of such a simple thing. You can't get any correct feedback in an environment of shouting and indifference from a group of idiots, so you come to confirm with me and want to hear the correct answer from my mouth."

"...Is that so?" Karina Yuta herself didn't understand if that was the case, and looked straight at Li Nian: "Even if you say that, I still don't understand what so-called common sense is. I'm often told that I don't know common sense, and because of this, everyone distances me from it. Can you tell me what common sense is? If I learn that common sense, maybe I can be like ordinary people, gain everyone's recognition, and live a happier life."

"You still want to gain recognition and live a happy life, which is good. Your behavior is in line with common sense. It is the most normal-like sentence you said today." Li Nian nodded with satisfaction. The fact that he could say such words showed that this teacher, Kanayuta, was not hopeless and was ambitious. "But unfortunately, if you want to achieve your goal, it is not enough to just have this idea. You have to put it into action."

"Like Mr. Yamada said, fight back with all your strength?" Karina shook her head: "I can't do it."

"I guess it's not that you can't do it, but that you don't dare to do it."

"Are you going to say that too? You want me to resist a group that far outnumbers me? How can I win? What's the point of winning?" Karina Yuta calmly asked Li Nian, "You haven't experienced it, so you don't know the horror. Teacher Fuwa is right. You can't put yourself in my shoes. Please don't make it so simple."

No one dared to interrupt. Fuwa had stopped Yamada from speaking because he understood this truth. Now Yamada was hesitant to speak, and she understood that this was the fact, but she felt that it should not be like this. She felt so, but didn't know how to explain it, so she could only grit her teeth in anxiety.

Li Nian disagreed. If he had known that Karina Yuta would say and think like this, he was too familiar with this idea. He had memories and he could actually put himself in Karina Yuta's shoes and think from her perspective. However, he was not interested in revealing this information here to show that he could empathize with this little girl and stick together with her for warmth.

"That's really terrifying. You're alone, and there are several people on the other side, who might be taller than your petite figure? You definitely can't win by fighting, and you can't scold them, and you'll even provoke more fierce attacks - so thinking about all this, you didn't do anything?"

"What can I do?"

"Of course I would fight back and curse back."

"You said yourself that you can't beat him or scold him, right?"

"That's no reason to shrink back and not fight back."

"You can't gain anything except getting yourself hurt."

"In fact, it is still rewarding. It is a very satisfying thing to let people know that you are not easy to bully and that you will resist."

"Even if it hurts? Is it worth it?"