There is nothing wrong with the training method of the Justice Messenger

"...Sata?"

"..."

Kanda said nothing more, lowered his head and hid his expression.

But Li Nian could still see clearly that it was a dark expression that he had never seen on Kanda's face before.

With a light sigh, Li Nian said at the right time: "Shiina, you go back first."

It was rare that he used a strong tone that was almost commanding.

Shiina hesitated for a while, but turned around and went back without saying a word.

"...Thank you." Kanda said in a low voice, thanking Li Nian for smoothing things over for him. He really didn't have the energy to do that anymore.

"You're welcome, but even someone as ignorant as Shiina can understand your review result from the current situation."

"…Yeah, it's funny, right? I was just pretending because I didn't want to admit my failure in front of that kid. That's lame, right?"

"To be honest, I'm a complete loser, but I don't think I can afford to lose, right?" Li Nian said helplessly.

I was even so excited when I heard that the magazine where the comic book co-produced by Shiina and Kasumigaoka-senpai was published would be released in two days, that I couldn't even keep up my fake smile.

"I didn't expect myself to be so fragile. I was prepared to fail, but when this result really came, the blow was much greater than I imagined... I'm sorry for making you see my embarrassing appearance."

Forcing a smile and saying some self-deprecating words, Kanda laughed and scratched his head, feeling a little embarrassed.

Li Nian just looked at him.

Kanda felt that the direct gaze was piercing, and he dodged the gaze: "That's it, it's no big deal, you are right, it's just a loss."

Then he walked past Li Nian, probably planning to stay in the room alone to calm down for a while.

Li Nian thought about it and decided to stop him.

"Wait Kanda, come and help prepare dinner."

Chapter 306: Life Mentor is Online

"……what?"

"Just come over." Without waiting for Kanda to answer, Li Nian had already walked towards the kitchen.

"Wait? Today? Never mind. I just want to rest now..."

"Rest for nothing. Everyone knows that you just want to go into your room and cry your heart out. I advise you not to do such a stupid thing that wastes your life."

"No, don't cry! You treat me like an elementary school student!"

"You want to do something similar, right? Or something worse? Closing the door, lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling and thinking about life, all you think about are the mistakes you've made and the consequences of failure that lie ahead. That's much worse than crying."

"..."

Perhaps because what he said hit the mark on his mood, Kanda fell silent.

"Hold it in, endure it, suppress the unhappy mood, even so you have to keep thinking about it, the more you think about it, the angrier you get, and when you get angry you suppress it again, and then think about it again, and this cycle repeats over and over again - this is how internal injuries are caused by holding it in, so hiding it is not a good way to relieve it. The truth that the more you hold it in, the more uncomfortable you feel is not something you can just say for fun."

Li Nian stopped in front of the living room door and looked over: "Kanda, you seem to be going to dig yourself into this dead end. I advise you to find something to do before that to keep yourself busy. So, tell me whether you will come to help or not?"

"……Fine."

……

……

Kanda felt that he shouldn't have listened to Li Nian and come to the kitchen.

With a stroke of the hand, the ingredients turned into even thin threads.

Just snap your fingers, and an invisible force will lift up all kinds of seasonings and bring the necessary equipment.

The chef only needs to stand in front of the pot and concentrate on what is being cooked.

Everything was progressing in an orderly manner, and Li Nian was demonstrating his magical skills as an exorcist to...cook.

Ever since everyone knew that he, Li Nian, was an exorcist, Li Nian no longer hid anything. Adhering to the spirit of doing things in the easiest and most effective way, he used various techniques to help him do things on a daily basis.

I have to say that the effect is outstanding and very convenient.

Means should be used in life and serve life, otherwise why learn such means?

Kanda watched all this in silence, feeling that he, Kanda Sorata, was the only one who was redundant in this kitchen...

"So what's the point of my existence here?"

“It’s meaningless.”

"Then why did you call me here?!"

"I just asked you to find something to do."

"for example?"

Li Nian pushed over the bowl with a piece of tofu: "For example, cut this piece of tofu into slices first and then into shreds."

Kanda looked at the smooth, tender and juicy tofu - this was rennet tofu, should he slice it or cut it into shreds?

"Who can do that? Do you think I'm you?"

"Don't back down because of this little hardship. Aren't you a man who aims to be a top-notch chef?"

The water was boiling in the pot, and Li Nian took a tomato and swallowed it in just a few bites. He was very hungry and needed to eat something to fill his stomach.

"Don't define my life casually. I don't want to be targeted by the dark culinary world and my future life safety will be threatened."

“The goal is to make dishes that glow!”

"This is the third dimension. Thank you. Although I feel like it's you who can really do it."

"Your complaining spirit is back, that's great Kanda."

"Thank you so much."

"You're welcome."

However, knowing that Li Nian's nonsense was just to cheer himself up, Kanda's face did regain a bit of a smile from the heart. Then he really picked up the knife and began to carefully try to dissect the tofu, while asking.

"By the way, Li Nian, have you ever experienced failure?"

Li Nian was slightly stunned.

Originally, Li Nian thought that since Kanda didn't want to talk, it was fine. In fact, when he asked him to come over to help, Li Nian didn't want to ask anything or say anything. He just wanted Kanda to find something to do so that he wouldn't have to think too much. But since Kanda started talking, it meant that he wanted to chat. In that case, Li Nian didn't mind saying something along the way.

"Of course, I have failed a lot."

"Really? Li Nian has also failed before..."

"Do you think I'm a perfect creature? Is there really someone in this world who has never failed? What are you asking?"

"That's true, but Li Nian, you look like someone who can handle anything easily."

"This is true."

"... In this case, shouldn't we say [Even I have difficulties that are difficult to handle]?"

"Of course, but I rarely encounter them because I am strong enough."

"..."

"Were you just thinking that we wouldn't be able to chat today?"

"If you know, don't say that."

Li Nian threw large chunks of pork belly into the pot, and sprinkled in green onions, ginger, cooking wine and other things.

"I think I know what you're thinking, Kanda. You think a genius like me is not capable of understanding the sufferings of the world, while ordinary people are powerless?"

"...I have thought so, but I also know that this idea is undoubtedly wrong. Li Nian, you seem to understand it very well."

Li Nian thought to himself, when it comes to understanding failure, I do understand it, much better than you, Kanda.

It’s not that Li Nian’s past life was full of bitterness and hatred...although it is true that it was quite bitter and hatred due to his heart disease.

It’s just because he, Li Nian, lived seven or eight years longer than Kanda.

The more you grow, the more you understand how hard life is, and the more you experience failure.

It’s just that the sufferings we have experienced are never worth showing off. What is worth showing off is the methodology to overcome failure and achieve success. That is what the confused high school boys need now.

"Who wouldn't understand? Even a genius would understand, like a true genius like Shiina. Haven't you seen her failure before? No matter how good her drawing skills are, the story is a mess. If she wants to draw a good comic, she still has a long way to go. There are still countless failures waiting for her in the future. She will understand it after failing many times. By then, the feeling of all her hard work going to waste and still failing in the end after all her efforts is common to everyone."

"..."

"So you shouldn't be jealous of Shiina..."

Kanda shuddered and smiled bitterly.

"…I can't hide it from you. You see through everything."

"I'm not some sweetheart, but as an exorcist I can sense bad intentions. Kanda, you just showed bad intentions towards Shiina, I sensed it."

"…Normal humans can't feel that kind of thing. It's just like a cartoon… um, jealousy… yeah, now that you put it that way, I understand the true nature of that emotion, jealousy, hatred, hehe." Kanda laughed at himself: "How ugly."

Kanda stopped cutting tofu and stared blankly at the knife in his hand.

Li Nian glanced at him and said with a smile, "What are you doing? Are you so ashamed that you want to cut your own neck with that knife?"

Kanda was so frightened that he quickly put the knife aside.

"...Please don't say anything so dangerous! I'm not guilty of anything like this! I didn't do anything or say anything! I just thought about it."

"Yes, if you have evil thoughts and then suppress them without committing any evil deeds, then it is not a sin. It is normal to feel jealous when you see someone who is better than you. This is what humans are like. If you think about it, it is not excessive because everyone has been through this. It is not the heart that counts, but the actions. No one is perfect. It is enough to remember your shame now and understand that your thoughts are wrong. So don't blame yourself any more. This is generally called hypocrisy in the world."

"I'm really sorry for being so hypocritical." Kanda sighed, "Actually, it's not jealousy... I guess it's not that serious. It's just that when I was defeated, I saw others making smooth progress, and I felt even more powerless, so I felt even more uncomfortable... Li Nian, you understand, right?"

“That was very uncomfortable.”

Kanda sighed, “…If I think about it carefully, if I hadn’t taken it so seriously at the beginning, I wouldn’t be feeling so bad now.”

Kanda had done his best today, without reservation, and had made careful preparations in advance. He was confident in his creativity, but it still didn't work. This is the result, and the result represents everything.

Li Nian nodded in agreement.

Yes, it was precisely because Kanda had devoted all his energy to his game project during this period that he was so devastated after finding out today that the project was not approved.

The saying goes that the more you give, the more you get hurt.

"Student Li Nian, you know so much, so how can we not feel so uncomfortable?"

"Simple."

"Oh?"

"Eat well, drink well, sleep well, and have fun."

"…I asked in vain."

"I'm not wrong, am I? Just eat, drink and have fun tonight. See how much you remember when you wake up tomorrow."

Kanda thought about it and realized that it was indeed the case. He had had similar experiences before.

Human beings are such fickle creatures, with very short memories. Not to mention waiting until tomorrow to wake up, just by chatting with Li Nian for a few sentences, Kanda felt much better - he was gradually forgetting the pain of failure.

But when he realized this, Kanda felt...

"...It seems that forgetting it like this is not a good thing."

"What?"

"It's a rare opportunity for me to work so hard, but I just forgot about it. I feel so sorry for myself who has worked so hard for a while."

Li Nian looked at Kanda in surprise: "Wow, your thought level is quite high."

"…Am I wrong in thinking this?"

"Of course you are right. Remembering failure, turning grief and anger into motivation, and improving yourself is generally the correct answer. But anyone would say, can you do it?"

"Don't underestimate me, okay?" Kanda felt that now was the time for him to show his masculinity, so he patted his chest in a pretentious manner and said, "I am also a grown man, I still have some ambition."

Li Nian kept working, looked him over with a squint, and actually shook her head and said, "I think it's a bit difficult."

"...Don't hit me, okay? Are you serious?"

"Hmm? Ah, of course I'm serious."

Kanda's expression suddenly collapsed: "...I am really shocked by what you said. Are you here to comfort me?"