There is nothing wrong with the training method of the Justice Messenger

Li Nian sighed, feeling that Kanda's attitude was not enough to convince Aoyama, so he simply took over the conversation and spoke.

"Kanda, I understand what you mean, let me tell you."

"Student Li Nian?" Qingshan's hostile gaze immediately shifted its target and shot towards Li Nian.

Li Nian was not afraid at all. Instead, he smiled nonchalantly and said, "First of all, Qingshan, you need to know one thing."

"What's the matter? I hope it's related to what Kanda-kun said." Aoyama asked coldly.

"The reason you recovered from your illness after just one night's sleep is because I cured you."

Qingshan was suddenly startled and was very suspicious at first.

"Student Li Nian, can you help me heal? How are you going to heal me..."

She suddenly stopped talking and shut her mouth, because she remembered Li Nian's identity as an exorcist and understood the confidence behind his words.

This is the first time that Li Nian has personally admitted it. Although everyone had speculations, it is only now that he has confirmed it.

"Sure enough, you spent so much time in Aoyama's room to help cure her illness." Ren sighed, "I'm really curious how you did it."

"Stayed in my room for a long time..." After hearing what Ren said, Aoyama looked at Kanda again, and Kanda nodded to him.

"Yes, I stayed there for a long time."

Qingshan turned his head again and looked at Li Nian in disbelief, remembering his previous feelings: "Could it be that when I felt very hot and uncomfortable, a coolness suddenly flowed through my body..."

"What does that feel like? It sounds so fun! Report to the commander! I want to try that feeling, too! Here, I'm going to go catch a cold and have Newcomer cure it for me!" Kamiigusa raised his hands high and started to make a noise, but of course Ren stopped him with "Misaki, stop messing around now!"

"Do you believe it now?" Li Nian asked.

"..." Qingshan stopped talking. Judging from his reaction, he believed it.

Li Nian shook his head: "I'm not saying this for any reason, I just want Qingshan to know that your body is not as strong as you think, and it has indeed collapsed once."

"…So what?"

"So what? You might as well imagine whether you would be able to recover by today without my help."

Qingshan struggled for a while, trying to say yes, but she still didn't have the confidence. She didn't think she was so seriously ill that she could recover in just one night.

"If not, you will still have to attend the performance in your seriously ill state. It seems to be a play? Are you going to drag that body onto the stage to perform?"

Qingshan shuddered all over, as if he had imagined something very terrible. He shook his head to force himself to get rid of the imagined picture, and spoke loudly in excitement.

"It doesn't matter even if that's the case! I'll go!"

"It doesn't matter? You're going to perform a play with your hoarse voice, weak body, and muddy brain? Won't you mess it up?"

"Even if I mess up, it's my own business!"

"I remember there were lines in your script that were taken care of by someone else. Are you sure that if you messed up, it's just your fault?"

"Gu..."

Qingshan was speechless again.

This child only becomes obviously afraid when he realizes that he is a burden to others.

"Don't lie to yourself, Qingshan." Li Nian shrugged helplessly: "You actually know what the result will be. That's enough. I point these out just to warn you."

Li Nian paused for a moment, looked at Qingshan who had become silent, and after spending some time organizing his words in his mind, he continued.

"I don't think there's anything wrong with your attitude so far. People should be self-reliant and self-reliant. The idea of ​​"relying on yourself" is absolutely correct. You are very capable, more capable than me. I think you are right. To be honest, it's difficult for me to point fingers at you. I'm here just to help you sort out your own situation."

"…My condition?"

"You wanted to become a voice actor, and you even quarreled with your parents to come here to study. Now that your financial support has been cut off, you have to work part-time to balance your studies, career, and life. It's very difficult."

“It’s hard, but I’ve always been here!”

"I know it's been difficult for you, and I also know that all your efforts are for the ultimate success, so I want to remind you that if you really want to make it to the end, you must put away your naive idea that "I will definitely be able to persevere."

"How naive!"

"Because you can't hold on any longer. Your burdens are crushing you."

"How did you see that I couldn't hold on?"

"We've already seen you get crushed once, when you fell ill this time."

"..."

"Since you can imagine what your performance would be like if you fell ill today, why not imagine what would happen if the day you fell ill was not a performance but a formal voice audition."

"...!"

Qingshan began to tremble again, and for a moment he showed a very frightened expression and shook his head vigorously.

"No, it won't come to that! I won't let it come to that."

"Look, what you fear most is that all your efforts will go to waste, so you must do everything you can to avoid this possibility. First of all, you must not let yourself collapse again due to physical reasons. Didn't your teacher teach you to manage your physical condition? The profession of voice actor pays a lot of attention to the voice, right? If you just catch a cold, pharyngitis, or rhinitis, you'll be finished, right? Then maintaining physical health is even more important, and you have to do it while balancing your studies, career, and life... This is not just a matter of taking care of Shiina. If you don't learn to take shortcuts, sooner or later you'll be finished."

Qingshan couldn't utter a word of rebuttal because she knew that what Li Nian said was right, and every word of Li Nian would deeply penetrate into her greatest fear.

Her collapse was not sudden. Her health was getting worse and worse, which led to her eventual collapse. She was too busy, did not get enough sleep every day, became more and more sleepy, and felt worse day by day. This was all her personal experience. Li Nian was not trying to scare her, but was stating a fact.

"Some things in this world are not about whether you want to do them or not, but you have to do them." Li Nian knocked on the table: "So I sincerely think that you should be more refreshing in this situation."

After Li Nian said this, Qingshan calmed down a little. After being silent for a while, he smiled weakly.

"I'm sober, but tell me, what else can I do besides trying hard?"

Li Nian knew that this was enough and said with a smile.

"You can still rely on the people here."

"…You clearly said that relying on yourself is the right thing to do?"

"It's not contradictory to you being independent and self-reliant. Support is different from dependence. It's mutual. No one owes anyone anything. Sharing responsibilities is to reduce risks. Now Kanda just wants you to return the responsibility of taking care of Shiina. This is not your responsibility. And we all know that you, Aoyama, are the kind of person who will extend your helping hand to anyone who is in trouble, right? I think everyone who came to Sakurasou thinks so."

Qingshan looked around.

Kanda was the first to express his opinion, and said solemnly: "I have caused you so much trouble so far, just accept my kindness this time."

Ren said with a smile, "Hmm? Madam, do you need me to lend you my chest to cry on? I would be honored."

"No, no! Ren's chest is the only place I can cry in!" Kamiigusa yelled in dissatisfaction, and then he puffed out his chest towards Qingshan, patting his chest confidently, causing a terrifying surge of waves: "If Ren's won't work, then let you lean on mine instead, Xiao Qihai! I'm confident that my pillow is soft and big and it's much more comfortable!"

After saying that, she showed a lewd smile like a chivalrous man again: "In return, Xiao Qihai, you also have to lend me your breasts..."

"I don't want to..."

Qingshan said in a low voice.

At this time, Shiina held Aoyama's hand silently and suddenly, which scared her.

"Shii, Shiina?!"

"Isn't it all my fault?"

"Hey, what?"

"Is it because of me that Nanami fell ill?"

"No, no, what are you talking about? It's not because of Shiina..."

"sorry."

"…You don't have to apologize."

"sorry."

Shiina's tearful gaze made Aoyama avoid his gaze.

The tightly clasped hand felt a powerful force that was not from Shiina, and the contact of skin felt so scorching hot that Aoyama even felt as if he was burned.

"First of all, you have to return the responsibility of taking care of Shiina. You can't bear it anymore, and she doesn't want to add more burden to you." Li Nian said at the right time. "Also, it's true as Kanda said, you should consider whether to accept everyone's kindness frankly."

Qingshan turned around to face Li Nian and took a deep breath.

"Let me think about it again."

After saying that, she gently pulled Shiina's hand away, stood up, and bowed deeply to Li Nian.

"Anyway, thank you very much, Li Nian, for curing my illness. I will always remember this kindness in my heart."

After saying that, she turned and left the living room.

Chapter 189: Slight Changes in Sakurasou

Qingshan walked out of the living room and closed the door, but he didn't leave immediately. Instead, he leaned against the door, relaxed his body, and just sat down.

With a door between them, she no longer had to face everyone... to be more precise, she no longer had to face Li Nian, which made her feel as if the pressure had suddenly disappeared, and she couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

What Qingshan was thinking about at this moment was the impression that Li Nian had left on her.

Although he was also a resident of Sakurasou, unlike Kanda and Misaki, Li Nian always gave her a vague impression... Of course, this didn't mean that he was mysterious...

No, mysterious is true. After all, considering his identity as an exorcist, I really can’t figure out how many secrets this person has.

However, Li Nian usually behaves very normally and looks like the most normal person in Sakurasou. Compared with everyone else who has more or less strong personalities, there is nothing particularly special about him.

I just always feel that he seems to be somewhat distant from everyone else.

This was the feeling I had in the past, even before I knew his identity as an exorcist. Now that I know his identity as an exorcist, I feel it even more so.

Qingshan sometimes thought that Li Nian might be a fundamentally cold person. It seemed like he deliberately maintained that sense of distance, making him seem indifferent to the people around him...

but it is not the truth.

Living in Sakurasou, you will always feel cared for by Li Nian inadvertently during the daily interactions. At that time, you will feel his concern and reliability, and understand that he cares about everyone. For example, this time, Aoyama's own cold was cured by him, and he did not mention it at all. If Kanda hadn't mentioned it, you might never know about it.

That was undoubtedly selfless kindness, and the person who talked about helping each other was the one who had never asked for any help from anyone in Sakurasou.

It was precisely because she understood this that Qingshan could not raise her head in the face of Li Nian's preaching... Especially since she could understand deep in her heart that those words were really for her own good...

Qingshan thought about what he had just heard.

When confronting the serious Li Nian, she had the illusion that she was seen through by that indifferent gaze. She sincerely felt that every word of this person was pointing directly at her pain points. Especially when that person gave an example and said that if she fell, it would ruin the performance and even the final review, Qingshan really felt a fear and trembling from the depths of her soul...

(Did I really do something wrong?)

Qingshan muttered.

At this time, the sound continued to come from the other side of the door.

"Thank you so much, Li Nian. It's true that Qingshan is more likely to listen to what you said. If it were me, I would probably have started arguing with her halfway through the conversation."

"Hmm? It seems like you guys are on good terms, so why are you arguing?"

"Yes, Qingshan is a strong person, but sometimes she is very stubborn. You don't know that I have advised her many times in the past, but she always quarrels easily. To be honest, Qingshan is very sensitive in this regard. Once it is mentioned, she will arouse a strong sense of resistance. But it seems that she should understand it now."

"Is that so... But judging from the situation you described, I don't deny that Qingshan worked very hard. It's a bit of a stretch to call him strong... It would be more appropriate to say that he was strong."

If someone pointed this out to her face and asked, "Why are you so stubborn?" or something like that, Qingshan would definitely feel provoked and might even have a quarrel with Li Nian. But now, there was a door between them, and when someone accused her of being stubborn, she could only hang her head in silence and feel very uncomfortable.

She wanted to be strong, but she knew she was not strong enough.

"In the end, the word 'strong' refers to the tolerance to failure, but with Qingshan's personality, I think a single failure can become a huge blow, like this performance. Look at her reaction when I said she would mess up. I can't imagine what would happen if I wasn't there and didn't cure her cold, and she really messed up the performance."

Qingshan didn't dare to imagine what would happen. Li Nian was right. If the performance was ruined because of her alone, she would not know how to face the situation when she thought about all the preparations she had made so far, not only her own efforts, but also the efforts of everyone participating in the performance would be wasted.

"That's true. I never imagined that he would collapse from exhaustion. I really think Qingshan tried too hard."

(Am I really trying too hard?)

Aoyama thought as he listened to Kanda's words.

(My desire to try my best and leave no room for myself is what caused me to fall... Should I really relax a little?)

"No, Kanda, I don't think there's anything wrong with Aoyama's idea."

(……well?)

Qingshan was stunned.

"Why? She was so tired that she collapsed..."

"This is indeed a problem, but to be honest, it is a problem she has to face herself. Kanda, you should also understand that no matter how much we outsiders point fingers, Qingshan's predicament is caused by her parents. It is her family affair and we cannot interfere. Her decision to balance life, study and career without her parents' support is also her own choice, and outsiders cannot interfere. Everyone can only bear all the consequences of their own choices, so she must work hard, and she must work hard without leaving any room for improvement."

"So what did you just say...?"

"Making unreserved efforts does not mean being stubborn. It is precisely because of the dire situation that we need to improve efficiency, to do this we need to be clever, and at least figure out what to do and what not to do, especially since she has been trying to do everything and do it all. This kind of thinking is very problematic. If she can really do it, it's fine, but if she can't, it means she can't see her own weight. To be honest, I think her collapse from exhaustion this time is just a small matter, but since she was dragged down, it has proved that this child does not have enough ability to do everything, so she must learn to make some choices... I think Qingshan has understood this point, so there is nothing more to say."