I transformed into a cute girl and lived a carefree life in the apocalypse.

Chapter Ninety-Four: Yearning for the Light

"Do you know your mistake?"

In this unbelievable atmosphere, Yan Ziming's cool voice brought Ye Qianxue back to her senses.

In the past, she had never even been able to scold herself, let alone slap her.

My dear sister... this time she's serious.

However, this time, I will not back down, and I have my own principles to uphold.

"not understand......"

Ye Qianxue said softly.

"Hmm?" Yan Ziming's gaze turned cold. Did she know but deny it, or did she genuinely not know?

"Don't you understand where you went wrong?"

"not understand......"

Ye Qianxue guiltily avoided eye contact.

She claimed to have her own principles, but when it came to actually refuting her older sister, Ye Qianxue couldn't muster any backbone.

Moreover, whether her insistence is justified is highly debatable.

Yan Ziming forcibly turned her head to the right position, but her gaze remained evasive. Finally, he sighed helplessly, "Then let me guess why you chose to come here."

"......"

Ye Qianxue remained silent.

"First of all..." Yan Ziming continued, "One day after the mutation occurred, you became aware of the changes in your body... Even without the mutation, most people would be terrified to discover unknown changes in their bodies, and you were no exception! Normally, you would have sought help from me and Mu Mu... But!"

Yan Zimo paused for a moment, then continued:

"But just like the saying 'a politician's life cannot be tainted,' you don't want to drag me and Mu Mu down with you, especially during this special time. You probably know that Mu Mu and I will do everything in our power to protect you... So, in the end, you just want to end your life alone in this desolate place. That way, no one will know the fact that Yan Ziming's sister—Ye Qianxue—has been transformed, it won't affect Yan Ziming's reputation, and it won't drag friends and family into this mess."

Yan Ziming grew colder and colder as she spoke. It was precisely because of this that she hardened her heart and slapped her younger sister, whom she usually pampered to the skies.

— He abandoned his family and friends and died in a place unknown to the world.

Isn't it too sad that an eighteen-year-old girl would have such thoughts?

"Since you know... if you know, then why did you come here, Sister! Clearly... clearly Chiyuki..."

Ye Qianxue suddenly began to fiercely protest loudly.

"Chiyuki had already decided to bear all of this alone, so why!...Why did you come here?! What about all of Chiyuki's previous perseverance?"

"This will... kill my elder sister and my master sister..."

Ye Qianxue covered her face with her hands, sobbing uncontrollably.

Yan Ziming gently stroked her head, knowing that what she said made sense.

This world is treacherous, and if I insist on protecting Ye Qianxue, I might encounter even more terrifying resistance than I imagined.

Perhaps... perhaps it was precisely because she cared about herself and Mu Mu that she chose to die in such a tragic way?

but--

"Your unwavering commitment shattered the moment you came to me."

".......?" Ye Qianxue stopped crying for a moment and stared at her blankly.

"Don't you understand?"

A clear hint of mockery appeared at the corner of Yan Ziming's mouth.

"Then let me ask you, since you decided from the beginning to bear it all alone and chose to give up resisting, even though your plan could have succeeded if you had just endured a little longer, and you could have died a sad and pitiful death in a place where no one knew you... why, at this most important and decisive final moment, did you choose to break your own resolve and seek your sister's help at all costs?"

After saying that, Yan Ziming stared intently at her, leaving no room for her to lie.

"I... Qianxue was just—"

Ye Qianxue wanted to explain, but couldn't come up with a coherent explanation.

Yes, my older sister is right. I had already decided to bear it all alone, and I was so close to succeeding, so why did I fail at that crucial moment...?

"have no idea......"

"I don't know... Qianxue... I really don't know..."

Ye Qianxue shook her head in confusion and bewilderment, her right hand tightly clenched against her heart, her big eyes shining with an endearing light, and as she spoke, tears streamed down her face.

Yan Ziming reached out and wiped away her tears, his tone still cold and hard: "Because that's the kind of person you are!"

Cowardly...timid...I can't do anything without my older sister's support...

"You're just a little kid who can only rely on his sister for the rest of his life."

"......"

Ye Qianxue remained silent.

What my older sister said seems to make a lot of sense.

Being singled out so openly is still a little upsetting...

"You idiot, do I have to spell it out for you?!"

Seeing that Ye Qianxue still didn't understand what he meant, Yan Ziming scratched the back of his head in frustration, then suddenly let out a self-deprecating cry and hugged her tightly.

"Eh?"

Ye Qianxue was startled by Yan Ziming's sudden action.

"So, you idiot! If you ever need anything, just rely on me. It doesn't matter what it is, as long as you choose me, I will definitely take full responsibility for you!"

"Big sister... I... Chiyuki... uh... ah... ahh... waah—!!!"

Ye Qianxue, held in Yan Ziming's arms, could only look up at the ceiling. Hearing Yan Ziming's words, she couldn't help but feel a lump in her throat, and tears welled up in her beautiful eyes, like pear blossoms in the rain. The tears that had just stopped flowed out again like a spring.

This time, unlike her previous sorrowful cries, she wailed and sobbed uncontrollably, releasing all her regrets as if she wanted to vent all the pressure that had been building up over the past few days.

[It's so wonderful that Chiyuki met her older sister...]

Yan Ziming's eyes were full of tenderness, so intense it was almost like water, adding a layer of dreamlike radiance.

I'm an idiot too... that's not what I really wanted to say.

Chiyuki, oh Chiyuki... the reason you came to me wasn't out of cowardice, but because a sliver of hope still lingered in your heart. And what I, as your older sister, must do is to give everything I have to respond to that hope, which is infinitely close to zero, yet not truly zero...

—Yearning.

Chiyuki, I hope you can understand this.

—As long as a person's heart still yearns for light and life, and holds hope for everything, then no matter how tragic their experiences are, they are by no means truly dead.

All of Yan Ziming's thoughts and concerns vanished at that moment, leaving only a blank space. He looked deeply at the girl and hugged her tightly...

.......

Ye Qianxue cried for a while before finally calming down, nestled in Yan Ziming's arms, and whispered:

"Hey, big sister, you have to take responsibility for Chiyuki."

"of course."

Yan Ziming scratched his nose somewhat awkwardly.

Although she knew perfectly well that Ye Qianxue meant for her to take full responsibility for what she had just said, she couldn't help but think about that embarrassing aspect.

It's nothing other than everything Ye Qianxue has done to her these past few days.

Damn, judging from this situation, shouldn't you be the one taking responsibility for me?!

"Qianxue".

"Ok?"

"First, pull your... out of my body..."

"......"

How do I get past Chapter 95?

"Woo...! Ha~~"

Inside the room, someone let out a joyful moan and then collapsed onto the bed like a cat whose bones had been removed.

"Idiot, you idiot! I told you to pull it out, not to pull it all the way out at once! Couldn't you have been gentler?"

"It's not Qianxue's fault, it's all because Big Sister squeezed too tightly, you can't get through without using some force..."

"What do you mean? Are you saying I'm a pervert?!"

"......"

Ye Qianxue was speechless; that was exactly what she had been thinking.

After all, it's hard to say from my older sister's expression that she dislikes this thing...