I've already said this isn't a life simulator!

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I haven't seen Hen much lately, probably taking care of his child? Kevin, on the other hand, has been much more active. I heard he's about to be promoted to vice-captain, but he's been talking less and less, and even saw a psychologist once or twice... He's still a student after all, and hasn't experienced enough of the battlefield. But I think he'll get used to it after a few more missions.

I ran into Sakura at noon and we exchanged a bag of candy. She gave me pink cherry blossom candy, which tasted a little different from the white star-shaped candy I usually eat, but I liked it too. She must have encountered something, because she was always hesitant... She's always like this; she doesn't hide many things from me, but she doesn't tell me either, which makes me worry...

Xi Wang paused here, took out the candy box and put a white star in it, changed the original [39] to [40], and then continued writing.

[When I was taking a walk with Sakura this afternoon, Dr. Möbius caught me again. It seems that she knows about my special constitution and is thinking about capturing me to study me all day long... To be honest, I feel a little disgusted, and it reminds me of bad things.]

Later that night, I saw another group of people leave. They were probably going to deal with the Honkai again. Although I didn't know the people in that group, I wished them good luck.

There's been no activity from the Poison Chrysalis lately. I wonder if they've encountered some obstacles or something major has happened. I just hope they can still provide me with information about "those guys." It would be best if they could find the coordinates of the "island."

But... well, these past few days have been pretty peaceful and I'm happy. I hope it will continue like this in the future.

At this point, Xi Wang put down her pen, glanced at what she had written, then tore off the page along with the next page and lit it with a lighter.

After staring blankly at the firelight for a while, and waiting for the paper to burn to ashes, Xi Wang took out a white star and stuffed it into her mouth along with the ashes.

Today's number is [41].

Xi Wang mentally corrected the numbers again, then got up and returned to her makeshift bed to rest—she had to practice with someone tomorrow morning and couldn't be late.

I wonder when Alicia will come back.

Before closing his eyes, Xi Wang saw that pink figure in his mind. He moved his arm and touched the candy box that he had placed next to him. He took one last look at the white stars inside.

Maybe I should eat less.

Thinking this through, Xi Wang decided to reduce the number of times she ate candy in the future, although... the process would probably be very painful.

But he will persevere.

He closed his eyes and gradually fell asleep.

...on an island somewhere...

What's it like outside?

The girl peered out the small window, gazing at the early morning light.

Birds...how wonderful.

She saw several birds soaring in the sky and heard their cheerful chirping, which made her think of this.

They can fly freely, freely in the beautiful and dazzling blue sky; that is the birds' "home".

"That's wonderful..." she thought to herself, "I want to live there too."

Even though none of us are human, I'm stuck here.

The girl looked back at the dimly lit room; only the small window she was peering through allowed her to see outside and be illuminated by the outside light.

Although it's nice here, there's food when you're hungry, medicine when you're sick, and painkillers when you're in pain. I don't even feel cold or anything... and no one will care what I do. I can lie in bed and sleep all the time without being scolded, and I can imitate a bird waving its arms without being laughed at. It's quite free—as long as I'm in this room.

She must be happy, right? She really is happy, isn't she? After all, she has nothing to worry about, and she even has a job.

But... I still want to go out, to live in that dazzling and beautiful blue sky like the birds.

She thought of the person she had served a few days ago. He was a very gentle and patient person, at least more patient than most of the people she had met in her previous work.

He took me to eat many things I had never tried before, and they were even tastier than usual. He also took me for a walk around the area, danced with me at the dinner party, and even showed me a movie—a movie about a person chasing birds, longing to fly, and finally succeeding in breaking free from the constraints of the ground.

Although his actions at night were just as rough as everyone else's, I was really happy at that time.

Birds...how wonderful.

she thought.

"rustle--"

A slight noise brought the girl back to her senses. In a daze, she realized that she was not in her own room, but in a more enclosed room. In the dim light, only the reflection of the projector on the screen could slightly illuminate the surroundings, just like the small window in her own room.

On the table to the side were several medicine bottles, the caps of which had been opened, along with several used syringes, cotton swabs that smelled of disinfectant, several wads of bloody cotton, and bandages that had just been changed.

She gradually regained her sense of body and slowly curled up, but her gaze remained fixed on the curtain.

"Have you come to your senses yet?"

Someone asked from the darkness.

"Birds...are flying..."

"........."

The person in the darkness made a gesture, and the doctor next to him, seeing this, injected the prepared syringe into the girl's neck.

The girl did not resist and appeared very quiet. After a while, her consciousness seemed to have just returned, but it was as if something had been left out, and her eyes were filled with confusion and bewilderment.

"...What do you mean by saying that some people are not worthy of being called human beings?"

"...I've already explained it before."

"I forgot……"

Her memory seemed to be stuck at a certain moment in the past, or perhaps she had lost all memories from that time to the present.

"It's not a complicated principle, I'll just say it again—"

The person in the darkness spoke patiently and calmly.

"Everyone exists with their own essence, and the essence between people is divided into superior and inferior."

"The superior are destined to be noble, and the inferior are destined to be lowly."

"Lowly people have many characteristics, such as having long hair that they don't like to groom."

The girl subconsciously touched her somewhat messy long hair.

"For example, liking low-level entertainment."

The girl watched the short film playing on a loop in front of her.

"For example, having bad skin."

The girl touched her forearm and felt a rough texture.

"Characteristics such as being unwilling to accept education from the upper class."

The girl vaguely remembered that someone had said these words to her, but she couldn't remember...

"These inferior people cannot be called human beings, they are not worthy of being human beings, they are just expendable products wearing human form."

"Now, do you know what you are?"

"I see……"

The girl responded groggily, her consciousness seemingly fading again.

The doctor standing next to the girl slowly wrote on the paper: "[Memory impairment, consciousness impairment, difficulty concentrating, severe hallucinations...]". In the end, even the doctor couldn't help but click his tongue and say something.

"If this isn't dealt with..."

"It's okay, people who come to the island just like this."

The person in the darkness waved his hand, interrupting the doctor, and continued to ask questions.

"Do you know what you are now?"

"I am... a lower-class person..."

The girl whispered softly.

"Not human...unworthy of being human..."

"Yes."

The man affirmed the girl's feelings.

"But even so, you don't need to feel sad or cruel. Even if you are born inferior, as long as you learn to accept and obey, many happy and joyful things will come into your life, just like before."

"Yes...yes...just like before..."

The girl was in a daze.

drip-

It sounds like the sound of some kind of communication device.

"Look, aren't we having guests?"

The man said with a smile.

"You can have fun with your guests."

"Time to get to work," the girl thought instinctively.

The girl gradually got up and, with the man's help, swayed as she walked out of the dimly lit secret room and into the sunlight.

Various decadent sounds came from all directions, some unrestrained, some very soft, but they could not be avoided no matter where you went.

"Cuckoo..."

She heard birdsong again, and slightly raised her listless eyes to look at the rising sun, where several seagulls were flying along with the sunlight.

Birds...how wonderful...

You can live under a beautiful and dazzling blue sky...

I really want to go see it too... I also want to have wings as beautiful as birds, wings that allow me to fly freely...

she thought.

Then, cyan wings unfurled behind her, and a gentle breeze blew, turning them emerald green as they lifted her up.

"what……"

As she watched the azure sky draw closer, she couldn't help but smile and reach out her hand, wanting to touch it.

"what……"

Only when her figure was alongside the flying birds did her expression suddenly stiffen, and she froze in mid-air.

She reached out her hand towards the azure sky, touched it, but felt nothing. She then instinctively tried to grab it, but grasped nothing again.

So the sky... is something you can't touch...

The girl's consciousness froze at that moment.