The Scum Girl's Self-Help Guide

Chapter 136
There were many moments when I felt that life was hopeless.

Before the age of 20, my life was considered complete, my parents were loving, I ran a small business to support the whole family, and I was learning to sing with the troupe in the city, and I could see the smiling faces of my parents every day when I went home.

Until that day, the devils captured the county town, and all the troupe members died that day, and I happened to ask for leave that day to go home to visit my parents. The stone cover to the ground was covered from the outside, and I couldn't push it away for the time being.

And when I managed to pry open the stone cover, I saw two corpses lying in the courtyard—father and mother.

He was shot to death between the eyebrows, and the blood splashed everywhere, staining the black land red.

It was dark when I came out, but the house was lit with oil lamps, and there were many figures printed on the paper windows. Listening to the laughter inside, people were changing glasses, and my heart was full of anger. I was about to rush in and talk to them. I tried my best, but I heard the roar of the uncle next door in the alley outside: "You bunch of beasts! My Yun'er! I will fight with you!"

Yun'er is a friend I grew up with. She is very beautiful. She just announced her marriage partner this year - he is the son of the cloth shop owner in the town, but she didn't want to die in the hands of the Japanese.

"Boom!" The uncle next door's angry curses stopped abruptly with a gunshot.

The people in the house also heard the movement outside, and opened the door to look out. I quickly hid in the cellar and pushed the stone cover back to its original position.

Luckily I escaped, and for a long time I stayed in the cellar, gnawing on raw sweet potatoes.

It wasn't until one day that a soldier wearing a red armband pushed away the stone cover of the cellar that I didn't know that the devils in the village had been beaten away, but they would come back, so I had to go with them.

In order to survive, I believed them-they said they were an underground party and invited me to join.

I disagree.

When we parted outside the city, they told me to go to the southwest, where it would be safe.

So I begged along the road all the way to Jiangcheng. On the way, I was almost dragged by the local warlords to work as a coolie many times, but every time I was transported to the construction site, when I had no hope for freedom in my heart, there would always be comrades from the underground party jumping. Come out and save me.

A year later, I finally arrived in Jiangcheng, which is located in the southwestern region and is known as the safest.

In order to live here, I found a local theater troupe, and the troupe master recruited me.

Of course, as I was pitiful at the time, I looked like a little beggar, maybe the host let me in out of pity.

Later, more and more people liked to listen to my opera, and I became a pillar in the class.

At that time, I thought my life would be like this, relying on singing for the rest of my life.

But once I accidentally saw a letter from the class leader, I knew that the class leader turned out to be a member of the underground party!

Thinking of the tragic death of my parents and being saved by the underground party again and again on the road, I decided that I would join the underground party and kill all the little devils!

That day was the first time I received a task - to hand over the list of underground party members in southwest cities to the information officer sent by the central government.

But it was also that day that the team received an order from the Hu family in Jiangcheng—to sing for Miss Hu's wedding.

I thought that the task might need to be postponed for a day, but something happened at Miss Hu's wedding that day, and the groom ran away, taking a woman with him.

That day I saw the young lady of the Hu family in Jiangcheng. She was standing in the banquet hall in a red wedding dress, with a ruby-encrusted hair crown on her head. Facing the embarrassing situation where the groom elopes with the woman, I thought she would at least His eyes were red, and he cried a few words, like the situation of the poor wife who was abandoned by the number one scholar in the play.

But she didn't. She just stood quietly, looking at everyone in the hall, whispering to her brother from time to time, and there wasn't even a hint of sadness in her body.

That day I met her eyes, and I clearly saw her eyes light up, as if I was the bright star in the crowd.

I was a little stunned and quickly lowered my head. After the scorching gaze moved away, I slowly raised my head, only to see her holding her brother's sleeves and acting coquettishly, with a somewhat aggrieved look on her face. .

I couldn't help but jump in my heart, I knew I couldn't sit in the hall anymore, even in such a remote corner, so I retreated through the corner door.

I thought that the intersection between me and her was only for such a short moment, but when we got our wages and returned to the theater, packed everything and waited for the messenger, the second young master of the Hu family came and asked us to sing for a month play.

My heart skipped a beat, not only because of the underground party list hidden in the orange on the stone table, but also... maybe I could see her again!

Fortunately, Hu Ershao didn't discover the secret in the orange, and fortunately the leader agreed.

On the first day I entered the Hu Mansion, I saw her.

Maybe it should be said that she told me to go there, I thought maybe Ms. Hu was interested in me?

From a distance, I saw her back, in the gazebo, stretching out her hand to tease the fish in the lake, like an ancient picture of a lady.

Seeing her, her eyes are very bright, I dare not meet her eyes; her voice is sweet and clear, I am a little afraid to hear it, and my heart beats when I hear it.

I couldn't help but step back, but I didn't want her to take a step forward, getting closer, and I could even feel her breathing right next to my ear.

Wherever her eyes rested, I could feel how hot it was.

I heard her laughing, her laughter was clear, like the sound of wind chimes.

Then I heard her call me "Brother Lianqiu", but I didn't know how to respond to her, I was just an actor, or a member of the underground party who couldn't see the light, and she was Miss Jiao held in the palm of the warlord.

The month of singing in the Hu Mansion was the most beautiful and unforgettable day in my life.

She would come to listen to my opera every day, wearing the exact same costume as me, babbling and humming in the audience.

She would also wait for me to remove my makeup backstage, humming a new play excerpt I learned today while I was removing my makeup, and then obediently sat on an empty chair beside me and waited for me to comment on her.

Everyone in the class liked her very much, got very close to her, and taught her a lot.

But I dare not, I am afraid of being attracted to her, sinking into obsession, forgetting what I want to do, and fearing that I will involve the leader of the class and the underground party in Jiangcheng.

Until that day, a month had passed, and the theater troupe was about to leave the Hu Mansion.

But she asked the head teacher to ask me if I would like to marry her?
Of course I am willing, but... getting married is not just about goodwill, just liking is enough.

Even if we come together with disparity in identities, it is destined not to last long.

That being the case, it is better not to give her hope.

(End of this chapter)