you are all star

Chapter 192 We Can't Go Back
After Dai Jia left, Lavender took out the note from under the pillow and read it again. It was still the same as when Dai Jia was there just now, and she burst into tears while reading it.

For some reason, she found this passage so readable, but also so heartbreaking.

Lavender also couldn't figure out why she was so heartbroken, maybe after a holiday of precipitation and reflection, she really grew up and really understood some things.

During this vacation, Lavender is in the midst of self-salvation all the time. A large part of the reason why she has the willingness to transfer is because she also has that feeling in her heart. The pure and simple friendship between people is now beyond the scope of friendship. More often than not, it is like the relationship between male and female friends.

In fact, Lavender does not rule out such a relationship with Neil, but since the day Neil fell in love with basketball and dreams, the relationship between men and women seems to have fallen in love with depression. That's extravagant, and the two of them are underage, and now their friendship is beyond the scope of friendship, so this holiday Lavender thinks about it, even though the two of them are now growing older , the physical development is becoming more and more mature, driven by curiosity, they all long for some new contacts and some new feelings, but many things can not be done just by thinking about it. In the face of the rigid reality, everyone is soft None of them can escape the shackles of reality.

And the so-called shackles of reality include all aspects, such as life, dreams and the future...

Therefore, Lavender thought that since there is no future with Neil, and there is no so-called staying out of it, then why not stay away from Neil and fulfill his dream before the seed of love has taken root, sprouted, blossomed and bear fruit, he is so obsessed with basketball, so Love, if he is physically and mentally exhausted because of himself, in the future, it is very likely that he will become the culprit, and this is tantamount to destroying his dreams and future.

But now Neil wants to apologize to her through a note and beg her for forgiveness. If he is not cruel, he may still be unable to get away. Done and never going back.

So, Lavender lay on the bed, huddled under the quilt, thinking hard, and clutching his scalp with both hands from time to time, wishing to grab all the hairs off one by one. Facing such a choice, it was extremely difficult and painful.

After some deliberation, she decided not to transfer back to the elite class. However, since Neil had the courage and thoughtfulness to apologize to her in this way, Lavender decided to have one final PK with Neil , After the PK is over, she will explain to him, explain clearly to him, explain clearly.

After Lavender made this decision, she gritted her teeth, spread her hands to wipe away the tears on her cheeks, pursed her lips and smiled, turned over and got up, finished washing, put on her basketball gear and found Neil.

When Lavender found Neil, she didn't forgive Neil's words and didn't say a word. Instead, she always acted strong and kept smiling.

With her expression, Neil didn't ask much, and didn't think too much, because according to the agreement between him and Lavender in the note, if Lavender forgave him, he would come to the stadium and have a single with him like a junior high school graduation party. Picking, and now that Lavender has come to the appointment, it means that she should forgive him.

Even though Lavender appeared in front of him today and walked with him on the way to the basketball court, the former two always had a lot to say when they were together, but now the two have no words and remain silent.

Lavender and Neil played heads-up that day. Although both of them remained silent and didn't say much, they were very serious and took it very seriously during the match. After a round of heads-up, Lavender lost.

After a round of fighting, Neil realized that Lavender was relatively weak in dribbling, so he thought for Lavender and said: "Lavender, how about we single out the three-pointer, on the night of your junior high school graduation party, the three-pointer That's right."

"Neil, let's go heads-up and stop here. I still have things to do."

Neil seemed to see something from Lavender's far-fetched smile and constantly dodging eyes when he spoke. He stared at Lavender and asked tentatively in a friendly tone: "Lavender, if you really have something to do, Then I'll take you back!"

"Neil, no need, I can go back by myself, thank you for letting me relive the unforgettable moment at the graduation party a year ago in my mind today."

"Lavender, why are you being so polite to me all of a sudden? We're not good friends? Haven't you already forgiven me?" Neil was so polite to Lavender suddenly, and his expression was a bit blunt, because from the moment he saw Lavender, Neil felt that there was something wrong with Lavender, and now that he said such polite words, he felt that something was wrong, so he asked.

"Neil, I've already forgiven you, but we can't go back. The reason why I came to the duel with you today is to make it clear to you through this duel, to make it clear, I forgive you, it's just me It is impossible to transfer back to the elite class, because I can't keep up with the teacher's thinking and progress, and I am afraid that I will drag down the students in a class."

"Lavender, just tell me directly, are you still angry with me? You didn't forgive me at all."

"Neil, don't think too much, I really forgive you, but I have already made an agreement with my father, I don't want to go back to the elite class, the pressure of the elite class is really high, you know, even though I have enough food and clothing since I was a child Yes, but I lacked maternal love since I was a child, so sometimes I look like a manly woman, and sometimes I am very weak." Lavender found a lot of reasons and excuses, the purpose is to hope that Neil will not be so sad and can let go of it.

Neil's eyes kept wandering, and he asked thoughtfully, "Lavender, you lied to me, didn't you?"

"Neil, I have known you for eleven or twelve years, and you still don't understand me? Don't worry, even if we are no longer in the same class, I will often go to the arena to watch you play, play with you, and occasionally fight one-on-one. But if you are depraved and don’t know how to make progress, I will sue your parents, I hope you can stick to your dreams, and I especially hope to see you on the silver screen in major competitions in the future.” Lavender tried her best to keep smiling , said in a friendly tone.

"Lavender, is that why you don't want to be in my class anymore?"

Lavender was stunned by Neil's questioning. She didn't know how to answer Neil. Suddenly, she couldn't control her emotions and yelled at Neil: "Didn't I say everything before? This is endless."

"Lavender, I'm sorry, I..."

"You didn't apologize to me. I really have something to do right now, so I'll leave first!"

Lavender turned around and ran away without caring about Neil's feelings.

Neil burst into tears all of a sudden, he took a few steps to chase, Lavender turned his head, glanced at him from the corner of his eye, pointed at Neil with a warning tone: "Neil, don't I'm here, I really forgive you, I hope you don't think too much, let alone degenerate, if you are willing to degenerate, then I don't want to see you in this life."

Neil was frightened by Lavender's actions and tone. Neil didn't dare to take a step forward, so he stood still and stared at Lavender with tears in his eyes, without saying a word , but Lavender didn’t care about anything, and didn’t care about it, because the long-term pain was worse than the short-term pain, she turned around and ran away, and when she disappeared at the corner, her tears flowed down, and she stopped beside a big tree at the corner I stopped, and said with tears: "I'm sorry, Neil! Actually, I don't want to do this either, but my existence will really delay your dreams and future, so I'm still staying away from you for the time being. If one day, you are still right I am grateful and concerned, so I will accompany you through the rest of my life, and we can’t do this now, so I wish you better, and I also wish me better, I hope you understand.”

After Lavender left, Neil hugged the ball and slammed it on the backboard, asking, "Why? Why?"

Seeing the pain and despair of its master, the little ball had no choice but to hold back and dared not say much, but it felt that what Lavender did might not necessarily be a bad thing for Neil, but it might be that the master temporarily It's hard to get out, but time will slowly dilute everything, and time will tell everything.

(End of this chapter)