Xueba at the same table from the future

Chapter 138 Love Yourself First, Then Love Others
"Some things can only be buried in the bottom of my heart and selectively forgotten. Some grievances can't be cried out, so I can only hold them in my stomach and let them rot slowly."

The girl in the white dress glanced at the gloomy sky in the distance, gently let go of her long hair like a waterfall behind her, and pinched the delicate bow in the palm of her hand.

"Muzi, you told me the story of Sima Xiangru and Zhuo Wenjun last time, as well as the story of Sanmao and Hexi. But no matter what, they are people who live in the story. Just like Sima Xiangru after Like a change of heart and a concubine, reality is often duller than stories."

Long Ruoye then sighed softly, and pinched the bow in the palm of her hand even tighter.

"There's no such thing as love at first sight. It's just love at first sight. Falling in love with each other for a long time is just a matter of weighing the pros and cons. Even growing old together is just a matter of habit."

"This doesn't sound like what a 14-year-old junior high school student said, it feels like..." Chen Mu also cast his gaze on the tightly pinched bow in Long Ruoye's palm.

"Muzi, do you want to say..." Long Ruoye paused, and began to search for appropriate adjectives in his mind.

"I feel quite sad—" The girl in the white skirt shifted her eyes to the gloomy sky in the distance.

"Hiss—" Chen Mu gasped involuntarily for the overwhelmed sense of age.

"So." Chen Mu reached out and shook Long Ruoye's face twice, interrupting his frowning state of thinking.

"Uh, I'm sorry, Muzi, I'm a little distracted." Long Ruoye stared at Chen Mu's palms for a few seconds, and added slowly again.

"My mother, she married very early, and her previous personality was actually much gentler than now. It is precisely because of this reason that she was very tolerant of that naughty me and that man at that time."

"In the eyes of outsiders, our family will always be a beautiful model family, but what others don't know is that my mother is actually very tired in order to maintain this marriage relationship."

"Mom, when she comes back from get off work every day, she will prepare meals for that man in advance. If it is late after get off work, she will reheat it again, and then wait for that man to come home late."

"But unlike my mother's relatively stable job as a teacher, that man traveled frequently on business trips, had a good time outside, and later even started having an affair behind my mother's back."

"That's a charming woman with a personality completely different from my mother's. To put it another way, she is full of charm. She is more attractive to that man than a gentle woman like my mother."

"This is the only thing that my mother can't stand. After repeated persuasion to no avail, she finally made a tough decision that was completely inconsistent with my mother's gentle temperament."

"Of course, I learned these things from my mother's inadvertent words later on."

The words changed.

Long Ruoye paused for a moment, and took the initiative to skip the long narration process in the middle.

"At that time, my mother had only worked for two years, and the salary was actually very low, so low that it was even difficult to take care of myself."

"But she still didn't choose to start a family again, but raised me while working, just..."

A gloomy look began to appear on Long Ruoye's pretty face: "Since that incident, my mother seems to be a different person. She is not only strict with herself and the students. She even treats the ignorant I am also a strict requirement."

"My mother's tutoring is very strict. I'm not allowed to sneak out to play, and I'm not allowed to watch TV before finishing the homework she assigns. I'm not even allowed to play with a doll." Speaking of this, Long Ruoye He bit his lower lip aggrievedly.

"Later, my mother specially transferred here to work because she also valued the clean environment here. When I was young, I had almost no recreational activities, so I had to study according to various tasks assigned by my mother."

"Thinking about it from another angle, that's not a bad thing. At least your grades, monitor, have always been much better than ours."

After quietly listening to such a long series of words from the girl beside him, Chen Mu didn't know what to say for a while, so he could only comfort him softly.

"En", Long Ruoye Nuonuo replied, the gloomy look in his eyes lightened a little: "Actually, I never blamed my mother. According to her way of speaking, it means that all the hard work has been done for me. good."

"But..." The girl in the white dress gently turned the bow in her hand over: "Mom, she has always been thinking about me in her own way, maybe it was because she was hit by those two people, so she turned to me. And transfer the strict requirements to me."

"In the final analysis, she didn't want me to be a serious and boring person, but just didn't want me to be a person like those two people."

"Squad leader, you are different from usual today, you talked a lot." Chen Mu didn't comment on the long list of words above, but changed the topic again.

"Actually, I usually think a lot in my heart, but I just can't say it." Long Ruoye responded to Chen Mu, and then added: "This should also be a family inheritance."

"Muzi, do you still remember the question you asked me last time?"

"Dream is a very distant and near thing to me. In fact, until now, I haven't been sure what I have thought about. But fortunately..."

The girl in the white skirt turned sideways and took out a small sunflower box and spread it in the palm of her hand, then turned to smile sweetly at Chen Mu.

"The gift you gave me last time, Muzi, reminds me of something that happened a long time ago."

Speaking of this, Long Ruoye's voice raised a bit again: "Although the bookshelf in the back row of the classroom only existed for a few days, luckily, I found a very interesting book in it."

"Cough cough cough", seeing Long Ruoye's expressionless expression at this time, Chen Mu coughed twice in a panic: "Well, sir, I also found a book on the shelf. Very interesting book."

"You also found a copy?" Long Ruoye blinked twice and tilted his head: "It just so happens that points will be deducted."

"...", Chen Mu was choked for a moment and said in silence: "Well, in fact, the book is only so-so interesting, but..."

Chen Muzai began to grope in the pocket of his clothes: "There is a little thing in it, which is quite interesting."

Without saying a word, Chen Mu handed the bookmark that had been stuffed in his pocket since the class just started to Long Ruoye's hand.

"Hey, isn't this my bookmark, Muzi, the book you mentioned just now is the "Story of the Sahara"?" Long Ruoye looked at Chen Mu fixedly, and his tone subconsciously softened a little.

"Last time, Muzi, you told the story of Sanmao and Hexi, so I bought this one specially. As for the bookmark... I forgot where I found it from."

Long Ruoye carefully looked at the handwriting on the front of the bookmark, "To those who know how to appreciate it, it is priceless, to those who don't, it is worthless."

"This sentence is indeed very interesting. My mother doesn't like this kind of idle books very much. She just thinks that everything that interferes with learning is useless."

"Hey - it's so annoying." Long Ruoye sighed softly, not knowing whether she was complaining about Long Ma or herself.

"Squad leader, squad leader, look at the back of the bookmark, I think you should be able to find something inside." Chen Mu interrupted Long Ruoye's unstable state with two short shouts.

"I'm sorry, Muzi, I..." At this moment, Long Ruoye seemed a little flustered after she let go of her usual peaceful appearance.

"It's okay." Chen Mu waved his hands twice to stop his next words, and handed the blurred writing on the back of the bookmark to Long Ruoye's eyes.

"Stare—I can't see clearly." Long Ruoye carefully looked at it for a few seconds, and his face showed the innocent look of a child discovering a treasure.

"Muzi Muzi, although I can't read it clearly, I can be sure that this handwriting... this handwriting is mine." Long Ruoye tried to distinguish for a while, and finally only read the word 'skirt'.

The girl in the white skirt turned to Chen Mu for help: "Muzi, since you chose to show this to me, you should be able to recognize the words on it."

"I'm sorry, I was really..." when I was young, Long Ruoye's face showed a rare blush.

"Well, I figured it out. It took me a long time to figure it out with Li Xinxi. I was in charge of identification, and she was in charge of translation."

"Pfft—translation, do you two still have a division of labor?" Long Ruoye smiled lightly and covered her rosy lips: "Thank Xiaoxi for me later."

"Thank you, but there is no need, as for the words on it." Chen Mu narrowed his eyes slightly: "They are mama, like, skirt, doll, no let and makeup."

"As for the translation, it's..." Chen Mumiao glanced at the small cosmetic contact box in Long Ruoye's palm: "Sir, you liked to put makeup on dolls when you were young."

"No..." Long Ruoye waved his hands gently, and his eyes drifted a little: "The correct translation of this sentence should be."

"Ma Ma won't let me make her into a doll who likes to wear skirts."

"Well, that is to say, Li Xinxi and I finally got the wrong answer?"

"Hmm." Long Ruoye's voice subconsciously became a little louder: "Hearing what you said, Muzi, it reminds me of my childhood."

"There was a period of time during which my mother also learned to put on heavy makeup, but every time the cosmetics she bought were useless for a few days, they were always discarded by her."

"But for me at that time, this kind of thing was the most fun toy besides dolls. Every time, I would secretly hide these things while Mama was away. Then I would take advantage of my mother when she fell asleep. secretly painted her face into a big tabby cat."

"Although my mother always complained that she was not good-looking, but to me at that time, every time I saw her sleeping peacefully with a cat face, she was like a doll in a skirt."

"Obviously it's very good-looking." Long Ruoye began to mutter to himself in a low voice.

"Squad leader, I have a question." Chen Mu raised his hand.

"Uh." Seeing this scene, Long Ruoye paused for half a second, and then cooperated with Chen Mu's raised hand to speak: "Well, this classmate, you ask—"

"Why didn't you attack yourself then?"

"Well...hehehe", Long Ruoye blinked her watery eyes twice: "It's like I would rather see Xiaoxi come to beat you than me to do it myself."

"This—" After this short ten-second conversation, Chen Mu quickly confirmed a terrifying fact.

A woman is such a horrible creature, it really turns black even if it is cut open.

"Anyway, thank you, Muzi, for reminding me of this matter today. Otherwise, I might never have discovered this long-forgotten matter by myself."

The girl in the white dress tied her hair back into a ponytail with the bow in her hand, and then picked up the small color contact case in her hand.

"It turns out that from such a young age, I have always been very interested in things like makeup."

"Muzi, I think about the answer to the question you asked me last time." Long Ruoye's voice raised by three points.

"Answer? Let me guess? Squad leader, do you want to be a makeup artist in the future?"

"No." Long Ruoye shook his head.

"Muzi, I wrote such a sentence in that very interesting book."

"There are three levels of makeup in this world. The third-rate makeup is the makeup of the face, the second-rate makeup is the makeup of the material, and the first-rate makeup is the makeup of life."

"My dream..." Long Ruoye raised his head slightly, looking at the gloomy sky in the distance.

"Muzi, my previous state of life was... just like today's gloomy sky, gloomy and cramped."

"As for the dream, it should be in the future. I really want to be more myself. Whether it is a hobby like makeup or reading extracurricular books, I want to negotiate with my mother and fight for it."

"be yourself?"

"Love yourself first, and then love others." Seeing that Chen Mu was still a little confused, Long Ruoye immediately added softly.

"It took my mother ten years to figure it out, and it took me a long time to figure it out."

"This is my dream, Muzi, what do you think?" After finishing speaking, Long Ruoye put away the colored contact lenses, covering her reddened cheeks shyly.

"Can I give a bad review?"

"No!" The girl in the white dress suddenly raised her voice a third.

"Love yourself first, and then love others, I think it's very good." Chen Mu grinned slightly at the person beside him, revealing a row of white teeth.

The dog-headed boy stretched out his warm right hand that had been in his pocket since just now: "Sir, is there still one thing we haven't done?"

"What's the matter?" Long Ruoye glanced at the petite girl who was slowly approaching from a distance holding a camera: "Could it be - did you forget to let Xiaoxi hit you?"

"Not this." Chen Mu scratched his head in embarrassment: "I said, monitor, let's shake hands."

"Handshake?" Long Ruoye tentatively stretched out the palm of his left hand, and when he stretched out halfway, he flinched slightly and let out a sigh of relief: "The weather is so cold now."

"Yes, but it doesn't matter because..."

The dog-headed boy blinked his twinkling eyes twice.

"I have shortcomings all over my body. There is only one advantage, and that is that the dog's paws are quite warm."

"Hehehe~ That's just right, it should be warm on a cloudy day."

A word fell, accompanied by a crisp camera click in the distance.

The palm of the girl in the white skirt naturally fit into the hand of the dog-headed boy.

Be aware that a handshake is the most formal way of greeting between two palms.

It is mostly used for meeting, parting, congratulations, and thanks between friends.

But the handshake between the girl in the white skirt and the boy with the dog head is different from the four uses mentioned above.

This fifth use is just to keep warm.

The weather on Wednesday was a bit gloomy.

From the center of two joined palms.

A gust of warm wind blew quietly.

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(End of this chapter)