The Boss Medicine of Quick Transmigration is Coming

Chapter 44 I really want to love this world (44)

Seeing that the person's mood swings were not as violent as before, Xi Fan hummed softly and said in his ear: "If you want, you can tell me anything sad, and I will accompany you in your sadness and worry." You share it together, trust me, I will be by your side."

Nestled in Xi Fan's arms, listening to Xi Fan's constant comfort in his ears, Fang Zhan, whose emotions were gradually relieved, closed his eyes and said softly as if talking to himself: "Do you know, I have lived in the world since I was a child? Among the countless praises from my parents and people around me, I am surrounded by their endless praise and expectations. In their eyes, it seems that I am omnipotent. They think that no matter what I do, as long as I do it, I will be able to do everything. Must be the best one.

Applause, praise, flowers and honors, I have indeed received many, many.

However, I am not good at everything.

When I go on stage, I will also be nervous, worried, and afraid of messing up. Just looking at the proud eyes of the audience, I can only hold on and tell myself to hold on and be strong, and not let those who look at me down .

Every time I take the exam, I am not sure that I will be the best in the exam. I always ask myself before the exam, what should I do if I fail the exam?
Ever since I was a child, I have always been praised by them, but my younger brother has always been disliked by them. Whenever my younger brother does something irritating, my parents will always come to praise me after scolding him , Said that fortunately I am here, I am so good, this family will depend on me in the future, in my hands, our family's business will definitely get better and better, they are very relieved and so on.

Whenever I hear them say that, I really want to tell them that I can't, I get scared, I worry that I'm going to screw them all up with the weight of the family on me.What future, what company, I actually don't like it at all, I like painting, I like it very much, I want to paint...

I really envy my younger brother, his kind of life is so good, he can cry when he wants, laugh when he wants, and do what he likes, even if he is scolded by his parents, he will soon be happy to do other things again What he likes, and his parents are just talking about his mistakes, and they are not really angry.I envy him so much, because I don't want to live in this endless praise and expectation.

This compliment really took my breath away.

I know that my parents love me, and because I know, I can't tell them my true thoughts. I am worried that after I tell them my true thoughts, I will make them disappointed and sad, so, in the face of their praise And proud eyes, I try to do my best every time.

Even if I am very scared and tired, and I can't bear to let them down, I can only smile and tell them that I am not afraid and I will not be tired, but I am really tired and tired, so tired that I don't want to continue anymore. I have no one to talk about this feeling since I was a child, I don’t know who to talk to, Xi Fan, what should I do, what can I do, help me..."

Caressing Fang Zhan's back, Xi Fan comforted softly: "Don't be afraid, in fact, you did a good job just now. After bravely expressing your thoughts and wishes, do you feel more relaxed? Learn to hold back The emotions in your heart are released, and you will find that everything is not so difficult. But, don’t think about anything now, sleep well, and then tomorrow, we will face the future together, believe me, everything will be fine got up."

(End of this chapter)