Love Healing Manual

Chapter 84 On What Right? (Bonus Chapter 11)

"I told you to slow down, didn't you hear me?!" Miyagi Suzuo slammed her hand on the glass and shouted angrily.

Even though the driver had slowed down, the car was still moving forward. He was startled by the shout and quickly slammed on the brakes.

On the rear window, the last glimpse of Lin Ze disappeared from Miyagi Suzuo's sight. She slammed her fist on the glass, clenching her teeth anxiously. She turned around and quickly looked through the rear windshield.

The faces and figures of the pedestrians on the road were interspersed and obscured the person she wanted to see. Miyagi Suzuo would turn to the side and peek out, crawling back and forth between the two seats.

In the gaps between the crowd.

The face of the person she cared about appeared and disappeared intermittently.

His calm expression remained unchanged, so familiar. Miyagi Suzuo no longer doubted it; she was certain she had truly seen it.

He is Lin Ze.

The person riding the bicycle with another girl on the back was Lin Ze.

The beautiful girl held Lin Ze, whom she loved deeply, around the waist. She held him so tightly and securely, as if she wanted to embed her fair hands into his waist.

The two of them rode together through the streets of Ueno, Tokyo, in such a beautiful and sweet scene. All the scenery was like a backdrop in a painting: the wind blowing through the girl's skirt, the bustling crowds, the gradually fading warm sunlight, and even the girl who witnessed this scene from the side of the road with a look of utter despair.

This Tokyo feels so unfamiliar.

Suzuo Miyagi almost forgot to breathe. Her eyes turned uncontrollably red, and she just knelt blankly in the back row. The soft seat supported her knees, but nothing could support her heart.

It just plummeted, without any resistance, crashing down, crashing down rapidly, into a pitch-black abyss devoid of any light.

After a long time, she couldn't hear a sound, and she felt her throat tighten.

Suzuo Miyagi wanted to hear some sound, anything at all, the sound of something breaking, or the sound of a boulder hitting the ground.

But there was nothing, absolutely nothing.

It was like a vacuum membrane that enveloped everything.

She can't hear.

Tokyo fell silent; the world was muted.

Suzuo Miyagi's fingernails dug so hard into the leather seat that she almost sank in. She stared blankly as the view through the rear windshield suddenly changed, revealing another long street.

"I must have seen wrong..." she murmured.

That seems to be an illusion.

Her Lin Ze was such a cold person. He didn't like to interact with girls and deliberately kept his distance from everyone. His only goal was to make progress while remaining clear-headed. Everything in the world was changing, but her Lin Ze was the only one who remained unchanged.

How could he be riding a bicycle with another girl on the street in Ueno?

This must be a hallucination.

She was lost in thought, but the scene kept flashing before her eyes again and again.

The girl was clearly reserved and shy, and the person she was hugging was clearly the one she had been longing for day and night.

Miyagi Suzuo lowered her head, looking thoughtfully at her hands, trying to grasp them, but after her fingers curled into her palm, she only grasped air.

She felt her fingertips losing temperature and becoming numb.

"Miss?" The driver glanced at her through the rearview mirror and couldn't help but feel a little worried.

His question went unanswered.

While driving, keeping an eye on the road ahead, the driver hesitated for a moment before whispering again:

"Young Miss, are you alright—"

"Shut up!" Miyagi Suzuo slammed her fist on the chair, clenching it tightly. Her voice was hoarse as she said, "Can you please not talk? You're not allowed to say anything! You're not allowed to say anything at all... Let me have some peace and quiet."

Her lips trembled.

Three and a half years of companionship, yet I remained merely an observer.

This wasn't something she had persisted in overnight. She had sacrificed a lot for Lin Ze, but she did it all willingly, and she wouldn't mind sacrificing even more.

But why is there another person next to him?

She became a terrible class representative, and she was so proud of herself for just touching the other person's hand when handing in assignments—just that one touch.

We chatted on LINK, just a few words, under the guise of discussing coursework.

Even smelling the other person's clothes makes me nervously steal them.

Who has been doing such disgusting things?
Suzuo Miyagi pressed her forehead against the chair, her cheeks drooping, her mind a jumble of thoughts.

But despite all that careful protection, in the end, someone else can comfortably embrace the person she loves.

Countless images flashed on her screen.

This made it impossible for Miyagi to calm down.

The grievances she had kept hidden inside suddenly erupted, but no one answered her questions.

So, asking a girl what gift she liked was for the girl sitting behind him? So, having dates every day was to spend time together and enjoy sweet moments? So, those missing afternoons were spent shopping with the girl?

……

Are you pursuing someone, Lin?

"Pursue? No, you misunderstood. I just want to be friends with her."

"only friends?"

"Yes, and I have no intention of dating, at least not for the next few years."

……

"I forgive you."

"what?"

"If you love beauty, you can give cosmetics, mirrors, and flowers. Of course, these are not as good as dolls, handwritten letters, and water cups. If you like perfume, perfume is also a great gift."

"The doll is on the waiting list."

"Thank you, Miyagi-kun. If I have any questions in the future, may I ask you again? You really helped me today."

"I'd be honored to be able to help you. If you have any questions about this, please feel free to ask! I'll answer them to the best of my ability."

……

The words that Miyagi Suzuo herself had said echoed in her ears, and she found them inexplicably ridiculous, but when she tried to force a smile, she couldn't manage to do so.

How embarrassing... I even gave someone a push in their path.

Perhaps when the girl received the flowers, handwritten letter, perfume, and doll, she hugged Lin Ze with surprise and joy.

Wow, every gift is so thoughtful.

She could even picture the girl's expression.

That's hilarious.

She hasn't received a single word from him, while others have been showered with gifts, and might even be considering giving this ardently pursuing boy a chance.

Because being so attentive makes it seem like you can easily manipulate someone.

If you fall in love without even realizing it, the passionate romance begins.

Her beloved, whom she dared not even touch or say more than a few words to, was being called away by others at noon and again in the afternoon, being held and played with in the palm of their hand.

I had to carry it with me while riding that old, beat-up bicycle.

It's dangerous to bring someone along. What if the girl accidentally falls and dies?
The other party clearly doesn't pay attention to safety.

Miyagi Suzuo was distraught, lost in thought, and unwilling to accept the truth.

The car continued its journey and would eventually reach its destination, but Suzuo Miyagi remained in a state of emotional turmoil for a long time.

She didn't cry, but kept her face buried in her hands.

……

Inside the Miyagi family mansion.

The sound of something being smashed came from the second floor, which frightened the nannies in the house, who stood in the main hall and kept looking up at the upper floor.

Right next to the door.

Haruko Yajima didn't dare to speak, but just sat at the door and listened silently.

For several years now, she hasn't remembered her daughter being so hysterical.

She could guess some of the reasons from the broken and unclear voices coming from the room.

Haruko Yajima could only guess that the only person who could elicit such emotional fluctuations from Suzuo was Hayashi Sawa.

She couldn't help but sigh.

However, as a mother, she couldn't bring herself to resent others.

She had seen everything that Miyagi Suzuo had done over the past few years.

It is very difficult to emerge from the shadows of life. In the first year, Haruko Yajima witnessed how violent Suzuo's personality had become. At that time, Suzuo could hardly communicate normally with others. She would at least lose her temper with her family, but she was completely withdrawn towards outsiders.

She understands her daughter very well.

After all, it is a heavy blow to a young girl in the prime of her life to lose a leg.

She knew that Suzuo had had suicidal thoughts many times.

After that, she resigned from her job, which was on the rise, and devoted herself to taking care of her daughter at home.

After much effort, they finally got the other person to agree to try to stand up again and live a good life, relying on that bionic leg.

Haruko Yajima knew that the obedient Suzuo of the past would never come back.

Until I met Lin Ze, that boy.

Miyagi Suzuo became friends with the other person and went to school much more diligently, going from once a week to every day, eagerly carrying her schoolbag and urging the driver to hurry up.

someday.

She will always remember that day.

Suzuo, who had just returned from school, suddenly decided to study hard, but before that, she decided to take a good rest for a while.

It wasn't because Suzuo was afraid of what others would say about her being disabled, but because she decided to live like a normal person.

From then on, he practiced day and night.

The gauze wrapped around the wound was changed every time it rubbed raw, and a trash can was filled with blood-soaked gauze every day. The calluses on the severed limb had grown thickly, and new flesh was growing over them. Xiao Lingxu was obsessed with making sure every step was correct, and from morning till night, her limping figure moved across the lawn.

She and Miyagi Shun felt sorry for her and repeatedly tried to dissuade her from working so hard.

But Xiaolingxu doesn't listen to anyone.

She only said that she wanted to act like a normal person, to jump and leap, and to stand in front of Lin Ze with a completely new attitude, because that was the person she liked.

"From now on, he will only remember me at my best. Really, this is the only chance, and I can't miss it... Am I supposed to win his favor by being disabled?"

“I am a proud person…Mom, even though I lost a leg.”

"I can still be excellent even without this leg, because I am Suzuo Miyagi."

With such persistence, one day...

With her legs encased in thick black stockings, no one could tell that Suzumi Miyagi was disabled. Her bionic legs were indistinguishable from real legs, thanks to the latest technology that cost a fortune.

She wears thick black pantyhose all year round, only taking them off in her bedroom at home.

Then, place the mechanical leg in the room to charge it.

One person can give another a new life.

That's a lie.

What gave her new life was love.

She fell in love with someone.

……

In the bedroom.

The sobbing continued, and tears rolled down Miyagi Suzuo's delicate cheeks like beads from a broken string.

She was the one who loved Lin Ze the most, and Lingxu could say that to anyone.

but.

"Why should I?" she said, hugging her knees.

(End of this chapter)