Love Healing Manual

Chapter 3 Insomnia
The inner world, hidden beneath a calm exterior, is undoubtedly churning with turbulent waves.

Kitagawa Ayane walked quickly through the corridor, and no one could imagine how heavy her guilt was at this moment, despite being known as a "popular girl".

However, the most dangerous emotion is—enjoyment.

An enjoyment that is so intense that one cannot extricate oneself from it.

As if all the burdens on her body had been lifted, she felt so relaxed that she could become a cloud and float in the sky. She was deeply fascinated by the feeling she had just experienced in the equipment room.

As a result, the person developed a deep sense of guilt.

Kitagawa Ayane walked with her head down, ignoring the other students passing by in the corridor, and climbed all the way to the top of the teaching building, using both her hands and feet to reach the rooftop.

Suddenly, the whole world seemed to fall silent.

Leaning against the wall behind her, her shoulders slowly slid down, and she sat down, hugging her knees and hiding her face.

The light of the setting sun shone on her hair, and the strands of hair covered her cheeks.

She didn't say a word, she just hugged herself tightly.

She had studied diligently for years, coming from the countryside to study in a metropolis like Tokyo, carrying her mother's expectations. She was terrified, truly terrified that this inexplicable illness would ruin her life.

Even though her postgraduate studies had only just begun, she couldn't afford to waste a single moment.

But this illness has affected them...

Kitagawa Ayane's shoulders trembled.

In fact, it has only been a few months since she was diagnosed with the illness. She had never thought that she had any mental problems before. It all started one night.

The University of Tokyo offers stipends to graduate students, which allowed Ayane Kitagawa to rent a small one-bedroom apartment near the university. Due to the pressure of her studies, she suffered from insomnia night after night and had to put her part-time job on hold.

Back then, she would browse a certain app at night—a popular social media app in Japan, which almost every young person had on their phone.

It wouldn't normally be anything unusual, but Kitagawa Ayane accidentally clicked on a video.

In the video, a pretty girl wearing a mask and covering her eyes is crawling on the ground on all fours, even eating her food from a dog bowl on the ground.

At that moment, Kitagawa Ayane was deeply shocked and quickly shut down the app.

She had some quirks since childhood, but never paid them any attention. However, after watching this video, it was as if certain genes in her body had awakened, and she started acting increasingly strangely, even beginning to try things herself...

The time when Kitagawa Ayane thought she was sick was the second day after she had insomnia. She went to work with her best friend Murayama Kaoru. While walking, she suddenly bent down and crawled a few steps.

Kaoru Murayama was stunned and quickly helped her up, asking:
"Ayane, what's wrong?"

"What?" She was completely unaware that there was anything unusual about her behavior.

"Why are you suddenly crawling on the ground? Get up quickly, a lot of people are staring at you."

At that time.

Kitagawa Ayane suddenly felt as if her nerves were out of control, unable to judge what was wrong with her behavior—she didn't even feel that crawling was wrong, and stood there in a daze for a long time.

When I came to my senses.

Cold sweat dripped from her forehead, and she felt cold all over.

Such incidents have happened more than once. Fortunately, apart from Kaoru Murayama, not many people knew the inside story, but it was still terrifying enough.

It wasn't until Xiaoxun suggested that she go to the hospital for a diagnosis that she received a preliminary diagnosis from the doctor: latent post-traumatic stress disorder accompanied by moderate personality disorder.

After that, she started taking medication, but there was no improvement.

For a time, I couldn't leave my house... I couldn't live a normal life.

In her cramped one-bedroom rental apartment, she tried tying her hands and feet to restrict her movement or writing reminders on sticky notes and sticking them on the wall.

Nothing worked; muffled barks came from the blankets covering the bed in the dead of night.

The doctor suggested she keep a diary to record the state of her menstrual cycle.

Kitagawa Ayane became increasingly afraid to look at the contents of her diary. Through the brief words, she saw a severely distorted version of her own personality.

When she was so desperate that she considered hanging herself to end the tragedy of her life.

Someone recommended a professor at the Graduate School of the University of Tokyo, who is said to be a senior figure in the field of psychology.

It was during this time that she met Lin Ze—this junior student contacted her privately, added her on LINE, and said he had a way to help her without charging any fees.

Kitagawa Ayane initially didn't believe it at all. If even senior professors couldn't do it, what solutions could an ungraduated medical student possibly have?
Perhaps it was just a prank to amuse her.

She filmed and documented the bizarre behavior of a "popular girl" at school, uploaded the videos to social media to gain attention and attract ridicule. She couldn't help but assume malicious intent towards the girl, so she felt that such a despicable person should die along with the tragically fated girl, cleansing society of such disgusting individuals and taking them with them...

A miracle occurred during the first treatment.

Lin Zezhen proposed a treatment plan and very seriously assured her that there was a way to prevent the situation from worsening, or at least to control the cycle and pattern of the illness. She was stunned.

The two established a doctor-patient relationship from their very first meeting, without any prior contact. Now, from the first to the fourth week of treatment, she sees Lin Ze every 48 to 72 hours on average. Without taking any medication, she no longer worries about suddenly falling ill.

The situation gradually stabilized.

Her studies were able to continue, and as long as she didn't think about it intentionally, her daily behavior returned to normal.

However, after being pulled back from the abyss and becoming a "normal person" again, the shame of being a "normal person" returned, and this shame became more and more obvious in the last two treatments.

Wagging and groveling at a younger student, rubbing against his trouser leg, and even enjoying it—this kind of behavior is truly... infuriating!!!

suddenly.

Reflecting on my actions.

Kitagawa Ayane grabbed a handful of her hair, leaned back, her pretty face almost flushed red, and slumped weakly against the wall.

He let out a long sigh.

……

at the same time.

Lin Ze rode his bicycle out of the campus, moving as fast as the wind, all the way from Shinobazu Pond to Ueno Park. After stopping for a while at the traffic lights, he arrived at the shopping street where he usually worked.

His goals are clear, and his timeline is very well-defined.

After locking his bicycle at the base of the Ueno shopping center, he stepped inside and took the elevator up.

The elevator stopped on the 21st floor with a "ding".

"Ah, thank goodness you arrived on time, Lin Ze. Hurry up and go to the back to change your clothes."

Seeing him walking towards her from behind the movie theater counter, Haruko Kojima, wearing a mask and a movie theater uniform, spoke up.

"Where's Matsui?" Lin Ze asked, turning his head to look at the ticket gate.

"He had a date, so he left early. The next movie is about to start. If you come any later, I'm afraid I'll have to act as the ticket collector and hand the popcorn machine over to Tsubaki. You know, she doesn't know how to operate it."

"I am ready for today's battle."

"You look very energetic, keep it up."

Lin Ze nodded.

His part-time job involves checking tickets, guiding customers, and being responsible for basic security at the movie theater. He works 1 to 2 hours a day and earns 1300 yen per hour.

The work itself is not strenuous.

Soon, Lin Ze changed into his cinema uniform among the staff and rushed to the ticket gate before the movie started to begin his work diligently.

Of course, he already had a plan in mind.

After the part-time job is over, there is a pet spa on the third floor with dozens of kinds of dog food that look very good.

He hadn't forgotten the task the system had given him.

However, isn't it a bit too frivolous to suggest that my senior try dog ​​food? Even if it's for the purpose of treatment.

"Hello, please come in and turn left," he thought to himself.

Without pausing, he gave a slight bow to the guests visiting the cinema.

However, the treatment plan provided by the system was indeed effective. During the previous seven treatments, he tried to get the other party to simulate canine behavior patterns and felt a great release of Kitagawa Ayane's repressed emotions—while the treatment plans for C-PTSD are generally limited to a few types.

1. In a relatively safe environment, recall the traumatic experience, assess and eliminate the current dangers, and establish a stable daily life structure.

2. Helps understand symptoms, regulate emotions, avoid excessive self-evaluation and negative mindset, and build pain tolerance.

3. Take medication, use eye movement desensitization in processing and trauma-focused cognitive therapy, and increase the proportion of somatization therapy.

Lin Ze had read many papers by renowned professors and had also seen various similar plans in the treatment plan formulated by his prospective master.

However, the solution provided by the system completely overturns current medical understanding—it is worth mentioning that the symptoms that Kitagawa Ayane experienced did not conform to existing medical cases.

Lin Ze pressed the button on the ticket checker, scanned the ticket stub, and bowed to the guests again.

Most importantly, the reason he was so eager to carry out the system tasks, besides earning points, was that Lin Ze suspected that his unmanifested symptoms were related to those of his senior, Kitagawa Ayane.

Because recently, his insomnia symptoms have become increasingly severe.

(End of this chapter)