Love Healing Manual

Chapter 140 What I Should Have
In the bedroom, Kitagawa Ayane lay in Lin Ze's blankets, hugging her pillow.

She hadn't drawn the curtains, so a sliver of light pierced through the gap and onto the bed. She could faintly hear the ringing of bicycle bells outside, and a few elementary school students carrying their schoolbags and bells passing by, laughing and joking.

Kitagawa Ayane was puzzled as to why Lin Ze left without saying a word, not even giving her a glance.

She suspected that she had done something wrong, so ever since Lin Ze left, she kept thinking back to see where she had overlooked something.

Was she being too promiscuous?

This made Lin Ze feel disgusted.

Please, please don't give this answer.

Otherwise, she wouldn't be in a good mood all afternoon.

The more you worry about something, the more likely you are to feel that it has happened to you.

As Kitagawa Ayane considered various possibilities, her thoughts increasingly leaned towards Lin Ze being angry with her. She couldn't help but feel frustrated, clutching the corner of her pillow tightly. But even if she apologized, Lin Ze wouldn't forgive her, would he?

The power of words is weak; a sincere apology cannot win even a shred of tenderness.

The previous incident taught Kitagawa Ayane this fact; no matter how much she apologized, it was useless. In the end, she still gained Lin Ze's forgiveness through her actions.

Kitagawa Ayane couldn't help but recall what Miyagi Suzuo had said: the best way to help Lin Ze was not to hinder his medical career and to let him move toward a brighter future.

Kitagawa Ayane often felt that she was so stupid that she couldn't do anything, while Lin Ze was so smart that it was inevitable that she would be disliked by him.

The only way to avoid disturbing him while he is studying, to fulfill his every request, to hide away when he is annoyed, and to take advantage of him when he is happy is to do so with a sense of smug satisfaction.

The puppy's world is too small.

Lin Ze was the only one.

So even something as trivial as him suddenly leaving with a cold face made Kitagawa Ayane's mind wander to all sorts of random thoughts.

Lin Ze's world is too big; he has a bright future, a family who loves him deeply, and a young lady.

How could a puppy possibly covet it?
Kitagawa Ayane's eyes gradually lowered, she bit her lip, and a confused expression appeared on her face.

She seems to be unable to grasp anything.

The only thing I can hold onto is the bed that's now filled with Lin Ze's scent.

So she pulled the blanket over herself, inhaling the scent to her heart's content, and began to fantasize and relive the process of this thorough treatment, entering a dream where only she and Lin Ze were present.

……

……

The bicycle came to a stop in the guard post with an impeccable posture.

Lin Ze took out a piece of chewing gum he had bought on the street from some supermarket, tore open the packaging, stuffed the crumbs back into his pocket, and then put a piece of chewing gum into his mouth.

Suddenly.

A sweet taste that makes you frown comes from the tip of your tongue.

Lin Ze almost never eats snacks, even chewing gum is considered a snack. According to some research papers, people's concentration is improved when they chew.

His mood fluctuated throughout the journey.

I inexplicably ended up in front of a supermarket, and then realized I was going the wrong way.

This was utterly shocking to Lin Ze, proving that he had been distracted the whole way. He had cycled the route from Linji to Tokyo University countless times, yet he still got lost.

Realizing this, Lin Ze decided to calm himself down.

He should have guessed this sooner.

From the moment the system required the establishment of a stable intimate relationship, Lin Ze should have realized that the best solution was not the doctor-patient relationship, because the two would always be filled with mutual suspicion.

Patients' distrust of doctors and doctors' excessive demands on patients can easily lead to mutual resistance.

The most intimate relationship is undoubtedly romantic love.

A relationship where you give your complete trust.

He would know everything about Kitagawa Ayane-senpai, understand her every thought, and be so familiar with her that it would be like knowing his own hand.

The senior student will no longer be afraid or worried; she will think of this every time she fights against her illness.

She has someone she loves by her side.

The essence of a healing system is to reshape a person's personality through emotional interaction and life intervention.

After clarifying the specific logic.

Lin Ze suddenly felt helpless.

When he first met Kitagawa Ayane, his biggest concern was getting into trouble. Therefore, he kept the fact that he was treating her a secret and repeatedly stated that there would be no deeper connection after the treatment and that it would be best to forget each other.

These are all for the purpose of making the incision after the treatment is completed.

but.

The choice he faced was obvious.

The system seemed to think he wasn't putting in enough effort.

Therefore, we intend to have him dedicate himself to the medical profession.

To give oneself.

The University of Tokyo, along its long tree-lined avenues.

The season of autumn and winter seemed to have ushered in the last sunny day. The sun shone its light and heat without restraint, and wearing black clothes under its rays could even make you feel the heat.

Lin Ze walked towards the classroom while pondering the situation.

He arrived exceptionally early today. There were hardly any people around noon, only a few scattered students coming from outside the school, and some girls in groups of three or five.

Lin Ze was so focused on walking that he barely noticed anyone else.

After calming down, he now only has thoughts of how to make choices in his mind, and not so much about feelings.

In other words, he was considering whether it was worth sacrificing himself for treatment.

pat-

A diary suddenly landed at Lin Ze's feet.

He abruptly stopped in his tracks.

"Apologize." Suddenly, a cold voice came from not far away.

Lin Ze looked up and saw two freshmen holding soccer balls standing awkwardly in front of a rather petite girl.

It seems that he was not paying attention to anything else while walking, and was only busy moving forward.

That's why I bumped into this girl.

"I...I'm sorry!" The boy holding the soccer ball bowed deeply, his cheeks burning with embarrassment.

Logically speaking, even if someone was bumped into, the girl shouldn't have used such an arrogant tone, as if she were forcing someone to kneel down.

She crossed her arms, her face full of arrogance and indifference.

They seemed too lazy to even spare a glance for the two boys in front of them.

"Keep your head down until I allow you to get up."

The girl's voice was actually very pleasant, with a strong sense of pride. Just listening to her speak felt like hearing some wonderful musical notes ringing in your ears.

"Bound Patient: Nishimiya Shinki"

"Bind?"

"Bind?"

In my mind, a light appeared on the system's slightly blue screen, and pop-up windows kept flashing.

Lin Ze immediately understood the identity of the girl in front of him.

No wonder their aura was so intimidating.

It's no secret that there's a daughter of the chairman of the Mihori Foundation among the first-year students at the University of Tokyo; almost everyone knows it.

Especially considering what happened before, like jumping off a building.

The topic was hotly discussed on the campus forum for several days.

Everyone's smart enough to know that there are still social classes on campus, and regardless of their opinion of this eccentric young lady, they'd avoid her if possible.

Otherwise, if you offend them one day, you'll sink into Tokyo Bay.

Hitting someone isn't usually a big deal.

But when the two men realized who they had bumped into, they felt a chill run down their spines.

The man holding the soccer ball kept his head down, sweating profusely, as all he could see were the tips of Nishimiya Shinki's shoes.

Nishimiya Shinki was in a bad mood. She turned her exquisitely beautiful face, which was so captivating it could make one lose their composure, and searched for her diary.

Then, all eyes were fixed on Lin Ze.

"Hey." Nishimiya Shinki felt that Lin Ze was somewhat familiar, and the two looked at each other.

"Pick up the diary and give it to me."

She reached out her hand to ask for it, as if it were a matter of course, and stood there without moving.

In her mind, it's completely unnecessary to bend down and pick up something you've dropped, because there are plenty of people who will fight to pick it up for you.

Lin Ze couldn't help but raise an eyebrow.

He wasn't in a good mood either.

Looking down, Lin Ze saw the diary that had been blown open by the wind. The handwriting on it was neat and beautiful. The first line, written in a very clean and tidy hand, read: Bucket List.

Has the patient's condition progressed to the point where they need to write their will?

Ok.

No matter what, it has nothing to do with him.

Compared to Kitagawa Ayane.

There was nothing about Nishimiya Shinki that he felt was worth healing.

Lin Ze ignored the pop-up windows that kept appearing in his mind, as well as Nishimiya Shinji's request, and strode away.

It swept straight over the top of the diary.

wow——

The wind that swept between her legs turned another page.

The first wish in my diary reads:

I am Nishimiya Shinhime.

Before I die, I should have a boyfriend.

I should experience emotions I've never experienced before; that might be an interesting thing.

……

After Lin Ze left, Nishimiya Shinji was stunned.

She had never met anyone who completely ignored her requests.

Lin Ze, in particular, seemed unwilling to even glance at them, clearly deliberately refusing to help pick up the things.

Those people always treated her with utmost respect, showing nothing but fear and flattery.

He stood there frowning for a while.

Nishimiya Shinki turned around and said to the other boy standing in front of her, "You, go and pick up the diary for me."

The other party quickly nodded.

He hurriedly ran over, picked up the diary, and handed it to her.

After that, Princess Nishimiya left without looking back, carrying her diary.

"It's such a hassle to have no one to help me... I have to do everything myself."

On her way back to the classroom, she couldn't help but feel annoyed.

Since it was indeed not allowed to walk around the University of Tokyo with bodyguards, after the incident of her jumping off the building, Princess Nishimiya stopped bringing bodyguards to show her sincerity to the university.

She went back to the classroom.

The few students scattered in the classroom, who were chatting happily, immediately lowered their voices when they saw Nishimiya Shinki enter.

I've gotten used to this kind of special treatment.

She's like that wherever she goes.

Even though he was on campus, he still couldn't fit into the class and seemed out of place everywhere.

Nishimiya Shinki sat by the window, opened her diary, picked up her pen, and began to think about the second thing she had to do.

Death is not scary.

Without a doubt, she figured it out.

What's terrifying is the endless stream of hallucinations, each one stronger than the last, making one fear the arrival of the next hallucination even during the brief intervals between dizziness.

Like waves swept up by a gale.

A surging tide washed over my consciousness.

It grew stronger and stronger until my whole brain was in turmoil.

Nishimiya Shinki never wanted to experience that feeling again, and she felt she couldn't find hope in the doctor's encouragement. That faint hope of recovery was as insignificant as a spark in the darkness.

Compared to recovery.

What Nishimiya Shinhime actually wanted more was to be free from pain.

Then.

Death then becomes something that must inevitably come.

If, as the Bible says, those who go to heaven do not experience suffering and everything comes to an end, it would undoubtedly be an extremely joyful thing.

Nishimiya Shinki held the pen with her slender fingers. When she was expressionless, her cheeks showed a clear pallor, making her appear so thin and frail.

What should be the second thing?

While I still have consciousness, while I can still feel many things.

After much deliberation, Princess Nishimiya decided to compile her bucket list and do all the things she hadn't yet experienced, so that she wouldn't have too many regrets when she died.

Originally, finding a boyfriend was not her biggest wish.

She didn't really care about that, mainly because after hearing so many descriptions from Doctor Kaga Ena, who always said that love was wonderful and could make people believe in the beauty of the world again, she was skeptical.

It's just about finding a tool to serve you and to be used by; isn't that the role of a boyfriend?

Nishimiya Shinki did not think she knew nothing.

Although she has never been in a relationship and is not interested in any boys.

However, she had already seen through the essence of things.

However, for a noble young lady like Nishimiya Shinki, she decided to find a boy she found pleasing to the eye, even if he was just a tool, she would still choose one she was satisfied with.

First of all, one's appearance must be acceptable.

Otherwise, looking at something disgusting and repulsive would be a downer.

Nishimiya Shinki couldn't help but think of Lin Ze, who had just stepped over the diary, when suddenly, she remembered something.

It seems she saw this guy when she jumped off the building last time. At the time, she thought he looked decent and his height was suitable.

Then I forgot about it.

I saw it again this time.

Nishimiya Shinki took another step in assessing Lin Ze's appearance.

When looking for a boyfriend, you should at least meet this standard.

Moreover, she dislikes men who are overly obsequious; they find that rather boring.

Princess Nishimiya thought of something, and began to write her second wish in her diary:

"Get rid of everyone, make sure they can't find you, and then enjoy a period of freedom."

A hint of satisfaction appeared in her proud, beautiful eyes.

From birth, she received meticulous care, but everything she did was observed by many people, as if even a sneeze from her status as a young lady could cause a tsunami.

She was fed up with this burden of being cared for.

if it is possible.

Nishimiya Shinki wanted to live like an ordinary female student for a few days. She wanted to ride a bicycle, squeeze onto a bus, buy snacks, and take the last subway train.

Wandering around in an abandoned train tunnel.

the best.

Let's get soaked in another rain.

If the two wishes can be connected, then I will bestow this honor upon my future boyfriend.

Let's get soaked in the rain together.

(End of this chapter)