Rebirth of Chinese Entertainment, the Diary of a 95 Flower

Chapter 69 I don’t want to be bullied anymore
"What's wrong with me scolding you!!!" Huang Lei stretched his head and roared.

"Good, that's great."

Jiang Yang laughed at himself, his ears flushed red. He turned to leave, but paused after taking a step. He turned back and looked at Huang Lei: "You are really amazing!"

He turned back and pointed at Huang Lei with a trembling hand: "You brought me here, have you ever thought of taking me back?"

Huang Lei took a few quick breaths, opened his mouth, but said nothing, and turned his gaze away from Jiang Yang.

To be precise, it was to avoid Jiang Yang's pointing finger.

He tilted his head to the other side, his pupils trembling, not daring to look at Jiang Yang.

In Yang Chaoyue's eyes, this silence seemed like an accomplice pushing the other party into the abyss.

Jiang Yang walked around to Huang Lei's side and poked him between the eyebrows: "Do you know what kind of bullying I suffer here? It's just because I have no money and no power."

Jiang Yang just poked his fingers in the air.

But every time he poked him, Huang Lei's body trembled.

"I'm disabled, I'm a fucking useless person! You're amazing, everyone loves you." Jiang Yang's eyes trembled and his vision lost focus for a short time.

In my mind, I recalled the scenes of Zhao Gao fighting for food with others on the street, being beaten in coal dust, and being castrated in the palace.

Huang Lei lowered his hands and pressed them tightly against his ribs, not daring to move. He raised his eyes and looked directly into Jiang Yang's pupils for a moment, then quickly looked away.

Jiang Yang no longer pointed at Huang Lei, but pointed at the ground again and again, his back constantly bent.

"What a rotten place this is, rotten place, rotten place."

He stomped his foot hard on the ground, then raised his head. Two tears hung on the lower eyelid of his left eye, and the tears accumulated in his right eye had already flowed to his chin.

He turned and walked towards the table next to the noodle stall.

"I just want to take one step at a time, one step at a time, one step at a time..."

With every step he took, he pointed forcefully at the path he had walked.

As Jiang Yang took his first steps, his throat seemed to be sticky with blood, and his voice was sticky and trembling: "Step by step, step by step, step by step, climb up."

Jiang Yang's tone continued to rise.

He put one foot on the wooden stool and the last foot on the dining table, his voice becoming frantic: "I want to climb to the top, I want to be Zhao Gao!"

Huang Lei raised his head woodenly and looked at Jiang Yang.

Jiang Yang stretched his shoulders, the blood vessels in his neck bulged, he clenched his fists, pointed his index finger at the sky, and roared: "I want to be the highest Zhao Gao!"

Jiang Yang didn't roar out the word "Gao" completely, and it suddenly broke into a crying voice.

So much so that the following line, like a broken blower, is filled with shrill cries: "I want to be Zhao Gao, second only to the emperor and above all others!"

Yang Chaoyue looked up at Jiang Yang. The fire that had just started in front of him had gone out, but he was completely unaware of it.

How does Brother Yang’s performance compare to Huang Lei’s?
She couldn't tell.

All I know is that Brother Yang didn't do much, and most of the time he just pointed with his fingers.

Pointing to Yi Xiaochuan played by Huang Lei, pointing to the ground he stepped on, pointing to the road he walked, and finally standing on the wooden table at the dining table, pointing to the sky.

His fists were clenched so tightly that his nails turned white.

When Yang Chaoyue came to his senses, he found that he had already shed tears.

The moment Jiang Yang's tears flowed from his eyes, his own tears also flowed.

Five years ago, she watched this TV series and saw this scene, but didn't understand it.

But now, Jiang Yang was acting it out in front of her, speaking these lines in a hoarse, angry, aggrieved, or passionate voice, and Yang Chaoyue suddenly understood.

Jiang Yang was clearly playing the role of Zhao Gao, but she saw her own shadow in her tear-blurred vision.

The castrated dignity reminded Yang Chaoyue of the time when he first came to Shanghai to look for a job and was publicly humiliated by the interviewer who told him that he could take the job or not for such a low salary.

Why do I have to get along well with my roommates in the textile factory? Is it really because I like playing with these roommates?

no.

Because she wanted to have a small group.

Otherwise, if you are working hard in a foreign place with no one to rely on, like Zhao Gao, with no money and no power, you will really be bullied in such an environment.

Zhao Gao has a younger sister whom he wants to protect, and he himself wants to work hard to save money so that his father can live a good life.

Zhao Gao wanted to climb up step by step, and he also had thoughts of collapsing and going crazy.

If I hadn't met Brother Yang, I would still be bowing to reality.

Yang Chaoyue's gaze shifted from Jiang Yang to Huang Lei.

Huang Lei stood there with his body tense, his eyes following Jiang Yang's steps upwards. He looked up at Jiang Yang, his eyes full of fear.

Even Yang Chaoyue could see that Huang Lei acted very well.

She looks a lot like Yi Xiaochuan in the original drama, but not like herself.

Yi Xiaochuan advocates equality for all, but the reality is that there is a hierarchy.

The beauty in fairy tales is all deceptive.

Yi Xiaochuan wants people to abide by the spirit of the rule of law, but in reality there is only the law of the jungle.

Yi Xiaochuan is the protagonist. Both Lu Su and Yu Shu like him, and Xiang Yu is willing to die for him.

Yang Chaoyue knew very well that he had never been the protagonist, but just an ordinary person.

No one will help me without asking for anything in return, except my father.

If you want your family to live well and want to have a bright future, you can only follow the jungle law in reality and climb up step by step.

Even though I know that I have a good boss, even though I know that Brother Yang is willing to spend time training me now, what about the future?

If I fail to demonstrate value that satisfies Brother Yang and fail to allow Brother Yang to make money from me, Brother Yang will definitely be disappointed in me.

I am very afraid that Brother Yang will recruit a more valuable new employee and replace me.

Cao Wei Street is no longer silent.

The peddler across the street let out a stifled sob.

The drug dealer who was setting up a stall nearby looked at Jiang Yang standing on the wooden table, as if he saw himself when he first came to the film and television city, got his Actor's Guild certificate, had hot pot with his new friends that night, and was excited about dreaming of becoming a big star.

It was as if I could see myself playing supporting roles for seven or eight years, saving money even to pay the rent, for fear that the operator would inexplicably increase the price of my phone package.

In ancient times when eunuchs were in power, everyone hated Zhao Gao.

But everyone wants to be Zhao Gao.

Even now it's the same.

They will complain about the long working hours, but they will also secretly work overtime to improve their performance.

He said he despised the gift-giving culture, but secretly bought tea for his tutor.

The extras watched with burning gazes and sparkling eyes.

Unless you are pushed to that point, who can be sure that there is no "Zhao Gao" hidden in your heart?

The show goes on.

Jiang Yang stood at the dining table, tears streaming from his eyes. He didn't blink at all, staring at Huang Lei who was looking at him below.

The muscles on the right side of his face twitched slightly, as if he was trying hard to hold back a collapse.

There was a hint of smile on his upper lip, but the corners of his mouth were looking down.

A teardrop hung on his chin and refused to fall.

The tone was weak and frantic, and the voice gradually weakened: "I don't want to be bullied by others anymore."

"I can not stand it any more."

"I want to be Zhao Gao."

"I don't want to be bullied anymore."

"Xiaochuan..."

When he looked at Huang Lei in the end, his eyes changed from resentment to sadness.

The two of them, one tall and one short, stared at each other silently for a few seconds.

This concludes the performance.

"Teacher Huang Lei, I'm done." Jiang Yang stepped on the wooden stool, landed on the rammed earth ground, and said to Huang Lei.

Even though he said it with a smile, Huang Lei could feel Zhao Gao's emotions from Jiang Yang's eyes.

Even his voice still had the hoarse and shrill tone of Zhao Gao's last words.

This kid, like Yang Chaoyue before him, has not completely broken away from the role.

It’s just that his level of immersion in the role is not as deep as Yang Chaoyue’s.

"Teacher Huang Lei, I'm sorry, I'm not as good as Teacher Zhang Shi..."

"Zhang Shi's acting has been legendary, no one can surpass it. You acted well enough, so don't say anything yet."

Huang Lei pulled the wooden stool over and patted Jiang Yang on the shoulder: "Sit down first."

Seeing Jiang Yang sitting down, he raised his hand and gently placed it on Jiang Yang's back and stroked it: "Take a moment and get out of this role. Can you do it on your own? Is there anything I can do for you?"

Huang Lei did not joke with Jiang Yang, and his tone was full of appreciation for the younger generation.
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