Infinite Terror: This Middle Continent is Rebellious

Chapter 370 The Life of the Disdained Zhan Lan

"A past I can't bear to look back on, a hole in my heart. Honestly, I can't imagine I have that kind of thing."

In the kitchen, Zhan Lan filled the kettle with water and placed it on the induction cooker.

After plugging in the power, the buzzing sound of the machine was heard, and Zhan Lan heard Zheng Zha and others in the living room also started discussing the topic of mental loopholes.

"Although we killed many people, it was basically a necessary price to pay. They would have died regardless of us taking action. Our actions actually allowed more people to survive and gave our companions a better future. So I don't regret it, and I don't think I was wrong. As a member of the Demon Team, I feel sad for what happened to him, but after all, I haven't experienced it firsthand, so I don't think his experience was my fault. If anyone is to blame, it's only the Lord God. I'm also a victim."

Zhan Lan agreed in his heart and turned to walk towards the living room.

Killing isn't a problem, even though everyone thinks it's too much. But in the world of horror movies, how can there be no killing? No one feels guilty or regretful about it, and Pennywise probably wouldn't start there.

"If you have to say it..."

Zheng Zha's voice became weak, and it seemed that he used the internal force technique of sound transmission, making it difficult for Zhan Lan in the kitchen to hear clearly.

Zhan Lan subconsciously used his skills and utilized his powerful spiritual perception to hear Zheng Zha's voice clearly.

"Zhan Lan's emotions are too heavy."

Zhan Lan paused, a look of uneasiness appeared on his face, and he used his lightness skills to lift his feet off the ground and float back to the kitchen.

"The Dao Heart Demon Planting Technique plants a demon seed in the person you like. Through the spiritual connection of the demon seed, Zhan Lan can even feel my and Luo Li's sex life. In other words, every time Luo Li and I have sex, Zhan Lan is also involved."

Zheng Zha in the living room sighed deeply and covered his face with his hands.

Listening to Zheng Zha's sigh, Zhang Jie, Zhang Heng, Lingdian and Zhao Yingkong who were not far away felt a little uneasy.

"Every time I...sigh! After completing the Dao Heart Demon Cultivation Technique, Zhan Lan obtained the Dream Shattering Knife. Every time the person he likes has sex with someone else, the knife's owner's strength will improve. In other words, every time Luo Li and I have sex, Zhan Lan can feel it. Seriously, this kind of thing is too crazy. Every time I think about it, my scalp tingles."

"If I were to say I couldn't bear to look back on it, nothing would be more unbearable than this incident. Letting Zhan Lan like me was simply torture. I suspect Pennywise will use this as an excuse to take action against me..."

Zhao Yingkong and Zhang Jie nodded. Based on their understanding of Zheng Zha, Zheng Zha's life can be considered happy and fulfilling. He has a lover, strength, friends, and powerful enemies have been defeated. His ideal is to defeat all enemies in the final battle and return to the real world calmly.

If Zheng Zha had any mental flaws, it would only be the emotional dispute between him and Zhan Lan.

Zheng Zha's voice grew weaker as he muttered to himself, "Did Zhan Lan ever have a boyfriend before? If so, how could her boyfriend have endured such heavy feelings from her? Or was he specifically targeting..."

Zhan Lan's whole body trembled, her pupils dilated slightly, and her emotions were out of control, and her breathing became heavy.

Zheng Zha stopped talking abruptly, as if he heard a change in Zhan Lan's breathing rhythm.

"Zhan Lan? What are you doing in the kitchen?"

She hurriedly covered her mouth and nose to control her emotions. At the same time, Zheng Zha's shouting came from the living room.

"I'm waiting for the water to boil."

Zhan Lan released the hands that were covering her face, a look of sadness appeared on her cheeks, but her tone was calm, just like usual.

"I was thinking, if I use my internal energy to heat the water, it will boil faster."

Her light tone revealed a playful mood. Zhan Lan brushed her eyelids with her fingers. The wetness of her fingertips made her look even sadder, and a hint of guilt flashed in her eyes.

The face of my ex-boyfriend, whom I had forgotten for a long time, emerged from the depths of my memory.

Zhan Lan suddenly realized that she hadn't written a diary for a long time, and even her ex-boyfriend's name, appearance, and memories were gradually becoming unfamiliar to her.

Zheng Zha said speechlessly, "No need, right? There's no rush to drink the water, just wait for it to boil naturally."

"Okay, I'll be right out."

Zhan Lan covered her face with her hands and spoke in a relaxed tone.

When Zhan Lan put down her hands and walked out of the kitchen, her cheeks had returned to normal like the face-changing in Sichuan Opera. Her pretty face had a faint smile, making it impossible to tell her true emotions.

Zhan Lan asked, "By the way, it's almost time for dinner. What do you want to eat? Do you want to go out or should I go buy it for everyone?"

Zheng Zha looked towards the balcony.

The sky has gradually turned red, and in two hours at the latest, it will be dark.

Zheng Zha said seriously, "Let's go out together later. We'd better not separate to avoid exposing our weaknesses and letting Pennywise defeat us one by one."

"Okay, then I'll go clean up the room first. This room belongs to me, Yingkong, and Yanwei, and you can divide the other two rooms."

Zhan Lan nodded and walked towards the bedroom very naturally.

This luxury suite is the largest room in the hotel and has three bedrooms. Zhan Lan chose the one on the side, which is closest to the balcony.

Zheng Zha sat on the sofa, responded casually, and continued to think about the loopholes in his heart.

"The loophole in my mind... I can't figure it out..."

Zheng Zha scratched his ears and cheeks, with a bitter face, not knowing how to face the so-called inner demon.

After entering the bedroom, Zhan Lan closed the door casually. When no one could see her, the smile on her face instantly disappeared.

She walked to the bed and sat down. Instead of tidying up the bedroom as she said, she began to stare blankly, her expression dull but her eyes very complicated.

Unconsciously, Zhan Lan's fingers touched something cold and hard. She looked down and saw that it was her diary.

"Did I take it out?"

Zhan Lan was stunned for a moment and checked the ring. She indeed could not sense the diary inside. It seemed that she had taken the diary out unconsciously.

Perhaps because of Chu Xuan's words, she did not deliberately control her emotions and subconsciously took out the diary, but was distracted for a moment and did not react.

Zhan Lan hesitated for a moment, grabbed the diary, and was about to put it back into the ring when she remembered Chu Xuan's suggestion. She had to take the initiative to uncover the scars of the past, let the wounds bleed again, and face the past that she couldn't bear to look back on.

This is the only way to break through the inner demons.

Chu Xuan should have done the same thing in the world of The Return of the Condor Heroes. He wanted to gain love, so he put his teammates in dangerous situations. Although it seemed that he failed, he successfully suppressed his inner demons.

While thinking, Zhan Lan picked up the diary and gently turned a page.

"What a wonderful place! Perhaps it's not where Zhang Jie said we could go back to. This place... maybe it's hell? Then can I see you here again? I've almost forgotten what you look like..."

The black handwriting on the pages of the book made Zhan Lan's eyes moist.

"...It's been a few days since I came to the main divine space. Zhang Jie told me that we'll be entering the next horror movie in 10 days. I really hope I can be as lucky as last time. I almost died at the claws of a monster. At that moment, I realized that I'm afraid of death too. No, not just death, I'm even more afraid of forgetting everything, you and I, love and hate..."

Zhan Lan covered her mouth tightly, her pupils trembled, and a tear slid down her face, full of sadness and pain.

"...Should I create you? I don't know, really, I don't know... Once you're dead, you're truly dead, and the person I create won't be you anymore. The thought of someone who looks exactly like you, with your memories and appearance, touching me makes me tremble with fear... Am I afraid of meeting you again? Or is it because I hate you so much that I don't want to see you... I'll write it when I get back. I'm leaving soon, and I hope I can come back..."

Tears dripped onto the pages of the book, and a circle of dark water marks gradually spread. Zhan Lan cried silently.

pain!It hurts so much!
Today, my hands are shaking.

Today, my heart aches.

She has a lover, but she has taken the initiative to forget her former lover and has fallen in love with another man. She is so humble that makes the man feel embarrassed, distressed, and even despised.

"Lan, you're no longer like yourself."

Zhan Lan vaguely saw the face of his former lover from the pages of the book. He looked at himself sadly and said with a lament.

Zhan Lan was startled and instinctively felt fear and guilty. His hands shook and he threw the diary away.

However, although the diary had been thrown into the corner, Zhan Lan could still see the face of her former lover, vaguely appearing before her eyes.

It's Pennywise!
Zhan Lan immediately became alert, tears still hanging on her eyelashes. Her powerful mental strength and skills had reached the peak, and the power enough to destroy a mountain was ready to be unleashed.

However, nothing unusual happened, and after she concentrated her attention, the face of her former lover became clearer.

But not in reality, but in her mind, in her memories.

It's not an illusion, it's a memory!

Only then did Zhan Lan realize that it was not Pennywise who created the illusion for her, but she was thinking of her former lover, and her former lover was talking to her in her memory.

Or rather, that was her inner voice, she was talking to herself, just borrowing the face of her former lover.

After realizing this, a strong feeling of sadness surged into Zhan Lan's heart. Her hands dropped, her shoulders slumped, her concentrated energy gradually loosened, and her expression became decadent.

"It's pathetic. I don't even dare to remember him. Is it because I'm afraid of Pennywise? Or is it that I don't dare to face you. I don't have the courage to meet you again? I've fallen in love with someone else. I can't pronounce your name anymore, recall your face, or say again... I like you..."

Fatigue, sadness, grief, shame, regret, guilt, confusion...the intertwined emotions were like a big net, wrapping up Zhan Lan's body.

Zhan Lan wanted to move, but the big net tightly wrapped around her body, making her unable to move. The tough thin lines squeezed her skin and her neck. If she wanted to struggle, she would only feel pain and suffocation.

Zhan Lan felt as if she had become a spider's prey, her body entangled in the spider web and dragged into the dark nest bit by bit.

In the spacious living room, Cheng Xiao crossed his legs, looking relaxed, but actually a little troubled.

The only thing he couldn't let go of in his life was his childhood sweetheart who died in the mudslide.

However, the dead cannot be resurrected, and he also recreated his lover in the main god space. That girl should not become a loophole in his heart.

Cheng Xiao turned his head to look at Chu Xuan and couldn't help asking, "Colonel, tell me, if there were no mental loophole, how would Pennywise deal with me?"

"There's no such thing as a mental loophole... You're being a bit arrogant."

Zheng Zha looked at Cheng Xiao speechlessly. Before Chu Xuan spoke, he warned Cheng Xiao first.

"Everyone has some painful memories in their past, but they might be serious or not. After all, in our eyes, the protagonists' fears are nothing. Pennywise should be able to amplify our emotions. Let's think about it carefully. If I must say, I can't think of any loopholes in my heart, anything that I can't get or let go of."

"But I just don't have it?"

Cheng Xiao shrugged, leaned back on the sofa, raised his right hand, stretched his palm towards the ceiling, and said frivolously.

"I'm not bragging. I was born into a protagonist template. I come from a medical family and am naturally endowed with internal strength. My family's inherited witchcraft is even useful in the main divine space. After leaving home, I took up a position in the army at a young age. I have been successful in the city and accepted important missions. After entering the main divine space, I haven't encountered any setbacks. Although there have been some difficulties, they are really not big problems. On the contrary, I resurrected my childhood sweetheart. Now I am a master in the realm of cultivation, with a lot of magic weapons on me. It won't be long before I return home in glory. Tell me, what can I not get or let go of?"

Zheng Zha was speechless.

After hearing what Cheng Xiao said, this guy is really the template of the protagonist, and he is also the type of Long Aotian. He has some regrets, such as his indulgence after Luo Li's death, the tragic experience of the clone Luo Li, and the massacre of teammates in the horror movie. He can only go on a killing spree for the sake of the team.

Cheng Xiao just does what he wants with almost no pressure, and has lived a carefree life until today.

“What you think you have let go of and don’t think you have not obtained is your weakness.”

Chu Xuan took a bite of the apple, raised his eyelids and looked at Cheng Xiao. His indifferent eyes seemed to have seen through Cheng Xiao.

"what?"

Cheng Xiao tilted his head and exclaimed in confusion.

Chu Xuan said calmly, "Those involved are often confused, while those who are on the sidelines can see things more clearly. People often cannot see themselves clearly and need others to point out things they have overlooked. Inner demons, horror films like IT, and Pennywise all exist for this reason."

Cheng Xiao scratched his head. "No, no, right? Those involved are often confused, while those who are on the sidelines can see things more clearly. That's what they say, but there's also a saying that I should reflect on myself three times a day. I've reflected on myself countless times today, and there really isn't a loophole that Pennywise could exploit."

(End of this chapter)