1979: My fiancée is a goddess

She stood under the tree, bewildered.

In front of the main house, a young woman, each with a child, was talking to each other.

The swaying light made it difficult for her to see clearly; everything seemed to be enveloped in a halo of light, and their shapes were constantly twisting and turning, like they were made of paper…

The sounds were faint, like water pouring into the ears, sometimes clear, sometimes blurry...

"Comrade, we were arranged here by Director Xin of the Subdistrict Office. We are staying in the front room of the east wing... Here is some fried dough sticks that we made ourselves, please try them."

"Oh, new neighbor! Welcome, welcome! I can't accept this. Thank you so much."

"Hey! As the saying goes... a close neighbor is worse than a distant relative..."

"Is this your child? He's so pretty. This is my daughter, Ruixue. Call her Auntie."

"Auntie! My name is Zhao Ruixue, and I'm four years old! I can sing, recite poems, and play hopscotch and house..."

"Oh, this child isn't shy at all, unlike our children. Kaiyan, quickly call her 'Auntie'... Why isn't this child saying anything?" The young and beautiful woman was quite surprised.

"It's alright, it's alright. Such a quiet boy is rare. He can't be raised in a scholarly family."

Yuxiu, you really need to teach me how to discipline my child. My Ruixue is quite a handful, even more mischievous than a boy..."

"Heh, what scholarly family background... You two kids go out and play, but no playing in the mud, understand?"

"Oh."

……

Two little ones squatted under a tree playing with ants.

"Hey! What's your name?"

She asked, hands on her hips.

"..."

"A little mute?"

"You're the one who's mute, Cheng Kaiyan. My name is Cheng Kaiyan."

His childish voice held a calmness beyond his years, yet he could squat under a tree and play with ants, which greatly piqued her curiosity.

"What's so fun about ants? My family has something much more fun, come with me!"

She patted his hair without any hesitation, looking quite smug.

Wow, your hair is so soft and clean.

Sniff sniff...

It also smells good...

"Stop pulling and tugging..."

……

"We go to the same school! Let's go to school together tomorrow!"

"If you don't say anything, I'll take that as a yes!"

……

"Hey! Why didn't you come and call me to go to school together?"

"You're still sleeping."

"Don't you ever wake me up when you go to sleep?! I trusted you so much!"

She angrily questioned him, saying that last night he had confidently told his mother that she could just go to work and not worry about her, as someone would go with her, but he hadn't even invited her!

"I need someone to wake me up for school... Never mind, next time."

He saw that her eyes were red.

"Whee!"

The weather has cleared up.

What kind of face-changing?
……

"Get up."

"We won't go if it rains."

"So capricious? If you're not going, I'm leaving."

"Hey, hey, hey! Help me get my clothes."

“…You…never mind.”

"Help me tie my shoelaces."

She offered both feet, speaking very naturally.

"...You're a living ancestor."

……

"How come we're in the same school again?"

"What's so strange?"

Although he was reluctant to admit it, there was indeed someone he couldn't shake off by his side.

If nothing unexpected happens, after junior high, high school, and university... I guess I'll have to go to the countryside around that time?
Universities will have to wait until the college entrance examination is reinstated...

"You're twelve already. Men and women shouldn't be too close to each other. From now on, you're not allowed to get too close to me at school."

"Hehe, I couldn't be happier."

"Humph."

……

The scene before me flashed by frame by frame, like a movie theater projector...

It flashed by, leaving fleeting afterimages, so fast that she couldn't keep up.

The scene freezes again, showing a library.

"You two are here again? It's good that you like reading, but at your age you should be contributing to the country, so don't... never mind, you're going to the countryside next year, so cherish it."

Beside the bookshelf, a female teacher was educating the boys and girls who were sitting close together at their desks, their heads practically touching.

……

"Go to the countryside?"

"join the army?"

"Are you coming to see me off tomorrow?"

"Something came up. We'll see. I might go, or I might not."

"All right……"

"Say yes! Promise him you'll write letters, promise to go to university together, promise you won't like anyone else, and promise you won't forget him..."

Zhao Ruixue stood to the side, calling out anxiously.

But the girl in front of him could neither hear nor touch him.

Everything repeats itself, just as fate has ordained.

……

"Squeak-"

When the first rays of sunlight in the morning pierced through the gaps in the leaves and fell on the girl's eyes.

The clear, melodious chirping of birds woke her up at just the right time.

She lay curled up on her side on the bed like a baby, her dark hair scattered messily on the blanket.

A damp coolness washed over my cheeks, my eyelids felt heavy, and even with effort I could only open them a crack. The pale golden morning light outside the window was particularly glaring at that moment.

"Whoosh..."

"Um--"

Her breathing was heavy, and when a hoarse groan came from her throat, she felt strangely as if she wasn't in her own body.

A weak hand struggled to reach out from under the covers, stroking the slightly cool sheets and the blanket covering her body.

……

"...Am I in a room?"

Zhao Ruixue looked at the familiar room in front of her and murmured.

She remembered that last night, she and Cheng Kai were locked in a stalemate on the living room sofa before she drifted off to sleep.

He probably carried me in, right?
Last night, I was half asleep and half awake when he covered me with a blanket, tidied my hair, and tucked me in. I think he even kissed me.

but……

It's not the lips, it's just the face.

Thinking of this, Zhao Ruixue subconsciously raised her hand to touch her cheek, as if the kiss had left a mark, causing her a sharp pain in her heart, yet also a deep longing.

But before she could shed a tear, she suddenly realized something and sat up in bed as if she had been electrocuted.

Her beautiful eyes searched the room in a daze and panic.

But the room was empty, and beside him was only his friend, fast asleep, oblivious to everything.

Zhao Ruixue bit her lip with her white teeth and suddenly threw off the blanket.

Without bothering to put on shoes, she ran out with her long, slender, snow-white feet bare, her steps hurried and her expression panicked.

When she opened the door, before it was fully open, she rushed out and slammed into it with a loud thud.

A red mark appeared on her fair, jade-like forehead. Ignoring the excruciating pain, Zhao Ruixue ran straight out the door.

clap clap clap...

The sound of snow-white feet hitting the wooden floor echoed in the empty living room.

The few white roses on the coffee table swayed gently in the sunlight and breeze, as if responding to something.

There was no one in the living room.

She then searched the bathroom, study, kitchen, and balcony, looking everywhere, even opening the refrigerator and wardrobe to check.

But there was no trace of them.

"He still left..."

Zhao Ruixue's legs went weak, and she knelt on the floor with her head down, feeling utterly helpless.

The floor beneath him was exceptionally cold, and his body felt exceptionally heavy and icy.

"Ding ding..."

She was awakened by the clattering sound of clothes racks colliding on the balcony after some time had passed.

"Whoosh..."

She raised her head, took several deep breaths, and then struggled to stand up.

He walked back to his room barefoot, his expression silent.

Zhao Ruixue sat in front of the dressing table. In the mirror, a disheveled, pale-faced girl with a haggard expression sat quietly.

His lips were bloodless, and his eyes were slightly red.

With her snow-white skin, her demeanor became even more refined and simple, like a nun who ate vegetarian food all day long.

Yet, her understated beauty shines through, making her all the more endearing and worthy of our affection.

She raised her hand, took the wooden comb, and awkwardly combed her hair.

It's still the simple ponytail I remember.

But she knew that the person in her memory was drifting further and further away from her.

"It's something we already knew, it's an unspoken understanding between us, we're already close enough, Zhao Ruixue is being too greedy, that's not right..."

Zhao Ruixue looked at herself in the mirror and said, her voice so faint it was almost inaudible.

She actually knew and understood Cheng Kaiyan's true intentions a long time ago.

He knew that Liu Xiaoli was between them, and that their relationship was impossible. He knew this was just a temporary fix.

They also know how painful it will be when the poison called love takes effect and this false and short-lived relationship ends.

But she couldn't resist her desire and couldn't help wanting to get closer to Cheng Kaiyan and take things further.

Some people say that if you can pick something up, you should be able to put it down.

Zhao Ruixue agreed, saying that she had been doing the same thing before.

He lost contact with his family during his time in the countryside, focused on his studies after returning to the city, and later went abroad to study...

But with that bastard, he failed time and time again, yet time and time again he found himself falling for him...

"It's not my fault, it's not my fault at all... right?"

Her voice, seemingly both doubtful and certain, echoed in the room.

After a long while, the woman, as aloof as snow, finally calmed down.

Looking down, I saw a letter lying on the table, held down by a pen.

"Wow..."

Zhao Ruixue reached out and picked it up, then unfolded it.

A familiar piece of penmanship appeared before my eyes.

"Greetings. I am very sorry for leaving without saying goodbye. Today is the day I leave Tokyo, and I did not want to bother you any further."

"But...maybe, as you said, I'm an indecisive person, and our relationship might just be this tangled and complicated..."

……

"In the end, I am still very sorry for what I have done during this period. Your tears made me realize that I was wrong."

Regret cannot be made up for in this way.

Just like living in a perpetually overcast environment, suddenly seeing a clear day like a shooting star only intensifies one's longing and yearning.

……

She carefully examined his apology and the dissection of this relationship over the past period, as well as the obvious intention to draw a line.

After a moment of quiet contemplation, he commented, "Very honest, and also shameless."

Continue reading; the letter ends here.

"I'm getting engaged next month... If there were a parallel world, perhaps everything would be different."

Zhao Ruixue's pupils suddenly contracted, and her heart clenched so tightly it could not beat.

The next instant, the last message flashed into Zhao Ruixue's eyes like a shooting star streaking across the sky, making her heart burn as if it were melting.

I love you. For the first and last time.

"I love you, I love you!!"

She whispered those three words in his voice, so intimate and sweet, like melted honey.

Her clear, calm voice, like a swirling melody, made it impossible to discern Zhao Ruixue's sorrow or joy, her bitterness or happiness.

The room fell into a long silence, so quiet that even breathing could not be heard.

At this moment, Zhao Ruixue inexplicably thought of a line written by Cheng Kaiyan: "Quiet as if sunk into a lake."

Just now.

A soft, sweet voice reached my ears.

"Ruixue, why are you crying again?"

Uesugi Ayana propped herself up on her arms and looked over with heartache and pity.

"No."

She dismissed it calmly.

Has Cheng Kaiyan left?

Ayana Uesugi wanted to ask, but she didn't.

Just as she had predicted some time ago, that bastard Cheng Kaiyan left without saying goodbye.

"Ayana, do you think I should be the female lead?"

Zhao Ruixue suddenly asked.

"The female lead? The female lead in Love Letter? Of course you can! This role was originally yours, why should you give it to someone else?"

Ayana Uesugi nodded emphatically.

"Yes, this is mine. No one can take it away from me, not a single one!"

Zhao Ruixue took a deep breath.

She got up, walked to the wardrobe, took off her clothes, and rummaged through the wardrobe to find a shirt and trousers to change into.

"let's go."

……

nine in the morning.

Waiting room at Ueno Station, Tokyo.

Cheng Kaiyan and her group of more than 20 people, each carrying their own luggage, sat quietly on the row of seats waiting for the train to arrive at the station.

Among the accompanying personnel were not only actors from their film crew, but also employees of Shochiku Company and officials from the Ministry of Cultural Affairs responsible for the handover of this project.

This trip was exceptionally long.

Hokkaido and Tokyo are on different islands, and the only place you can reach by train is the Aomori region by the sea.

Next, we will take a ship across the sea to Hokkaido, and then take a train to Otaru Station.

The total duration exceeds twenty-four hours.

We'll depart this morning, take a boat from the beach tomorrow morning, and probably arrive in Otaru the day after tomorrow morning.

"The train will arrive in one hour. Please be aware."

Teacher Shuihua glanced at the time and offered a gentle reminder.

"understood!"

Cheng Kaiyan responded along with the others, turned her gaze away from the station, unscrewed her water bottle, and took a sip.

The long wait made him feel irritable and uneasy.

Some even looked on with anticipation at the crowds of people coming and going outside the waiting hall.

"What's wrong with you? You seem distracted."

Liang Xiaosheng asked casually.

"nothing."

Cheng Kaiyan shook her head.

"hehe."

Liang Xiaosheng smiled without saying a word. This guy actually stayed out all night last night, he's really bold. "I'm sure that before we parted, Comrade Zhao Ruixue couldn't bear to part with her childhood friend, so she let you stay for one night... Hehehe!"

"..."

Cheng Kaiyan glared at him but ignored him.

This kind of thing will only get worse if you try to explain it.

Close your eyes and rest, and wait patiently.

Time passes slowly.

In a daze, he seemed to hear several familiar voices coming from afar.

"Cheng Kaiyan!"

Cheng Kaiyan suddenly opened her eyes, and a tall and beautiful girl appeared in front of her. The not-so-warm sunlight shone on her face from the window behind her, making her look like snow and jade.

"Ruixue?! What brings you here?"

Cheng Kaiyan stood there stunned, shouting in surprise or delight.

“I brought her here. I was on my way to the mansion to find you, and I ran into the two of them on the way, so I brought them along.”

Tachibana Chiai suddenly walked over, holding a document in her hand and handing it to him. "Your song copyright document. I've read the lyrics, and they're very good."

"Thank you."

Cheng Kaiyan nodded and took it.

But his gaze remained fixed on the girl in front of him, and he couldn't look away.

"Comrade Ruixue, is this you? You've come to see Cheng Kaiyan off? It's our first meeting, welcome, welcome."

At this moment, Teacher Shuihua walked over and smiled.

"Yes, you must be Professor Shuihua? I really love your films; I've watched them since I was a child."

Zhao Ruixue smiled slightly and greeted her.

"Really? I'm glad you like it. We even had a chance to work together on a film. The female lead in 'Love Letter' would have been perfect for you."

This was the second time Shuihua had met this girl. Last year, her temperament, appearance, performance, and emotional portrayal in a drama performance had amazed him.

He still thinks about the female lead even now.

"Really? Can I try it?"

Zhao Ruixue covered her mouth in surprise and said with delight.

She breathed a sigh of relief; she hadn't been able to bring it up yet, but thankfully Teacher Shui spoke up first.

"Of course you can!"

Shuihua was equally surprised, and her gaze inadvertently drifted towards Cheng Kaiyan.

They seem easy to persuade. Are they as difficult as you say?

It's been almost half a month and they still can't invite me?
"..."

Cheng Kaiyan was speechless and could only look at Zhao Ruixue with a puzzled expression, hoping for an explanation.

However, the girl only called out to him once at the beginning, and now she seems to be ignoring him completely.

Zhao Ruixue smiled and said, "That's great! I'll give it a try then. I hope it won't cause any trouble for Teacher Shuihua."

"No, no, we said a long time ago that you were chosen for the female lead."

Teacher Shuihua and Zhao Ruixue discussed it and decided that they would go first, and Zhao Ruixue would come over in a couple of days after packing her things and dealing with school matters.

Moments later, the news that Zhao Ruixue had agreed to play the female lead spread throughout the production crew.

The most unhappy one was naturally Liu Xiaoqing.

He stared at Cheng Kaiyan, Zhao Ruixue, and Teacher Shuihua with resentful and dissatisfied eyes, looking back and forth between them.

"Ding Ding Ding!"

The train arrived at the station, and the station announcement sounded.

Everyone stood up, picked up their luggage, and prepared to board the vehicle.

"I...I'm leaving."

Cheng Kaiyan hesitated for a moment, then walked up to Zhao Ruixue and said softly.

"hehe."

Zhao Ruixue sneered, crossed her arms, and said, "Why are you saying goodbye to me now?"

"I, I didn't mean to..."

Cheng Kaiyan initially wanted to say that she was in a hurry to go back and clean things up, but then she thought that there were too many loopholes in this matter.

Zhao Ruixue shook her head and walked closer, standing on tiptoe, and whispered in Cheng Kaiyan's ear, "Please don't add 'I love you' at the end of the farewell letter."

"Be careful on the road."

"Didn't anyone tell you not to add 'I love you' at the end of a farewell letter?" (End of Chapter)