1979: My fiancée is a goddess

Chapter 423 But... if only happiness were as simple as shedding tears.
The view from the window of the coffee shop.

The warm spring sunshine slanted in, illuminating the girl's cool and elegant profile.

Tear streaks clung to her much thinner face, her high, handsome nose was slightly red, her lips, tinged with blood, were tightly pressed together, and her eyes were brimming with tears, which were welling up and swirling in her eyes...

This was the first time in the past year or two that Cheng Kaiyan had looked at her so closely.

Although there are many differences and changes between this appearance and my memory of her when I was a teenager, there are also many similarities...

Especially those beautiful eyes brimming with tears, just like when she was young and had been wronged and bullied outside, and came back to Cheng Kaiyan for support.

His eyes were clearly filled with sorrow, grievance, and sadness, yet his gaze remained as stubborn and unyielding as ever.

It was as if it were speaking, questioning.

Why are you so cruel? Why did you hurt me so deeply...?

When their eyes met, Cheng Kaiyan felt as if a bucket of cold water had been poured over her head in the dead of winter. She trembled with cold, and her heart ached as if it were being torn apart, as if being stabbed with a knife…

He almost instinctively looked away, but then froze, staring at those eyes, at that familiar yet somewhat unfamiliar face…

The two gazed at each other for a long time.

"Tell me... what brings you here!"

Finally, the stubborn girl leaned closer, grabbed Cheng Kaiyan's hand, and held it to her heart.

She opened her lips, stained with crimson blood, and questioned him in an almost pleading tone and a hoarse, shrill voice.

"Of course it's for..."

Cheng Kaiyan's expression changed several times. She gritted her teeth and admitted helplessly, word by word, "I came for you."

Once the words he had kept hidden in his heart were spoken, he suddenly felt deflated.

This is something he has been unwilling to admit ever since he decided to come to Japan.

Once he admits it, it means that Ruixue still holds a place in his heart, and that this girl is someone he can't let go of...

"call……"

Upon hearing this, Zhao Ruixue tightened her grip even more, wiped away her tears with the back of her hand, sniffed, and asked in a trembling voice, "Really?"

She knew that Cheng Kaiyan couldn't bear to see her sad, and even more so, she couldn't bear to see her shed tears.

Because he had said before that he wouldn't allow anyone to make her cry, not even himself.

"But... if happiness were as simple as shedding tears, that would be wonderful."

A thought suddenly flashed through the mind of the cool and aloof girl, and the tears that had just stopped rolled down her cheeks again. She raised her hand to wipe them away, but she was too flustered to wipe them dry at all.

The girl could only look at Cheng Kaiyan with tears streaming down her face, her expression defiant.

"Stop crying, Xiaoxue'er, why are you still like that crybaby you were when you were little..."

Seeing her start to cry again, Cheng Kaiyan hurriedly tried to comfort her, but the way he addressed her made him pause for a moment. He continued to explain:
"Of course I came here for you. What would I do if you weren't the female lead? What would I do if you weren't the male lead? You're not in Japan, so why would I follow you here..."

"Ok, I know."

Zhao Ruixue took a deep breath, tilted her head back, and tried her best to stop her tears from flowing down.

Little Xue'er, Little Xue'er... Why is he still calling his childhood name?

A multitude of emotions inexplicably welled up within the girl; she couldn't quite articulate what they were.

But this farce should come to an end now.

"Alright, Cheng Kaiyan, let's stop fooling around and sit down quietly to rest for a while."

Zhao Ruixue calmed down and said softly, "We haven't had coffee or dessert yet." "Okay, I'll do as you say."

Cheng Kaiyan looked at the aloof and snow-white figure in front of her and slowly nodded, withdrawing her hand from the girl's grasp.

The three of them sat down again and remained quiet for a moment.

The female shop owner, wearing an apron, brought over hot coffee, cakes, and desserts. She glanced at the three of them and said gently, "Sorry for the delay."

"It's alright, thank you."

Zhao Ruixue gently shook her head, pushed the yogurt and egg tarts that Cheng Kaiyan had ordered in front of him, and then placed her own and Cai Nai's in front of each other.

After arguing and crying for a while, the three of them calmed down.

They silently sipped their drinks and ate their desserts, occasionally glancing out the window at the cherry blossom trees with buds swaying in the wind under the sunlight, lost in their own thoughts.

Fifteen minutes later.

"Cock!"

Zhao Ruixue put down her dessert spoon, which made a crisp clinking sound against the porcelain plate. She looked up at Cheng Kaiyan and said calmly, "We've finished eating. We have to go now."

"..."

Cheng Kaiyan opened her mouth, unsure of what to say, but seeing the girl's calm and composed eyes, she could only nod slowly, "Mm."

After paying the bill, the tall, elegant woman in white turned and left with her friend.

Under Cheng Kaiyan's expectant gaze, Zhao Ruixue ultimately did not return to inform him, nor did she turn her head to look at him again.

"Heh... Oh well, I should have expected this outcome."

Cheng Kaiyan leaned back in the soft plaid fabric sofa, her gaze following the receding figure outside the window. She raised her fingertips to touch the glass, touching the long shadow cast by the sunlight, and the cherry blossoms swaying in the wind.

He thought that his answer, given on behalf of Zhao Ruixue, had calmed her down, and that the childhood nickname he had inadvertently uttered would win back some of her heart and feelings.

Unexpectedly, it ended badly and coldly.

"call……"

Cheng Kaiyan let out a long sigh of relief, leaned back on the sofa and pondered for a long time, and finally gradually understood.

Some mistakes are irreversible, the harm done to her is irreparable, and some feelings are impossible to reciprocate. The two people who regretfully missed their chance can never go back to the way things were…

Cheng Kaiyan's writing of "Love Letters," which recounted their shared experiences, was enough to break Zhao Ruixue's heart.

Not to mention inviting her to play the female lead in the movie, and to be lovers in the film?
Cheng Kaiyan's invitation was tantamount to rubbing salt into her wounds, or even holding onto that thorn and digging deeper into her already healed wounds.

Although the past youth and the innocent first love are real, the emotions in the movie are ultimately fake, just a beautiful bubble that bursts at the slightest touch.

Cheng Kaiyan's invitation was tantamount to defiling the relationship between the two, so how could the proud Zhao Ruixue possibly agree?

"...Go back early."

Cheng Kaiyan bit her lip, feeling an emptiness in her heart, as if a piece of her soul had been ripped out. She couldn't quite describe the pain, nor the sorrow...

He finished the last bit of yogurt in his cup, tidied his belongings, and headed out of the store.

The shop owner didn't stop him from paying; Zhao Ruixue eventually paid his bill as well.

Cheng Kaiyan actually hoped that the girl would have these emotional little gestures, but as things stand now, things have gradually faded between them.

"fair enough……"

Standing at the door, Cheng Kaiyan shook her head with a wry smile and slowly walked away into the sunlight.

(End of this chapter)