After my divorce, I became a top-tier game producer.

Zhao Shicheng couldn't help but chuckle when he saw the immortal being insensitive to the wine. He was also better than the immortal.

The world often says that wine is hard to swallow, but he did not feel it was bitter at all. Instead, he felt that wine was good. A drink of wine could relieve a thousand sorrows. Moreover, the Poetry Immortal once said that the sages in ancient times were all lonely, and only the drinkers left their names. !

"Brother Nancy, Immortal Nancy...can you point me to a clear path?"

Many ghosts of Zhao Shicheng began to appear in Nancy's eyes, and each one asked him questions: What is the clear path, what is the path without regrets, and what is the extremely correct path.

Nancy shook her head, and only one Zhao Shicheng was left in her eyes. He tried to clear his mind and asked Zhao Shicheng: "What kind of clear way do you want? There is no clear way to make achievements, and there is no clear way to get along with others. In life, There is no clear path. Even a super brain cannot calculate everything. Even intelligence cannot answer emotions. I have no clear path for you. I don’t even know how to make a choice. Should I help Temple A? After creating After the last potion, where should I go? I don’t know the way forward. I can’t figure it out, I can’t solve it. This problem of life is too difficult.”

After Nancy felt the bitter wine in her mouth, she felt a little happiness aftertaste, and couldn't help but drink up the glass of wine in front of her.

carefree!

Zhao Shicheng filled another glass of wine for himself: "When I went back today, Wanwan and Lu You didn't have much verbal communication. Both of them are people who know etiquette and etiquette, but... Lu You wrote a poem on the stone On the wall, this poem outshone all my words. I read the poem and it was so well written! It was so well written!!!
Red hands, yellow wine, the city is full of spring scenery and willows on the palace walls.

The east wind is evil, the joy is weak, and the melancholy, a few years away.

Wrong, wrong, wrong!
Spring is as old as ever, people are thin and empty, and the tears are red and raw.

The peach blossoms fall, the idle pool pavilion, although the mountain alliance is there, the brocade book is difficult to support.

Mo, mo, mo!
You talk about this poem, it breaks your heart when you see it, I...the only affection I have to show my hand is not uncommon.

Love is deep, always reflect on yourself, reflect three times a day, know that you are not enough, Immortal Nancy, I am not enough. "

"Well... But it's true that you are unprogressive and indecisive... You have many shortcomings." Nancy's face was stained with a thin layer of red. He felt as if his program had been invaded by something, and he was completely confused. Confused, he looked at Zhao Shicheng and tried hard to open his eyes, but he couldn't resist the attack of pajamas. He lay directly on the table and fell asleep within a moment.

Zhao Shicheng looked at the fallen Nancy and still had a smile on his lips, but it was more bitter. Although the wine was bitter, it was not as bitter as a human being.

"Sigh... Immortal, even if there is no clear path, I have made too many mistakes. This trial has hurt others and myself. If... if I could come back again, I would not take the fairy Luoyi from Bichi, but I would buy it with a thousand pieces of gold. Drinking and having fun, young people without ambitions are free and happy."

Unlike now, he resents his own incompetence and resents that he had too much fun when he was young, so that when he is older, looking back at the past, there is nothingness.

next door.

Long Ling never gave up her idea of ​​saving Tang Wan. She didn't beat around the bush and asked directly: "Miss Tang, what I said back then is still valid. Do you want to go with me?"

However, Tang Wan still shook his head: "Long Ling, although I don't know what I want, what I am dissatisfied with, and what I still regret.

But since I joined the Zhao family, my husband has really treated me well.

I thought I could spend the rest of my life with him in peace, but every time I see the window sill, I think of you. Back then, you fell from the sky and swore that you understood my pain, but you were still willing to take me far away. This scene seems like yesterday, even if it has been seven years. The past has not faded from my memory.

I always thought I would not regret my rejection back then, but it was like this during the day, but every night when everyone was quiet... I still regretted it, and since then I have tossed and turned, unable to sleep peacefully. "

Seeing the wanton birds on the branches, I would also be in a trance. If I had left this land alone without thinking about the Tang family and my husband, would I have been able to be like this free bird and not have to endure the endless hardships every day? .

Long Ling's eyes lit up when he heard this. If Tang Wan regrets it, it's not too late!As long as you are alive, everything has a chance!
"It's too late now, I can take you away."

Logan lowered his eyes and shook his head: "Wanting to leave and being able to leave are two different things. Leaving is easy, but how far can I leave with this body?

I see how my husband has treated me over the years, and I remember it in my heart. The most important thing in life is to be grateful, and Tang Wan has nothing to do in return, but to give him his life.

But people always don’t understand themselves and are dissatisfied.

Just like when I reunited with Lu Lang today, I thought there would be no more trouble... However, I still overestimated myself. Lu Lang was infatuated, and how could I, Tang Wan, repay me. "

Long Ling frowned. No matter how naive she was, she could tell that Tang Wan was changing the subject, but she also didn't understand why there were so many ways to repay a favor, so why did Tang Wan only see one - only to commit herself to him.

But she had the words, so she asked directly: "There are many ways to repay, why bother to promise him with your body? If you don't like Mr. Zhao, just say so directly, then Zhao Shicheng will be the one who will make things happen for you and Lu You."

"Miss Long Ling, from what you see, what do I have that is my own, and what can I repay to others.

Jewelry?Or is it the rich clothes?

It's a pity that none of these belong to me.

Logan has nothing but himself, and the person in front of you only has a skin.

Besides... I owe the Zhao family a lot in these seven years. How could I leave my husband? He respects me and loves me. He searches for countless unique books for me. He loves my body and always holds my ice-like hands in his arms. He is good at dealing with people and treats people sincerely. Even though he always loves wine, he will not drink in front of me, lest the smell of wine will stain me... I can't repay him. "

Long Ling knew that Zhao Shicheng was very kind to Tang Wan, but she still couldn't understand what Tang Wan was thinking. There was nothing wrong with being grateful, but besides body and money, couldn't she use anything else in return?
Long Ling: "Zhao Shicheng once praised you for your talent, which cannot be bought with money. You can repay him with your talent!"

Tang Wan smiled instantly after hearing this, but it was not a smile of joy, but a self-deprecating smile.

"Ha~ Xiao Longling, talent is hard to buy, but women themselves have no talent at all.

What you don’t know is that it is a sin for a woman to study here.

I was weak since I was a child, so I didn’t learn how to work as a female worker, but I didn’t like to read women’s books either. I read the Four Books and Five Classics written by the boy in the family with great gusto, so I didn’t have much to talk to my sisters at home when I was a child. When I grew up, I didn’t No friends.Sometimes I also think...

If I had not read books, I would not have understood the majesty of countless famous mountains and rivers. It is good to read books.

But if I hadn’t read books, I wouldn’t have had so many absurd ideas, and I would have been able to enjoy the glory and wealth of being a Zhao family peacefully. I wasn’t good at reading.

If I haven't read books, I don't know the truth. If I don't know the truth, I can't distinguish right from wrong. Reading is good.

But if I haven't read a book and only care about food and clothing, fine clothes, and dazzling jewelry for a day, then my worries about the country will fade away, my depression will be lighter, and my life will be easier, but I will not be able to study well.

After going back and forth like this, I can only get more and more angry, angry that I have read so many books before I can quarrel with myself. "

Long Ling... didn't know why, but felt a little stuck in his heart, "I don't know how to persuade you if you are like this. I always feel that you can see clearly if you think too much, but it is because you can see too clearly that your heart disease cannot be cured. , then what should we do now? Since you can't let go of Zhao Shicheng, you can only let go of Lu You, but with your temperament, how can you let go of Lu You? In the end, you will torture yourself again. "

Tang Wan's eyebrows curved: "Yes, I can't let go... Lu You, I read his poems in the first half of my life and admired his talent. Later, I married him, playing the harp and the harp in harmony, reciting poems and painting, and picking chrysanthemums for pillows in spring. ...Why don't you miss me? After all, separation is not what I want. I have always been sent by others...

When I got married to my husband, I was ready to cut off the relationship. Years of calligraphy and painting were burned into the brazier, and the jade hairpin that promised me love was broken into pieces. Over the years, I have managed not to think about it. Go and think about it, after all, I am already the wife of the Zhao family, so how can I have two promises?

Moreover, since I married into the Zhao Mansion, my life has always been better than that in the Lu Mansion. My mistress doesn’t care about me and my husband loves me, but... the world is full of troubles. I saw Lu Lang in the garden today, and all the past things came to mind. How could I not make waves? ah. "

Tang Wan never dared to have that treasonous thought... There is a way to have both peace and security in the world.

"You... want freedom but also want to repay your kindness. You can't let go of Zhao Shicheng who brings you joy, nor can you let go of Lu You who loves you. You are trapped in it but you don't want to save yourself. You would rather waste this life. I don't know how to help. You, I can only help you ask yourself, can you...can you let it go?"

Tang Wan smiled: "I can't let it go. I can't get what I want. How can I not feel resentment when I don't get it? And resentment breeds hatred, but hatred can't be used on others. My parents gave birth to me, and my husband loves me." , I am the only one who is easy to bully, so I can only torture myself, hating that I cannot be divided into two by a knife and an ax. One part can fulfill Zhao Shicheng’s long-term friendship, and the other part can fulfill Lu You’s young love. If there are still some scraps, I would also like this Debris can help me move across the mountains and rivers, and go to the border to protect my country.

Miss Long Ling, if there is an afterlife, I want to be a man. Even if the world is difficult, I will be freer than now. Even if I die, I will have no regrets. "

The stars in Tang Wan's eyes dimmed as she spoke. Her emotions could never hurt others, she could only hurt herself. The more depressed she became, the more her heart disease became worse. After thinking and worrying too much, she was exhausted physically and mentally, and the only option was death. Relieved of trouble.

"Don't be like this..." Tears welled up in Long Ling's eyes.

Tang Wan made a joke: "My husband told me that Mr. Nancy is an immortal who came to the world. Miss Long Ling, can you seek a piece of immortal magic for me? Divide Tang Wan into three parts and give one to Lu Lang. Give one person to your husband, and leave the lucky one to sleep quietly, ignoring the worldly affairs."

Long Ling heard the faint wish for death in Tang Wan's tone, and for some reason he felt angry in his heart. Even his tone contained two or three emotions.

"Why do you insist on using Tang Wan to repay your friendship? Even if you want to, you can't divide yourself in half to satisfy two people. Not all feelings need to be repaid!
You can accept their feelings, but you are forced to accept the feelings they impose, so why should you reciprocate them?

If all the men in this world love you, do you want to give yourself to countless people?

You have to know how to say no!
Big deal, worst case, I'll take you away and let Lu You and Zhao Shicheng feel uncomfortable! "

Tang Wan: "Miss Long Ling, I envy you very much. You have freedom and ease that people like me who can only stay in a boudoir can't imagine. Although you stay with Mr. Nancy, you are A complete person.

But Tang Wan is not, I am a concubine. To put it more seriously, it is an object sold by the Tang family to the Zhao family. There cannot be any violation of an object, even if Zhao Shicheng doesn't care, but!The Zhao family is behind him.

Tang Wan has no choice but to stay here in order to repay the kindness of her parents. Even if she is not a parent, she still has to think about how the Tang family will cope with the birth of a rebellious daughter. "

"You... how can you be happy if you look down on yourself so much?"

"Long Ling, I am very grateful that you listen to me."

"I'm just talking to you, but you have to be grateful. You... are always grateful to others. Even a small favor is more important than the sky. Can you look at yourself first and take care of yourself first? Your health is getting worse. Nancy said…”

Long Ling pursed her lips, wondering whether to tell her this. During today's visit to the park, Nancy told her personally that Logan's body could not hold on for long.

Because of this, she planned to keep lobbying Tang Wan to leave the Zhao Mansion with her and go somewhere else to relax.

"Logan, come with me. I can take you to the famous mountains and rivers you want to see, and to the border crossings you want to see. Don't think too much."

Tang Wan still refused: "I already owe a debt of gratitude, and there is nothing Tang Wan can do to repay Miss Long Ling."

"I don't need your reward, I just want you to be happy." It would be nice to be happy for the rest of my life.

"Hahaha, thank you very much."

"You! What! Why don't you listen? You know your own body well. If you stay here, you don't have much time left. Do you have to waste yourself to death here?"

"It seems that nothing can be hidden from the immortal," Tang Wan stood up and walked to the window sill. A bright moon hung high in the sky. It has not changed since ancient times, but people are different. Life is short. The person who can drink and talk happily today may be the same person tomorrow. As a solitary grave, for Tang Wan, her life has already come to an end in sight, "Miss Long Ling, can you tell me, can I still see spring flowers, summer rain, autumn harvest, and winter storage?"

"If you stay here, if you stay the same, you won't see anything!"

Because after death, all the temperature will leave with death, and all the colors will turn into dust and dissipate...

Death is so unreasonable.