first player

Chapter 682 Chapter 680 "She won't move anymore."

"Boom", a sound.

A wooden coffin wrapped with white roses was unloaded from a truck.Su Mingan did not open the coffin, he knew who was lying inside.

He glanced at the system time.

Current time, 7:45 am.

Her death time was before 1:40 am.

It is said that she was killed by a cannonball. Her shoulders and arms were not connected together, and her whole body was covered with blood. A teammate was crushed under her body, and she tried to protect the other before she died.

However, no one survived.She didn't want him to see her bloody.

A few soldiers on the side stood silently, and someone said "please forgive me".

However, no one can make the girl in the coffin stand up except "please forgive me".

Her blue lightsaber was in the hands of an accompanying soldier, the blade was like a transparent glass pillar, or like a long tube of crystal, very beautiful, like her always clear eyes.

A black card and a lightsaber seemed to be all she left behind.No one knows that she is a traveler in different worlds, no one knows that she is a girl who likes to eat chocolate, no one knows that she has all kinds of game whimsy in her mind.All she left behind was a shattered corpse with half a blood-stained youthful face, no different from anyone else who died on the battlefield.

That girl with a chocolate bar in her mouth and a cat ear hat suddenly turned into a cold coffin.

She can't speak anymore.

It won't move either.

【...Ming An, I can be like this now.Arrive at each dungeon in advance, and pave all the roads for you in advance... I will help you better and help you achieve anything. 】

[It can help you. 】

[I am very happy. 】

……

【——Did I help you this time? 】

……

Su Mingan stared at the white rose in the coffin.

The hot air floating in the cold weather lingered on the side of his face, and he raised his eyelids, watching the white air swirl and dissipate, as if he was frozen in place.

He is so far away at this moment, like a fragile dream.

Soon, he dropped his eyes to the ground, raised them unconsciously, and looked at the coffin silently, even the expression in his eyes was trembling.

Su Lin also looked at Su Mingan silently.There were cars passing by on the street, and someone was staring at this side curiously, and quickly looked away when they saw the coffin.

No one dared to disturb them.

The sky was covered with heavy snow, and the white rose was covered with a layer of frost. Su Mingan's eyes were silently condensed and frozen just like the white rose.

Rationality supports sensibility, and sensibility provides the basis for rationality. They are not incompatible. Su Lin believes that Su Mingan is a person with high rationality and high sensibility at the same time.Sometimes, Su Mingan's high rationality will suppress his high sensibility for a long time, and sometimes, his suppressed high sensibility will burst out uncontrollably.

— as it is now.

It is impossible for a person to remain normal after being subjected to inhuman stress for too long.Su Mingan was about to collapse a long time ago, but he still didn't realize it, and even felt that he was a normal person.

——How could there be normal people in the world game.

Only lunatics can adapt to such a crazy world. Seemingly normal people are the craziest existences in this game. Their madness goes hand in hand with their disguise, and this terrifying mask is where their madness lies.

Su Rin stared at Su Mingan, observed the slowly changing expression on his face, and suddenly saw Su Mingan raised his hand——

The finger was facing the temple, and the fingertips were pitch black.

With a "snap", Su Rin forcibly interrupted Su Mingan's movements, and tightly grasped Su Mingan's wrist.

"——Are you going to commit suicide?? How could you commit suicide?" Su Rin questioned, his fingers trembling in disbelief.

But Su Mingan raised his eyelids, his expression still calm.

This calmness shocked Su Rin even more. Su Rin felt absurdly that Su Mingan seemed to be rational enough to want to commit suicide.

……how can that be?

"Su Ming'an! You are going to die, what will happen to this world? What about Zhai Xing humans? Have you thought about what you will suffer after you die? The doorkey army of the god camp killed her, and Edward and others intervened in it. Don't you Are you going to take care of it?" Su Rin asked.

No one can imagine how the world will change drastically if the "first player" fails.

At that time, Lin Jiang failed in the Sixth World. According to statistics, more than three digits of people went offline to mock her, insult her, and launch terrorist attacks on her. The number of insulting posts on the forum exceeded five digits.Many people used the worst words to describe her wrong behavior at that time, saying that she would not die if she did what she did.

Although there is no shortage of people in this world who send warmth to Lin Jiang, some people even built a small tall building with seven-figure cheering posts.But just the disgusting hundreds of people made Lin Jiang almost suffer from depression.

Due to survivorship bias, it is always easy to see villains, even though there are far fewer villains than good people.Lin Jiang is still only a top player, and he has fallen into this situation.If it was Su Mingan...

Behind him is the abyss.

If Su Mingan died in the dungeon, what he suffered would be more terrifying than his real death.Accused by thousands of people, cast aside by all people, being thrown into trouble, stigmatized as a hero, blasting offline... All kinds of vicious encounters will befall him.

Not to mention he committed suicide.This will make everyone feel that they have misjudged the man, and their anger and shame will completely destroy him.

——Su Mingan's life is not in his own hands at all.He is the first player, he is not qualified to commit suicide.

The soldiers at the side also surrounded him at the same time. They desperately held Su Mingan's body. In their eyes, "Asa Akto" must not commit suicide just after winning the Battle of Dawn.

"Su Ming'an, are you selfish enough to be buried with her?" Su Rin said word by word, he knew that only this kind of statement could stop Su Ming'an from committing suicide: "When you die, everything will be over, what about the promise you made to me? Zhai Xing What about the humans on Earth? What about Luna who died for you? How can I go back to Playa after you die?"

"You are a selfish ghost who only has Praia in your eyes." Su Mingan suddenly said.

There wasn't even a trace of grief or anger in his voice.

Su Lin smiled angrily:
"You're right, and I'd rather you see only your world. You're young, and suicide is a stupid thing. I'm older than you, and I know you'll regret it all your life because of impulse. One person's sacrifice It's normal here, your journey is just beginning!"

He squeezed Su Mingan's hand tightly.

The wind and snow enveloped their hair, no one dared to come over to hold an umbrella, and a layer of wet snow fell on Su Mingan's shoulders.

“[Normal], should not be seen as [normal].”

Su Mingan said something in a low voice.

Just as Su Rin was about to continue persuading, she suddenly saw Su Mingan raise her head.

The jet-black hair sticks to his forehead, and those eyes are like the noisy sea wind and tide.

"I'm a human, Su Rin!" Su Ming'an's eyes were red and bloodshot: "I'm not... a clearance machine."

Su Mingan's gaze was as sharp as a blade.

Su Rin's hand loosened a little.

At this moment, Su Rin took a step back and stared at Su Ming'an in a daze.He suddenly felt a sense of disobedience.

It seems that Su Mingan's state should not be like this.Everything Su Mingan showed now, including his demeanor, movements, and words... made him feel out of place.

——Su Mingan... seems to be performing.

What are you doing?
Why did Su Mingan perform before he died?
A flash of light suddenly flashed in Su Rin's mind - Su Mingan is not a person who would commit suicide, it must be Su Mingan's death can save something, which makes Su Mingan want to die, only in this way is logical.

"You..." Su Lin realized that Su Mingan's "means of redemption" should not be exposed, so Su Mingan had to act as "heartbroken to the point of committing suicide" to prevent being forcibly interrupted by some unpredictable factors .

——So much so that when Su Mingan learned of Yueyue's death, his first reaction was still to perform.

What makes Su Mingan's death can save everything?
authority.

Death... authority?
Death... the authority of reincarnation?

Su Rin's eyes trembled, and in an instant, a flood of shock broke his psychological defense.

——Is Su Mingan still human?

He thought that he had gradually seen through Su Mingan, a traveler from another world. He treated Su Mingan as an elder, and wanted to help this 19-year-old youth go on, but he never thought that one day he would be calmed down by Su Mingan like a god. Shocked.

Even before Su Mingan died, in order to ensure that the death would not be interrupted, he could still perform calmly under extreme pain.

...How strong is his heart?
Su Lin let go of her hand.

He couldn't speak a word.He couldn't take his eyes off Su Mingan's bloodshot eyes. In those eyes, he saw the tombstones lined up in layers, and saw the long river of memories gathered by countless timelines.

The young man in front of him weaves a cage of camouflage with resilience, turning his self-expression into a butterfly dancing in the cage, and turning his independent suffering into a beautiful performance.

No one can understand this beautiful scene. Everyone's eyes are superficial, and they only see the arrogance and success of the performers.See him high above, see him smooth sailing, see him invincible and unstoppable, see him as omniscient and omnipotent and the drama will never end.Called "The First Player", it is a delicate and grand drama that is popular with the public, and everyone is amazed and happy to see it.

And behind the scenes, in the corners where the light can't reach, on other abandoned stages, the performers tore the costumes stuck in their flesh and blood, and stepped on their own piles of bones.

...he was only 19 years old.

Su Rin suddenly understood——Su Mingan must have experienced such profound despair and failure countless times before he could calm down enough to think about how to start all over again.

His ideals are far from being described as "magnificent" or "horrific".

"Cluster" sounded lightly.

Su Mingan pushed away the soldiers who blocked him, and put his finger on his temple without hindrance.

Bright red blood flowed down. Amidst the exclamation of the soldiers, Su Rin saw Su Mingan's expression, tired, sad, and determined.Su Mingan's calmness was incompatible with everyone's grief, and death didn't even bring him too much pain.

"You are too tired." Su Rin said.

No matter standing on the stage, in the eyes of everyone, it seems to be a dog for the organizer.Or go deep into the shadows, die again and again until you get used to it.

Su Lin supported him, the frost fell on his face, his face was as white as snow.

"...Did you see it?" Su Mingan's breath gradually dissipated.

"Ah."

"Then I'm very... happy." Su Mingan said, "Although... it's just this time."

He smiled genuinely.

Such warmth, relief, and peace of mind seemed to have found the smile of a fellow traveler, and this was the first time Su Rin saw it on his face.

Su Lin silently supported Su Mingan until the breath of youth was gone.He knew that this rescue would be very difficult, and it was almost impossible for Su Mingan in the early morning state to succeed.

However, Su Mingan's original intention to pass the level perfectly was to try his best to save everything.If it doesn't conflict with customs clearance, he will save it.

Not only Yueyue, but if it was Lu Shu and Nuoer who died, he would go to save them.Although it may take several retracements, maybe even dozens this time.But the cost of retracing is simply that he will suffer.

And the least valuable thing for him, the easiest thing to pay for, is his death and his pain.

Tretia is right, he clearly has feelings, but it seems like he has no feelings.There may be a part of the reason why he saved Yueyue. It is because she is more helpful to live, because his emotions can be more stable when she is alive. He needs information about the key to the god camp, and he needs to kill Edward completely—but so what ?

So what?

Go save her, he is human.

If he doesn't save her, he is a god.

Although his actions to save her after the performance are more like a "god" who has calmed down to the extreme, he is still human.

He is not a wise man who understands reincarnation and sees through life and death, he is just an ordinary student who is also afraid of death, and will feel desperate because of the passing of others-human beings.

It is a person who wants to recognize his behavior, but always feels hesitant.Those who don't want to lose again, but keep losing--human beings.

He empathizes with NPCs, empathizes with possessors, he uses them and deceives them, he is so cold-blooded that everything is measured by clearance percentage, and he does not change his face to the point of indifference to the sacrifice of millions of soldiers and civilians.There is no way for him to retreat, he is always alone, but he will still cry in the abandoned archive, and will struggle in the deep sea of ​​memories that others cannot see.

But he's only human.

She still has a long way to go, at least until all human beings are rescued, at least until he becomes a hero, she recalls her long and splendid journey, listening to him play the piano, until she really reaches the end of the road... that's the end.

The captain of the ship of Theseus struggled to survive in the storm, lingering in the peeping of the thunder, and in extreme pain, he dropped a heavy "anchor" in the deep sea.It may be the unceasing fetters of family affection, or the survival straw of the drowning person.

——What separates "people" from "programs" is whether they need this kind of spiritual anchor.

……

[Did I help you this time? 】

……

Su Mingan closed his eyes.

--some.

(End of this chapter)