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Chapter 1382 Chapter Thirty-Four: "Noel Akinni"

[You have obtained the Memory Lens "Goodbye, Noel."]

【Excitingness: S】

[Thrilling level: S]

[Depth: S+]

[Elements: fighting with wits, decisive killing, group portrait, anti-routine]

【Overall rating: 62】

……

The book is deep red in color, and the huge title "Noel Akinni" is clearly visible. The cursive characters are sharp and the tails are curled, like layers of golden lace.

There is a sunflower carving on the spine of the book, with pure white feathers surrounded by yellow pearls that look like a small sun.

This book is not thick, compared to Yueyue's book which is extremely thin. Noel's life was too short. He died in April at the age of 26, which was spring.

Su Mingan opened the book.

The text was concise, and most of it was things he already knew.

Noel was abandoned in his childhood and sent to a laboratory. After escaping, he was isolated because he was too smart and outstanding. Later, he was adopted by kind foster parents. When the Ferris wheel reached the bottom, he saw the bodies of his foster parents with his own eyes, and was caught again and thrown into the extremely painful hell of his childhood...

Being whipped, cut, bled...

This is what Noel said to him, "Did I have a happy childhood?"

Su Mingan flipped through the pages quickly; the pain that Noel had experienced could almost overflow from the text.

……

[“When I was a child, I often saw lavender all over the mountains. Every time I saw them, my heart felt very peaceful and my mood became better.” Noel said: “You must also see the beauty I saw in my childhood. You must also feel the warmth I felt in my childhood. I hope you can get everything you missed in your childhood.”]

[“If you are missing, I want to make you complete.”]

……

Was Noel's state of mind genuine at the time? Did he really mean what he said?

The answer should be "true".

But it was meaningless. Now, Noor Ajini was just a sunk cost for him.

Su Mingan decided not to dwell on these things anymore. It had wasted a lot of his time, and thinking about them further would only add to his troubles.

"Noel Ajinni." Su Ming'an stepped on the bright red blood and looked down with his head down.

The boy's golden hair settled in the pool of blood, wet and heavy, with each strand of hair dyed dark red, like the feathers of a dead bird.

Su Mingan squatted down and said softly:

"Noor Akinni."

In a trance, he seemed to hear Noel's reply.

……Um.

"I really want to live." said Su Mingan.

The cold corpse seemed to be responding to him.

……I know.

"I've always... really wanted to live." Su Ming'an said.

The bloodless blond head seemed to have opened its mouth and was speaking.

...Yeah. I know...I know...

"So." Su Ming'an stood up and let the boy's body drift away with the ripples of the black water, getting farther and farther away from him...

"Goodbye."

A crisp farewell.

The black water was surging, splashing against his legs and feet. He stood there, gazing into the distance.

The golden hair went farther and farther away, and gradually disappeared between the layers of bookshelves.

Until Noel's figure completely disappeared, a thought suddenly popped up in Su Mingan's mind -

——"Is this still a river that never stops flowing?"

The golden tributaries drifted away into the distance, and finally they no longer intersected.

Su Mingan quickly brushed aside these thoughts about Noel, lowered his head and quickly flipped through the book, skimming through Noel's life experience. In the past, he would definitely put himself in his friend's shoes and feel the pain he had experienced. But now, Noel's past pain, torture, and nightmares... had nothing to do with him.

He could no longer empathize with an… "enemy".

After turning to the end of "Noel Ajinni", Su Mingan saw the beginning of the eleventh world:

……

[The first moment he entered the dungeon, Noel felt an extremely obvious sense of rejection—the original owner of this body was rejecting him.]

[“My name is Phoenix, and I am an ancient mythical beast that is about to be born. You, the invader from another world, leave my body immediately!” the original owner said proudly.]

[“Ancient mythical beast?” Noel looked at the nutrient solution soaking his body: “…Aren’t you just an egg? How dare you threaten me?”]

[Noel sighed inwardly, how could he be possessed by such an identity? Even his limbs are not fully developed. His situation is really miserable. If I had known this, I might as well choose a strawberry tribe. I wonder if Su Mingan is the queen of the insect tribe or something like that. I really want to see.]

[The two sides argued for a while, and finally reached an agreement: both sides share this body. Whoever is tired will take a rest. ]

[Phoenix suggested that he could introduce the Lord of the End of All Things to Noel.]

[In the dream, Noel met the Lord of the End of All Things, and the two ate French fries together. The Lord of the End of All Things gave Noel a red blade, which was called the "IP Modification Blade". As long as he stabbed Su Mingan with this blade, Su Mingan would lose his player identity and Noel could take his place.]

[The Lord of the End of All Things tempted: "In the past, you were second. Others saw Su Mingan and rarely saw you, as if you were just a supporting role to Su Mingan. Don't you want to be the 'protagonist' for once?"]

[Noel shook his head firmly: "Although I long for a new world, I don't want to stab my best friend. I don't want this sharp blade."]

[The Lord of the End of All Things said meaningfully: "Well, this is the first time after all, so it's normal for you to refuse. However, as the number of times increases, as you understand more and more that your ideal is far away, as you become more and more desperate... you will do this sooner or later. I'm waiting for the time when you are willing to take the blade."]

[Noel said goodbye to the Lord of the End of All Things. He felt that even if he did not cooperate with the higher dimensions, he could still find a way to reach the higher dimensions.]

【He embarked on his first journey in Rowsa.】

[On the way, he met the brave robot Lan Qie, the upright and heroic knight Qian Qin, and the guardian of order Hui Bai. ]

[Under the World Tree, Noel met Su Ming'an. As a newborn of the Rin tribe, Su Ming'an enjoyed the favor and respect of the entire Luowasha. He was like a brave man, leading everyone to prepare to fight against the Lord of the End of All Things. ]

[Seeing Nuoer, Su Mingan invited him: "Nuoer, do you want to join us? It just so happens that the position of military advisor is still vacant."]

[Noel nodded: "Okay."]

【However, Noel died on the morning of the 8th day. 】

[The demonized sea angel launched a sneak attack and stabbed Noel to death in order to cut off the left and right arms of the "protagonist of Lovasa". 】

[Noel, who had not yet found the path to the higher dimension, died just like that. ]

[Su Mingan was too late to rescue, he had too many things to consider, and did not notice Noel's death immediately.]

【On the 10th day, the red sun descended. 】

……

[On the second journey, Noel discovered that he actually retained the memory of the first journey - he immediately realized that the Lord of the End of All Things had intentionally let him retain the memory.]

[He quickly went to the World Tree and informed Su Mingan: "Su Mingan, we have already reset it once. This time you must prepare for the red sun on the tenth day in advance."]

[Except for Noel, no one retained their memories, but Su Mingan believed Noel's words: "Okay, tell me in detail what happened on the first journey."]

[After discussion, the two still decided to stand on the side of the World Tree. Su Mingan used his identity as a Rin to devour infinitely and evolve continuously.]

【However, Noel still died. 】

[He died on the night of the seventh day. The Demon Mother Goddess passed by him. She only glanced at him lightly, and endless negative emotions overwhelmed Noel. Purple-black tentacles grew all over Noel's body, turning him into an indescribable tentacle body.]

[——Noel, who had not yet touched the higher dimension, could not even resist a glance from God.]

[At this time, Su Mingan was in the temple of the Dawn Mother Goddess and could not return to help. ]

【On the 10th day, the red sun descended. 】

[Sique Olivers opened the book again and started all over again. ]

……

[On the third journey, Noel still retained the memories of the first two times. ]

[The pain of his last death lingered in his heart, the pain of having tentacles growing all over his body... He definitely didn't want to experience it a second time.]

[He realized that he was the only one among 500 million players who could retain his memory.]

[He entered the dream and questioned the Lord of the End of All Things: "You have been helping me preserve my memory just to force me to betray you?"]

[The Lord of the End of All Things chewed French fries and said with a smile: "Why force me? I just want you to see the truth, to understand that even if you start over again and again, you can only be like an ant, dying powerlessly again and again."]

[“Do you feel it? That feeling of helplessness in a desperate situation. A light sword from the sea angel, a casual glance from the demon mother goddess… can kill you without a burial place.”]

[“You are not the protagonist. No adventure has befallen you, nor have any white-haired gods favored you, nor do you have any magical golden fingers. You can only create everything by yourself, and there is no shortcut. And the slightest accident will cost you your life, and completely interrupt all your careful considerations and ambitions.”]

[“Noel Akinni. Humans are so fragile.”]

[“——But now, I am your ‘golden finger’”]

[“Use me.”]

[“As long as you stab Su Ming’an once, I will help you fight back and reach a higher dimension.”]

[Noel: “…”]

[Noel: "Your fries are pretty good."]

[The Lord of the End of All Things knew that this was a rejection from Noel. He smiled softly: "Okay, you still have some stubbornness left. It doesn't matter, I will wait two or three more times and come back to you."]

[Noel: “…”]

[Noel found Su Mingan under the World Tree and told him everything. The two decided not to stand on the side of the World Tree this time, but to find the man behind the Disciple Game - Boss Rabbit.]

[Boss Rabbit happily accepted the two's joining. Before the Red Sun came, they completed the construction of the Disciple Game, which was equivalent to a small world that could help them escape the destruction of the Red Sun.]

[However, the red sun still burned the disciples' game, and all members were killed. ]

【The third journey ends here.】

……

[The fourth journey begins, Noel and Su Mingan decide to seek help from the Lord. ]

[They studied the player's data panel, reward mechanism, and task chain together, trying to avoid the Red Sun from the perspective of being independent of the player's IP... The World Master is extremely smart, and Su Mingan and the World Master gradually became friends who could talk about anything.]

[The Lord intentionally or unintentionally excluded Noel. Looking at Su Mingan and the Lord's enthusiastic communication, Noel once again felt a strange feeling.]

[——No, that’s not right.]

[——If we continue like this... can we really avoid the red sun? ]

[It seems that they have taken the wrong path, but where is the right path? Noel found that until this fourth journey, they were still in a fog and had not gotten to the truth at all.]

[——He can no longer stay with Su Mingan. ]

[It's not that he wants to give up on Su Ming'an, but he realizes that if he continues like this, he will most likely fail. As the protagonist of Luowasha, Su Ming'an has too many things to do, which makes it impossible for Su Ming'an to explore the truth freely, but Noel is different. ]

[“I’m leaving.” Noel found Su Ming’an.]

【"good."】

[The exchange between the two was brief.]

[They all knew that if Noel left to explore the truth about Rovasha, he would most likely die. But the next time the reset happened, Noel would be able to bring back important information.]

【Death is just a means for them to seek information.】

[Soon, Noel found the fun demon Casadia. ]

[In the dark castle, Noel took out a bullet and loaded it into the revolver, and said with a smile: "Casadia, I heard that you are a god who proves your truth through fun. Do you want to have some fun with me?"]