I am a god in the secret world

Chapter 99: [Appearance First] I am Really Kind

[March 2015, 10.

Thursday.

cloudy day.

Today I saw the girl who was pursuing him walking with him. It turns out she is also in this school.

She was beautiful again, tall and thin.

I tried very hard to lose weight. I didn't eat dinner for a week and only drank water, but I still gained three pounds.

The boy sitting in front of me always laughs at me for being as dark as coal. His deskmate told me not to laugh at him all the time, because what if I give birth to a daughter as dark as her in the future?
I hate them so much!!
Obviously I am just as dark!!
When I got home today, my mother said to me, "Look, your face is so dirty and covered with oil. Can't you just wash your face properly?"
I am so sad, I wash my face carefully, I don't know why it is oily, it's not that I am dirty, I am really not dirty!!

I looked at myself in the mirror today and I was so ugly. How could someone be so embarrassed? I wanted to scratch my face with a knife so that I wouldn't have to look at it anymore, but I didn't have the courage...

If, if I could become more beautiful, then would he look at me more? 】

[March 2015, 12.

Thursday.

cloudy day.

why?
My mother always tells me that I am already 116 cm tall and must lose weight and control my weight, otherwise I will regret it in the future.

Dad always asks me why I should lose weight. What’s there to be fat about? I always feel that my dad loves me very much.

But when I was soaking my feet yesterday, he saw me, and then he called my mother over with an impudent smile and asked her why her daughter's ankles were so thick.

My mother said, so I said I asked her to lose weight.

They left after talking, and I was left alone, looking down at the water.

I don't want to be so fat. I have tried very hard to lose weight, but my weight keeps increasing.

The most outrageous thing was that today, in front of so many relatives, I put my hand on the armrest of the sofa, and my father suddenly pinched the flesh on the back of my hand and lifted my hand up.

He said, look at your meat!

Everybody was laughing.

what's so funny?

It would be great if I could just cut off the excess meat with a knife!!!
I want to be beautiful, I want to be thinner, I want to be whiter! I don’t want to look like this anymore! ! ! 】

Bai Cha pursed her lips.

It seems that this diary should be related to the origin of this world.

This deformed and over-aesthetic world must have a source.

Maybe she is the owner of the diary, but is this diary directly in her hands? Does every player have it?

If that's the case...could it be Li Qianyao?
A person who never appears in real life, but everyone thinks she is a goddess.

She has the love and attention of the whole world.

So far in this copy, the clues are all too obvious.

Baicha flipped a few more pages.

[March 2016, 6.

Thursday.

cloudy day.

The college entrance examination is over, and I have been lying here for a whole day.

I must have failed the college entrance examination because I was malnourished. I finally lost weight, but my college entrance examination score was also ruined.

He must have done very well in the exams, he is always in the top 20 in the school.

I'm no longer worthy of him.

Maybe I should die.

Yes, what is the meaning of living? People like me shouldn't waste air, people like me should have died long ago, I shouldn't have been born!!!】

[March 2017, 7.

Thursday.

cloudy day.

I cut my wrists again today.

It hurts so much. I think I didn't cut deep enough. I don't have the courage to cut it again. Each cut is shallower than the last. I should change the way I die.

I wanted to live, but I had had enough.

I don’t know who posted my high school photo and a bunch of people laughed at me.

When I went out, a ten-year-old kid bumped into me. His grandmother scolded him and asked him to apologize to his aunt.

But I’m only 19. 】

[March 2018, 3.

Thursday.

cloudy day.

I went to his school and he treated me to a meal.

He was still so gentle and sunny, treating everyone equally. I wore my red coat specially, and I also put on some powder, maybe it would make me look a little whiter.

All in all everything is fine.

But I don’t know why I have diarrhea, maybe it’s because I’m too nervous.

I met his roommate on the way.

His roommate looked at me in surprise, then looked at him teasingly.

"Who is this?"

He said, “My high school classmate.”

His roommate laughed and said, "She likes you too much, doesn't she?"

He was a little embarrassed and said, "Let's go first."

As we were leaving, I heard his two roommates laughing and saying, "Fuck that girl, her face is painted like a ghost and she is so ugly."

"Can you please keep your voice down? They haven't left yet."

My stomach seems to hurt even more.

I made an excuse to him that I needed to go to the bathroom.

But I haven't brought any paper.

At that moment, I just felt that maybe I should really die.

I don't know why it's so unexpectedly calm.

There was no way I could let him continue waiting for me, so I had to hold back my nausea and found some clean paper in the trash can next to me and wiped it.

I feel like I'm becoming more and more disgusting, like garbage.

When I left, he still saw me off with a smile, and even said to me, I saw you said on your space that you hated the junior college you attended, so try your best to get a bachelor's degree and leave.

I cried for a long time after I got back.

He is so good, and I am so disgusting, so disgusting, so disgusting——】

The last few words were written with such force that they almost pierced the paper.

Turn one more page and it will be the last page.

[March 2018, 4.

Monday.

Sunny to cloudy.

I took medicine.

He should die soon.

I've never felt so relaxed.

I never have to look at my damn face again.

But...why?
Why? !

Is it my fault that I am ugly? Is it my fault that I have dark skin?
Why was I born to be laughed at? Why was I born to be pointed at?

I also want to be liked!!!

Why am I the only one who doesn't have it? Why is it so unfair?

You! All! Go! Die!! 】

The last line of words seemed to be soaked in blood.

[Ding——Congratulations on discovering an important clue. When you see the last page of the diary, be careful~]

Bai Cha pondered for two seconds and opened his phone.

The players who came to this game didn’t know who created the group.

Bai Cha took a photo of the last page of the diary and sent it to the group.

Bai Cha: "Hello, I found this diary at the bottom of my closet, but it's not from my character set. It may be an important clue. See if you have it. If not, I'll take pictures of it one by one for you."

She is so nice, sharing clues with everyone!
There was news in the group soon.

Zheng Yue: "Wow, I received a tip. It's really an important clue. I'll look for it now."

Liu Shuaicai: [Picture]
Liu Shuaicai: "I found it too and just started looking at it."

White tea: ^_^
Bai Cha: "It's okay if you can't find it. I'll send it to you."

[Is the anchor so kind? ]

Bai Cha raised her eyes.

How could that be? She just didn't want to be targeted alone.

Twenty-six people, of course we all share the same difficulties.

And...it's obvious that this clue is not hers alone, because it has nothing to do with her. The ages don't even match. When this girl was 6, she was only 2 years old. It's not her turn to bully others. Even if she skips two levels here, she can't jump up.

Why not share it and create a friendly image?

But she didn't say anything, she just smiled gently at the barrage.

White Tea: Hehe ^_^
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(End of this chapter)