Traveling through ancient times to farm and raise cubs with a golden finger

Chapter 100 Depression
Yu Xiaoxiao sighed helplessly: "Go back and have a good rest, don't think so much, the boat will be straight when it reaches the bridge.

Oh, by the way, there are still some meals in the kitchen, all made by that girl Qiuqiu, you know her craftsmanship, you go and eat some, don't you fall down again before Qingyun figured it out. "

Xu Wanrou bowed her head and agreed, then turned and went to the kitchen.

Yu Xiaoxiao then raised her voice and shouted to the inside: "Qing Yun, come and open the door for grandma, grandma has brought a bunch of things, and she just talked to your mother here for a long time, her hands are sore, hurry up Come and help grandma pick it up ~ Oops!"

Following Yu Xiaoxiao's false yell, the door was pulled open from the inside within a few seconds, and Qing Yun, who looked worried, was relieved to see the nice grandma standing up, but her face sank. .

Unhappily said: "Grandma, can you stop making fun of yourself all the time?"

Yu Xiaoxiao just smiled and listened to this, squeezed Qingyun away and entered the room, put the food away, then came over and pulled Qingyun over, pushed Qingyun to sit down, and agreed with all her mouth: "Cheng Chengcheng, this is not watching You haven't eaten or drank for two days, grandma is worried, look, grandma specially asked girl Qiuqiu to make this for you.

It's all your favorite food, why don't you try it? "

Yu Xiaoxiao's cloudy eyes stared at Qingyun expectantly, tears slowly welled up in Qingyun's eye sockets, and they kept spinning inside, but refused to let them fall.

Qing Yun wanted to smile at her grandma but couldn't. When she lowered her head, tears fell down one by one like broken pearls.

Seeing Yu Xiaoxiao's heart ached.

Qing Yun has no appetite, but looking at her old wrinkled face and her gray hair, and worrying about her own affairs, she felt very uncomfortable, and couldn't open her mouth to refuse.

Silently picked up the chopsticks, chewed and swallowed slowly.

Yu Xiaoxiao was anxious about the food, but she also knew that the child had no appetite, so it would be nice if she could eat something for her own sake.

Seeing that there was almost nothing missing after eating for a long time, Yu Xiaoxiao pretended that she was blind, and exaggeratedly praised: "Our Qingyun is so good, let's eat more, okay? It's okay if Qingyun doesn't eat these days." If I can’t come out, my grandma will be worried, and I won’t be able to eat well or sleep well..."

Qing Yun's hand holding the chopsticks paused, silently picked up the bowl and took a big mouthful of rice, stuffing it into his mouth, tears fell directly into the bowl, mixed with the rice, and was swallowed by Qing Yun.

Yu Xiaoxiao felt that she felt uncomfortable and wanted to cry. She couldn't help but want to cry. Maybe it's because she is old and her eyelids are shallow and she can't hold back her tears. She doesn't want to cry in front of her children. It will damage her glorious and tall image. .

So, Yu Xiaoxiao stood up and walked out quickly, seeming to be muttering in her mouth: "Young girl Qingyun eats so well, I'm going to see your mother, your mother is really worrying."

What Yu Xiaoxiao didn't see was that the moment she turned around, Xu Wanrou raised her head and clearly saw a tear falling from the corner of her eye.

At that moment, Qingyun's heart seemed to be torn apart, the pain was severe, grandma is such a strong person, I have never seen anyone in my life who said that she cried, but this time she actually made grandma cry for herself.

In a flash of self-blame, guilt and sadness, all kinds of emotions spread all over his body, Qing Yun couldn't bear it anymore, and cried loudly, crying hoarsely, as if he wanted to vent all the grievances and sadness in his heart.

Qing Yun was lying on the table, crying uncontrollably, but she didn't know that Yu Xiaoxiao outside the door heard the crying, and the tears that had just stopped fell down again, feeling very sad.

Xu Wanrou, who came over from the yard with food, couldn't help but stop. If she saw her face, she could see that she was crying silently.

Yu Xiaoxiao took a handkerchief to wipe away her tears, feeling helpless in her heart, what kind of thing is this? It's funny, and the corners of his mouth can't help but rise.

After tidying herself up, Yu Xiaoxiao didn't go in, but was going back to her room, when she went out, she saw Xu Wanrou standing in the middle of the yard, almost crying.

Crying all the time these days, crying all the time, I don't know where the tears come from, I am too lazy to talk about it.

After returning to the room, Yu Xiaoxiao lay on the bed and entered the space, calmed down and went to read a book.

Yu Xiaoxiao doesn't know how to deal with her emotions, it's better to change her mind first, and think about why when she calms down, otherwise she always feels that there is something wrong with her mind.

After being fascinated by the book, Yu Xiaoxiao didn't have the heart to think about other things.

The emotions gradually calmed down, and the feeling of hurting spring and autumn was gone.

And Qingyun cried a lot, the depression in his heart dissipated a lot, and there were still emotions such as sadness, but they were all within an acceptable range and could be adjusted by himself.

At this time, Yu Xiaoxiao didn't know that if it wasn't for her own mistakes, Qing Yun, the granddaughter, would have suffered from depression.

After crying, Qingyun felt hungry, felt the food was cold, and didn't need anyone to serve her, so she went to the kitchen to heat it up, and after the kitchen was full, she cleaned up the mess.

I just came to grandma's door and wanted to knock on the door to see how grandma was doing, but when I heard it was quiet inside, my raised hand didn't fall down. After hesitating for a while, I went back to my room and cleaned myself up. Clean, wiping some hot and sore eyes, I always feel a little inexplicable.

In the past two days, I have always been inexplicably feeling sad and sad, and I can't control my tears. This feeling is very strange.

She was probably tired too, she fell asleep after lying on the bed for a while, fell into a deep sleep, and had a rare good sleep.

Xu Wanrou, who had been listening to the movement, calmed down when she heard the voice, and her heart sank into her stomach. She also felt very uncomfortable these days. While worrying about her daughter, she was also afraid that her daughter would not accept her.

Dilemma, and thinking of the past, the days when I escaped from death several times, I feel even more uncomfortable...

Now that my daughter is willing to cry out loud, I don't feel so uncomfortable anymore, I just don't know how to face my daughter, will my daughter dislike me as a mother?

Thinking of my aunt's disgust for me, my brother's contempt for me, and the whispers of people around...

Xu Wanrou couldn't control her tears again.

Xu Wanrou has low self-esteem. She was suppressed and grew up, which made her sensitive and afraid of being noticed. Later, she hid her low self-esteem and showed it to others with gentleness.

During these years of living in the Shen family, maybe it was because they were too nice, maybe they were too warm, or maybe it was something else...

Xu Wanrou almost forgot about her low self-esteem, and now that person's sudden visit was like a key to unlock her dusty memory and low self-esteem.

Weakness, low self-esteem, sensitivity... Surrounding Xu Wanrou, she felt breathless all the time, as if she was drowning, while trying to save herself, but at the same time wanting to end herself so that she doesn't need to live, so tired... …

This kind of Xu Wanrou is probably the fuse that Qingyun almost became depressed after suffering a huge shock. Although Xu Wanrou hid her emotions very well, but Qingyun is her daughter, and she was with her since she was a child. be affected.

(End of this chapter)