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Chapter 144 The Ideal Savior

Gu Mian replied, "That's not necessarily true."

The driver's eyes flickered: "As a doctor, shouldn't treating patients be your duty? This is the first time I've ever seen a doctor who picks and chooses patients. Do you think there are people who don't deserve to be saved by you?"

"No," Gu Mian shook her head: "In fact, I'm just using the title of doctor now; I'm no longer a doctor in the true sense."

Lianhua Hospital was closed when he left, and he had no intention of returning to work there.

"What?" the driver asked with a smile. "Being a doctor is a good job, why did you give it up?"

Gu Mian looked up at him but didn't say anything.

The driver didn't seem to care and continued, "I once met a young man who looked about your age, um, I think he looked about the same."

"He hadn't found a suitable job in a year since graduation, and each time he quit for one excuse or another. Sometimes it was because he didn't like his colleagues, and sometimes it was because he felt the salary was too low. I once advised him that how many people in this world can find a job that completely satisfies them?"

"But he wouldn't listen. He was still determined to find a good job and thought he was just unlucky before. These young people nowadays... By the way, why don't you like being a doctor?"

"Many people envy the medical profession now. Don't you think this profession is enough for you?"

It was still very dark on the road, but Gu Mian still managed to figure out the direction. He glanced down at the map and realized they were heading towards Rong'an Residential Area.

The wind outside seemed to never stop, rubbing against the car and making a "whooshing" sound, which, if listened to carefully, sounded like a person's moan.

"It's not that I can't satisfy you," Gu Mian said, raising her head.

In fact, he was forced to resign. It's not like everyone else in the hospital was playing games while he was stuck in the hospital all by himself.

Moreover, even if they stayed at the hospital, they probably wouldn't get paid.

After much thought, Gu Mian finally came up with a more realistic explanation: "I feel that there are many more people outside the hospital who need my help."

Especially those things in the dungeon, whether they are human or ghost.

He had just wrapped several bandages around a driver whose neck was broken not long ago. I wonder if a doctor's professional skills are useful on a ghost.

"Oh--"

The driver spoke in a gentle tone.

His tone was somewhat strange, with each syllable taking several turns before finally softening and fading into the howling wind.

"So you're dissatisfied with the patients in the hospital?" the driver laughed.

In fact, he was almost always smiling, and every word he spoke carried a hint of amusement. If the driver hadn't been rather unattractive, Gu Mian might have suspected that he had undergone cosmetic surgery to make his lips curl upwards.

"You're different from the young man I was talking about earlier. He was dissatisfied with his job and his current situation, couldn't recognize his own limitations, wouldn't listen to others' advice, and had unrealistic self-confidence; he was very arrogant."

"You seem satisfied with your job compensation, but you're unhappy with your clients, your patients."

Gu Mian didn't know how he came to such a conclusion from just one sentence. This driver seemed to have a particular fondness for subjectively judging other people's thoughts.

"Because of dissatisfaction with patients, you think of helping others outside the hospital." "Hmm—I usually call people like you 'ideal saviors,' which might be a bit of an exaggeration, but it's close enough."

Gu Mian glanced down at the map again; they were still heading towards Rong'an Residential Area.

The driver then spoke:
"The 'ideal savior' describes someone like you. How to put it? Someone who thinks they are superior, who doesn't conform to worldly ways, and who always thinks they can do something for their beliefs."

"You think of yourself as a lotus flower blooming in the darkness. You're a doctor, yet you're unwilling to treat all the patients who come to the hospital. Is it because you think there are people among them who aren't worth saving?"

"You might not understand what I'm saying, so let me explain. Have you read 'The Calling'? It's a short story. If you've done any reading comprehension exercises in Chinese, you should have seen the reading comprehension section for that story."

The main character is a doctor, a doctor from Poland.

"This doctor is said to be highly skilled and ethical, and is a well-known doctor in the area."

A thief broke into his clinic in the middle of the night, fell, and broke his leg. His assistant suggested that the police be called in, but the doctor firmly stated, "No, my patients cannot leave like this."

So he set the thief's leg before handing him over to the police;
Not only that, he also treated his love rival who had cheated on him;
Later, when Germany launched World War II, and a German leader was brought to his operating table, he plunged the scalpel directly into the man's heart.
He died later.

At this point, the driver tapped the steering wheel slightly: "It seems this doctor, like you, has faith and has encountered a patient he doesn't want to treat."

Gu Mian looked at him: "I've read this story. Are you saying I'm similar to him?"

"No," the driver shook his head decisively, "far from it."

"Although I don't think this doctor who killed his own patient deserves any praise, at least he took some action, he acted with his life."
But you're different. I imagine some of your patients are people you can't stand. Maybe they were murderers, or maybe they did other bad things, so you don't want to have any contact with them at all.

I think you're overthinking it...

Gu Mian opened her mouth slightly, but seeing how enthusiastically he was talking, she didn't interrupt him.

You always feel that you should be different, that you consider yourself extremely noble.

"But you should understand that when you choose this profession, you should know your responsibilities; using money to save lives is a matter of course."

"If you feel that treating them is beneath you, then you didn't have to choose this path in the first place. I actually quite dislike people like you who seem to have some high and mighty faith, choosing this path yet walking it unwillingly."

"That's why I said you're the savior of our ideals. It seems you've always harbored ideals, yet you've had to bow to reality."

"Look, in the end you still have to fall into the secular world and work for others, right? So your faith is actually useless. Can it provide food and drink?"

There is a crossroads not far ahead.

They were still walking straight ahead, and if they continued walking straight, they would reach Rong'an Community in no time.

Gu Mian stared at the intersection ahead and said, "I need to correct you on a few points..."

"Hmm?" The driver showed an interested expression, as if he was expecting something.

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