The Magician of Clow

Chapter 457 Fangran's Diary 3 If it happens again, I will.
it snowed today.

First snow of the year.

The weather is still very cold recently, and fewer and fewer people can be seen on the street.

Maybe they all left the city.

Nothing happened at school today, it was still a peaceful day.

However, a transfer student came to the class, and this time must be because of the college entrance examination, after all, the score line here is relatively low.

It's almost the final exam, but there are more and more questions I can't do, maybe next semester I will be kicked out of the key class,
But with a year off from school and no effort,
This is of course.

If I can continue to stay here, for those who work hard every day,

Isn't it very unfair.
Hard work does not necessarily pay off, but sweat does not lie.

However, even if I'm not in the key class now, Xiaoran will be fine.

No. [-] in the class, the most important object of concern in the eyes of the teacher should not be troubled by anyone.

Although I don't know how much effort she put in to be so stupid before.

In short, it doesn't matter if I don't have it. The past two years have proved that my worries are nothing more than groundless worries.

But think about it, just to bite the other party like a mad dog when she is bullied again, and warn others like a bad person,
I'm still really stupid,

Like an idiot.
Well, just be honest with yourself in the diary.

After all,
I'm just being self-satisfied.

I thought it would reduce the guilt of the stupider thing I did before a little bit.

I thought it would protect me from my usual daily life.

I thought it would never happen again like this.
But, in fact,

I spent the three years of high school where I was silent and withdrawn, feeling like I was out of breath.

So, it turned out that my daily life
It's already broken.

(Here the handwriting trembles a bit)
I used to think that I was very good and could do many things without worrying my parents.

But actually.
Not so.

(There are traces of being wet with tears)

Not only did I not do anything that time, but I also made too many mistakes.

Grab him by the hair and kneel him down the pit of the abandoned house, no matter how much he begs for mercy.

Actually, I didn't want to be a hero!It's not protection at all!Not even for any justice!
I was just plain.
(here the diary paper is scratched by the tip of the pen)
To vent my anger and anger at myself who could only grit my teeth and cry behind the warehouse that night!
Can't wait to use my own strength to do something in a hurry!
To prove something, to tell myself that I am not so powerless, to stop thinking about Xiao Ran crying loudly in front of the hospital bed,

then
(here the scratched paper is re-flattened)
In return, it is a matter of course to pay for one's own behavior.

Everything in life has changed from what it used to be.

From the end of the one-year leave of absence, on the first day of school, I knew it from the eyes of many people looking at me
In the past, the days when I was happy every day, had nothing to worry about, and slowly worked hard to rejoice in my own growth,

Not anymore.

But maybe instead, I always felt that I hadn’t changed much before, dissatisfied with my age and greedy for the mature me,
At that time, I felt my growth very clearly.

It turns out that the seemingly monotonous and empty principles in the book are true.

It's not that you can gradually become the person you want to be by repeating day after day, but only what you have experienced,
Will it grow.
And the boy really didn't grow up slowly, the boy really grew up overnight.

Obviously, I have obtained the mature and calm self that I have always hoped for, and I can remain rational and smart in everything I encounter
why.
What I'm so envious of right now is,
What about the kid who just wanted to be a hero and worked hard every day?
It feels like I've gotten farther and farther away from him since he waved goodbye to himself.

Growth is not simply acquiring new things.
The growth turned out not to be as good as I thought.
It would be great if I could go back, it would be great if I could go back to the happy days before,

If I could continue to smile lightheartedly and happily every day, Xiao Ran would not be quiet like now, but still be as stupid as before, always lingering behind me.

If I didn't follow out that night, or if I was more greedy, if Aunt Qin didn't get sick in the first place
if
If my daily life can be done again.
I must!
I must.
(The handwriting trembles here, but I don't continue writing.)

　There was a class in the afternoon, and several classes were forced to learn about the situation and policies. I listened to the teacher talking about the Sino-US tariff war all afternoon. Today’s update should be like this. If he didn’t continue to write this chapter, I don’t think it’s necessary. Write again, he has given his answer in 18 words of Nocturne
　　
　
(End of this chapter)