The rich and powerful: don't run away from small things

It has been more than a month since I was sent to the prison. I half-stayed on the bed all day and did not talk to anyone. This is a single cell. My father spent a lot of money to find someone to communicate with. don't care anymore

The bars are cold. Although it is a relatively high-end detention center in the entire prison, I am not going to reform through labor like ordinary prisoners. The warm autumn sun shines through the window, and it seems that I can also bask in the sun in the attic of my house. I am still the old man. Situ Jing, nothing has changed

Although there is no way for outside news to reach here in time, I still heard that Situ Enterprise has been merged by Nangong Group and has become a second-rate enterprise among the many branches of Nangong Group. If I had heard this news before, I would definitely be desperate Go to Gu Yuebai, only Gu Yuebai can influence Nangong Che's decision

I can beg her, I can beg Nangong Che, but I really don’t want to think about anything now, I am no longer qualified to seek Nangong Che

In Nangong Che's heart, I am already a bad woman through and through. As for Gu Yuebai, she must also hate me to death, and I, Situ Jing, have nothing left except for leaving a sinister and vicious impression on them. Not only that, even my father has been implicated by me. The Situ Enterprise he has been proud of all his life has now been reduced to a second-rate private enterprise. He must be heartbroken!

This kind of prison life is lonely and deserted. I am alone in the warm autumn sun. No one will come to talk to me. The officers and soldiers in the detention center look at me a little strangely. Maybe they have never seen me like this. quiet prisoner

I opened the notes that my father entrusted someone to bring me. Inside, I described carefully one stroke at a time. It was a piece of paper when I was young. There are faint tears that cannot be touched between the lines, full of memories

Nangong Che, the biggest mistake in my life was meeting you and falling in love with you. If it wasn't for you, how could I, Situ Jing, have fallen into such a lost path?

If it wasn't for Gu Yuebai's appearance, maybe you and I wouldn't have come to this point. I know I was wrong. I was blinded by love. I thought that as long as I love you persistently, I will drive away all the women around you. Go, and you will be mine, what a paranoid me!

However, I never changed. At that time, I didn't realize that this kind of paranoia would pull me to the edge of sin sooner or later, and fall into the [-]th hell, never to be reborn!

But now, with the prison behind bars, and the lonely and silent prison life, I can finally open my eyes and recall the past, Nangong Che, if there is no Gu Yuebai, will you fall in love with me?

I used to be obsessed with this question more than once, but now I know, you will not love me, you will not love me who is so active towards you, Gu Yuebai wins because she is just the one you love Humanoid, just like you are to me, maybe I can’t tell you what’s good about it, but it’s irreplaceable

I hate that I didn't see this sooner, I hate myself for being so ridiculous, so humble, and so ugly that I hate myself

That day, I witnessed you seeing Gu Yuebai with disheveled clothes and explaining to you with tears on his face, I knew you were angry, and how proud I was that your anger was hidden under the cold exterior. I want Gu Yuebai to wipe away the crack in your heart, and let this seed of distrust become a gap in your heart that can never disappear

It's a pity that I didn't notice how terrible the smile I showed at that time. I didn't think that such calculations were actually refuting my heart bit by bit, but I didn't realize that I only had you in my eyes. Can have you, do not hesitate!

But I ignored your love for Gu Yuebai, and you actually believed her to be innocent!How can this be?No man can keep sober thinking that his woman is innocent when he sees a bunch of disheveled and messy photos of his woman!Nangong Che, how much do you love Gu Yuebai!

It's a pity that at that time, I didn't know how big a mistake I had made. I naively thought that as soon as Gu Yuebai disappeared, you would return to my side, but the result was completely beyond my expectation. I really can't imagine why you still love her so much after such a thing!

When I and I watched Gu Yuebai return to your side again, I was angry and sad at the same time, tossing and turning every night, Gu Yuebai was like a thorn, deeply pierced in my heart

Immediately afterwards, I framed her and beat her by all means, while I was watching in the dark, like a woman belonging to the dark, but I couldn't see my own fear, and I just beat my rival wholeheartedly, self-righteously wanting to get back my beloved man

At this moment, I knew that she was pregnant with your child, and my jealous heart was as crazy as a devil. Facing my hideous face in the bathroom, I said to myself more than once: Situ Jing!You stop!Nangong Che is not the only man in this world!I thought about giving up like this, but another voice kept urging me: Situ Jing!Without Gu Yuebai, how could Nangong Che not love you?How can you be willing!The figures of you and Gu Yuebai are both in my mind, making me crazy with jealousy

Yeah, I'm not reconciled, because I'm not reconciled, I'm stuck in my own imagination, so I'm so wrong, I sent myself to a dead end

Nangong Che, I was wrong, but can you forgive me, let me be by your side, even just looking at you, I love you, and I still love you until now, it's just that I was wrong , I was wrong in being paranoid, wrong in crazy jealousy, I remember someone once told me that the most unforceable thing in this world is love

If time can be turned back, I would like to watch you quietly, guarding the love that only belongs to me. If I can always stay rational, maybe these things will never happen, everything will still be the same, but I will destroy it all by myself Lost

Gu Yuebai, mentioning your name now, I no longer have the madness of jealousy, especially when I know that you pleaded for the judge and reduced my sentence, my feelings towards you are more complicated

I framed you, once I wanted you to leave, I wanted you to die, I know you won't forgive me, just like I won't forgive myself, I can't bear that I turned into a vicious woman

Gu Yuebai, you are lucky, you can love Nangong Che, but Nangong Che also loves you so deeply, as much as I love Nangong Che, I hate you as much, but I did not love him wrong, but I hated him I was wrong about you, the person I should hate should be myself

If you give me another chance, I don't think I will be so impulsive again, maybe I can wait for my love in a roundabout way, why should I let myself fall off the cliff like this, and there is no chance to turn back

I, Situ Jing, could have thought of a little woman in such a light and quiet way, loving Nangong Che like you, maybe he will never fall in love with me in his life, at least, I am still the daughter of Situ Enterprise, I can still be wonderful I bet my whole life on the gambling table of love, and I lost it all

do you know?How scared I was, looking back now, I have lingering fears, if I really assassinated your child, if I really destroyed you with my own hands, what would happen to me?

Death, sometimes not all, I, Situ Jing, do evil things, I am afraid that I will fall into hell, and now I have been involved so much that the entire Situ Enterprise has collapsed in my hands, even if I die, I will die

Gu Yuebai, I don't want to ask for your coolness, I know the limit of people's hearts, you will not forgive me, a woman who is full of crimes and almost killed you

Fortunately, you will never see me again, I have no freedom, no matter how happy you and Nangong Che are in the future, it has nothing to do with me

Barred windows are like yin and yang separating each other. In the narrow space, I just feel suffocated. Maybe there will be no more Situ Jing in this world.

The next day, Nangong Che and Gu Yuebai received the notebooks handed over to them by the police. The police told them: "Situ Jing committed suicide by cutting her wrists in prison, and left a suicide note. I will give you this notebook."

The police are actually a little strange. Situ Jing has been very quiet since she was imprisoned. I never expected that such a quiet prisoner would use such extreme means to commit suicide. What she used to cut her wrists turned out to be a piece of iron used to fix her notebook. piece

Nangong Che and Gu Yuebai looked at each other, and took the notebook. The notebook is moon white, with blue sky and white clouds, which makes people happy to see it

Gu Yuebai was a little uneasy, Nangong Che put his arms around her body, and said softly: "No matter what she writes in it, it has nothing to do with us, does it?"

Nangong Che opened the notebook, delicate handwriting, some tiny blood stains, spilled on the page, the color has turned brown, the notebook is full of lines, messy, but cautious

Gu Yuebai and Nangong Che looked at the content written by Situ Jing in the notebook together:

When you see this diary, there will be no Situ Jing in this world. I wrote these words quietly in prison. Maybe it’s just my regret and wishful thinking. I don’t ask for your forgiveness. I don't want to ask for unnecessary pity. If I can, I just want to atone for my sins by dying. Anyway, living in this world is meaningless.

Pages of handwriting, every line of words are telling of Situ Jing's emotional obsession with Nangong Che. It is as simple as a little girl's mind, fresh but makes people sigh

...I always inadvertently search for bits and pieces of memories, hoping that someone in this world can replace him. It took a long, long time to realize that it was just my own wishful thinking.

...The iron bars are cold, and I can't help but look at the flashy things in the world. I quietly under the warm autumn sun, there is a faint light through the window, faintly smeared in the notebook, and it is him who smudges layer by layer

Gu Yuebai sighed a little. No matter how sinister Situ Jing was, she loved Nangong Che from the bottom of her heart. It was just that she loved Nangong Che in the wrong way. From the beginning of love, she became possessive. She raised her head and met Nangong Che's affectionate look. Looking at her eyes, she silently nestled herself in his arms, how lucky they are that they love each other so much!

Nangong Che hugged Gu Yuebai tightly. It's not that he didn't have feelings for Situ Jing, but Situ Jing gradually changed. This was the result he didn't want to see

And now Situ Jing actually committed suicide, which Nangong Che never thought of, and the subtle and rich love for him recorded in the notebook she left behind, bit by bit, also made him never think of it, but it's a pity, he I only have Gu Yuebai in my heart

The words and sentences that fell in the open and in the dark, every sentence is telling her love, a notebook is quietly spread on the balcony, there is a simple sentence at the beginning, written down, it is used to forget, what a rare sentence talk