sinking in his peril

The house was very quiet, Xu Zhizhi lazily opened the door, her father was sitting on the sofa in the living room, staring at the TV in a daze, there was a strange smell in the air, he didn't go home after finishing the work, and drank outside all night , until now she was still a little dazed, choked by this strange smell, she couldn't help but sneezed and muttered something.

"Dad, what kind of perfume do you use? It smells so strong? What about them? Isn't Mom here? Are sister and Taozi Xiyao also here? Have they learned to wander outside now?" Kicking off the shoes on the call, Xu Zhizhi walked Sitting on the sofa, sticking to his father, smiling silly, staring at his father, frowning, "Dad, what's wrong with you? Why do you look at me with this expression? Is my body blooming? Didn't I just drink a little bit of wine? Hee hee, just a little bit, I promise, your daughter and I only drank a little bit!"

Bai Sen let out a long breath. He didn't know why, but he suddenly felt very failed and lonely. Last night, none of the four children were at home. Xiaoman was in the hospital. Taozi should stay with his biological father. Maybe Xi Yao Watching Xiaoman in the hospital, where is Zhizhi fooling around, only he and his wife, the wife is resting, he sat in the living room until dawn, until Zhizhi came back, he didn't move a bit, and didn't go to see himself whether his wife wakes up.

"How could this happen?" Bai Sen looked at his second daughter helplessly, "How could you guys be like this? You guys, how could you be like this!——Where have you been fooling around?! I've always been spoiled by you, always Looking at you, is this my biggest failure?!"

Xu Zhizhi still smiled silly. When she first entered the door, she was still a little sober, but when she sat down and saw her father who loved her the most, she suddenly let go of all pretense, and she was immediately drunk.However, every word of my father can be heard.

Staring at her father, Xu Zhizhi smiled foolishly, smiling with a face as bright as a flower, but suddenly burst into tears. "Dad, I have no one to accompany me, they are not here, my sister and younger brother and sister, they all have their own affairs to be busy, my sister would rather die for that kid Du Hui, Tao Zi, that hateful playboy, has a biological father Forget all of us, and the stupidest Xi Yao, falling in love with a man who is impossible to stay with forever, that man must have other women in his heart, the way he looks at Xi Yao is so clear, this is not love , just pity! I don’t know many things, but I have probably gotten along with more men than they have ever seen. They are as pitiful as me! —— I know that Lu Yurong and I will never be together again , I also know that I don't necessarily care about him so much, but, but, Dad, I just refuse to admit that I don't care!—"

Bai Sen sighed and put his arms around his daughter's shoulders.Said softly; "Emotions are sometimes inexplicable. Feelings are not just about being happy, sometimes, it is a responsibility and a necessity. When we meet someone, love is The product of getting along with each other, some love is love at first sight, and some love is love after a long time. Zhizhi, you and Lu Yurong grew up together, you grew up under his admiring eyes, and lived to the end under his pampering. He forgets you, you can't let go of him, it's the most normal, but he has almost become a part of your life, how can you be calm if you want to give up suddenly, you, I'm afraid you have fallen in love with him, but you don't know it This kind of love is a kind of familiarity, a kind of recognition, not the romantic and aesthetic you think."

Xu Zhizhi stared blankly at her father, tears kept pouring out of her eyes.

"I've been watching you grow up, I'm from here, I was young like you, loved, hated, married, had my own children, lived to this day, sometimes, people have no right to live Be free." Bai Sen sighed in his heart, he thought about it all night last night, and he figured out many things. He has been living in his own story all this time. On the surface, he seems to be a conscientious husband and father. Well, his silence has harmed the family. If he had spent more time thinking about the children, it would definitely not be like this now.

"Dad——" Xu Zhizhi felt so wronged that she just wanted to cry. Her father is old, there are many white hairs on his temples, and the wrinkles at the corners of his eyes are getting deeper and deeper. "Dad, what should I do? What should I do? I am I don't know what to do! I'm disobedient, I'm not a good girl, but you love me the most, tell me, what should I do so that he can remember me?!"

Bai Sen didn't speak, what could he say?what can be done
"Not everyone can live as they want." Yu Xueqin's voice suddenly sounded, she was still in her pajamas, her face was full of tiredness, and she must have not had a good rest last night, "I have already lost it, so I have to tell You have lost yourself, Lu Yurong has lost his memory, do you want him to die again and regain his memory, this is the way he may think of you, if you love him, you like him, you are willing to let him come again A life-and-death experience like that?"

Xu Zhizhi lowered her head and refused to speak, is she willing?Is she willing?She doesn't know, she only knows that she hopes that Lu Yurong will think of her immediately, she hopes that there will be someone like Lu Yurong before, who treats her well for no reason, guards her for no reason, the world only recognizes her as one Even if people in the world are not ashamed of her, they will not despise her.

There was no speech in the room, and it was quiet for a while.The three of them were thinking about their own thoughts, and the TV was buzzing with boredom, which further highlighted the loneliness and helplessness at this moment.

The phone rang suddenly, Yu Xueqin picked it up and asked softly, "Hello, who is it?"

"Xueqin, it's me, Mom." Madam Yu's voice sounded from the other end of the phone, with inexplicable anxiety and uneasiness in her voice, "I had a terrible nightmare last night. I dreamed that the girl Xiyao told me Goodbye, she said she was leaving and would never come back, did something happen to her? Didn't she get married? Did she have a falling out with Sima? Or was it just me having a boring nightmare? "

"Xiyao?" Yu Xueqin was stunned, glanced at her husband, hesitated, and said softly, "Mom, it's okay, Xiyao is okay, she didn't go home last night, maybe she was with Taozi, or maybe Married to Sangyue, her father said that she called last night and said that she would not come for the time being because of something, and it will be fine. She is the most obedient, the most obedient, and will not be willful. No matter what the problem is, I won't be too stupid to think about it."

"Really?" Mrs. Yu's voice sounded a little hesitant, she paused, and continued, "I called her cell phone, but no one answered, and no one answered Tao Zi's phone, I was just worried, if she came back, Remember to ask her to call me back, or come and see me, and tell her that grandma is most worried about her, and for some reason, whenever grandma thinks of her, she feels sad."

"Okay, Mom, I see. If it's okay, I'll hang up." Yu Xueqin hung up the phone, looked at her husband, and said softly, "Mom said she was very worried about Xi Yao, and she was afraid that she would miss her. Are you okay with Sima? They seem to have had a quarrel a few days ago, I don’t know what’s going on now?”

"It should be fine." Bai Sen sighed in his heart, what happened to these children?How did it become like this?" She called last night, saying that because of some things to deal with, she decided not to go home at night. With Sima by her side, it should be fine. Both of them are young and have just stepped into reality. It doesn't matter if we get into trouble, maybe we get angry at this moment, but we will reconcile as before at the next point, we still don't want to trouble ourselves."

Yu Xueqin sighed, sat down on the sofa, and was in a daze.It took a long time before he uttered softly, "What's wrong with our family? Why is it like this?"

In the old site, everyone held their breath, and the whole old site was so quiet that the sound of a heartbeat could be heard, but, apart from the sound of the wind and the faint sound of rain, there seemed to be no other sounds here.

Bai Xiyao's eyes were closed, she didn't expect, she didn't dare to expect casually, if Cong Yier was there, would she appear?Will she show up again for Sima?After thousands of years, can love still exist?Or is she just a kind of soul?Can only convey a certain message?
It seems that the sound of wind and rain is becoming more and more obvious, it seems that there is some noise, it seems that someone is talking, it seems that there is a certain feeling rising in front of my eyes.

"Do you really want to do this?" A voice sounded softly.

Bai Xiyao was taken aback, and subconsciously blurted out: "Yes, this is the only choice. Only in this way can Sima be happy."

Tao Zi was taken aback, Professor Ouyang's first reaction was to look around immediately, but there was nothing in sight.

Although Bai Xiyao had her eyes closed, her tone seemed to be talking to someone. Although she couldn't hear what the other party said clearly, she could clearly hear what Bai Xiyao was saying.

Only Ouyang Qing's expression is sad, Sima!It was the only choice in her mind.

"Xiyao—" Professor Ouyang looked at Bai Xiyao.

"Professor, let's not disturb her. At this time, she is the only one who has an inexplicable connection with this old site. If we wake her up at this time, it may hurt her." Tao Zi immediately stopped Professor Ouyang.

"But in this way, you have to give up yourself. In this way, give up the current peaceful life and fall into chaos again, do you really think it's worth it? It's hard to leave, hard to forget, but you have to think about it and face it again. Are you really ready?" The voice whispered in Bai Xiyao's ear.

"It's worth it, as long as Sima can be happy, as long as he can live a happy life again, I can give up everything without any scruples." Bai Xiyao replied seriously, in the space that appeared in her eyes, in her closed eyes, Nothing exists.Only the cold air swam around her.

"She can really do it, she can talk to people in this old site." Professor Ouyang murmured, "Maybe she can also help us unravel the mystery of this dynasty, and let me know what kind of past this is in my lifetime .”

Like a mirror, Bai Xiyao slowly opened her eyes, and saw a strange woman in the mirror, with a delicate face and tears in her eyes.It's just that it looks a little familiar, as if I've seen it somewhere before, is it that painting?Bai Xiyao frowned slightly, thinking.

"How can I get you back?" Bai Xiyao murmured.

No one answered her question, and everyone in the room heard her question, but did not hear any answer.

Bai Xiyao stretched out her hand and gently stroked the front. The face in the mirror was delicate and sad. She was dressed in red makeup, festive and brilliant, but she couldn't hide the helplessness in her eyes, the vague voice, noisy and chaotic, and the blood on her chest. The front kept popping up, but she only held one person's hand tightly, looking at it reluctantly, and heard a voice: "Forget me, I forget you too, we will never meet again, okay?"

"No, absolutely not." It was Sima Yixuan's anxious voice, he held it tightly and looked at the woman in front of him, "You can't forget me, and I will never forget you!"

"It's better to forget, forget, there will be no more past, no more encounters." Cong Yi'er in red smiled wearily, and murmured wearily, "I'm tired, Yixuan, I'm tired, Tired - we can never love each other well and simply, then don't meet, we forget each other in the world, the best, I promise I will forget you."

The voice was so low that it could not be heard at all, and all the words became blurred in Sima Yixuan's tears.Everything, in Cong Yier's slowly closing eyes, turned into smoke and dust.

Forget, she wants to forget him, is she unwilling to come back?