Madam's black history was picked up

Liu Feng recalled the unbearable past, with a painful and bewildered look on his face.

Xiao Mo patted Liu Feng's back lightly, his voice was magnetic and gentle: "The past has gone away from you, now you are free, no one can hurt you, and now no one will force you to be your Unwilling."

"Now, you are a beautiful and bright little flower outside."

Liu Feng looked up at Xiao Mo's bright eyes, there was no contempt, no disgust, no ridicule, and there was respect and equality that she had never imagined before.

She never thought she was beautiful, she always felt that the dirty and ugly beggar in the past was her real self, and now she is just wearing a clean and beautiful skin.

As long as this skin is uncovered, the dirty and dirty self will emerge, so many times, Liu Feng dare not scrub her body vigorously when taking a bath, she is afraid that the skin will be damaged by washing , revealing the original self.

But sometimes, she scrubs her body vigorously again, she wants to wash off this skin and become her real self, she hates hypocrisy, she likes truth, she doesn't want to live in a skin all the time.

Because she felt that she could feel at ease only by being her true self. Although that kind of self was unbearable, she could only feel at ease in that way.

Liu Feng always felt that her current life was a dream, and when she woke up from the dream, she still had nothing, and she was still a disgusting and despised beggar.

Liu Feng was conflicted in her heart. She didn't know what was wrong with her. At the beginning, she thought she was finally out of the sea of ​​suffering, so excited that she couldn't sleep. She was full of gratitude for her new life.

But later, she showed love to Si Tianchen time and time again, but was mercilessly rejected by Si Tianchen, and blatantly ridiculed by the women in the base.

Even at that time Liu Feng didn't think there was anything wrong with what she did, until one time when she was in the bathroom of the base and was about to come out, she heard a few women talking about her at the sink outside.

"Hehe, you said that Liu Feng really doesn't know how ugly she is, she doesn't know how to look good, she was just a smelly beggar before, if she hadn't met Uncle Liang, what kind of life she would be living now. "

"That's right, she still wants to be the young master's woman right now, hehe, she doesn't even take a pee to take care of herself."

"That's right, you said that apart from being a bit pretty, she is not worthy of the young master. It's like a toad wanting to eat swan meat."

An ordinary-looking woman curled her lips in disdain: "Maybe her face is not her own, maybe it was made after some celebrity."

"It's possible." Several women nodded in agreement.

"If you tear off her face, maybe she will still be that dirty and smelly beggar."

"Hehe..." Several women walked out of the toilet with a smile.

Liu Feng stood in the toilet all the time, and involuntarily reached out to caress her face. She looked down at the wastebasket next to the toilet, and smiled bitterly in her heart.

"Maybe the dirty toilet is the place I should stay, just like now, I can only hide in the toilet and dare not come out."

"Maybe the outside world is just a dream of mine. When I wake up from the dream, I am nothing and have nothing."

After that day, Liu Feng often dreamed that she became a beggar again, and she was forced to beg in the crowd, try porcelain on the road, and was even forced to sell it.

She often woke up to the sound of swearing and laughter or a severe beating. After waking up, she was always sweating and her heart was beating wildly.

At that time, Liu Feng would hug her knees and sit curled up in the corner of the bed until dawn. Sometimes she couldn't tell whether she was awake or dreaming.

She also often couldn't tell whether she was the clean and beautiful one, or the dirty and smelly beggar was her.

Liu Feng has been struggling painfully in this contradiction.

In fact, Liu Feng knew that she must have a psychological problem, because she herself is a medical student. Although the discipline is different, she also knows a little bit.

So she kept looking for things to do, and didn't dare to stop herself. She tried to use this method to divert her attention. Liu Feng hid her heart very well, so no one noticed anything unusual about her.

But today Xiao Mo's "cage" opened her closed heart completely, Liu Feng had to admit that she was sick, and it was very serious, like an inflamed abscess on her body.

She tried to cover it with a piece of cloth, but it couldn't be covered.She was scared and desperate, and there was no end to such days.

Xiao Mo has been observing Liu Feng, who is frowning tightly. Ever since he said "cage", she has been short of breath and her muscles tense.

Xiao Mo saw anxiety, fear, depression, sadness and even despair from Liu Feng's expression.Analyzing Liu Feng's performance from a psychological point of view, it is very likely that she has a psychological crisis.

Psychological crisis refers to the serious imbalance of the psychological state, the intense conflicts in the heart are difficult to resolve, and it can also refer to the occurrence of psychological obstacles.

When a person encounters a major problem or a huge change in his life, which makes people feel difficult to solve and grasp, the balance in his heart will be broken, and his normal life will be disturbed.

At this time, the inner tension will continue to accumulate, and then people will be at a loss, and even their thinking and behavior will be disordered, and then they will enter a state of imbalance.

This state is a state of crisis, and the reason for this state is mostly because what he realizes has exceeded his ability to cope.

But this incident is not necessarily what he has personally experienced. To put it bluntly, he imagined it.

When a person has a psychological crisis, the person concerned may be aware of it in time, or may not be aware of it. This crisis state generally lasts for six to eight weeks, or even longer.

And this kind of crisis has different degrees of performance no matter in physiology, emotion, cognition and behavior.

Xiao Mo could tell from Liu Feng's slightly pale face and slightly black eye circles that she should often suffer from insomnia and nightmares, which are physiological manifestations.

During the time he was in contact with Liu Feng, he could feel that Liu Feng was often easily angry, inexplicably angry, often irritable, and she was also overly sensitive and overly vigilant.

She couldn't relax herself, even though they were playing a game now, Liu Feng couldn't relax and play it as a game, she was completing it as a task, this was her emotional expression.

In terms of cognition, Liu Feng couldn't concentrate, and her efficiency was virtually reduced. Forgetfulness was also an obvious manifestation. She couldn't move her mind away from the crisis.

Her behavior is also obvious, she doesn't like to make friends, she always stays alone, she blames herself easily, and doesn't trust others.

These are some manifestations of her psychological crisis.

From Liu Feng's various behaviors, Xiao Mo judged that her current reaction to the psychological crisis should have reached the third stage of "resolution period", but it seems that the effect is not obvious, but has a tendency to aggravate.

People's psychological reactions to crises typically go through four distinct stages.

The first is the shock period, when the parties realize that they have such a psychological crisis, they will be shocked, panicked, and at a loss.

The second is the prevention period. The person concerned is trying to restore his psychological balance, but he doesn't know how to do it.

The third is the resolution period. The parties will actively adopt various methods to accept the reality and try to solve the problem.

The last is the growth period, because the parties have already experienced the crisis and have certain coping skills.

However, if effective coping methods are not adopted during the resolution period, various psychologically unhealthy behaviors will appear in the later stage.

If the psychological crisis lasts too strong and lasts too long, the person's immunity will not only be weakened, but some irrational behaviors will also appear.

If Liu Feng continues in this crisis state, it will damage her health at least, and she may have aggressive behavior and mental damage at worst.

But no matter what state Liu Feng appears in, Xiao Mo doesn't want to see it.

Xiao Mo held Liu Feng's shoulders and looked into her eyes seriously.

"Liu Feng, I want to tell you something. After I finish speaking, you may be angry. Maybe you won't believe me. You think I'm scaremongering. But no matter what, I want you to listen to me."

"Please also believe me, I hope you are well, and I think everyone who cares about you also wishes you well, so please listen to me patiently, okay?"

Liu Feng looked at the serious Xiao Mo, there was a brilliance in his eyes that made people want to trust him without hesitation, so Liu Feng nodded inexplicably.

Xiao Mo smiled gently. From the perspective of a psychiatrist, he explained the meaning of psychological crisis to Liu Feng, and the harm of not treating it in time after suffering from it.

Liu Feng was shocked after hearing this, especially after Xiao Mo finished talking about his reaction to the psychological crisis, she admired Xiao Mo's professionalism even more.

Because she has all the symptoms that Xiao Mo said, which is even more accurate than what the fortune teller said.

"So you must receive treatment now, otherwise you are very likely to suffer from mental illness."

Liu Feng was unhappy when he heard this, and his face turned cold immediately.

"How can it be so serious, do psychologists like to make a fuss so much?"

Xiao Mo saw that Liu Feng didn't believe him, and he didn't continue to talk to Liu Feng about those profound and incomprehensible professional knowledge, but looked at Liu Feng calmly.

"Have you ever seen a movie called Ghost Space?"

"Ghost space?"

"Yes, it was a movie based on real events, and it caused quite a stir after it was released."

Liu Feng shook his head: "I haven't seen it."

"The movie tells the story of a sophomore boy who was constantly bullied by his classmates at school. Because of his withdrawn personality, he didn't tell anyone about it."

"Slowly, he developed a psychological crisis. He often dreamed that he beat his classmates who bullied him to the ground, and ran away with his head in his arms. He began to like the feeling of dreaming."

Xiao Mo's voice was gentle and full of magnetism. Liu Feng listened quietly, but the hands on both sides were tightly clenched.

"He felt that he was a real warrior only in his dreams. As time passed, he began to be confused whether he was in a dream or in real life."

"One day, he was dragged to the balcony by four male classmates. Several male classmates smiled and prepared to take off his pants. At this time, he subconsciously touched his waist as if in a dream."

"Because in the dream, he had a knife at his waist. Whenever he was bullied, he would draw out the knife at his waist and stab the bully beyond recognition."

"When his hand touched his waist, there was really a knife pinned there. He was overjoyed, thinking that he was dreaming, so he pulled out the knife from his waist and stabbed wildly at the few bullies. classmate."

"Several classmates in front of him reacted exactly the same as in the dream. They were so frightened that they panicked and ran away with their heads in their hands."

"The classmate raised his head triumphantly and laughed loudly. He chased the fleeing classmate with a knife. In less than 10 minutes, he stabbed four classmates with blood holes all over their bodies. After the four of them were sent to the hospital died."