half thorns, half joy

"not like this……"

"Really. I'm like this now, and I'm not afraid of your jokes. Although I really don't want to admit it, in fact, I have always admired you, envied you, and even turned into envy of you in the end."

"Tingting..."

"I'm jealous of you. I'm jealous that you don't believe in love, and you don't want to love others, but there is a good man like Xiao Zihan who loves you with all his heart. I'm jealous that you can easily be friends with Cai Lin Cai Jinyu. I'm jealous of your talent. I'm jealous of you. Everything." Huang Tingting burst into tears, she looked up, letting the tears evaporate in the sea breeze, "And I, deceived by the one I love, betrayed, played by Cai Jinyu, and even by that crazy woman, will not be able to conceive in this life .”

Tang Xuan sighed and took Huang Tingting's fisted hand.

"Although I'm still not reconciled to how I got to where I am today, Xuanxuan, after suffering so many losses, I finally understand a truth." Huang Tingting seemed to be smiling, but that smile Uglier than crying, it makes people feel sad when they look at it.

"A person should not covet what does not belong to her." She said it again and again, "A person who covets what does not belong to her will pay a huge price."

Perhaps it was because of the vastness and silence of the sea that gave Huang Tingting a sense of security. When she heard the sound of the waves beating against the shore, she also became sentimental.

This was her confession to Tang Xuan from the bottom of her heart after graduating from university.

Although, the confession is not thorough enough.

Suffering will make people grow, and suffering will also make people see clearly who is really good to themselves and loves them.

After going through so much, Huang Tingting saw it clearly.

Tang Xuan held Huang Tingting's hand tightly, not knowing what to say, her good friend's self-confession shocked her very much.

Although she always knew that her good friends envied her, Tang Xuan never expected that this envy would develop to such a degree that it could even change her good friend's behavior.

She didn't expect that she had so much power.

Of course, because she didn't feel how lucky she was, how worthy of the envy of others.

What people want is different from person to person, especially, people are used to loving what they don't have, while ignoring what they already have.

Tang Xuan sighed. Like Huang Tingting, she looked at the endless sea and said softly, "Actually, I used to be very envious of you."

"Ah?" These words made Huang Tingting dumbfounded.

Tang Xuan continued: "When we were in college, I really envied you. You have a happy family, parents who love you, and a cheerful personality. You don't have to think about the future, and you don't have to live carefully. You don't have to worry too much about anything."

Listening to Tang Xuan's description of herself, Huang Tingting felt that she was far, far away from her present self.

"What you have is what I don't have, so I have always envied you, and I especially envy the natural happiness in you, which is the state of a carefree person who has lived since childhood."

Having said this, Tang Xuan's heart ached.

She shook her head unbearably, holding Huang Tingting's hand tighter and tighter, and her voice choked up, "I really didn't expect that the squad leader's betrayal of you would hit you so hard and change your character. No, I should I thought, you like him so much, for so long, how could you bear this kind of thing. It's because I was too focused on my hatred for Xiao Mingyuan, and didn't care about you too much. "

After watching her good friend go astray step by step, Tang Xuan thought countless times why she became like this, why.

Tang Xuan is not a fool, nor is she brainless. She knows very well that the former Huang Tingting was not a person who was greedy for power and wealth.

Of course, everyone likes money and wants to be rich, but liking is one thing, and selling one's body and soul for these things is another.

From Tang Xuan's point of view, Huang Tingting was not that kind of person in her heart, so she couldn't understand why her best friend would change so much.

Now, she finally understood something.

The squad leader's betrayal was undoubtedly the greatest harm to Huang Tingting, and then he took her good friend over without trying to understand what was really thinking in her heart, nor did she try to stop her.

By accident, let the friend embark on such a road of no return.

After Huang Tingting was betrayed by the monitor, she never told Tang Xuan. She neither cried nor complained. She always acted strong and nothing happened.

So, Tang Xuan really thought that nothing happened.

In fact, it is not nothing at all, but something big.

The more sunny and strong people are, the more thorough they are when they collapse.

Huang Tingting is like this.

Huang Tingting used to be passionate, sincere, unconditional, and devoted all her efforts to the person she liked, so she naturally thought that she would get the same treatment and be rewarded.

But she didn't expect that her unreserved dedication would only get her ruthless trampling.

So, her mentality changed.

It's that simple to go from sunshine to darkness.

Hearing Tang Xuan mention the man she once loved, Huang Tingting smiled and shook her head, "It's not his fault, he's just an ordinary man. Although he's really sorry for me, I can only say that I have to blame myself."

"Tingting..." Although Huang Tingting was telling the truth, as a good friend, Tang Xuan still didn't want to blame others for her mistakes.

"I'm sorry, Xuanxuan, I'm really sorry." After Huang Tingting finished speaking, she seemed to be tired, and buried her head in her arms again, and stopped talking.

Some things don't need to be exhausted.

Tang Xuan understood this principle well, so she shut her mouth in a timely manner and turned her eyes to the sea.

If you can still talk sincerely, blame yourself, and feel guilty, then this relationship has not reached the end yet.

Although heartbroken by what happened to her good friend, what made Tang Xuan happy was that Huang Tingting finally got to know herself again.

If you dare to face your unbearable self and face reality, then everything will not be difficult to change.

The two sat until the sun went down, everything around them became dark, and then the moon climbed up again.

The moonlight and the lights of the villa shone on the beach together, outlining two shallow shadows.

"Go back, you still have injuries, the night wind is cold, don't catch a cold." Tang Xuan touched Huang Tingting's cold arm and said softly.

Although Huang Tingting still wanted to sit down, she was indeed tired after sitting for several hours, so she got up and went back to the villa with Tang Xuan.

Back at the villa, Cai Lin greeted Tang Xuan and told Tang Xuan that Xiao Yuebai and the baby had dinner and played for a while, and they had already fallen asleep.

Tang Xuan said she understood, and brought Huang Tingting into the dining room. The two of them ate some supper quietly, and she sent Huang Tingting back to the bedroom.

There were already too many conversations on the beach, and although the two of them were much closer at the moment, they were relatively silent, and there was no need to deliberately say anything.

After giving Huang Tingting a few words of advice, Tang Xuan left, leaving Huang Tingting to rest alone.

Cai Lin waited in the living room and did not go to sleep. Seeing Tang Xuan come out of Huang Tingting's bedroom, she immediately signaled for Tang Xuan to come over.

Tang Xuan understood and walked over.

"Sister, is she okay?" Cai Lin asked in a low voice.

Tang Xuan nodded, "It should be fine. She talked to me a lot earlier, and it seems that she has understood a lot. She is much better than before."

"That's good. I'm still worried that she won't be able to think about it." Cai Lin stuck out her tongue, "I inquired about it today, and she was almost killed by Mr. Fatty's wife. I was shocked when I heard it."

Tang Xuan frowned, "Where did you hear that?"

Cai Lin: "As far as the sisters I know, Huang Tingting used to be a mistress for old men. The circle of rich people is very small, so you can find out just by asking."

These words are not false at all, not to mention the explosive gossip like the mistress being beaten, even ordinary family quarrels are always very popular in small circles.

After all, everyone likes to read the gossip about rich people and their lives, and always feel that their lives are much more exciting than their own.

Seeing that Tang Xuan didn't speak, Cai Lin asked again, "Sister, has she figured it out? After suffering such a big loss this time, will she turn her back on her ways and stop doing that kind of thing?"

Although Tang Xuan was a little uncomfortable with Cai Lin's words, she didn't know how to make Cai Lin correct her.

After all, in Cai Lin's eyes, Huang Tingting is a naked peripheral girl who doesn't need to be respected at all.

Yes, a person who can even sell his own dignity and soul, why should he demand the respect of others.

Only when you treat yourself as a human being can others treat you as a human being.

"It should be, I will have a good talk with her." Tang Xuan said to Cai Lin tactfully, "Tingting is my friend after all, I still don't want her to get involved in those unclean things. I am her My friend, I don't feel well when others speak badly about her. "

Cai Lin nodded half-understanding: "Sister, you are right, she has suffered a big loss now, I think she should understand that the road is not easy to walk."

"……Um."

Even though she thought so in her heart, to be honest, Tang Xuan didn't know what to do.

It's not that she doesn't want to believe Huang Tingting, but sometimes it's very difficult for a person who has changed to change back.

That's why people say that the prodigal son will not be exchanged for money when he returns.

If it was that easy, there would be no such poem.

However, even if it was very difficult, Tang Xuan was willing to believe, believing in her friends, they could definitely change.