half thorns, half joy

After Tang Xuan vented her emotions, it was already past nine o'clock in the evening when she returned home from the cemetery.

She walked downstairs in the community and looked up. The lights in the house were dark, which meant that Xiao Zihan went to Xiao's house for dinner and he hadn't come back yet.

As a big family, the Xiao family often gathers for dinner on some important days or at the end of the year. Naturally, the purpose is to get in touch with each other and increase cohesion.

Xiao Zihan had planned to bring Tang Xuan to this party, and although Tang Xuan was embarrassed, she reluctantly agreed.

It's just that no one expected that the marriage proposal in the car happened later.

Although the two people are still living under the same roof, they are tacit to each other, and some things are avoided, and this is one of them.

So Xiao Zihan didn't ask Tang Xuan any more, and went to participate by himself.

Tang Xuan stared blankly at her dark window for a while, her neck was a little sore, she walked a few steps, took advantage of the opportunity and sat down on the bench in the community, staring at the streetlights on the side of the road in a daze.

At this time, there are still many people walking around in the community, most of them are grandparents who have come back from dancing and walking in the square.

Tang Xuan sat lazily, looking at the people passing by, listening to their discussions about the next day's activities, and seeing their intimate gestures.

so good.Tang Xuan sighed deeply in her heart.

It should be the happiest thing in the world to be able to spend your old age with the one you love and grow old together.

She also wants to be like those uncles and aunts, with retirement wages, not worrying about the burden of living, not thinking about what will happen in the future, cooking, walking, dancing and dancing every day, life is simple and interesting.

pity……

No matter how beautiful Tang Xuan envisioned, she felt as uncomfortable as she felt.

Fantasy and reality have never been so merciless.

"Hey..." Tang Xuan let out a long sigh. She had just finished sighing when she saw a familiar car drive by and parked in the designated parking space.

Tang Xuan stared at the car until the car turned off, the driver's door opened, and Xiao Zihan got out.

Xiao Zihan was wearing a formal suit, and his hair was combed up meticulously. He looked as good-looking as a model in a magazine.Tang Xuan stared blankly, her mind went blank.

As if sensing Tang Xuan's gaze, Xiao Zihan glanced at Tang Xuan as he walked towards the entrance of the building, and then stopped in his tracks.

Realizing that she was spotted, Tang Xuan didn't hide and waved at Xiao Zihan.

Xiao Zihan walked up to Tang Xuan, turned his head to look at the door of the building, and asked Tang Xuan, "Why are you sitting here without the key?"

Tang Xuan shook her head, "No, I'll blow it off."

"I don't wear too much when it's blowing." Xiao Zihan complained, took off his suit jacket and put it on Tang Xuan, and then sat on the bench as well.

"It's actually not cold." Tang Xuan retorted, but she didn't refuse and smiled at Xiao Zihan.

"When you feel cold, it will be too late." Xiao Zihan replied domineeringly, relaxed his body, and leaned on the back of the bench, "Ah, I'm really exhausted tonight."

Tang Xuan heard that his voice was full of exhaustion, so she couldn't help but ask, "What's wrong?"

Xiao Zihan replied in a muffled voice: "About the matter in the group, my dad and a few uncles had a disagreement, which made the meal a mess."

Tang Xuan thought about Xiao Zihan's words, and asked calmly, "Really? What's the matter?"

"Forget about the real estate business, let's not talk about it, it's annoying to mention it." Xiao Zihan seemed really unwilling to mention it, and yawned, "Fortunately, I didn't take you tonight, the scene is really too embarrassing gone."

Mentioning this, Tang Xuan was slightly taken aback. Almost subconsciously, she touched Xiao Zihan's suit pocket.

Nothing.

The ring box, gone.

Did Xiao Zihan put it away, or did he throw it away?
Tang Xuan thought of Officer Liu's advice and what she had said in front of her cousin's tombstone this afternoon, so she became ruthless and opened her mouth.

"Zihan..."

When Xiao Zihan heard Tang Xuan call him, he closed his eyes and hummed.

Tang Xuan paused for a while, then continued, "I want to apologize to you..."

Xiao Zihan immediately opened his eyes, sat up straight, and looked at Tang Xuan suspiciously, "What do you mean by that? Why are you apologizing?"

"I was at fault in the car that day." Tang Xuan lowered her head, not daring to meet Xiao Zihan's eyes. She was afraid of looking into Xiao Zihan's eyes, and she would not be able to tell a carefully woven lie, "I was too surprised and scared at the time. That's why it was that kind of reaction, I didn't expect it, my reaction hurt our relationship."

Xiao Zihan stared at Tang Xuan blankly, without saying a word.

"Since my parents passed away, my relatives have avoided me, so these years, I have basically lived alone. I have no relatives or family members. I am used to this state."

"Marriage means starting a family, new family members and new relatives. This should be a great joy for me who has nothing, but along with the joy, I am at a loss. I am frightened and stupid. I don't know what to do at all."

Xiao Zihan frowned tightly, "Xiaoxuan..."

"So, I want to say sorry to you. You love me so much and tolerate me, but I hurt you because of my cowardice. I really blame myself."

Xiao Zihan grabbed Tang Xuan's hand, "Stop talking, it wasn't your fault, and you don't have to apologize to me, you didn't do anything wrong."

Tang Xuan raised her head and looked at Xiao Zihan with tears in her eyes, "But..."

Xiao Zihan smiled softly, "I'm a man, if I fail to propose once and never get straight, then how can I protect my beloved." He stroked the back of Tang Xuan's hand, his tone was very calm but full of affection, "I was just a little Angry and a little disappointed, but from the beginning to the end, I didn't mean to blame you."

"really?"

"Yeah." Xiao Zihan nodded heavily, and then smiled helplessly, "I originally planned to find an opportunity to tell you about this in a few days, but I didn't expect you to say it first."

Tang Xuan pursed her lips tightly and looked at Xiao Zihan without blinking.

Xiao Zihan also looked at Tang Xuan, and asked softly, "Then, are you still afraid?"

Tang Xuan paused and shook her head. "After I woke up from a faint that day, the moment I saw you in the hospital, I wasn't afraid anymore. I thought at the time, in fact, you have already become my relatives in this world."

"Xiao Xuan..." Xiao Zihan was extremely moved by Tang Xuan's words.

He was born with everything, a house, a car, status and money, and everything he needed. He couldn't put himself in the shoes of Tang Xuan to experience the suffering that Tang Xuan had endured, but he could know from getting along with Tang Xuan that it must have been very difficult.

He always thought that Tang Xuan gave him enough, but he didn't expect that he had already become Tang Xuan's world and her only bond.

This is more touching than saying I love you.

Xiao Zihan's eyes were sore, he let out a chuckle, reached into his trousers pocket with his right hand, and took out a small object.

Tang Xuan's eyes widened as she stared at the diamonds that shone with dazzling brilliance just under the dim light of the street lamps.

Xiao Zihan shook hands with Tang Xuan with one hand and held up the ring in the other. He knelt down on one knee in front of Tang Xuan, and asked with a solemn and gentle smile, "Then, Tang Xuan, will you marry me?"

"Why are you carrying it with you..." Tang Xuan murmured in disbelief.

Xiao Zihan tilted his head, "You answer my question first."

Tang Xuan was extremely embarrassed, her face turned red instantly, she lowered her head in embarrassment, and replied in a low voice, "I am willing."

"What?" Xiao Zihan deliberately pretended not to hear.

"I am willing!" Tang Xuan quickly glanced at the uncles and aunts who were walking towards this side, and pulled Xiao Zihan up, "Someone is here, get up!"

Xiao Zihan was helpless and funny, shouldn't it be a normal process, should it be moved to cry, and then stretched out his finger to let himself put the ring on?

The fact that my girlfriend has a thin skin has both advantages and disadvantages.

But no matter how helpless, what to do or what to do.

Xiao Zihan took Tang Xuan's hand and put the ring on. The size he had measured early in the morning was just right, especially for Tang Xuan's slender fingers.

"It's so beautiful." Tang Xuan stared at the ring on her finger and said with emotion from the bottom of her heart.

Xiao Zihan was complacent when he heard Tang Xuan ask again, "You haven't told me why you brought it with you, I thought...you've already lost it or disposed of it."

Xiao Zihan's face was full of black lines, such a good atmosphere, why did he have to mention the past.

But seeing Tang Xuan was really curious, he had no choice but to bite the bullet and explain, "I threw away the box, and I really couldn't bear to part with the ring...so I took it with me."

In fact, when he was sitting on the balcony smoking a cigarette that night, he kept holding the ring box in his hand, and later found out that he accidentally burned a hole in the ring box. He was busy these days and was not in the mood, so he never Go buy a new ring box.

Of course, Xiao Zihan would not tell Tang Xuan about such a shameful matter.

"Zihan, I, Axio—" Tang Xuan sneezed loudly before she could finish her sentence.

Xiao Zihan nervously pulled up the clothes covering Tang Xuan's back, "Are you catching a cold? Let's go back first."

The affectionate confession was interrupted by this accident, and Tang Xuan was too embarrassed to continue, so she nodded, got up with Xiao Zihan, and went home.

The temperature in the room is just right.

It was getting late, and they had to go to work the next day. Xiao Zihan and Tang Xuan washed up and went to bed, enjoying the sweet atmosphere together.

Xiao Zihan hugged Tang Xuan's shoulders, looked at the ceiling, and smiled to himself.

Tang Xuan was puzzled, looked up at Xiao Zihan and asked, "What are you laughing at?"

"It's nothing, I just feel very happy, very happy." Xiao Zihan raised the corners of his mouth, "Sometimes I feel that my life has really gone too smoothly. Tell me, did I do too many good things in my previous life, which is why I am so happy in this life? So smooth."

After speaking, he immediately thought of Tang Xuan, and felt that what he said was wrong. It implied that Tang Xuan had done a lot of bad things in her previous life, and that's why she lost her parents early.

But Tang Xuan didn't have the heart to think about that. She heard Xiao Zihan's words about happiness, but she didn't dare to look at the expression on Xiao Zihan's face.

She couldn't bear it.

"This season is actually quite suitable for a wedding." Xiao Zihan looked down at Tang Xuan, taking care of Tang Xuan's mood, and asked tentatively, "Is it too early for me to talk about the wedding?"

Tang Xuan could hear the cautiousness in Xiao Zihan's tone, which made her very uncomfortable.

She knew that if she said early, it would definitely spoil Xiao Zihan's interest again.

Since he was already deceiving, then let's make this beautiful dream more smooth and satisfying.

Tang Xuan closed her eyes deeply, and retreated into Xiao Zihan's arms, not sure if she was going against her will, and replied, "It's not too early, you just make a decision."

Xiao Zihan's voice was indeed full of surprise, "Really?"

Tang Xuan's heart was filled with desolation, she nodded, "Yeah."